im in my bag of excuses for bad decisions i made  
bad actions stemming from trauma that doesnt justificate  
i look around and see all of this destruction and decay 
but i think the only difference is i didnt see what was right in my face 
at some point you have to face it
used to think fixing my problems was caving
i used to think that my problems were what made me special and that shit is dangerous
and i used to think that if i got better my art would suffer as a trade and
it got to the point where i thought that my mental well being aint even worth saving 
but honestly i was mistaken 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem 

i was a victim of temptation and my own temperament
i get too passionate i come off batshit and 
im just a magnet for tragic infatuation 
almost had it but i couldnt capture it 
dont wanna trap it  
dont know whats happenin
but when youre laughing
its great distraction 
i think we might just be moving to fast and 
keep your hands in at all times and belts fastened 
i dont know 
what the fuck i was on 
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem 
and honestly i dont know
what the fuck i was on
how could i be so wrong 
i was down for so long
i dug myself too far 
what the fuck was i on 
how could i be so wrong 
i made myself the problem

my big bag of excuses for this hole I dug myself into

Sunray, the thunderstorm

aye, yeah
I feel like puking up the shit I drank
Yeah, these thoughts have seem to over take
I need some shit to occupy my brain
Yeah, they don't love me so I'm filled with hate

All this fucking liquor, but the thoughts remain
All of you are happy, why you still complain?
Why would I care about the shit you say?
While all of you are talking help me stay awake

I dont know what I've become
But frankly I don't give a fuck
Clouds are rolling in open air
My head stays hurting I'll go elsewhere

Waking up and now my stomach ache
I got no problems with a wake and bake
They say I'm toxic but your friends are fake
Ugly faces and some tiny waists

I'll just stay inside with my smoking space
Here with gassed lungs and some court dates
Everybody round me got some poor taste
I've been in my room feeling misplaced

fake

not home. - fake (fantom)

Lyrics

Getting sick of holding on, that girl's all I need
Nothing else that I could want
Some girl hit my line, I told that bitch to go kick rocks
Your name isn’t hers, I don't wanna talk, I don't wanna talk
I don’t wanna open up, I don't wanna do this anymore, I'm giving up
You divided us, man this shit ain't adding up
You think what I say is crazy, you just ain't been sad enough
You don't understand my pain, you just ain't been hurt bad enough
Ain't no tears inside my body, I done cried too fucking much
’Bout the same damn shit, bout the same damn pain
’Bout the same damn bitch, bout the same damn thing
I can't get out my brain, I’m so sick, I'm so lame

And I'm stuck, I can't change
It’s been so many years and the spot I'm in the same

Getting sick of letting go, I don't need that bitch
I don't want you anymore
I got bitches in my phone I know I should leavе alone
I know you ain't her, I'll pretеnd you are
You can open up but baby I don't need to talk
Tell me your desires, tell me all your flaws
Baby, take me higher, give me what I want
I won't ever find her, I'll always be lost

i could move a thousand miles away and still be in the same place.

Runnin Blind

The Main Source:
https://on.soundcloud.com/SQZWEFeMiy7RR534vx

2grown.

Abuti

@hatefulbeats

Lyrics

Broken in, I'm broke again
I've had enough of this, that's what I feel like
Hope is hopeless, I'm fuckin' chokin', can't deal with this, fuck real life
I used to think about suicide, I feel better now, but I still might

Take my life, cause this shit don't make mine really feel nice
I love it when people just casually ask "Ken, are you depressed?"
Like I put up an act, but I just tell 'em no
Cause if I explain, they still wouldn't know about All of thoughts That've run through my head that're making me think
That I'm better off dead (I really think that I'm better off dead)

People that don't understand, think I don't make any sense
People that know where I stand, can't even help me for shit
All of us stuck in the sand, and no one will give us a hand
We wanna get better, we're calling for help
But no one is willing give us a chance

So when I make it out, it's fuck them, and it's fuck you
Needed help, you ain't come through
You don't know what I've gone through
When you're all alone, I'll be gone too

Poppin' off like a 12 shotty
Heart's gone, I'm dead rotting
Too bad, I don't feel sorry
She feelin' me but I don't feel shawty

unknxwn. - ill be gone too

i'll be gone too.

spotify.

i'll be gone too. | Produced by hateful

Lyrics

I don't wanna be alone I have been so long
I'm afraid I'll die with the comfort of no one
People do me wrong, I really don't wanna go on
Why'd you have to lie? I just started to grow on you

Guess that's fine, my heart's used to being broken
Girl I broke my back for you, I'll guess you'll never know it
I wanna come back to you, I'm trying not to show it
Cause then I'll get my heart abused and trashed and then you'll throw it

I don't wanna connect anymore
There's not a lot of people that I really care for
But the one's that I do, I try to give it my all
And there still ain't nobody there to catch me when I fall

Thoughts that I don't like to think about, I'm feelin' anxious now
Locked inside my room, I'll make a song to let the hatred out
Don't know what to do, say that a lot, but fuck I'm lost a lot
I wish it was through, I need a drug cause I can't make it stop

I don't wanna be alone I have been so long
I'm afraid I'll die with the comfort of no one
People do me wrong, I really don't wanna go on
Why'd you have to lie? I just started to grow on you

Guess that's fine, my heart's used to being broken
Girl I broke my back for you, I'll guess you'll never know it
I wanna come back to you, I'm trying not to show it
Cause then I'll get my heart abused and trashed and then you'll throw it

broken. | Produced by paineko

Part 1:

I bet you'll care,
I bet you'll fucking care,
when I'm dead in a bath tub,
slit from ear to ear.

I bet you'll care,
I bet you'll fucking care,
I can love you while I'm here,
but it's not forever..

and she said together..
(she lied to me.)
we'll be sad forever.
(we'll be sad forever) (x2)

Part 2:

Don't tell me that you love me,
I know that you are fronting,
and all I ever asked of you was the truth.
I tell my friends you're nothing,
but deep inside you love me.
And every time I leave her; come back to you.

Sad forever, Yours truly.

Lyrics

I'm not what I thought I 
Was before I could see the dark skies
Through the clouds even with the help of sunlight
I don't think that somethings right, feel my nerves about to fly

Chest gets hot, I'm bouta fry
I can't stop, I'm bound to lie
Maybe I'm just a bad guy
I can't cry, don't ask me why

If I could figure it out, I would of never made a song
But maybe the way that I figure it out is breaking down and making songs

Stuck in a cycle, walk with my eyes closed
I cannot get out even if I do
This how my life go, die I just might do
You're not a good girl, fuck it I like you

I'ma regret what I said to you like I always have
Love is a thing that can turn to weapon too, I cannot fucking last

Please don't leave me, I'm really needy
Don't look up to me, you don't wanna be me
All that I do is just sit in a room
Thinking about all the shit I would do
If I wasn't sad & wasn't held back
By feelings that I should of left in the past
I know I need to do more with my life than just lay up all day being stuck on my ass

I don't know how to cope
Lost soul, don't know where to go
Getting old, growing cold
Life's hard so fuck it I'll fold

I'm a ghost in the light of the night sky
Try to cope when I try to write my
Songs, up all night long
I feel the weight but I try to be strong

I'm just a waste putting smoke in my lungs
Fuck everyday just be leaving me strung out
Hate on the tip of my tongue
You won't feel the same when my words start to come out
Friends of mine, used to have some
Life did it's thing and we don't get along now
Thoughts in my mind really wrong, so I try keeping myself always calm now

I'm not what I thought I 
Was before I could see the dark skies
Through the clouds even with the help of sunlight
I don't think that something's right, feel my nerves about to fly

i could move a thousand miles away and still be in the same place.

Archive: unknxwn.