LYRICS:
You're not the only one leaving me
My surroundings are dying as we speak
Silence follows, I'm out in the open
But the trees are all taking their clothes off
Used to be color, now the world's grey
Thinking is painful- I'm in an ominous state 

The garbage is flowing
Flooding the river
Nothing of value,
It only gets steeper
Higher up
I keep climbing a hill
My grasp is weakening
My hope is killed

Make up your mind
Winter then summer
I was your obsession
But you moved on to another
Once you have possession 
You change your mind
Only the fight’s appealing
Peace is silence
You turn up the volume
To hear the screaming
I’m begging you
Oh I’m pleading
Don’t cut me off
With razor sharp
Glances at the exit
You make your mark
Get set, cold
We’re back to winter
I had my swimsuit
But now the sun is dimmer
What glows
Past the fire in your eyes
Who knows
If your intentions are good, are right


Destructive Seasons

This is a song I wrote few years back, and I figured I would fix it up and release it just for fun on Valentine's Day. Enjoy!

Beautiful Enemy

Why are you so close to me?
why are you so close to me
your smoke rings fucking choking me 
so why ya gotta live so close to me

you've cursed the names of certain streets
I curse the place we used to meet
I'll say fuck my sentimentality
and fuck my car for the places it takes me

Why are you so close to me?
why are you so close to me
your smoke rings fucking choking me 
so why ya gotta live so close to me

I've tried to take back our soundtrack as my own
this album's mine, I've claimed it as my home
so fuck my sentimentality
and fuck obsessing over all the stupid memories

(why are you so close to me)x2

Why are you so close to me?
why are you so close to me
your smoke rings fucking choking me 
so why ya gotta live so close to me
Why are you so close to me?
why are you so close to me
your smoke rings fucking choking me 
so why ya gotta live so close to me

Why Are You So Close To Me

Collaboration with @SourceDecay, who wrote the lyrics

Lyrics:
[Verse 1 & 2]
I want to love you like you deserve
But I think I need to love me first
It sounds so simple, written down
Keeps getting harder to spell it out

I want to fill your heart all the way up
But can't pour blood from an empty cup
You say the world is red and black and white
I say one day we'll be all right

[Chorus 1]
'Cause you make me wild and free
You make me feel like me
You make me lose control
And I think you could make me whole

[Verse 3 & 4]
We're all eternal for a while
And, while we're here, I want to smile
It feels so easy in the sun
Gets so much harder on the run

I want to give you everything
But nothing good can come from nothing
You say the world's falling apart
I scream out damn it don't you start

[Chorus 2]
'Cause you make me wild and free
You make me feel like me
You make me lose control
And I think you could make me whole

[Bridge]
But even as perfect as it seems
There's something dark about our dream
I pinch myself, try to wake up
Admit it's time to fill my cup

[Chorus 3]
You make me wild and free
You make me feel like me
You make me lose control
But only I can make me whole

Make Me Whole

Monkey in the Middle

Track #008 for FAWM 2021.  A collaboration with Holly and Tomo from the excellent Santa Dharma!

Music Eternal (with Santa Dharma)

FAWM 2021 work-in-progress

inspired by ways to have fun during a pandemic and magic

Destructive Seasons

amelea