//
always breaking, always healing
all I tried to find was meaning
fill my heart and learn to let go
sacrificing all my being 

always healing, always breaking
I’ve lost track of what my age is
in this little lifeless meadow
I thought I could bring salvation
//

Thank you everyone for your patience and support while I pour the totality of my heart and soul into creating my album; it means the world to me.

always breaking, always healing

Additional vocals contributed by the lovely @xiapng

This track has had quite the journey since it was finished back in June, but honestly, it's been a good way to wrap up the year. There were good but also disappointing circumstances. Even then, disappointments still help a person learn and grow, always giving an opportunity to flourish.

flourish (w/ xia)

here's a song that means a lot to me; a cover of a song by the first artist i've ever seen play live, james ivy ! this cover represents a lot of the trauma i had to process and my road to recovery in the past year, was super cathartic to make. let's hope this year treats us all a little nicer :)

also PLEASE check out the original and @jamesivvy 's ep, Good Grief! incredibly goated musician you should check out

james ivy - dirt (aloeveria cover)

https://defsharp.bandcamp.com/album/tides-b-sides
https://defsharp.fanlink.to/tidesB

what's the matter with you? - DJ Speedy Pete Remix

7dB - Beyond

STREAM/BUY - https://ffm.to/40fantasy
FEATURING @therobyguy

Lyrics:
Why'd you go back on an omen
Call up on a moment
You gave everything that you had
Oh, I'd want you back if you told me
We're living in a story
You gave everything that you had

If you were happy, tell me the sounds
That you heard everyday of your life
If you could dig me a hole in the ground
Something to keep us playing around and around

If you could show me who I want to be
We could tiptoe around our hearts
If you could show me who you want to see
We could skip the imaginary part

Why'd you go back on an omen
Call up on a moment
You gave everything that you had
Oh, I'd want you back if you told me
We're living in a story
You gave everything that you had

Cut ties, dead weight
Figure out
Oblivious all of the time
Show me
All the times you fell
And I think that you're my remedy
Falling back, falling back
Eyes rolling, seen it all
Miss that, miss that
Tied to an idea
'Cause I've been waiting for too long
From dawn 'til the sun will set

If you could show me who I want to be
We could tiptoe around our hearts
If you could show me who you want to see
We could skip the imaginary part

Why'd you go back on an omen
Call up on a moment
You gave everything that you had
Oh, I'd want you back if you told me
We're living in a story
You gave everything that you had
But if I told you the truth
Could I close my eyes & hear you say it too
And if you whisper "I love you"
We could skip the imaginary part

Stream

Living in a Story (ft. ROBY)

i want more than a moment.
https://soundcloud.com/alexanderpanos/sutter
https://soundcloud.com/alexanderpanos

alexander panos - sutter (edit)

stems: https://www.dropbox.com/sh/5se1u3skculeb94/AAB7svEzPSpX06tvio8V3h5_a?dl=0

lyrics:

in love with you
too much to reveal too soon
oh im such fool for you
my crush and you like me too

must act cool around you
how the fuck do i show you how
you make me feel, so good
hope you feel the same way too

hold my hand take me somewhere new
dont care where it is or what we do
let's go some place no one will find 
times up leave all of your things behind

last year i thought my life would end
life sucks sometimes but i like to pretend
im with you when i feel alone
im with you when i feel alone  yeah!

i'm with you when i feel alone x4 yeah!

hold my hand take me somewhere new
dont care where it is or what we do
let's go some place no one will find 
times up leave all of your things behind

last year i thought my life would end
life sucks sometimes but i like to pretend
im with you when i feel alone
im with you when i feel alone  yeah!

malea

BUY ON BANDCAMP

pixie <3

etheri - bloom

[ stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/etheri1/bloom-2 ]

lyrics:

walking in between
unknown trees
there’s a sense of fear
but it is kinda hopeful for me

i can’t see
with all of this haze
but i think i’ll wait
till this drifts me away

everything seems new, from this sighting
is it worthy?
i can’t understand this feeling
but it is kinda hopeful for me

bloom

"paradigm shift." was originally born out of frustration, anger, and hatred.

i was going through the worst creative burnout of my life. my surroundings filled me with dread as everything and everyone around me was seeking perfection, viewing everything analytically, and acting apathetically corporate. the people i was surrounded by demanded too much from me, expecting that i would gladly devote my body and soul to make my music "perfect" for the sake of another's ego and vision, who probably couldn't care less of other people's thoughts. i grew angry, and that bled into my music to the point that i started to hate it.

i disappeared for a week. i did nothing but sleep as my dreams felt more comforting than being awake. i socialized with no one except for cat. after a few days, i became slightly better, and i opened up fl to try to make a song. that was when i began work on "paradigm shift."

after nearly a year of sheltering within it, this song, that was originally made out of anger, morphed into a story. an epiphanous story of acceptance and peace.

"paradigm shift." is about my journey as a creative that is expected to meet the demands of what others consider "perfect." it's about my journey of realizing that i don't want nor need to be "perfect." it's about my journey of realizing that all i wish is for someone to feel something from my creations.

cat told me how this song sounds like i took my frustration and found beauty within it.
i love the sound of that.

- denis.

paradigm shift.

(Maybe I shouldn't have put this out. It's private and dark. I wrote the song as a way of coping.)

it doesn't apply to you
It's none of your concern
it doeesn't apply to us
and then suddenly it does

you read about some star
opening up 'bout her plight
you remember back far
a classmate actually died
but you're still alive
alive and well
and something as dark and blue
won't ever happen to you

your doctor tells you
she'll need to run some tests
and then she gives you the bad news
hopefully this hasn't gone too far
but surgery can't be avoided
you're going under the knife
and your ordinary life 
is going to be
turned around forever

It's not like life's unfair
it's not like the world has turned on you
it's just unreal
you're falling into a life
you know nothing about.

Just Unreal

hiii i'm emma/宋芳琳/aloe !
music enjoyer, composer, producer + multi-instrumentalist

@artbyform •  @webpage-505 • @wearesilkenwood • @ludicculture • @goophouse • @eatworms  • @ledgecollective 

inquiries: aloeveriamusic@gmail.com

(pronounced al-oh-ver-ee-ah)

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