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@unknxwn7

who is unknxwn?

unknxwn songs not on spotify

unknxwn/detmer

i'm delusional 4 u

gxat.

unknxwn.

Unknxwn. is simply the beat music artist to exist.

UNKNXWN

a piece of my heart for those that cherish it

this song is completely non profit 

Lyrics

Embodiment of envy, I don't think nobody feel me
I just need a fucking friend, ain't got nobody here with me
Ex just hit me up while I'm tryna move on
Yeah that shit messin me up, who's the girl I really want?

Is it you? Is it her? I don't really fucking know
I ain't ever really sure about where the fuck to go
Need to find a fucking cure for the shit that I can't cope
So cold, hear me brr, I been stuck inside the snow

Depressed but I'm lit like coldhart
Life ain't really it, this so hard
Way I'm making music feel like mozart
If life is a play I want no part

Cause I don't like my soul, I don't like my thoughts
I'm so tired of these hoes, they always treat me wrong
I can't wait till I can go to a place where I'm not lost
Cigarettes what I'm gone smoke till the day that I drop

Till the day that I drop my life gone fucking suck
Cause I keep having thoughts, that make me feel fucked up
I just can't fucking stop, I guess I ain't had enough
Am I worth it? I'm not, I think that I'm out of luck

envy. | Produced by cryberstarr

this song is completely non profit

Lyrics

I don't care
You're not there
I can't share
What I learned about here
They might all put me to silence
For trying to show you what's not in your iris

Too bad last time we ain't make up
Couple of habits I take up
I gotta smoke when I wake up
That might just be why my brain fucked

How can I love her but hate her?
Guess that what happen with fake love
But I still wish we ain't break up
I ain't met nobody safer

How I let my heart get so cold?
Why don't I feel alright no more?
Did I go down on the wrong road?
Negative thoughts up in my skull

I ain't always been an asshole
I turned that way from my last hoe
I gave that girly my last hope
I ended up with trashed soul

It was all bad
You made me so sad
I was like who's that?
And you said no one
I got my demon mode on
I'm so done

Too bad last time we ain't make up
Habits I take up, I am so tired of fake love
Sit in my room smoke my vape up
I need a wake up, I needa go get my cake up

Money ain't ever gone break my heart
Like these bitches, most of these hoes be subpar
Wishing ain't gone make yo life less hard
Run up digits, honestly all that we are

We a number to the government
I don't like this, I want none of it
And it's fuck the world, I want under it
Where I'm 6 feet with the underlings

"unknxwn. fuck the politics"
"I ain't here for that, tryna deal with shit"
That's a part of it and you don't notice it
They got you so deep in in what they motives is

Protect yo mind
Protect yo heart
Protect yo soul
And they don't hide
Within the dark
They all so close

It's all a 'cade
It's all so far
From what we know
It's a lie
It's all a part
Of all the show

façade. | Produced by young whack

this song is completely non profit

Lyrics

Nothing seems to be working out for me, I'm all out of options
And talking it out won't do nothing
So leave me alone, I'm not picking up the phone
I just need a fucking sign, I need a miracle

And if God don't come down his self
I think I'll do something that'll send me to Hell
Because I need to become stable
And I don't see how I can be able

To be good with all of this bad
I might just take myself out, lately all I feel like is trash
I just wanna let it all out, swear on all I love I might crash
I don't even fucking know how everyone else isn't mad

Broke as fuck and broken
All hope is fucked, I'm hopeless
I've had enough of soaking in tears
That I was thrown in

I'm gonna throw you off the edge of this Earth
I'ma take you and put all of my pain where it hurts
In another, scream but it's smothered
Bleach in the gutters
Your soul is now in the water, deep under

I'll take this world and I'll turn it to ash
Turn all you have into something you had
I'll never know why my mind just went bad
Spend so long healing then fuck up so fast

You're not helping me at all bitch please get off my back
Into love I'll never fall because it never last

trash. | Produced by tennis player

this song is completely non profit

Lyrics

I don't know how to feel at all
No emotions, I killed 'em all
I don't wanna go back to where I dread
I don't like some of the things that I said

I'm not a bad guy but I've done some bad things
Build it so high / turn it into nothing
I don't understand, I don't like where I am

In this room all alone, I'm just staring at my phone
and I really wanna call but you do not care at all so why would I?

Why would I?
Why should I?
How could I?
How could I?
How could I?

Love her so much when she don't give a fuck at all
I fall again, building up a wall again
I know it's not right but I don't like these times
Where I lay in bed all night and cry about my fucked up life

I don't get this and I don't want to
I'm so afflicted, why do I want you?

bitter. (unwritten) | Produced by alicks

Lyrics

I've got a leak in my soul
I don't think nobody knows
What I think bout when I'm all alone
I never know where to go
But I never let anyone in
How could I let someone in
When I believe that the reason I'm hurt
Is because I started to let anyone in?

Oh why do I feel like this a lot?
God I just want it stop
No lie, I might just make it all stop
And there ain't no one to stop me

I don't think nobody got me
All of these bad thoughts got me
Inside a hole, where do I go?
I'll never know

I'm so cold, I don't think I feel a thing
I just wanna get a pole, put a bullet in my brain
I know you ain't wanna know about the shit that I can say
When I'm in my room alone, letting out all of this pain

But I gotta let it out, yeah I gotta let it fly
I don't wanna see you pout, I don't wanna see you cry
When you see I'm out of time in the moment that I die
Cause when I was still alive you ain't pull me to to the side

I've got a leak in my soul
I don't think nobody knows
What I think bout when I'm all alone
I never know where to go
But I never let anyone in
How could I let someone in
When I believe that the reason I'm hurt
Is because I started to let anyone in?

Oh why do I feel like this a lot?
God I just want it stop
No lie, I might just make it all stop
And there ain't no one to stop me

I don't think nobody got me
All of these bad thoughts got me
Inside a hole, where do I go?
I'll never know

alone. | Produced by sketchmyname

Lyrics
You're not what I want, I'm sorry I told you were when I knew that you weren't
I thought I could care just enough then maybe it'd work but it just took a turn
But love isn't easy, you can't make it happen, said it before but I still haven't learned
There's a lot I could say, if it's not through a song I don't know how to put all these thoughts into words

That's why I cave, that's why I break, that's why I feel like I'll never escape
I can't get it out, it's stuck like a splinter
I'm keeping it down but my patience is thinner
I'm breaking, this voice in my head I can't take it, echos though my body I'm shaking
And everyone says I'm amazing

But I know that's a lie cause if I was I wouldn't make these fucking songs
Maybe their amazed at just the fact I make these fucking songs
I'm only on this path I think is right cause life so fucking wrong
Chest is feeling tight, I might just snap and then I'm fucking gone

Hold on, come close, don't let me go
So dumb, can't cope, wrote my own name in a death note

Told that girl she was my last hope, said "okay" and she still lied so
I won't trust no bitch, they gone switch
I'ma deal with it making myself so rich
I won't help anyone that hasn't stayed around when I was crashing
I'ma do wrong cause it feel right
Make my ego reach unseen heights
Fuck if I'll regret it, I'm making you regret it
I'm leaving a scar make sure you won't forget it
I'm fucked, I know
You won't stay, just go
I lost all my hope
Can't trust no fucking hoe
Even if, they'll say it ain't so
I'ma make this whole damn house blow
Try to fuck with me, you fucked up
You don't think I'll leave you fucked up
"That ain't right" don't care, shut the fuck up
I been told my whole life I'm stuck up
I'ma stick in this pain right in you
Make you feel everything I went through
You gone know what the fuck I been through
I don't really give a fuck, I been through

death note, last hope. (prod. capsctrl)

Lyrics

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

Everyday I wake up same old, look at me sayin' the same damn shit
Look at me tryna relive a moment again, I haven't changed one bit
I just evolved into more damn shit, I'm still the lame, stupid, broke ass kid
Honestly I wear the same damn fit that I did, I'm still rockin' the same damn kicks

All white vans, all black pants, large black tee with a cut off tag
Promise that I'm not bad, I'm just sad sometimes I don't know how to act
So I act out what I can and sometimes that is the straw that broke the camels back
And that puts me in a bad place, don't enter my mind I don't have space

Every emotion is giant
I feel like I'm just a jack
No one for me to confide in
So I buy a bottle of jack

I put my pain in this handle
Too much to handle
Wish I was invisible, Randall
But I'm just monster posed as a poet, don't come to this concert

My feelings are showing, I might need to hide again
What's the best place to go hide them in?
Out in the open, let everyone know it
Disguised as a talent they vibin' with

They never ask, they never do, they never will
They just say "ooo, this shit is hard
How do you do that?"
Think it's creative, it's true facts

a faint pulse of the life i had.

Lyrics

I can't get away from all the shit that I'm on
I went farther than where I was, I should of stopped
I let all of the loops in my head to go on
I met death and I think I'm the one that he wants

OD, that's what I tried when I wanted to die
I see everything I believed then was a lie
Where I breathe, you out of breath when I don't even try
What I see, I would see still even if I was blind

God please send me a sign, I been losing my mind
I need something to show me I'm not out of time
My greed sent me down a path where I couldn't survive
So I fleed but I'll never get away from whats inside

I can't tell if I should give in or fight back now
What's this talent I was given? I got all these mask now
detmer, garrett, unknxwn., qayin, ken is of the past now
Too far to reach back now, can't get back what I had now

addiction.

Lyrics

God I don't know where to go now
I been here too long, it's old now
Write these songs to get my hopes out
I know I sound negative but that's not what it really is

I just never learned a language
That was not within the anguish
Even in the times of happiness, whatever that is
It was only just distraction from whatever this is

I can feel it building up now
I don't know when it'll come out
But I know that when it does though
You don't wanna be within scope

I'll hurt everyone around me
When I can't please the one's around me
When I can't take them up the mountain
At least I know that I can show them where the ground is

anguish. | Produced by HELL$HOT

Lyrics

Don't know what I did so wrong
That would make you fucking think that apart we're better off
Cause it's only been a week and I promise that I'm not
Any better than I was when I thought you were the one

Maybe you can live a life without me
Baby I can't let you live without me
Like I said in twin flame I don't understand why you don't understand
If I can't feel your love then no one can

I can't let this happen but we don't have to go there
Don't tell me you're moving on or you ain't going no where
Promised you would never leave, I won't let you break that
You say I'm the problem well you gone have to face that

Don't say "we should slow down"
I can't let you go now
You've dug way too deep
I won't ever let another get as close as you to me

I wanna know what I did to make you hate me
I wanna know why you thought you had to break me
Don't wanna know where you been as of lately
Because girl, because baby...

Maybe you can live a life without me
Baby I can't let you live without me
Like I said in twin flame I don't understand why you don't understand
If I can't feel your love then no one can

Maybe you can live a life without me
Baby I can't let you live without me
Like I said in twin flame I don't understand why you don't understand
If I can't feel your love then no one can

without me. | Produced by jewelerbeats

Produced by jewelerbeats

Lyrics

Couple boulders on my shoulders
Baby please don’t tell me that it’s over
I’ll love you forever what I told her
I don’t know how else to fucking show her

That I’m right here
I won’t ever leave you
Bringing life to all my fears
I know you know I need you

Why you wanna hurt me?
You don’t need to do that
I’m so sick of searching
For everything that you have

If we’re not together I don’t know how I’ma manage
You say you don’t wanna be with me, you’re speaking Spanish
I don’t understand it, I just know I need you
I miss what we had when I wasn’t beneath you

If you love 'em let 'em go I say fuck that
Trigger I'ma fucking let it go if you don't come back
I don't wanna be so low but I can't fathom
Me in love with you while you're out falling for a random dude

When you said "Oh he's only just a friend"
But it hurts even worse when he really was a friend
That was mine from the start but was yours in the end
Even more we made a promise never let it get to this

Couple boulders on my shoulders
Baby please don’t tell me that it’s over
I’ll love you forever what I told her
I don’t know how else to fucking show her (x2)

manage. | Produced by jewelerbeats

finally was able to access my old laptop and here are some songs i'd like to share

desire.

unknxwn. - Will We Ever Meet Again

will we ever meet again? | Produced by alex seibel

unknxwn. - She

she. | Produced by alex seibel

delusional. (freestyle/unmixed) | Produced by emma

Lyrics

Winter's here now I feel at home
If you're not here then I don't have one
I feel fear when I don't feel you 
How could I not fall apart when you
Left here but didn't take me there with you
I guess what you are to me I'm not that for you
Every thing that I said bad for you
I tried my fucking best to be there for you

winter. | Produced by nowhere valley

Lyrics

Get in my head, you can abuse it
Fill me with all of your beautiful bullshit
Tell me I'm worthless, then tell I'm perfect
Confuse me to the point where I think I deserve it

Hold me don't hurt me, talk to me, don't call me
I'll keep forgiving, if you kiss me softly
I need you as much as I need you to leave
Cause I'm tired of us but without you ain't no me

You're all I had when I was only nothing
I'll take you back so I can feel like something
I know I'm no one, that's why I need someone
A shoulder to lean on, when I don't wanna cling on

Get in my head, you can abuse it
Fill me with all of your beautiful bullshit
Tell me I'm worthless, then tell I'm perfect
Confuse me to the point where I think I deserve it

beautiful bullshit. | Produced by elvien

unknxwn. - don't take it. (og) (prod. metlast)

Produced by NIGHT DRESS

This song reflects my deep struggle with vulnerability, creative pressure, and the fear of letting others see my pain. It also captures the complexity of balancing gratitude for my blessings with the lingering weight of unresolved emotions. From a faith-based perspective, this song could be reframed to focus on how God is helping me navigate these emotions and redefine my identity, not as someone who hides pain but as someone who finds strength and healing in Him.

The Fear of Vulnerability:

“I know that you want me to talk but that’s not who I am.”

This line reflects a struggle to be open with others about my pain. The Bible reminds us that vulnerability can be a strength, especially when shared with God or trusted individuals.

“Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way, you will fulfill the law of Christ.” (Galatians 6:2)

Creative Doubt and Identity:

“I feel like everything I make is lame and fucking gross.”

This lyric speaks to the weight of self-doubt in my creative process. God has given me talents and they can be used for His glory, even when you feel inadequate.

“For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” (Ephesians 2:10)

Balancing Gratitude with Pain:

“I’ve been fucking blessed and I don’t wanna seem ungrateful.”

This tension between acknowledging blessings and feeling pain is a common struggle. God understands your emotions and invites you to bring them to Him without fear of judgment.

“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” (1 Peter 5:7)

The Desire for Release:

“Like a bird inside a cage is how I feel when I can’t say.”

This imagery highlights the importance of release and expression. God offers freedom from emotional bondage and gives us the courage to express ourselves honestly and healthily.

“The Spirit of the Lord is on me… to set the oppressed free.” (Luke 4:18)

Lyrics

I used to make a song in 40 minutes, then I'd post
And now it takes me weeks to even finish what I wrote
And then it takes me months to build the courage just to post
I feel like everything I make is lame and fucking gross

I'm sorry I don't scream as much, it's not because I changed
I'm scared to show the ones I love that I'm still feeling pain
Cause I've been fucking blessed and I don't wanna seem ungrateful
And I built up so much I can't afford to be unstable

But I still have a lot of hate inside I'm scared to show
It was easier before, I was the only one who'd know
And now I have to hide it when I feel it
But the hiding never works because I know that you can feel it

So please, I know that you want me to talk but that's not who I am
You want me to be real? Music's the only way I can
So please don't get offended when I say something offensive
That was not what I intended, I'm just tryna clear my mental

Like a bird inside a cage is how I feel when I can't say
What I need and what I want, hurting you is not what I want
So please don't take it personal, when I open up so surgical
Don't hurt me, I'm showing you something

i know that you want me to talk but that's not who i am.

Produced by flower x luffysome

This song vividly captures a deep emotional struggle, showcasing themes of unrequited love, toxic cycles, self-doubt, and the internal conflict between seeking healing and clinging to pain. At its core, it reflects a longing for purpose and worth, yet it’s tied to someone else’s love and approval—a perspective that can leave one feeling perpetually empty.

Healing Through Truth, Not Cycles:

“I tell myself that these songs make me heal but this music the reason I’m toxic.”

This lyric reflects the tension between using music as a release and feeling trapped by it. True healing comes from Christ, who transforms pain into purpose.

“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” (Psalm 147:3)

Misplaced Purpose and Worth:

“Girl loving you is my purpose / If I ain’t with you, I’m worthless.”

This sentiment highlights a misplaced dependency on others for worth. God offers a love that is unwavering and defines your true identity.

“I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.” (Jeremiah 31:3)

Breaking Toxic Cycles:

“Stuck in a cycle, I love it.”

This acknowledgment of being caught in a harmful loop mirrors the human struggle with sin and destructive patterns. Freedom comes through surrendering those cycles to God.

“So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.” (John 8:36)

Burden and Redemption:

“Sorry, I know I’m a burden.”

Though it feels isolating, Jesus invites us to cast our burdens on Him. You are not a burden to God; you are loved and valued.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28)

Lyrics

What I don't, need to do more, what I do, need to do less
I guess I'm just clueless, I'm just stupid, love like cupid, I never had it, I won't get through this
I'll never heal, don't deserve it, I seem alright on the surface
Wait till you see what I surface from all of this pain, I'm hurting

I don't care what you do, you're perfect, girl loving you is my purpose
If I ain't with you, I'm worthless, I can't change my mind, I'm certain
Sorry, I know I'm a burden, flew too close to the sun, I'm burning
And I lost that girl but I'm searching, this ain't a page that I'm turning

This ain't a lesson I'm learning, stuck in a cycle, I love it
Said I was healing, I wasn't, they say time heals wounds but it doesn't
It only makes you forget and honestly that ain't worth shit
Cause I still feel all the effects, I just forgot what caused it

Don't have a heart anymore, gave it to her but she lost it
I tell myself that these songs make me heal but this music the reason I'm toxic
I'm in pain, need to stop it and I don't see any options
What I'm sleeping in bed for? Wanna sleep in a coffin

What I don't, need to do more, what I do, need to do less
I guess I'm just clueless, I'm just stupid, love like cupid, I never had it, I won't get through this
I'll never heal, don't deserve it, I seem alright on the surface
Wait till you see what I surface from all of this pain, I'm hurting

I don't care what you do, you're perfect, girl loving you is my purpose
If I ain't with you, I'm worthless, I can't change my mind, I'm certain
Sorry, I know I'm a burden, flew too close to the sun, I'm burning
And I lost that girl but I'm searching, this ain't a page that I'm turning

i tell myself that these songs make me heal but this music the reason I'm toxic.

Produced by fowni x luffysome

This song is another deeply personal reflection, revealing themes of betrayal, regret, loneliness, and a longing for love. It carries an intense emotional weight and expresses the pain of broken relationships, self-inflicted wounds, and a desire for redemption. From a faith-based perspective, this song can serve as a powerful testimony of transformation, showing the contrast between living for oneself and finding hope and healing in God.

Trusting Others vs. Trusting God:

“Putting my trust into someone and thinking they’ll help me but really get stabbed in the back.”

This reflects the pain of misplaced trust in people who I allowed to let me down. The Bible reminds us to place our ultimate trust in God, who never fails.

“It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in humans.” (Psalm 118:8)

This doesn’t mean you shouldn’t trust others but rather that your foundation should be built on God, who provides security and hope even when others fail.

Self-Destruction and Redemption:

“Miss the old me, was happy on drugs, I been lonely, just wanna feel love.”

This line acknowledges the fleeting comfort of substances and the deeper void they leave behind. True peace and love can only be found in a relationship with Christ.

“Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit.” (Ephesians 5:18)

Regret and Ownership of the Past:

“I knew what I was doing was wrong and I just didn’t care, that’s a fact.”

This honest acknowledgment of past selfishness and wrongdoing is a critical step toward healing and growth. The Bible calls this repentance, and it’s the path to God’s forgiveness.

“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9)

Lyrics

Every time I wake up I wish that I didn't wake up
Wish I could feel her love but I don't deserve her love
Feel like 2019 unknxwn. cause I know that I won't be enough
How the fuck do you think that you know me?
You just know what I got in my cup

Miss the old me, was happy on drugs, I been lonely, just wanna feel love
I was broke so I ran up some bands, why the fuck do I still feel alone?
And I'm sorry to all of my friends that I made wanna leave me alone
I just wish I could tell you thank you, helped me more than you ever could know

What I lost I won't ever get back, it's my fault so I'll leave it at that
I knew what I was doing was wrong and I just didn't care, that's a fact
I ain't care about nobody else, all I cared about then was myself
And I'm honestly still a bit selfish but I'm only like that for my health

I ain't finna go break my back for a bitch that won't ever care about that
I ain't finna go reach my hand out tryna save someone that wouldn't reach back
I ain't finna go waste my time opening up and getting attached
Putting my trust into someone and thinking they'll help me but really get stabbed in the back

Bitch, don't text me, don't wanna chat
Bitch, don't test me, I'll fucking snap
Where my heart should be there is a gap
Cause I gave it to her and she didn't give it back

Okay, she did but that shit turned to ash
So what if she did? Man, that shit wouldn't last
Cause she's all that I need
So I can't let her leave

No, I can't let her go, wish you'd call but I know you won't
I just wish I could let you know when I say "I hate you" just know I don't
I don't even know who I am, am I detmer or garrett or ken?
But I know who I need and they'll never come back again

Every time I wake up I wish that I didn't wake up
Wish I could feel her love but I don't deserve her love
Feel like 2019 unknxwn. cause I know that I won't be enough
How the fuck do you think that you know me?
You just know what I got in my cup

put my trust into someone thinking they'll help me but really get stabbed in the back.

Produced by kledyy

This song carries a deep emotional weight, capturing themes of identity, longing, self-conflict, and inner turmoil. It’s a powerful piece but it’s important to note that it represents a past version of myself that was caught in double-mindedness and seeking validation through relationships, identities, and external recognition.

The lyrics reveal a struggle with self-identity and fractured personas. I express the pain of trying to reconcile different parts of myself—Ken, Detmer, Garrett, Qayin, and unknxwn.—and the longing for someone’s love and acceptance.

From a faith perspective, this could serve as a testimony of how God’s love has provided me with the wholeness and purpose I was searching for through those identities.

Identity:

“Ken is my name but I’m not who he is” reflects the disconnect you felt from your true self.

Biblical truth:

God created you with purpose, and your identity is ultimately rooted in Him.

“I have called you by name; you are mine.” (Isaiah 43:1)

Love and Longing:

“Wish you would tell me you love me, you won’t” expresses a deep yearning for love and acceptance.

Biblical truth: 

God’s love is unconditional and fills the void that no human relationship can.

“The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: ‘I have loved you with an everlasting love.’” (Jeremiah 31:3)

Inner Conflict:

“Garrett told Detmer to unhand me” and “I’m not alive, I’m an echo” capture the battle between the parts of yourself and a sense of emptiness.

Biblical truth:

True peace comes from surrendering all parts of yourself to God.

“A double-minded man is unstable in all his ways.” (James 1:8)

Lyrics

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

Why you leave me on my own?
I need you more than I need my own breath in my body
Cause what is it worth
If you're not the one that I'm spending it on?

Ken, detmer, garrett, qayin, unknxwn.
They came to save me when I was alone
Nobody else did, nobody else will
Nobody on earth will know the pain I feel

Guess I'll explain it again, Ken is my name but I'm not who he is
Detmer is all of the things that he hid, Garrett just wanna make peace and amend
Qayin don't really care who he is, he gone be cool with whoever he with
unknxwn. is an alias we only use it when tryna be confident but we be faking it

Don't call me crazy, I'm not, I make sense to myself and that's all that I got
Cause what's it all matter if what really matters to me is not what I say I believe?
So find out what matters to you & don't ever let it be moved
And don't ever let it get lost, cause you only get one and that's all

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

ken is my name but I'm not who he is.

Produced by GAXILLIC & DreamUnion

Lyrics

I know what I did, please don't rub it in
I'm already beating myself up over it 
And I don't need you telling me what I already told myself
Couldn't care about you hating me, I loathe myself

I tired asking God to forgive what I did
I hurt so many people but that was not my intent
I was tryna heal my mind with a heart that was hurt
I would lie, lie, lie just to feel like I was worth

I wanna die, die, die, put my body in a hearse
I don't know why I feel I'm only getting worse
I can't get no better, fuck this, my head hurts
Won't wash that sweater, I can still smell her

You're not here and you won't be back
I'm so stressed and I can't relax
I send text's but you won't read that
You're the one that got away but I'm just your ex

I needed you but you didn't need me
You never told me that you were leaving
Girl I told you I'd be there for you
Told me I wasn't enough for you

I never know what to do and I'll never know what I did
All of the love that I want is in you but all of the love that you give is to him
What in the fuck did I do wrong? Baby just let me fix it
If we're not meant to be together then this ain't a life worth living

you're the one that got away but i'm just your ex.

Lyrics

Please don't tell me you gone be there, no you won't
Please don't think that I care cause no I don't
Already tried that way too many times, never works
Every time I'm kind, I just always end up hurt
Please don't tell me you don't love me, yes you do
Please don't think we can't make it work after all that we went through
All these times that I cried, you don't understand
You told me you needed spacе but you needed another man
You can live without mе but I don't know if I can
If it isn't you, I don't think I can love again
What'd I do that made you...
What'd I do that made you never wanna talk again?
Please help me understand
I'm holding on to threads, you're prying off my hands
And you don't know how cold it gets, girl, you don't understand
Every time that I cried
There's something more than just 11 letters between you and I

there's more than 11 letters between us.

Lyrics

Broke my heart, ran away
Scream I hate you but my feelings don't match what I say
Make my art from my pain
It's a paradox, wanna let it go, but can't
Where she went I can't go, I know that I'm always gonna end up on my own
Tried love, fell apart, I think that there's something evil growing in my heart
Tried to stop it, I can't stop it, my heart's hardened, out of options
I know I should let you go, if your heart get involved don't let her know
Feel like 2019, give me back my soul
But it's 2024, I ain't a kid no more

i say i hate you but my feelings don't match what i say.

Lyrics

If you look me in my eyes, you can find out what I am
But don't look me in my eyes cause I know that you won’t understand
Please don't go inside my mind cause you probably won't ever get out
Why you leave me for that guy? Can you tell me what that’s all about?
Can you tell me why you left? Can you tell me why you ain't here?
You can take away all my stress, you can take away all my fear
You can take away all my hurt, you can take away all my doubt
You can take away all my pain, you can save me if I drown
But you ain't do that, you gave me all that back
You gave me so much more, I don't think imma come back

I don't think I can be saved
I don't think I'm really worth anything more than pain
I think I need to be...

I think I need to be put in the dirt
Wanted you bad, now I want you worse
I hurt you last but you hurt me first
I don't care if you’re poison, quench my thirst
You’re lost fire, I'll burn
I’m so tired, won't learn
My lesson, I'm stressing
Can you please read my message?
Can you return my call? Why I'm still in my car?
Tryna find where you are, please don't be too far

i don't care if you're poison just quench my thirst.

Lyrics

Getting sick of holding on, that girl's all I need
Nothing else that I could want
Some girl hit my line, I told that bitch to go kick rocks
Your name isn’t hers, I don't wanna talk, I don't wanna talk
I don’t wanna open up, I don't wanna do this anymore, I'm giving up
You divided us, man this shit ain't adding up
You think what I say is crazy, you just ain't been sad enough
You don't understand my pain, you just ain't been hurt bad enough
Ain't no tears inside my body, I done cried too fucking much
’Bout the same damn shit, bout the same damn pain
’Bout the same damn bitch, bout the same damn thing
I can't get out my brain, I’m so sick, I'm so lame

And I'm stuck, I can't change
It’s been so many years and the spot I'm in the same

Getting sick of letting go, I don't need that bitch
I don't want you anymore
I got bitches in my phone I know I should leavе alone
I know you ain't her, I'll pretеnd you are
You can open up but baby I don't need to talk
Tell me your desires, tell me all your flaws
Baby, take me higher, give me what I want
I won't ever find her, I'll always be lost

i could move a thousand miles away and still be in the same place.

Lyrics

I know you're not around, I know you'll never be
I know I'll never feel that feeling of you next to me
I know I'm better off and we're not meant to be
I wish you knew how much you really fucking meant to me

You look at me, all you see is just an artist
I look at myself and all I see is fucking garbage
I know I ain't perfect but I ain't even worth it
If my life was a window, I would wanna close the curtains

I got something in my chest, I can't really get it out
Baby, you the best, I don't wanna live without
You at fucking all, so please don't ever leave
I ain't wanna fall but that's what you did to me

Yeah that's probably what I'd say if you'd ever fucking answer
Won't even tell me hey, it's been eating like a cancer
What'd I do wrong? I'll never know
I'm all alone, I just wish I could go

I know you're not around, I know you'll never be
I know I'll never feel that feeling of you next to me
I know I'm better off and we're not meant to be
I wish you knew how much you really fucking meant to me

garbage.

Lyrics

I say I hate you but I won't let you go
I say I hate you but you still in my phone
I say I hate you, I say I hate you..
I say I hate you but in my heart, I don't
I say I hate you but girl we both damn know that I still want you
Baby, why you hurt me? Baby, where you run too?
Baby, don't desert me
Baby girl, I need you
Why you do me like that?
Everything I gave to you but you won't give me...
You won't give me all that, you won't even call back
You're all that I care about, I'm about to air it out
I cry into silence but I swear you gone hear me out
I'm not even violent but you know how to bring it out
You know to get me to open up, touch my heart, and just go rip it out

*auditory agony*

Dear mе, love you
What did I turn into?
Don't recognize my rеflection
I hate what I've succumbed to

*auditory agony*

auditory agony.

Produced by swkillmeee

Lyrics

I don't know, I don't know why
Can you please, can you tell me?
Wish I could but I won't cry
Even if I did you wouldn't hear me (x3)

You could cut me open
And you still wouldn't see me
You could wrap your hands around my heart
And you still wouldn't feel me

You could tell me "fuck off"
And I still would be there
You could cut my legs off
And wherever you go, I still would get there

"ken, i fucking hate you"

BEAUTY & THE BEAST YOU'RE MY BELLE
WHY THE FUCK YOU HIDING?
KINDA FEEL LIKE 9TAILS
WTF IM CRYING

AND I KNOW THAT YOU HATE ME
AND YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU
SO I DON'T EVEN CARE IF YOU HURT ME
I JUST WANNA GET THE CHANCE TO HOLD YOU

I DON'T KNOW, I DON'T KNOW WHY
CAN YOU PLEASE, CAN YOU TELL ME?
WISH I COULD BUT I WON'T CRY
EVEN IF I DID YOU WOULDN'T HEAR ME

belle.

@prodreaper

Art by Beka Nicole

Lyrics

Everyday I wake up same old shit
Same life same thoughts same all black fit
Mom disappointed with the same damn kid
Still broke still sad still real feelings hid

I aint got a job Ima be a fucking bum
Still broke still sad still living with my mom
In the same damn house in the same damn room
With the same damn mind and the same damn veiw

Hate it that I have created this world that I'm in
And I cannot erase it 
Yeah I make music but that's fucking basic
I just wish that I could make myself face it

I'm in despair hmu when I'm not
There aint no pill to fix what I have got
But that smoke chill me out when I am feelin' hot
So I dont give a fuck if my brain gonna rot

Broke is expensive and I cant afford
unknxwn. aint the person that you should adore
Everynight when I write I just fall to the floor
Then the carpet just soaks up my tears even more

I'm a sad piece of shit
I aint gone never gone get me a bitch
I aint gone never gone feel any bliss
If I took my life I dont think I'd be missed

We all been raised to think money is real
To the point where people would even kill
Aint gonna lie to be honest I will
Hate seein' mail and all of it is bills

I'm in despair hmu when I'm not
There aint no pill to fix what I have got
But that smoke chill me out when I am feelin' hot
So I dont give a fuck if my brain gonna rot

unknxwn. - Despair

I'm too busy in despair.

spotify.

i'm too busy in despair: part 1 | Produced by reaper

@rxdlxst

Lyrics

Why do I beg for your love when I'm feelin' depressed when I know that it's only a lie
Why do I fight to keep livin' this world is a mess and I think that it's better to die
Why do I keep writing songs that are so hard to finish that reflect the pain that I try
To hide from the people that care for me most, I know when I pass they're the ones that'll cry

I cannot cope with the fact that I'll never be good enough for anyone to be pleased
I'm always left in the past and they don't even hesitate, I am forgotten with ease
Autumn has fallen and so has my heart, the spark that I had is now dead like the leaves
Don't waste your time on unknxwn. cause he'll never amount to the one that you want him to be

All black, bucket hat, white shoes, heart bruised
Hopes up, nevermind, bummed out, defuse
All black, bucket hat, white shoes, heart bruised
Hopes up, nevermind, bummed out, defuse

I'm the emboiment of all the problems that ruin your life when it's too hard to solve em
I am the reason you break down in tears when the one that you love hits decline when you call em
I am the small little push that'll get you to fall when you're already stuck on the edge
I am the shovel that's already dug out your grave and just waiting for you to be dead

unknxwn. - defuse

defuse.

defuse. | Produced by rxdlxst

@prodreaper

Lyrics

Took a break but I'm back now
All the friends I had in the past now
I'm up front you background
I'll smoke a blunt then pass out

Pissed off I'll lash out
Why you throwin' rocks from a glass house
My jansport got a half ounce
You sleepin' now but you'll snap out

Can't even cope with the stress I'm a mess
And at best I'm just less when compared to the rest
Guess I'm depressed so I choose to supress
I don't wanna confess I just wanna progress

You never take any time to see if I'm fine
I guess were on opposite sides
You didnt stay through the dark of my mind
Don't come around when you see that I shine

Don't expect anything from me cause I don't owe anyone shit
I did this all on my own, I aint get help from no friend
I ain't did anyone wrong, why you left I'll never get
I'm making hits till I hit, I aint gone ever gone quit

unknxwn. - all in the past

all in the past.

all in the past. | Produced by reaper

Art by: @grimapparition

Lyrics

I don't understand why I feel the way I feel
Just to not be sad I be taking fucking pills
Soundin' like a bum but the shit I say too real
Flowin' with emotion you don't know cause I conceal
I do it too well, and honestly its sad
Coming off as golden when I feel like fucking trash
Every bridge I had is now nothing but the ash
Fuck I'm holding back too much I'm about to fucking crash

Sit back I'm about to make you fucking wish that
You never gave me all the fucking pain I'm bouta give back
Kick back smokin' on some shit that make you trip back
Slip back into the abyss I made with this track
Flick that lighter back up on the blunt I kiss that
I don't even rap, I just steady fucking spit facts
Tic tac toe I X you out you needa get back
Everything in every line just make em wanna skip back

Write fast you try keeping up then you just write trash
I fuck up a type beat you just it make it type bad
Might add, do this on my own I got no right hand
I stopped wishing that I could, now I fucking know I can
Slow down, you cant catch the flow now
Wrote down, turn it into dope sound
Hope now, I cant fucking slow down
Broke now, not for long no doubt

I don't understand why I feel the way I feel
Just to not be sad I be taking fucking pills
Soundin' like a bum but the shit I say too real
Flowin' with emotion you don't know cause I conceal
I do it too well, and honestly its sad
Coming off as golden when I feel like fucking trash
Every bridge I had now is nothing but the ash
Fuck I'm holding back too much I'm about to fucking crash

Sit back I'm about to make you fucking wish that
You never gave me all the fucking pain I'm bouta give back
Kick back smokin' on some shit that make you trip back
Slip back into the abyss I made with this track
Flick that lighter back up on the blunt I kiss that
I don't even rap, I just steady fucking spit facts
Tic tac toe I X you out you needa get back
Everything in every line just make em wanna skip back

unknxwn. - ashes

ashes.

ashes. | Produced by Zølenya

@prodreaper

Lyrics

Honestly havent had happiness happening hollow inside of my mind
Its hard not to hate everything when its all that you feel and its all you can find
Don't hold your breath waiting for me to save you, I'm too far away from divine
We can talk or whatever but dont catch no feelings cause thats where I'm drawin' the line

I don't mean to sound like a bitch but thats just how I feel and I'm not gonna change
I learned if don't let your heart get involved when they leave you won't feel any pain
Don't get upset about losing me, from the start there was nothing to gain
Is the shit that I feel even real or just chemicals making their way through my brain

Frozen I'm cold, broken to bone
Everyone left, now I'm alone
I don't think anybody really cared
Cause when I went ghost no one hit up my phone

I haven't left my room for months
Sneaking and smoking on broken blunts
Why do I feel like all hope is up
Why am I wishin' on broken luck

Avoiding my dreams, so I'm staying up late, I seen the night turn to morning
Avoiding all people, don't wanna go out, everything too fucking boring
Drownin' my issues when they come to shore, with all the poison I'm pouring
Leaving no space for nobody to love, with all the shit that I'm storing

unknxwn. - dark light

dark light.

dark light. | Produced by reaper

@hatefulbeats

Lyrics

How in the fuck did I manage to lose every person I spent all my time with
Tryna create a connection thats stronger than time and that could be considered as timeless
It hurts even more cause I'm still tryna figure out where in the hell it went wrong
I don't wanna talk about how much it hurts to a person so I take it out on a song

I take it out on myself, I take it out on my physical and mental health
I fucking hate what I felt, I'm getting worse and I don't even think you can tell
I make myself wanna quit, filling my mind with a person I need to forget
Honestly I'm fucking pissed, I can't see the future but I never thought it'd be this

I don't really wanna try meeting new friends
I don't wanna waste my time on something that'll end
What the fuck is happy? I can only pretend
Leaving it to God in itself is a sin
You're the only person with the power in your life
That can change for the better with the state that you're in
You're the only person that can give your life a purpose on this earth
And make it all worth it again

I don't wanna feel this pain
I don't wanna play this game
I don't wanna keep writing songs that're sad
I just want my life to change
I just don't wanna let life slip away, and die with a void of regret
I don't wanna keep waking up and not get out of bed because I'm too upset

unknxwn. - i still feel it all

i still feel it all.

i still feel it all. | Produced by hateful

Lyrics

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
When I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

Will I end in suicide?
These are things inside my mind
That I always try to hide
But it's hard to always fight

So I'll let it all be known
Show some things I've never shown
Learn some things you've never known about me
Evil in me

I've done things I'll never cope with
Might be bad to show this
I take back what I said
I'm keeping it all in my head

I won't love again
Stuck in the pain, I been smothering
Nothing to hope for in life except for the end
Don't think that my pain is a trend
I been so lost in the thoughts of my mental
How in the fuck did I get so far away from myself? It don't make sense
I'm in love with the fact that I hate shit
Took shit so long ain't no wonder I take shit
Hood on my head, don't you look at my face, I'm not confident, I cannot take it
I'll never be fine because you wasted my time
You played with my mind, thought you were a dime but that's a lie
You left me alone and I wanna know, bitch why?

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

why don't i feel alive? | Produced by Raspo

Lyrics

I don't like the way I feel when I'm alone without you here
All I do is scream for help but I don't think you ever hear
Hate inside my veins everyday that you're away 
And I don't feel the same, I just wanna see your face

I wanna get so fucked up right now but I'm really trying not to go that route
I can't even lie I really miss your touch now, I really wish you'd come back now
I don't see the point of going on without you
I get so annoyed when I wake up without you here

I feel like ice
My skin so cold
I miss those nights
You'd hold me close

My voice breaks and cracks when I talk to you now 
I don't think we'll get back when you were still around 
I hate that fucking song where I sampled your laugh
Because it really shows you laugh at me when I'm down

I have so much more love than I would ever show 
And I did so damn much that you will never know
And it was all for you but you're a fucking ghost 
I'm glad we're fucking through but I don't really know

there's more than 11 letters between us.

Archive: unknxwn.