Lyrics

Why do I cry?
Why am I sad?
Why do I lie?
Why is my head?
Fighting against me all over again
Thought this was over but I'm back again

Back in this spot
I'm gonna rot
So why do I care about anything not
Making me feel like I know what I'm here for?
I'll never know what the fuck I am here for

I'll never get back the way that I was
Full of hope, full of love, but do I give a fuck about anything else other than myself?
Anything else other than my Hell?
That I'm gone deal with all by myself
I only heal when I'm by myself
Making these songs, screaming what's wrong
I don't feel right if I'm not feeling wrong

I'm always right, I ain't ever been wrong
This is my life so is shit really wrong
If I don't think so? If I don't say?
I fucking can't go no other way
Except for the way that I want
I don't care if I'm not
Getting to where everybody else got
Fuck all that sheep shit
Bitch I'm a human
This ain't no deep shit
I'm only truthing

Fuck all that sheep shit
Bitch I'm a human
This ain't no deep shit
I'm only truthing

*auditory agony*

Why do I cry?
Why am I sad?
Why do I lie?
Why is my head?
Fighting against me all over again
Thought this was over but I'm back again

Back in this spot
I'm gonna rot
So why do I care about anything not
Making me feel like I know what I'm here for?
I'll never know what the fuck I am here for

Don't wanna talk
Leave me alone
Bitch I am detmer
I'm not unknxwn.

Scent on my sweatshirt
Weeping alone
Can I forget her?
I do not know

Maybe I won't
Maybe I will
All that I know is that I'm gonna feel
Like this for the rest of my life till I'm still

Is anything real?
Is everything fake?
Are we all a piece
Of a stupid ass game?
I'm searching for peace
But I keep finding pain

Don't know what I need
How am I gonna change?
I know if I leave
I won't come back the same

I know if I leave
I won't come back the same

why? | Produced by saint mike

Lyrics

I don't wanna wait, girl I need you now
I just wanna break every time you're not around
Evil in my head so that's why I keep it down
Staying in my bed, I ain't ever going out

I ain't seen the sun in a couple days
My room is a box that I turned into a maze
I be having thoughts that don't ever go away
I don't know a lot but one thing that I know is pain

Yeah I know the kind you do to yourself
Detrimental physical and/or your mental health
I don't wanna talk about what I feel
And that's kinda funny cause I'm making songs to heal

It's only place I can say what I want with no filter
I won't ever leave or give up on what I built here
I don't really see anywhere else I belong
I don't wanna be only just another one

Another mind gone to waste at a job
Another dream down the drain for a cause
That isn't original, only typical
Make you believe what you want only fictional

Feel like I'm violet, invisible
Don't ask how I been, I feel miserable
Happiness only been miniscule
I got a void growing in my skull

*auditory agony*

I don't wanna wait, girl I need you now
I just wanna break every time you're not around
Evil in my head so that's why I keep it down
Staying in my bed, I ain't ever going out

I ain't seen the sun in a couple days
My room is a box that I turned into a maze
I be having thoughts that don't ever go away
I don't know a lot but one thing that I know is pain

Yeah I know the kind you do to yourself
Detrimental physical and/or your mental health
I don't wanna talk about what I feel
And that's kinda funny cause I'm making songs to heal

It's only place I can say what I want with no filter
I won't ever leave or give up on what I built here
I don't really see anywhere else I belong
I don't wanna be only just another one

violet. | Produced by p4ra

prod. me
guitar by sharp

I'm tired of being the one that has to reap
what you sow the voice reminds me what I couldn't be
I'm sick of living without the lungs to breathe
in I can't exhale the toxins in me

this was never meant to last forever
I'm ultimately terrified you'll find somebody better for your needs

when did every string between us sever
i couldn't see it coming I was blinded by the weather in the trees

take me somewhere safe and sound
when you decide to come around 
and tell me how you really fuckin feel

I think my times run finally out
the clock has stopped the ticking now
Is anything you told me fuckin real
(hello?)
I don't know what to think anymore
(goodbye..)
you left me here to rot on the floor

chapter I: safe and sound

Lyrics

What do I do? I don't even know
I don't have a home, I got nowhere to go
I been holdin' it in, I don't know how to cope
With the pain that's within every ounce of my bones

Don't look up to me, I am the epitome
Of all the reasons everyone got rid of me
Don't say you care cause I know you just pity me
God if you're there tell me why you did this to me

I'm a loser, I know I'm a mess
Only at this computer know how to confess
All the things I can never get off of my chest
Life is a game I just wanna reset

Pushing away any entity tryna be friends with me
See everyone as an enemy
Tired of fighting though, I wanna stop
At this point I don't know if I can turn it off

I'll never be who I wanted to when I was wanting you all I could dream of was holding you
I couldn't change all the hoe in you, I was just boring you, how did I ever see love in you?

Never was there when I needed it, pain you were feeding it 
My heart was yours, you were beating it
I feel like X you were eating it, I kept repeating it
Knife in my back, I'ma leave it in

God I don't know where I went wrong in life
But I need to figure it out but I can't figure it out
I just been losing myself, all been doing well
Tryna call god, think I'm going to hell

But I don't want to, no I don't wanna
I just succumb to all the weight I'm under
I'm not an angel, baby I'm a monster
From another angle, I'm a motherfucker

That's just how this thing go, I'm just on the river
Might let this pain go, I might pull the trigger

spotify.

bones. | Produced by septfree

my mind lately: 

please dont leave me to rot, all the things that i thought, finally coming through

its a lot to ask, but can i come round soon and maybe speak to you?

and i got this note, full of things in my head i can go on all day,

shit where do i start? im not feeling real and my mind is grey

and as the time goes and passes, sleeping on an old mattress, blunt ash on the bed,

and im not very productive, im just anxious, destructive, use to love this shit.

i step outside i feel like throwing up, i just wanna know whats up, do you have the answers,

cray there's something you're not telling me but i dont even know myself like am i really fucked

dissociation i lose all my patience, im feeling insane,

heaven gates waiting, far away from the satan, ignited flames

agoraphobia

Lyrics

Fool me, told me that you would be there but you never was
Choose me, baby, I wish that you would give me your love
Use me, anything you need to do to me to be enough
If she doesn't want me, I'm not enough
If I give her time, then she'll see that I'm enough
Move on, wish that I could but I can't cause baby I'm stuck
Don't wanna do none, I had my hope, love, and dreams crushed
I miss that girl but she don't give a fuck, feel like 2019, not enough
And I know that I'll never bе, and I know that I never was
And I know that you nevеr cared, and I know that you never could
When you told me that you would be there
Part of me knew that you never would

when you told me you'd be there part of me knew that you never would.

Lyrics

Wish you knew what you meant but you don't cause
If you did, from my love, you would not run
You wouldn't have left me, you wouldn't have did that
You wouldn't distress me
What I gave to you, you'd give back
You would've came back by now
Did me wrong, you ain't think I would find out?
Old me would've been folding, went and got drunk
'Cause I can't get high now
I really wish I could cry now, but I can't cause my tears all dried out
I'm at a point in my life, I ain't got time to waste
Either do or I don't, I can't try now

Really hurt my heart when you left, I don't know how to deal with this stress
And I'm only just gonna get worse
I don't believe in myself enough to be the best
Don't remind me of what I did, I don't know how to do it again
And I know that I did you wrong but I wish that we could be friends

i'm only gonna get worse, i don't believe in myself enough to be the best.

Lyrics

If you look me in my eyes, you can find out what I am
But don't look me in my eyes cause I know that you won’t understand
Please don't go inside my mind cause you probably won't ever get out
Why you leave me for that guy? Can you tell me what that’s all about?
Can you tell me why you left? Can you tell me why you ain't here?
You can take away all my stress, you can take away all my fear
You can take away all my hurt, you can take away all my doubt
You can take away all my pain, you can save me if I drown
But you ain't do that, you gave me all that back
You gave me so much more, I don't think imma come back

I don't think I can be saved
I don't think I'm really worth anything more than pain
I think I need to be...

I think I need to be put in the dirt
Wanted you bad, now I want you worse
I hurt you last but you hurt me first
I don't care if you’re poison, quench my thirst
You’re lost fire, I'll burn
I’m so tired, won't learn
My lesson, I'm stressing
Can you please read my message?
Can you return my call? Why I'm still in my car?
Tryna find where you are, please don't be too far

i don't care if you're poison just quench my thirst.

Hide Away (Prod. phyllis)

BRUISED

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling, that feeling is gone

I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help
I don't like people, I stay to myself
Don't lie to my face and say that you can help

No cure for me so theres no care for me
Call me your friend but you're not there for me
I'll never fit in, theres no "pair" for me
I'll never leave but they don't bear for me

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

Only thing I ever do is complain
Head overflown with all of this damn pain
Pain is the ocean tie weights to my brain
Stuck in the rain watch me go up in flames

Told you my problems you just replied "damn"
Honestly I do not know where I am
This aint a place I recall calling home
Home is a feeling that feeling is gone

i'm only gonna get worse, i don't believe in myself enough to be the best.

Archive: unknxwn.