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@hatefulbeats

Lyrics

I can't let out what I keep inside of my own mind
I can't get out what I got inside this head of mine
So I build it up until I break down
Until I can feel enough to create what I make now

I ain't even did enough to rest so I can't lay down
Everyone I met and thought was real is just a fake now
Or am I fake? I think I'm the face of every single ounce of pain
I hate because it make me break

I don't understand
This is not the plan
Don't know where I am
I got lost inside my thoughts, oh not again

Don't like where I been
All I did was sin
We only begin
Just so we can end, I don't need a friend

I'ma rot all alone and I know that
Went to Hell just to go and get my soul back
Gave it away cause I ain't wanna stay
I ain't wanna be alive to see another day

let out. | Produced by hateful

Lyrics

Feel like all I do is wrong
Never should of wrote that song
Never should of loved that bitch
Never should of made that wish

Never should of heard that voice
Never should of made that choice
I should of just stayed asleep
I don't like what I've learned, I don't like what I see

I don't know what I want, I don't know what I need
Look at what I've become, I can't find any peace
I guess this what I choose, get high from the lows
Nobody knows me outside what I post

You only know what I want you to know
You only feel what I want you feel
You only think what I want you to think
This is my fucking world, I'm the only one real

I can only trust my own perception
I cannot rely on your deception
I can only feel my own affection
You won't ever care how I'm affected

You want something new but I'm defective
All I know is hate, I've got a collection
I can only take my own advice
I might fucking take my own damn life

Bitch can you not hit me up?
I swear you not what I want
I used to might give a fuck
But now I do not, I can't show any love

To anyone not showing me that they care
Every minute they can, I am not just a spare
I'm one of a kind and if you cannot see that
I'll fucking leave and I never will be back, bitch

defective. | Produced by puhf

so long. (unmixed/snippet)

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

wired.

ISSOFU.

this what my songs sound like before i actually record them

dormant. (Rough)

Produced by septfree

Lyrics

Never would of thought you wouldn't be coming back
Wish we never lost potential we could of had
I miss you a lot but you don't care about that
You don't wanna talk, I just wanna talk

I just needa talk to you
I know I don't mean a lot to you
I know that I got a lot to do
Told me you needed to work on yourself but you needed somebody else

You'll never know how I felt
You were my fire but you made me melt
Wouldn't take my calls but you took off his belt
Why do you put me through hell?

You were my angel but I guess you fell
I need you back, I don't need any help
If I can't have you back girl
I'll never be any better

I just brush it off and off and off
It's been piling on and on and on
How much longer can I keep this going?
Before I can't hide what I'm ignoring

I got some pain in my heart that I bandaged
I never healed it and now it is callous
Don't ever ask me why I am so distant
I can't get hurt if I'm not within distance

I don't know why you won't call me
I need you now, I been falling
I been hoping that you'd be there
When I can't hold it but I don't see her

you were my angel but i guess you fell.

Produced by fowni x luffysome

This song is another deeply personal reflection, revealing themes of betrayal, regret, loneliness, and a longing for love. It carries an intense emotional weight and expresses the pain of broken relationships, self-inflicted wounds, and a desire for redemption. From a faith-based perspective, this song can serve as a powerful testimony of transformation, showing the contrast between living for oneself and finding hope and healing in God.

Trusting Others vs. Trusting God:

“Putting my trust into someone and thinking they’ll help me but really get stabbed in the back.”

This reflects the pain of misplaced trust in people who I allowed to let me down. The Bible reminds us to place our ultimate trust in God, who never fails.

“It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in humans.” (Psalm 118:8)

This doesn’t mean you shouldn’t trust others but rather that your foundation should be built on God, who provides security and hope even when others fail.

Self-Destruction and Redemption:

“Miss the old me, was happy on drugs, I been lonely, just wanna feel love.”

This line acknowledges the fleeting comfort of substances and the deeper void they leave behind. True peace and love can only be found in a relationship with Christ.

“Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit.” (Ephesians 5:18)

Regret and Ownership of the Past:

“I knew what I was doing was wrong and I just didn’t care, that’s a fact.”

This honest acknowledgment of past selfishness and wrongdoing is a critical step toward healing and growth. The Bible calls this repentance, and it’s the path to God’s forgiveness.

“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9)

Lyrics

Every time I wake up I wish that I didn't wake up
Wish I could feel her love but I don't deserve her love
Feel like 2019 unknxwn. cause I know that I won't be enough
How the fuck do you think that you know me?
You just know what I got in my cup

Miss the old me, was happy on drugs, I been lonely, just wanna feel love
I was broke so I ran up some bands, why the fuck do I still feel alone?
And I'm sorry to all of my friends that I made wanna leave me alone
I just wish I could tell you thank you, helped me more than you ever could know

What I lost I won't ever get back, it's my fault so I'll leave it at that
I knew what I was doing was wrong and I just didn't care, that's a fact
I ain't care about nobody else, all I cared about then was myself
And I'm honestly still a bit selfish but I'm only like that for my health

I ain't finna go break my back for a bitch that won't ever care about that
I ain't finna go reach my hand out tryna save someone that wouldn't reach back
I ain't finna go waste my time opening up and getting attached
Putting my trust into someone and thinking they'll help me but really get stabbed in the back

Bitch, don't text me, don't wanna chat
Bitch, don't test me, I'll fucking snap
Where my heart should be there is a gap
Cause I gave it to her and she didn't give it back

Okay, she did but that shit turned to ash
So what if she did? Man, that shit wouldn't last
Cause she's all that I need
So I can't let her leave

No, I can't let her go, wish you'd call but I know you won't
I just wish I could let you know when I say "I hate you" just know I don't
I don't even know who I am, am I detmer or garrett or ken?
But I know who I need and they'll never come back again

Every time I wake up I wish that I didn't wake up
Wish I could feel her love but I don't deserve her love
Feel like 2019 unknxwn. cause I know that I won't be enough
How the fuck do you think that you know me?
You just know what I got in my cup

put my trust into someone thinking they'll help me but really get stabbed in the back.

Lyrics

Please don't tell me you gone be there, no you won't
Please don't think that I care cause no I don't
Already tried that way too many times, never works
Every time I'm kind, I just always end up hurt
Please don't tell me you don't love me, yes you do
Please don't think we can't make it work after all that we went through
All these times that I cried, you don't understand
You told me you needed spacе but you needed another man
You can live without mе but I don't know if I can
If it isn't you, I don't think I can love again
What'd I do that made you...
What'd I do that made you never wanna talk again?
Please help me understand
I'm holding on to threads, you're prying off my hands
And you don't know how cold it gets, girl, you don't understand
Every time that I cried
There's something more than just 11 letters between you and I

there's more than 11 letters between us.

Lyrics

I know you're not around, I know you'll never be
I know I'll never feel that feeling of you next to me
I know I'm better off and we're not meant to be
I wish you knew how much you really fucking meant to me

You look at me, all you see is just an artist
I look at myself and all I see is fucking garbage
I know I ain't perfect but I ain't even worth it
If my life was a window, I would wanna close the curtains

I got something in my chest, I can't really get it out
Baby, you the best, I don't wanna live without
You at fucking all, so please don't ever leave
I ain't wanna fall but that's what you did to me

Yeah that's probably what I'd say if you'd ever fucking answer
Won't even tell me hey, it's been eating like a cancer
What'd I do wrong? I'll never know
I'm all alone, I just wish I could go

I know you're not around, I know you'll never be
I know I'll never feel that feeling of you next to me
I know I'm better off and we're not meant to be
I wish you knew how much you really fucking meant to me

garbage.

Lyrics

I'm fucking up again, so God, forgive my sins
I'm losing all my friends, how did I come back to this?
I ran away till it caught up, fuck all these games tear the card's up
Don't know what this is but it's not love
My heart's put away and it's locked up
You can't save me, not like you'd give it a try though
I'm still breaking down but I sing on the high note
It's okay if you hate me, I know you used to have high hopes
Please don't chase me, if yes really meant no, I would be right
How far could I get if I really tried? Don't care about shit, if I do, then I lied
I found a genie stuck in a bottle, I wished for death, and I still havеn't died
Why can't I get out of my head? I think I'd bе better off dead
Lies making me say that again, life took me back to the bottom again

dormant. (Rough)

Archive: unknxwn.