everyone feels lost like u

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LYRICS:
i'm sick of always thinking 'bout the old me
never stay the same i'm always growing
ima get it on my own, i'm never folding
been steady learning all the shit they never told me
like everyone feels lost like you (we all just fake it)
regret's something you gotta choose (it's self-inflicted)
and friends aren't always who you remember, 
i get sick of the embers, they keep burning out

been getting tired of the dead ends
just wanna want something & get it
& yeah I know I got a loose head, shoes lead,
but I guess it only hurts if you resent the fall

I drink another bottle but it's never enough, 
I wanna fuck around & end it but I can't get it up
I got a bible in my pocket & I'm keeping it tucked
I don't believe in it, but maybe it's (just) good luck

I'm sick of always thinking 'bout the old me
never stay the same i'm always growing
ima get it on my own, i'm never folding
been steady learning all the shit they never told me
like everyone feels lost like you (we all just fake it)
regret's something you gotta choose (it's self-inflicted)
and friends aren't always who you remember, 
i get sick of the embers, they keep burning out

NEVER FOLD

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Lyrics;
I try to think of all the reasons,
Why you stay instead of leaving me.
I'm just an empty canvas wall,
That hasn't been painted in so long.
I'm not flawed,
I just suck,
I'm caving in.
the weed sticks to my breath in increments.
Of twenty cause thats how many years, 
that i have been forming this puddle of my tears.

It's hard to say, 
what has made me who i am today.
I was crawling for help in my high school,
So i was going to classes in bad moods.
Its obvious,
that what i lack is confidence,
But it's hardly this.
I can try to pinpoint the problem, 
as i try to remember the things that have led to my downfall.

Is it too late to write on the pages that i've torn to pieces? 
Because it's so hard to talk when i'm angry for no reason! (x2)

I try to think of all the reasons,
Why you stay instead of leaving me.
I'm just an empty canvas wall,
That hasn't been painted in so long.
I'm not flawed,
I just suck,
I'm caving in.
the weed sticks to my breath in increments.
Of twenty cause thats how many years, 
that i have been forming this puddle of my tears.

(prod by. Number48)

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ahhhh feelings! (prod. Number48)


lyrics

I drifted somberely into the trees
disappeared suddenly took all the memories
Doused us in kerosene
I started pulling out my rotted teeth

cope with it, smoke thru it
break my fucking spine, do it
tear up my insides, spewin 
tryna take my time, knew it
nothing but a pawn
killed a night, took his horse
Rode up to the castle and came knocking at his door
welcome to the nightshift 
sleep was never that inviting
all these dogs have took to fighting
why was bloodshed so inviting to u 
blood falls down, drips from my nose
it's a stark contrast, dark red in the snow
hands worn down, right down to bone
u can hear my pain in the things that I damn wrote

decks

so they pulled out their knives and they want me to run
I couldn't live with the web I had spun
danger is my best friend
I wasn't ready for the end

take my life, all the words that I have spoken 
I have sacrificed time for people that are broken
and I no longer want to be here
pressure resulted in fear
and now I sleep and I wake and I fall back down 
how the fuck do I say how I'm feeling now?

so conscious of what I've done 
this life is awful and fades to nothing. 

chess ft. decks (jolst)

does our love die?
prod. @silversxo
ep coming soon...
hope u enjoy <333

lyrics:
so tell me when the night stops
does our love die
maybe just the heartache’s
worth it for a short time
if it were up to me
i’d avoid this feeling totally

if maybe for a second
i’d be honest
the guilt that i’ve been feeling
would respond with
a lack of uncertainty
i’d avoid that feeling totally

so what if
i moved on for the better
twin beds & ties both severed
unconsciously both knowing
this ain’t gonna work forever
been dealing with myself and
i’d just rather feeling nothing
i can’t just carry on
knowing ur out there
like its nothing

drawn shades protect my body
never felt so uncomfortable
im trying to stay strong but
being alone makes u wonder where ur life goes

ever since [silver]

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Breakeven (Cover)

www.carlbymusic.com
Featuring @burylilac
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
Rock bottom
Lower than I’ve ever been
Only hanging on for the sake of my friends
‘Cause I got people who depend on me
And a couple bad habits like dependency

I worry ‘bout my mom
How she’d get on without me
I wonder a lot if you’d still think about me
Only hanging on just to spite those who doubt me
So throw me a rope because I feel like I’m drowning

I’m running out of ways to say this
I hate who I’ve been
Need to make changes
I’ve lost all motivation
Along with my patience
Too long I have waited

I’m running out of ways to say
That I hate myself
Wish that I could change
I think it’s for the best
You and I stay estranged
You wouldn’t recognize the shell I’ve become these days

(lilac heart)
Rock bottom
I’m running out of ways to say
I miss the way you’d get under my skin
Breaking bottles broken glass
Is all that’s left of my ‘lil head
I don’t even know where all the time went

I fell asleep in the snow
And woke up burning on the sidewalk
Take this away before I hurt someone
Try to cover the pain
The broken shards are showing through the holes I burnt into my sleeves

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Rock Bottom w/ lilac heart (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

as real as it gets

GHOSTS IN YOUR ATTIC (PROD. NUMBER48)

prod. eeryskies

dream out
what’s that sound

i don’t recognize you baby 
you’re not who you used to be as of lately
lately missing you on the daily
even next to me i’m missing you greatly
not sure what to say
i’m really hating what you putting on display
i dunno what you did but i hate what you changed
and ever since then i haven’t given a bouquet 
new make up an ache of 
someone else did i mess up
am i really with the person that i once loved 
every time i ask you that you just brush off 
you say enough, you say i’m dumb 
ignorant to love, then bite your tongue
don’t cry to me, yeah you have a mum 
i don’t wanna talk now then i go numb 

forget who you once were
i’m sure that you’re unsure
but that is my answer 
i’m nothing more than an actor 
so dance, dance 
you are in my hands
now meet my demands
you are now my man 

forget who you once were
i’m sure that you’re unsure
but that is my answer 
i’m nothing more than an actor 
so dance, dance 
you are in my hands
now meet my demands
you are now my man

GHOSTS IN YOUR ATTIC (PROD. NUMBER48)

Andy Phantom