so long. (unmixed/snippet)

lyrics ⬇️ 

every thing you told me was a lie
you can’t even look me in my eyes no more
once everything I wanted but now I been floor
i been dying from the torch 
i been flying thru the door

miss what we had
everything was perfect 
every night we would laugh
I don’t wanna burn it
cuz I’m honestly attached
god gave me a purpose
and you stabbed me in the back
why’d you do that

brand new mission oh I can't wait to get loaded in
ten more minutes til I'm out there counting dividends
yea
watch me mix it in tell me that there's more to this
before I forfeit, I don't need no more of this
I went to Florida with my family then I told them that
I don't feel much more like family when you give me crap
let me sit up by myself when I'm feeling sad
promise that ill come back i don't mean to make you mad

but never once did you ask me if I’m fine
i been smokin blunts so that I could ease My mind
every night it’s the same
I cant ever go to sleep
all the time try to change
but I never wanna leave

(casperrr)
going dummy at the function  
just so i can fuck shit
nah i can't fuckin function 
with the way u changed so quick
really thought you loved me
but i guess i was mistaken 
they way u kept pushing me back
hiding mthe fact u were taken

used to look up at people
and now most are at my level
all i have left is a house 
that's filled with air and our shadows
you left a hole inside my heart
turned from special to mental
like chaging howl for hollow 
i know it was not accidental

at this point i don't know what family is?
people stop caring about u when u stop being a kid 
i've been alone ever since i was 14 
left to deal with a bunch a shit, i don't know what i did
idk how i made it out
idk what it is
maybe i had more to do
maybe i was born for this
i just hope so cuz otherwise imma quit
life in general cause without music life is boring as shit

forfeit w/ casperrr (tiedforsilver)

Lyrics:
this dead air is leaving me chocked
draw in this smoke, burning holes in my throat 
talk to my ghost, it followed me here to my home
We kissed and you pulled me in close 
the next day you cut it off cold, and I froze
blood in my shoes walk into the unknown
and lately it feels like the worlds monochrome

black and white
tearful eyes
short lived highs
you can lie

pain subsides 
knives inside
kill my pride
I don’t mind 

this dead air is leaving me chocked
draw in this smoke, burning holes in my throat 
talk to my ghost, it followed me here to my home
We kissed and you pulled me in close 
the next day you cut it off cold, and I froze
blood in my shoes walk into the unknown
and lately it feels like the worlds monochrome

I’ve been hurt too many times and now my heart is absent
forget everything just like it never happened
crystalize these fragments need to stabilize 
I’ve been panicked, feeling paralyzed

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Shivers (prod. nate2timez, Blocktane, steezy prime)

ISSOFU.

Baby why you do that?
Tell me what I did bad
I don't wanna move on
I want you to come back

I'll tell you my secrets
Only if you keep it
I been on the deep end
You're my only reason

I don't choose to let go
Sink into the darkness
I don't need no help
No one could ever solve this

Problem that I got inside
My stupid noggin
Don't know how to cope
Throw my fist at where the wall is

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

You were all I lived for
Wish we coulda been more
Ever since the day you left
I can only feel sore

I thought you said you loved me
Why you treat me like I'm nothing?

Do you think it's funny to come back into my life when
I finally get you out of my head and stop inviting?
You think I don't know where you live and who you lie with?
Play with my heart ever again, that's who you'll die with

You think I went too far?
But I ain't took a step yet
You think I'm a lover boy
There's a void inside of my chest

It won't be filled till she fills a fucking casket
I won't be healed while she lives, I'm getting drastic
I thought I told you, I'm not angel
But I know how I can make you see a halo

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

loverboy.

Produced by GDE TVOYA GOLOVA

Lyrics

I know what you did, why you tryna lie?
I know where you went, why the fuck you tryna hide?
You can't ever run from me, I won't let you out my sight
All this pain you gave to me and I can't even fucking cry

I can't even shed a tear, why the fuck I'm even here?
Why the fuck you ever leave? All I needed was you here
All I needed was your love, all you wanted was to fuck
Look at what you turned me into, I won't ever be enough

Don't know what I did to you
I won't ever heal from you
I won't ever feel for them
Those feelings that I feel for you

You know what I did, I would never lie
You know where I went, why you never coming by?
I would never try to run, girl I thought you were the one
All this pain you gave to me and I don't wanna give it up

Cause it's all that I have to remember you
I won't ever experience feeling you
Said I'm done but I'm here again missing you
Your voice I'd listen to when I couldn't sleep, I'm so miserable

I know what you did, why you tryna lie?
I know where you went, why the fuck you tryna hide?
You can't ever run from me, I won't let you out my sight
All this pain you gave to me and I can't even fucking cry

I can't even shed a tear, why the fuck I'm even here?
Why the fuck you ever leave? All I needed was you here
All I needed was your love, all you wanted was to fuck
Look at what you turned me into, I won't ever be enough

pain is all that i have to remember you.

Produced by flower x luffysome

This song expresses raw pain, rejection, and a deep longing for love and validation. It reflects a cycle of seeking fulfillment through a relationship, embracing pain as a necessity and using anger as a coping mechanism. From a faith-based perspective, it highlights the emptiness of trying to fill a void that only God can truly satisfy. It’s another piece of my story that could be reframed as a testimony to healing and transformation.

Misplaced Identity and Worth:

“I need the pain, I ain’t nothing without it.”

This line reflects a dependency on pain and rejection to define my identity, which ultimately leads to toxicity and despair. God calls us to find our worth in Him, not in our suffering or others’ approval.

“But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession.” (1 Peter 2:9)

The Futility of Seeking Validation:

“Gave her my heart, she ain’t care nothing about it.”

This lyric echoes a common struggle: placing your heart in the hands of someone who cannot fulfill its needs. God offers the love and care that no human can perfectly provide.

“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” (1 Peter 5:7)

Embracing Pain as Inspiration:

“Fuck inspiration / I just got hate inside of my body and this where I take it.”

While pain has driven my creative process, this lyric reveals the limitations of using anger and despair as a source of inspiration. God invites us to channel our experiences toward healing and purpose.

“Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.” (Romans 12:21)

Longing for Love and Connection:

“I just wanted to hold your hand.”

This simple yet profound statement speaks to a yearning for closeness and intimacy. The Bible reminds us that God is always present, offering a love that fulfills this deep need.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” (Psalm 34:18)

Lyrics

Some of my music might make you uncomfortable
If that's the case then it's not meant for you
I need the pain, I ain't nothing without it
So girl you can hurt me if that work for you

Gave her my heart, she ain't care nothing about it
Like bitch, can't you see that I did this for you?
That girl got the key to my heart
The lengths I would go, she don't know how far

I need the pain, I ain't nothing without it
Say she love me but I fucking doubt it
Nobody saved me, I was drowning
They don't hear what I'm saying, they just hear how I'm sounding

She don't care that I'm hurting, she left me deserted
I want her love but I guess I ain't worth it
I just spoke up, don't ask how I wrote it
I feel like a rodent

Everybody I see only wanna get rid of me
You don't understand what you just did to me
Girl, I wish that you knew what you meant to me
I'm so good to you but you so mean to me

What you mean to me, guess I don't mean to you
Girl, you're my drug and I fiend for you
Baby, call me when your lips are black
I would bleed for you

Some of my music might make you uncomfortable
If that's the case then it's not meant for you
I need the pain, I ain't nothing without it
So girl you can hurt me if that work for you

Gave her my heart, she ain't care nothing about it
Like bitch, can't you see that I did this for you?
That girl got the key to my heart
The lengths I would go, she don't know how far

Know that I should but I can't let it go
Did so much but you don't even know
If she isn't there then I don't wanna go
Need the pain so I don't wanna cope

Fuck inspiration
I just got hate inside of my body and this where I take it
Broke my heart but bitch, I ain't breaking
This a song but bitch, I ain't faking

Bitch I ain't faking, I swear
I would prove it to you if I cared
But I don't so I guess that you won't
And it's cool cause I know that you don't

Understand all the shit that I'm sayin'
I just wanted to be your man
I just wanted to hold your hand
But you told me that I can't

i just wanted to hold your hand.

Lyrics

Please don't tell me you gone be there, no you won't
Please don't think that I care cause no I don't
Already tried that way too many times, never works
Every time I'm kind, I just always end up hurt
Please don't tell me you don't love me, yes you do
Please don't think we can't make it work after all that we went through
All these times that I cried, you don't understand
You told me you needed spacе but you needed another man
You can live without mе but I don't know if I can
If it isn't you, I don't think I can love again
What'd I do that made you...
What'd I do that made you never wanna talk again?
Please help me understand
I'm holding on to threads, you're prying off my hands
And you don't know how cold it gets, girl, you don't understand
Every time that I cried
There's something more than just 11 letters between you and I

there's more than 11 letters between us.

vanished. (2021)

Produced by kubsy

Lyrics

Baby, you my bone, baby you my blood
Baby, you the one, I can feel it in my gut
Prolly wouldn't last long if you were gone
Yet I'm still here and I seem to be strong

Why you think I keep her memory inside these songs?
Wish you would remember me but I know you won't
I know you're gone, I know you won't come back again
I'm forever alone

Please hold me close, don't let me go
I died 5 years ago, I'm just a ghost
I'm just a shell of what I was
I'm stuck in hell and I won't come back up

Unless she saves me, unless she reaches
They chanting curses, they think I'm preaching
They don't believe it, they think I'm reaching
Don't say I ain't warn you when you can see the leeches

We just wanna harm you, you don't think we're real
Right there in your face and you can't see us still
Don't blame us when you're burning
You had a lesson but you didn't learn it

We showed you the page but you didn't even turn it
Oh what a waste, yeah you could of became something
You wasted your time, you can't get it back
You believed in a lie that you didn't understand

Baby, you my bone, baby you my blood
Baby, you the one, I can feel it in my gut
Prolly wouldn't last long if you were gone
Yet I'm still here and I seem to be strong

Why you think I keep her memory inside these songs?
Wish you would remember me but I know you won't
I know you're gone, I know you won't come back again
I'm forever alone

there's more than 11 letters between us.

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