Let Me Rot (W/ Unknxwn.)

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

ruin. | Produced by hxrxkiller

(unknxwn.) 
Don't know where I went wrong
Been tryna figure it out all night long
What do I do? How do I leave?
What hurts me the most is the fact that it's me

I'm what I hate, I know I'm fake
Been trying my best to learn a new way
Evil is rooted down deep in my core
If I lose it, I'd lose it, don't know what to do when

All is okay when I wake with no pain
I been hurt for so long when I'm not, I'm just grey
Look to the sky, don't know why I'm alive
Spill my heart on my art cause I can't even cry

I just wanna go away, I don't even wanna try now
I don't wanna see a face, think I might just rip my fucking eyes out
I don't wanna hear your words, they won't ever really work
They don't ever fucking heal me, shut the fuck up you don't feel me

Shut the fuck up, you don't know
All the bad stuff that I hold
In a part of my brain I won't show
To another other than me

I wish that I could though
But I know that I can't
Don't tell me that I can

(cuts)

i know im a mess and im far from the best
but i cannot change cos i feel so deranged
i know that you hate when i say im no good
i promise that i try but i wish that i could

be the person that you miss the most
that persons dead, now im just a damn ghost
you want one thats happy, not fucking depressed
but im just a human, mediocre at best

i wish i was perfect you see its impossible 
ive been so broken you cant feel responsible 

i did all of the things you would ask me to
i ask for one thing now it’s all about you
im always the bad guy that’s just how it seems
but you were projecting your mistakes onto me

you say that you hate me and you want me dead
you have no remorse and i don’t think you’ll dread
im crying and pleading while it points at my head
i didnt think it was grave but the guns in your hand

i just wanna go away w/ unknxwn. (itb)

Produced by IOF

Lyrics

I don't wanna run
But you don't wanna come back
You're the only one
That I would ever come back to

So hold me closer
I say I need closure
But I won't ever close up
That door in case you show up

You think I'm okay but
I won't be okay cause
I know you're not with me
And I just keep pretending

That one day you'll come back
But that won't ever happen
Why the fuck this happen?
I wish I could go back in

I don't know what I need but I want you
Who you want I wish I could be but I'm not
Dude what the fuck did I ever do to deserve this?
All I ever needed was you but I'm worthless

I said I don't know what I need but I...
Who you want I wish I could be but I'm...
Dude what the fuck did I ever do...
All I ever needed was just you

I don't wanna run
But you don't wanna come back
You're the only one
That I would ever come back to

So hold me closer
I say I need closure
But I won't ever close up
That door in case you show up

i don't wanna run.

Baby why you do that?
Tell me what I did bad
I don't wanna move on
I want you to come back

I'll tell you my secrets
Only if you keep it
I been on the deep end
You're my only reason

I don't choose to let go
Sink into the darkness
I don't need no help
No one could ever solve this

Problem that I got inside
My stupid noggin
Don't know how to cope
Throw my fist at where the wall is

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

You were all I lived for
Wish we coulda been more
Ever since the day you left
I can only feel sore

I thought you said you loved me
Why you treat me like I'm nothing?

Do you think it's funny to come back into my life when
I finally get you out of my head and stop inviting?
You think I don't know where you live and who you lie with?
Play with my heart ever again, that's who you'll die with

You think I went too far?
But I ain't took a step yet
You think I'm a lover boy
There's a void inside of my chest

It won't be filled till she fills a fucking casket
I won't be healed while she lives, I'm getting drastic
I thought I told you, I'm not angel
But I know how I can make you see a halo

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

loverboy.

Produced by flower x 5head

This song reflects a deep struggle with boundaries, emotional exhaustion, and the tension between loving someone and being drained by them. It captures the weight of giving so much of yourself that you lose your ability to thrive. From a faith-based perspective, this song could serve as a testimony of learning to set healthy boundaries and entrusting both yourself and others to God’s care.

Loving Without Losing Yourself:

“I love you to death but I can’t let you take my fire.”

This lyric shows the tension of loving someone while recognizing the harm that relationship is causing. The Bible calls us to love others as ourselves, not at the expense of ourselves.

“Love your neighbor as yourself.” (Mark 12:31)

Recognizing Emotional Draining Relationships:

“What is the point of this if I’m keeping you alive but I can’t live?”

This line captures the one-sided nature of a draining relationship. The Bible encourages us to help others but also to be wise stewards of our energy and resources.

“Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way, you will fulfill the law of Christ.” (Galatians 6:2)

“Each one should test their own actions.” (Galatians 6:4)

Turning to God in Despair:

“When they thought I would fall, I said ‘Dear Heavenly Father.’”

This is a powerful declaration of faith in the face of challenges. Even in moments of emotional exhaustion, you’re turning to God as your source of strength.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28)

The “Sinkhole” and Spiritual Warfare:

“Hello darkness, my old friend, it seems you’re getting stronger.”

This reflects a recurring battle with darkness, whether external or internal. The Bible reminds us that spiritual warfare is real but God equips us to overcome it.

“For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness.” (Ephesians 6:12)

Lyrics

You asked for help, out of love I did and then I got fucked
And I won't help again, so please don't ask again
What is the point of this if I'm keeping you alive but I can't live?
And you may not even know but you're still a vampire, I love you to death but I can't let you take my fire

I been getting colder tryna make you warmer
You're the elephant inside the room, I'm in a corner
Tryna hold it in ain't making me no calmer
Hello darkness, my old friend, it seems you're getting stronger

And it seems you're getting smarter
Tryna figure out where you reside is getting harder
I been keeping close some things I should be keeping farther
When they thought I would fall, I said "Dear Heavenly Father"

You asked for help, out of love I did and then I got fucked
And I won't help again, so please don't ask again
What is the point of this if I'm keeping you alive but I can't live?
And you may not even know but you're still a vampire, I love you to death but I can't let you take my fire

I been getting colder tryna make you warmer
You're the elephant inside the room, I'm in a corner
Tryna hold it in ain't making me no calmer
Hello darkness, my old friend, it seems you're getting stronger

the moment the pit in my stomach becomes a sinkhole.

Lyrics

Broke my heart, ran away
Scream I hate you but my feelings don't match what I say
Make my art from my pain
It's a paradox, wanna let it go, but can't
Where she went I can't go, I know that I'm always gonna end up on my own
Tried love, fell apart, I think that there's something evil growing in my heart
Tried to stop it, I can't stop it, my heart's hardened, out of options
I know I should let you go, if your heart get involved don't let her know
Feel like 2019, give me back my soul
But it's 2024, I ain't a kid no more

i say i hate you but my feelings don't match what i say.

Lyrics

I say I hate you but I won't let you go
I say I hate you but you still in my phone
I say I hate you, I say I hate you..
I say I hate you but in my heart, I don't
I say I hate you but girl we both damn know that I still want you
Baby, why you hurt me? Baby, where you run too?
Baby, don't desert me
Baby girl, I need you
Why you do me like that?
Everything I gave to you but you won't give me...
You won't give me all that, you won't even call back
You're all that I care about, I'm about to air it out
I cry into silence but I swear you gone hear me out
I'm not even violent but you know how to bring it out
You know to get me to open up, touch my heart, and just go rip it out

*auditory agony*

Dear mе, love you
What did I turn into?
Don't recognize my rеflection
I hate what I've succumbed to

*auditory agony*

auditory agony.

Produced by fowni x jaysset 

Lyrics

Bite my teeth and I clinch my fist
I tried hard but I couldn't resist
Miss your lips, girl I miss your kiss
Really wish that I could but can't get out my head

Fuck waking up, I can't get out my bed
Told you to stay but you left me instead
Wish I knew what I should do
I talk to her and pretend that she's you

Told you before, I'm delusional
You treat me so ugly but you're beautiful
Found you again what you moving for?
You won't escape me until you're a corpse

Keep fucking with me and I'll expedite it
If it makes you feel safer then go ahead, change your name
But I swear that I'll still find it
If you stayed then I wouldn't be like this

Don't try to say that this ain't your fault
You coulda saved me but you said fuck off
Tasted your love, baby I need it all
My head is spiraling and it won't stop

It never will because you won't come back to me
Won't ever be enough for you but you were already enough for me

Bite my teeth and I clinch my fist
I tried hard but I couldn't resist
Miss your lips, girl I miss your kiss
Really wish that I could but can't get out my head

Fuck waking up, I can't get out my bed
Told you to stay but you left me instead
Wish I knew what I should do
I talk to her and pretend that she's you

if you stayed then i wouldn't be like this.

wouldn’t mind

Ice in my veins
Knives in my heart
How did I die I dont know where to start

I start to fade
Everything grey
Other than death I dont see any way

You're all controlling and you dont even know
Watch as I freeze as I sleep in the snow

You're all controlling and you dont even know
Watch as I freeze as I sleep in the snow

Bodies everywhere, and I watch em all burn
Thinkin' to myself, "did I take the wrong turn"
I make mistakes and I will never learn
Once I depart I will never return

loverboy.

Archive: unknxwn.