You’re telling me to face my fears.
But what if my fears are for a reason?
My fears are the things
that keep my body breathing.

New roller coaster in town
With a permanent drop off
Put my name and number on that list
I guess it’s time for take off

Reserve me a spot
In the audience
Watching a show
A narrative of everyday life
Jam packed jump scares
But fight the flinch
I’m pleading to end it
But the view is magnetic

My fear was healthy
Just an everyday habit
Keeping me from harm
Until the harm was prescribed as my medication

Inhale the smoke
Until the wolf blows
Down the house
You’ll have to join him out front

Strapped in at the dinner table
My mom tells me the chicken is a train
Choo-chew, doesn’t she remember?
I’m a vegetarian

At the latest party
And I’m surrounded by addicts
But they’re a good influence
Got me to try new things

Tell me to face my fear 
And now I’m face-to-face with fear
Tell me to face my fear 
And now I’m face-to-face with fear

Face-To-Face With Fear

This is a song I wrote few years back, and I figured I would fix it up and release it just for fun on Valentine's Day. Enjoy!

Beautiful Enemy

Why are you so close to me?
why are you so close to me
your smoke rings fucking choking me 
so why ya gotta live so close to me

you've cursed the names of certain streets
I curse the place we used to meet
I'll say fuck my sentimentality
and fuck my car for the places it takes me

Why are you so close to me?
why are you so close to me
your smoke rings fucking choking me 
so why ya gotta live so close to me

I've tried to take back our soundtrack as my own
this album's mine, I've claimed it as my home
so fuck my sentimentality
and fuck obsessing over all the stupid memories

(why are you so close to me)x2

Why are you so close to me?
why are you so close to me
your smoke rings fucking choking me 
so why ya gotta live so close to me
Why are you so close to me?
why are you so close to me
your smoke rings fucking choking me 
so why ya gotta live so close to me

Why Are You So Close To Me

Collaboration with @SourceDecay, who wrote the lyrics

Lyrics:
[Verse 1 & 2]
I want to love you like you deserve
But I think I need to love me first
It sounds so simple, written down
Keeps getting harder to spell it out

I want to fill your heart all the way up
But can't pour blood from an empty cup
You say the world is red and black and white
I say one day we'll be all right

[Chorus 1]
'Cause you make me wild and free
You make me feel like me
You make me lose control
And I think you could make me whole

[Verse 3 & 4]
We're all eternal for a while
And, while we're here, I want to smile
It feels so easy in the sun
Gets so much harder on the run

I want to give you everything
But nothing good can come from nothing
You say the world's falling apart
I scream out damn it don't you start

[Chorus 2]
'Cause you make me wild and free
You make me feel like me
You make me lose control
And I think you could make me whole

[Bridge]
But even as perfect as it seems
There's something dark about our dream
I pinch myself, try to wake up
Admit it's time to fill my cup

[Chorus 3]
You make me wild and free
You make me feel like me
You make me lose control
But only I can make me whole

Make Me Whole

Monkey in the Middle

Track #008 for FAWM 2021.  A collaboration with Holly and Tomo from the excellent Santa Dharma!

Music Eternal (with Santa Dharma)

FAWM 2021 work-in-progress

inspired by ways to have fun during a pandemic and magic

Face-To-Face With Fear

amelea