on my alive and kicking mom i fw with this heavy

Out on spotify 

down bad ft @staggyucrazy
prod @01kon ♥ 

lyrics:
And I'm not really one for all the talking
Think that I should try before I knock it
You don't realize that I’ve been cautious
Thinking bout your eyes just got me nauseous

Lately I don't care about what they’re saying
Do you realize that i've been waiting
Know I want you bad but i've been patient
Waited for a text but then the day went

I was
Down bad and I never even noticed im
Upset cause I'm running out of focus I
Can't think cause I'm running out of time
Can't think cause you're always on my mind
2x

Lately I don't care about what they’re saying
Do you realize that i've been waiting
Know I want you bad but i've been patient
Waited for a text but then the day went

I was
Down bad and I never even noticed im
Upset cause I'm running out of focus I
Can't think cause I'm running out of time
Can't think cause you're always on my mind
2x

Don't you worry about me I know they're laced
Watch the makeup run right down your face
This a 1 way street I cut my brakes
This the last time you gon come my way

Cant sleep now I'm so restless
Living everyday so fast so reckless
Guess I should've taken this one as a lesson
Mean girls keep silent no wesson

You would never even know that its us
So far just to trip and then I'm stuck in the dust
So hard it dont matter there aint nun to discuss
Low bar but aint nothing getting lower than us

(so sad baby nothing getting lower than us)

I was
Down bad and I never even noticed im
Upset cause I'm running out of focus I
Can't think cause I'm running out of time
Can't think cause you're always on my mind
2x

And I'll never be enough
I been trying to tell you
But I'm feeling hella stuck
I've been trying to tell you
You're the one I'm thinking of
Like I dont want to but I might give up

I was
Down bad and I never even noticed im
Upset cause I'm running out of focus I
Can't think cause I'm running out of time
Can't think cause you're always on my mind

down bad! ft staggy (01kon)

there is no way to save me, right?
✦hope u enjoy :) i really appreciate everyone listening 2 my stuff and supporting me. this means the world to me <3 more to come!✦
 
lyrics
--------
couldn't be the only one
demon's on my shoulder
don't try coming back to me
know it's not my fault yeah
all i wanted was 4 u to see me
believe me, baby, it wasn't this easy
everyday gets worse
and i feel like i lost so much
and me im on a road
feeling like im losing touch
couldve had it all
but i had to be myself
and i ruined it again
how im always fucking up shit..

all the time i spent 
it was such a waste
*it was a waste it was a waste*
i can't forgive myself for that
i don't think ill be able to
im still thinking about it
thinking bout the days we had
but it's over
''gotta get that shit back''
it's gone..
why do i keep on looking back at it?
and i just feel that
u hate me it's so..
air is thick around her
i can't see it's just like..
around them i feel so unsafe
i feel like they gon' hurt me
why did it have to come to this?
you never told me anyways

couldn't be the only one
demon's on my shoulder
don't try coming back to me
know it's not my fault yeah
all i wanted was 4 u to see me
believe me, baby, it wasn't this easy
everyday gets worse
and i feel like i lost so much
and me im on a road
feeling like im losing touch
couldve had it all
but i had to be myself
and i ruined it again
how im always fucking up shit..

how im always fucking up shit
it's always the same shit
they get tired of me
what am i risking?
i already lost it..
baby can u help me
i know that shit's not right
but she believes it is
all that i wanted wasn't unwanted
all that i seek should soon be mine
fuck u get out of my way now
i don't wanna talk 2 u u're like the others

if the old me saw me he would fucking laugh
''you became what you never wanted to become''
are u right? is this real?
where the fuck did you go
im dying please pick up the phone
＊ＩＭ　ＤＹＩＮＧ　ＩＭ　ＤＹＩＮＧ＊
im dying please pick up the phone..

amv <3

ALL I WANTED (altery)

Art : https://www.pinterest.nz/pin/814236807634537370/

Beat : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bu78boW6xLE

Lyrics :

You
I don't wanna fall in love with you
I don't wanna open up to you
Girl that's the last type of love that I'd wanna pursue
But I cannot refuse
I said now you
Just can't seem to get away from you
I've been spending all my days with you
Girl I don't wanna waste time so we better go soon
But I'm waiting on you
But I'm waiting on you
I don't wanna fall in love with you
I don't wanna open up to you
Girl that's the last type of love that I'd wanna pursue
But I cannot refuse
I said now

Hold on just a minute see the stars they're all aligned
Da Vinci couldn't paint a better picture if he tried
If I did send a message to your phone would you reply
These the kind of things that hold me back from ever trying
Said I'm sorry for the text I ain't write back
Said I'm sorry for the way that I might act
I've been really distant lately could you please forgive me baby
If I pull up late night would you like that
I'm waiting on

You
I don't wanna fall in love with you
I don't wanna open up to you
Girl that's the last type of love that I'd wanna pursue
But I cannot refuse
I said now you
Just can't seem to get away from you
I've been spending all my days with you
Girl I don't wanna waste time so we better go soon
But I'm waiting on you
But I'm waiting on

you (Prod. by Brassard)

produced by @recyclexbin
feat. @diacetyl

(marku)
oh, oh, oh, oh
yeah, cross this blunt i'm smoking in fives
know that she love me just look at her eyes
i just came to fuck tonight
then i'm going for a drive
i got rik this ain't no tec
i don't wanna fuck i just want neck
talk too much i'm onto the next
cause one time i got left on read

if i don't make it then imma be upset
'cause half these rappers barely try it's fucking wack
i hear them on tiktok it's all recycled fucking trash
like do you really hear your songs are you fucking deaf
i'm too deep like the sea i can't look back
i take one step forward they take two back
but they take up too much space i can't fit in
rapping that you'll kill me but you're soft just like some linen
like am i just being sour
i can't bump their shit 'cause face to face they're fucking cowards
i'm tryna bloom just like a flower
i mean i put in all the hours
i'm the next big bang you a nerd like you howard 

yeah, hit the gas i won't get too far
been told that it's dangerous on this road 
i don't mind yeah,
dropping popping candy in my tussin 
no discussion
when i'm high i'm chasing hunnids 
ain't got time i do your doesn't's
yeah, bitch i'm fucking tired of fuckboys tryna run with me
you ain't seen what i see
you don't want this just retreat
and i think it's about time i start charging for feats
i need some respect on me
our bond turning rest in peace

(diacetyl)
oh lately i been feeling fatigued
i'm so pathetic and i'm looking for a reason
like what's the point when you're down on all seasons
choking on your words and struggling to breathe in
i'm apathetic and i've lost all feelings
i'm in turmoil and it holds no meaning
walking out the door i feel defeated oh, oh, oh
aren't you tired of calling me conceited 
i swear it's been months since we needed time
now we're all alone and i can't see the road and
i tried too hard to get back and now i'm stuck at square one
and it won't get back to where we was
and i'm so tired, oh
i need someone to put out all the lights and
take it all, goodbye

tone deaf w/ diacetyl (recyclebin)

first song off the EP love u thank you for ur patience <3


i got the best girl
the best friends in the world
and you can't see it yet but i promise my intentions are real

and I can't hate myself
but i still hate myself
i can't myself
but i still hate myself

veskar on my chest no you can't hit me
i be crazy just like britney is
i be aiming where his kidney is
ima run cuz i can't fix this shit

all i need is guap
and i can't hang inside my conscious i can't make it stop
i can't make it slow down
so i turn it off
if you see me in the function then come say wassup
i can't get enough

i can barely see 
snow in my goggles
kingdom is tidal 
american idol

lil bitch we is a-list
this aint recital
and your mix is garbage 
so make sure you recycle 

and 2 diamonds 
you cannot replace it
those 2 diamonds
that stay sunk in your face

i got the best girl
the best friends in the world
and you can't see it yet but i promise my intentions are real

and I can't hate myself
but i still hate myself
i can't myself
but i still hate myself

im the loudest 
hear me blarin
im with my girl
why you starin?

and I can't hate myself
but i still hate myself
i can't myself
but i still hate myself

everwhere i go they showing me love
treating me just like im someone im not
rollin it up yeah im burning a book
ima paralyze him right on the dot
ima paralyze him right on the spot
you ain't gang now
hollowpoint his brain now
watch it drain out!

i got the best girl
the best friends in the world
and you can't see it yet but i promise my intentions are real

and I can't hate myself
but i still hate myself
i can't myself
but i still hate myself

im the loudest 
hear me blarin
im with my girl
why you starin?

and I can't hate myself
but i still hate myself
i can't myself
but i still hate myself

american idol (prod. jean parker)

Beat : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hHNGYXxQF5I

Lyrics :

I feel so anxious I vanish in sadness it happens a ton
By now my canvas is brandished with damage sustained from your love
And when my baggage is captured on camera I can't help but run
Somehow I manage to banish my manners until I feel numb

I'm broken
I left my heart in the open
Can't keep on speaking I'm choking
My feelings freeze in the cold when
I'm hurting
Lately I've been feeling like a burden
I been making my mind up with bourbon
But I been waking up feeling uncertain
I'm honest
I ain't really one to break a promise
Don't wanna hurt you so I look for other options
But every answer has me feeling kinda nauseous
I'm praying
For the days where I'm no longer waiting
And my mind is no longer degrading
Got a long way to go so I'm patient

After all those times
I pulled through
Those sleepless nights
That I spent with you

I feel so anxious I vanish in sadness it happens a ton
By now my canvas is brandished with damage sustained from your love
And when my baggage is captured on camera I can't help but run
Somehow I manage to banish my manners until I feel numb

anxious (Prod. by xmichaelwarren)

thx @777evil & @nokerbforever <3

Life is alway changing, youll find a new perspective
Im sorry that i did this, but that shits not respected
fucked up once we let it go, you fuck up twice and then it shows
That you never changed, and you never will
in me builds the rage, to the point where i could kill
put a bullet in your chest, watch the blood pour out and spill
I trusted you, you gave me nothing, i shouldve known, you were up to something
A second chance, we deserve it all, but people like you, put us all at fault
And theres nothing i could say, you didnt learn your lesson
Forgave you the first time, but i cant do a second

Choices fall, into a sick shape
Reminisce the times we fixate
On our broken souls
Swear i let it go
Every fucking second
But your failure it shows

evilmiku:
i can’t keep up with every single change
you try to make everything bad a game
all of these thoughts you planted in my brain
but i won’t go down from anything you say

NOKERB:
you would always pressure me to get shit done
lately i been wondering if this is all worth it
wasted my time on you, thought it was perfect
it was not, you was treating me so worthless
i wonder how long it all will last.. 
the choices fell!
you was treating me like trash
im on the edge of falling down
baby im about to jump

choices fall ft. evilmiku & NOKERB [prod. saint mike]

got the whole gangy on dis song <33

dudley got his first cover art awwww

holy shit that girl hurt me but hey it results in good music :P

lil message to the homies in this (scroll down 4 lyrics):
had such a fun new year's weekend with u all, and i rly enjoyed the time we spent tg. take a sec to read the lil letters i wrote u :) luv u guys

@kryst3n holy shit i alr known u for literal YEARS thats insane. it's hard to believe we were like 14 when we first played brawlhalla and now we literally linked twice and got super close. had so much fun chillin wit u and makin this song. our voices together is such a beautiful thing and i wanna make sm more with u. thanks for bein a rly good friend despite how shitty i cld be sometimes. ly bro, cheers to more memories <333 cheesy OUT.

@claudesdiary no clue where to even start with u. i. always. looked. up. to. you. best cousin ever to say the least. i always felt like that annoying lil brother to you, but i hope you see through that. i know im out of control a lot and say sum rly out of pocket stuff, but the fact u love me for being myself and keeping me company means the absolute world. words cannot describe how much of an impact u had on my life, would not be makin music if it wasn't for u cuzzo, and tbh i feel a lot less alone when we hang at family gatherings. so thankful for every moment we spend together fr, u been my boy since day 0 jay ilysm < 3

@assperrr I FUCKIN LUV U SWOOZ. i cant make this shit up bro, some of the things u say got me laughin for so long i gotta mute my mic on calls, n when we linked i was DEAD. never change, u got a rly good vibe and can positively affect the ppl around u. hope we can continue to get closer cuz u honestly one of my closest homies in the community. keep doin yo thing, lets make more music soon and link again much luv dawg

if u aint swooz jesse or jay WHY DID U READ THIS SHIT OMG

lyrics:

all my bones are so dismantled
all these feelings i can’t handle
make these plans you always cancel
just my soul; it’s all i gambled

i would give more just to share the same feelings
no you can’t feel it, no you can’t feel it
i’m so far gone you’re the only one to heal me
no you can’t hear me, no you can’t hear me

break my bones and ur pulling away
i could hardly hold on to anything
you say now
so pull me close
and say were not done
ive been tryna write songs but its hard
when the cats got ur tongue
hit my head on the wall 
till im banged up and bruised
make a song cuz its easier
than talking to you (about it)

you’re stabbing my back when i never would
it’s easy to say that i never could
lead you on, lead you on
theres nothing left
you can’t prove me wrong

i would give more just to share the same feelings
no you can’t feel it, no you can’t feel it
i’m so far gone you’re the only one to heal me
no you can’t hear me, no you can’t hear me

all plats

lead u on w/ kryst3n [prod. king theta x claude x asperr]

1/3...

shoutout siem spark i love you
shoutout zivve so underrated.

the start of something new.

lyrics:

[mosh]

i, i don't understand all of your lies
can we fucking go back to that night
oh why
oh why

how the fuck you
moved on so fast
i can't even lie
i want you back
come over for the night
im way too sad
please tell me why
you told me that

how the fuck you
moved on so fast
i can't even lie
i want you back
come over for the night
im way too sad
please tell me why
please tell me why
woahhh

[zivve]

broke my heart but still in love its such a 
shame that i got all these scars 
dumb assumptions i cant function
built us up tore us apart

i really fucking love u baby
so tell me how u move on lately
while my heart still movin vaguely
and i hate how i cant get over u

my heart rythm
beats like nothing ive felt before
ooo,
tryna stay steady and rest
the way u play wit my head- 
i swear im already dead

[mosh]

how the fuck you
moved on so fast
i can't even lie
i want you back
come over for the night
im way too sad
please tell me why
you told me that

how the fuck you
moved on so fast
i can't even lie
i want you back
come over for the night
im way too sad
please tell me why
please tell me why
woahhh

<3

moved on w/ zivve (siemspark + ayoley)

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/lxveturo/eden

Guitar loop by rj pasin

lyrics:
                          Eden
[Chorus]
    
I'm so tired of the garden 
I don't know how anyone could survive 
and Adam locked me in one moment 
he told a story 
and ruined my whole life 

[Verse 1]

I don't really know what you want from me 
You ruined my life and it feel like peace
peace of mind just all I need   
I'm runin from the past while I'm wearin nike
you ruined my life and it feel like 
you in my mind don't feel like me
I'm runin from the past while I'm wearin Nike
I'm runin from the past while I'm wearin Nike
 
[Intro]
 
and I never knew who I was 
I found a new fruit 
and it made me feel
lustful
and you won't get out my head
you got a mouthful 
all the words you ain't said
and I'm sooo 

[Chorus]
    
so tired of the garden 
I don't know how anyone could survive 
and Adam locked me in one moment 
he told a story 
and ruined my whole life 

[Verse 2]

And I don't really get it  
my heads been spinnin 
it's goin a mile a minute 
I'm fearing the worse 
Cause I never wanna 
Be finished
degrading my image of 
course 
so what am I doing it for

[Chorus]

so tired of the garden 
I don't know how anyone could survive 
and Adam locked me in one moment 
he told a story 
and ruined my whole life 
  	 

[Outro]

I'm a waste of a guy 
I'm apart of this hell 
it was a waste of time 
I put my pride on a shelf 
and I just need some help 
to figure me out

Eden

shoulda blown my nose before recording lmao
hope u guys like this cuz i had so much fun making it

=lyrics=
smokin it everywhere, light up a blunt
bitches be lyin and say i cant handle it
up in the function we fuckin it up
getting so high all my lungs they be damagin
runnin for pres im the number one candidate
bitch hella bad, im prayin she let me in
if we make plans, im already canceling
yeah you already know

yeah you already know
yeah you already know
smellin like ass, someone get a candle lit
smokin on gas, we smokin on cannabis
brand new pack, lil bitch get the hang of it

2 guns
they say they be rollin up 2 blunts
fucked up, you're a nuissance
run away, find out who it was
don't believe in the karma
they'll be eating your heart up
deck your body in prada
shutting down with no startup

shutting down, no startup
cuz everyone is so toxic
coming back, samsara
now im pullin up to the moshpit
(i suggest you run)

get the fuck away from me before you make it worse
get the fuck away from me
yeah you already know

smokin it everywhere, light up a blunt
bitches be lyin and say i cant handle it
up in the function we fuckin it up
getting so high all my lungs they be damagin
runnin for pres im the number one candidate
bitch hella bad, im prayin she let me in
if we make plans, im already canceling
yeah you already know

smokin it everywhere, light up a blunt
bitches be lyin and say i cant handle it
up in the function we fuckin it up
getting so high all my lungs they be damagin
runnin for pres im the number one candidate
bitch hella bad, im prayin she let me in
if we make plans, im already canceling
yeah you already know

yeah you already know
yeah you already know
smellin like ass, someone get a candle lit
smokin on gas, we smokin on cannabis
brand new pack, lil bitch get the hang of it

already know [prod. branwen]

// 23 //
having audio/recording issues, will be MIA for a little while

you (Prod. by Brassard)

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