I listen to this soo much need new mei :(

leave me aside w/ angelicxmei (diligence)

prod @ddertbag

lyrics

i lost again ig u just live and learn
i'll play pretend while everything will just burn
but everytime i try it doesn't go so well
so i just gotta hide (it's hard to reach for some help)

do i really have to know wanna stay where im at
can't reach where i wanna go ig im always last
nothing else to do so im wasting all my time 
i can't let it go cannot get it off my mind

scared of what's to come so i just sit back in the background 
scared of messing up so it just almost never works out
does it really matter, nothing feels the same
still i can't remember, can't recall my name

i've been stuck don't feel like going outside my comfort
i have no one else there is no help yea to be offered
slowly losing to myself im having these delusions
it just felt so real yea i fell for the illusion

#LiveAndLearn (ddertbag)

ill wait a 1000 days...

produced by @winter

yea i hide my pain
yea i keep it all inside
i love all my friends
but i shouldnt cut the ties
i love when it rains
they dont see me when i cry
i try all my best
all u do is step aside

i panic so hard
soooo
i let my guard off

breath... calm
theres too much
stuff going on
everynight
it brings me on
i told uu
theres something off

and u left a smile
i wonder what it said
i try my best
u never seem to care
bleed from my wrist
its loud in my head
there must be a poison
behind this mess

how do i find a way
is there even a one?
im lost
im lost
im looost

and ill just sing and dance
ill wait a 1000 days
it may just tore me to shreds
but how do i get a(way)

1000 days (winter)

produced by @kggn

[nurse]
i dont like the way u act
the way u stab my back
u keep me off the track
but honestly im alright
dont want u to call back
cuz everytime i throwback
deep inside i fall down
to the ground

u said that it always be aight
but i dont trust u now
deep inside my issues
i dont know where im at
stab me in the back
i know u been playing games
my dress is bloodstained
i dont know if im the same

tears down to the ground
i know that is awful
hide myself 
put my feelings in the bootle
u knew u had my trust
and u broke it like a waffle
tears to the ground
just shoot me wit ur rifle

idle
i rather stay idle
heavy heart it is made of iron
rewind time never ending spiral
wish i could smile more
but things just toring me up

i think i need a rest
cuz i been tired of doing my best
dont wanna see ur face
cuz i been tied im feeling stressed
i wanna change my fate
everytime i jus be leaving a mess
i think i still regret
everything we did in the past

Instagram

honestly (kuru)

produced by mental
featuring @lazydoll

[blxty]
she tried to steal my heart so i put that shit on lockdown
i’d make her pay the price but i hate seeing her frown
i crack under pressure cus’ i’m usually in the background
and her words be falling through these cracks making me drown
she tried to steal my heart so i put that shit on lockdown
i’d make her pay the price but i hate seeing her frown
i crack under pressure cus’ i’m usually in the background
and her words be falling through these cracks making me drown

[mental]
broke my heart but i still think that you’re lovely
tell the truth, i already know it’s ugly
i can’t tell if you ever really loved me
they love to cut me, i turn into nothing
all i know is that i don’t wanna feel it
keep on talking but i don’t wanna hear it
all these thoughts inside my head, gotta clear it
heartless there’s no way you could steal it

[lazydoll]
please dont make me hurt
if you leave, i'll never be alright
when i see your eyes
全てを知れたって思っていた
i gave you all but maybe it's worthless
足りないものを僕に教えて
it's painful my words never reach you
never reach you

[blxty]
she tried to steal my heart so i put that shit on lockdown
i’d make her pay the price but i hate seeing her frown
i crack under pressure cus’ i’m usually in the background
and her words be falling through these cracks making me drown
she tried to steal my heart so i put that shit on lockdown
i’d make her pay the price but i hate seeing her frown
i crack under pressure cus’ i’m usually in the background
and her words be falling through these cracks making me drown

lovely +blxty (feat. lazydoll)

prod @winter

[mei]
i really dont want u to go...
id rather listen to your lies...

but does it matter
now u let me go
left memories up to shatter
u know that i struggle
my heart is fragile
because u hurt me
it turned me to shadow

i really dont want u to go!
(ill hold your heart 
while you hurt my soul) 
id rather listen to your lies!
(and stare at your eyes
while youre stabbing my back)

i really wanted to be yours
ive wanted to be close
even if youre the one 
that hurts the most
keep on trying my best
i only make it worse
nothing ever makes sense
i guess im gonna fall

ill be on my own
i gotta move on
i cant let it go

i carry burden 
deep inside my soul
i dont feel like
getting further
dont get me bothered
it doesnt matter
im so unhealthy
cant break the pattern

attached (winter)

AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G6QgdJQWQV4

(cboy):

 i just wanna feel again
everytime i walk thru the door i feel my throat tighten
air is radiating in my lungs
feel like im poisoned 
getting up so early none of this was ever really planned
same old shit like everyday 
i wake up just to go to bed 
i dont have a purpose so i tried to fit you right in 
none of it will even really last cause im worth nothin 
i dont have a purpose thats what i say for attention

ill say what i want cause i know noones listening
i started taking medicine then i got addicted
i dont even really know if i can ever fit in 
cause i got so much free time im 
spitting nonsense

(owtiss):

i've been chilling living in different realities 
every time u open up it always saddens me 
what goes on in ur head
dont know what i could say
always bearing the pain
i wish i could relate
i dont know a single thing about u
cant help but worry that just what i do
cuz u kno that i always care about u
but idk what i should do

(cboy):

i just wanna feel again
everytime i walk thru the door i feel my throat tighten
air is radiating in my lungs
feel like im poisoned 
getting up so early none of this was ever really planned
same old shit like everyday 
i wake up just to go to bed 
i dont have a purpose so i tried to fit you right in 
none of it will even really last cause im worth nothin 
i dont have a purpose thats what i say for attention

Purpose

purpose w/ owtiss (MaxOTT)

Merry Christmas!☆ * ❄️💝
prod @y4ndere

and i swear my heart is getting colder
so im searching for the warm, dont get it frozen
but- why u were the one that made me hopeless
u were the closest one... im swear that im trying!!!
and- why i cannot be enough
always do my best i cannot make it right
i thought u were the one but u just broke the trust
deep inside my heart i think im too attached...

let my tears on the floor, let em all out loud
and my tears are so cold i really wonder why
is it really my fault? i really wonder how
losing all of control watch me fall to the ground

let my tears on the floor, let em all out loud
and my tears are so cold i really wonder why
is it really my fault? i really wonder how
losing all of control watch me fall to the ground

i really miss the older times 
when we were close to shining stars
and- it really piss me off i miss u uhh
so please dont gooo~
i really wish i knew whats next
we cry and lie its all a mess
where do i go? im losing sense
the wounds cant heal
will i ever understand this?

tears

tears (yandere)

Be alone

Tommorow Ain’t Promised

@mitsooya
@lilac
@kairo6k

(lyrics)

[kairo]

what do u want frm me
tryna get close but I cant seem 2
tell me if u dont feel the same no more
cus bby ur the one that i adore
im falling each time
and im losing my mind
im-ima crash into the wall
and im waiting for the stars to fall

[mitsu]
sorry im not talking 
call me dry all u want ur obnoxious
im losing signal im running out of options
and i got poor connection its obvious
ill keep on going till my heart stops
ill keep on going till my body drops
ill keep on going till it makes no sense
till it makes no sense

[kairo & mitsu]
all the times we had meant nothing
(nothing)
all my memories are fading
(fading away)

makes no sense +mitsu (lilac)

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@modeseraphim
@kliwia

1000 days (winter)

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