i don't wanna leave my bed.

Lyrics

I can do a lot with this microphone and my thoughts
For 5 whole years I only took a couple nights off
And every time I did I met a new demon to fight off
Safe to say I learned my lesson, all I see now is progression

I don't focus on the path ahead
I been making my own sometimes don't know where to step
So sometimes I fall through, don't know where to run to
Relapse or rewind that's what I'm never gone do

You could never fathom what I feel
I'm the only me so only I know what it is
Not saying I'm special but I got a head full
Of memories I only that I went through

Truthfully all of our lives are a lie
We all wake up choose who to be just to survive
The real you is the farthest from who you are
If you take off that mask you won't know who you are

Neither would I, I'm scared of what's inside
Of this head full of thoughts that I always will hide
I barely cry cause I wasted so many tears
With the time that I did could of moved on from it

I'm a wizard, I spell out these words
Spit a verse like it's magic but some are a curse
Turn something tragic to something that's worse
Now I watch what I say cause these vibrations lurk

You could never fathom what I feel
I'm the only me so only I know what it is
Not saying I'm special but I got a head full
Of memories I only that I went through

Truthfully all of our lives are a lie
We all wake up choose who to be just to survive
The real you is the farthest from who you are
If you take off that mask you won't know who you are

Find my mind when I'm losing it, havoc I'm fluent in
Told me don't do it, I'm doing it
This beat is a drug, I'm abusing it
I don't like talking to people, I'm threw with it

I sit in front a screen just screaming
Sat in the back of class just dreaming
'Member you laughin at what I believed in
Don't come to me actin like I was believed in

truthfully.

Lyrics

I don't know what I would do
If ever was without you
I don't know what I should do
When I wake up without you

You're my peace of mind
I don't know how you managed that
But keep it up
Baby, keep it up

I don't just like you, I love you more than I could
Care to explain, you took away all of my pain
And I couldn't thank you enough for that
So I'll just make sure that your needs are never lacked

Nothing matters if it doesn't concern you
I'm sorry I hurt you, I just wanna love you
But I was scared, never met someone like you before
So before you got rid of me I thought I'd do it before

But I was wrong, you were different and I know now
I know that I make mistakes but I won't ever go now
I apologize for everything I put you through
So till death do us part, I won't move on from you

I don't know what I would do
If ever was without you
I don't know what I should do
When I wake up without you

You're my peace of mind
I don't know how you managed that
But keep it up
Baby, keep it up

spotify.

hbidaily. | Produced by septfree

slumber.

Baby why you do that?
Tell me what I did bad
I don't wanna move on
I want you to come back

I'll tell you my secrets
Only if you keep it
I been on the deep end
You're my only reason

I don't choose to let go
Sink into the darkness
I don't need no help
No one could ever solve this

Problem that I got inside
My stupid noggin
Don't know how to cope
Throw my fist at where the wall is

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

You were all I lived for
Wish we coulda been more
Ever since the day you left
I can only feel sore

I thought you said you loved me
Why you treat me like I'm nothing?

Do you think it's funny to come back into my life when
I finally get you out of my head and stop inviting?
You think I don't know where you live and who you lie with?
Play with my heart ever again, that's who you'll die with

You think I went too far?
But I ain't took a step yet
You think I'm a lover boy
There's a void inside of my chest

It won't be filled till she fills a fucking casket
I won't be healed while she lives, I'm getting drastic
I thought I told you, I'm not angel
But I know how I can make you see a halo

I need you but you don't need me anywhere as much
I'd bleed for you, even when you're the one that cuts me deep
I'll fiend for you till the day
I don't awake from the last nights sleep

loverboy.

Produced by sockedbeatz

Lyrics

I know that I'm bound to be forgotten
So please stop hounding me, don't care about it
There's not just one devil on my shoulder, I'm surrounded
She think I'm an angel just because of how I'm sounding

All I know is pain, that's what I'm used to
I won't find myself if I don't lose you
I don't understand why you won't leave me
Can you cause me pain? That's what I'm needing

I don't wanna leave my mark, wanna mark my departure
I don't care if she lied, I don't care if she using me, I'm sad, I lost her
I don't want you, you're not her, shut the fuck up, I don't care
What's in my cup I won't share, I need her back and I swear

I'll get her back cause I can't live without her, she don't understand
What don't I have that another man does? Can you tell me why you ran?
Can you tell me where you are? I'ma find where you stay, I know you ain't far
Out of my mind but I'm in my...out of my mind but I'm in my heart

In my feelings, I can't get out I tried
Girl, just tell me why did you ever lie?

I don't wanna leave my mark, wanna mark my departure
I don't care if she lied, I don't care if she using me, I'm sad, I lost her
I don't want you, you're not her, shut the fuck up, I don't care
What's in my cup I won't share, I need her back and I swear

I'll get her back cause I can't live without her, she don't understand
What don't I have that another man does? Can you tell me why you ran?
Can you tell me where you are? I'ma find where you stay, I know you ain't far
Out of my mind but I'm in my...out of my mind but I'm in my heart

i won't find myself if i don't lose you.

Lyrics

Wish you knew what you meant but you don't cause
If you did, from my love, you would not run
You wouldn't have left me, you wouldn't have did that
You wouldn't distress me
What I gave to you, you'd give back
You would've came back by now
Did me wrong, you ain't think I would find out?
Old me would've been folding, went and got drunk
'Cause I can't get high now
I really wish I could cry now, but I can't cause my tears all dried out
I'm at a point in my life, I ain't got time to waste
Either do or I don't, I can't try now

Really hurt my heart when you left, I don't know how to deal with this stress
And I'm only just gonna get worse
I don't believe in myself enough to be the best
Don't remind me of what I did, I don't know how to do it again
And I know that I did you wrong but I wish that we could be friends

i'm only gonna get worse, i don't believe in myself enough to be the best.

Lyrics

I say I hate you but I won't let you go
I say I hate you but you still in my phone
I say I hate you, I say I hate you..
I say I hate you but in my heart, I don't
I say I hate you but girl we both damn know that I still want you
Baby, why you hurt me? Baby, where you run too?
Baby, don't desert me
Baby girl, I need you
Why you do me like that?
Everything I gave to you but you won't give me...
You won't give me all that, you won't even call back
You're all that I care about, I'm about to air it out
I cry into silence but I swear you gone hear me out
I'm not even violent but you know how to bring it out
You know to get me to open up, touch my heart, and just go rip it out

*auditory agony*

Dear mе, love you
What did I turn into?
Don't recognize my rеflection
I hate what I've succumbed to

*auditory agony*

auditory agony.

Produced by flower x fonkyfake

Lyrics

Holding on to nothing
I don't care, I just needed something
Drugs I'm off and drinking? Stopped it
Had to resort to another option

Don't know where I'll go from here though
I wanna save you but I'm not a hero
I need God, I need a miracle
I don't think my vice is curable

This ain't talent, this is pain embodied
Speaking through my body
I'm not alive, I'm a zombie
Pain is what I eat when hungry

Lost my heart, I won't ever find it
My mind's dark and I won't ever light it
I been battling my demons and I'm tired of the fighting
Fuck ken, detmer's who I can confide in

I don't wanna hide it
Yeah, I kinda like it
I don't wanna fall short
But I might really fall in

God can you forgive me?
For I know not what I do
Will it take away the pain?
If I give it all to you?

this ain't talent, this is pain.

Icarus:(

Just wanna go back to the days when I wasnt depressed and my life wasnt shit
Cause now all I do is just cry in my bed cause I think about shit that I need to forget
When I wake up I reach straight for the shovel I'm diggin' myself deeper into the pit
Life is a puzzle but the way that we live our life puts you in a place that you dont fit

I'm seeing shit that I wish that I couldent
And I'm doing things that I wish that I wouldent
My feelings are fucked idk how to put it
I keep giving up and I know that I shouldn't
But as of recently I have no care
Don't waste my time I aint got none to spare
Said that you'd be there but now I'm like where
I dont play by the rules because life isnt fair
Used to want friends
Now I just want it to end
No longer wanna pretend
Thought I was making my way out the void
But the whole time I been falling back in
This shit is fucked
Why am I never enough
I can never call the bluff
Summer was straight 
My depression was left
But school came right
And now I feel stuck

Always inside of my bed
Sleeping on positive thoughts that are inside my head
Fighting with feelings that tear me apart that are deep inside my heart insted
You feel alive while throwing out lies but I speak the truth and I feel like I'm dead
I'll say my goodbyes and cut off my ties then open the bottle OD on the meds

Why open up? I don't see why I should
Why try to be happy when I never could
I rather fake my smile and say that I'm good
Than sayin' I'm fuckin' depressed
Sick of the shit I been givin' 
I bouta give up because
Honestly I'm fuckin' pressed
I'm gonna snap if you treat me the same as everyone else
And leave just like the rest
Warning you now not to fuck with the last of my feelings
Cause I'll do some shit I'll regret
Tell me you care whenever you can
Because if don't I'll just sit and forget
The way that I'm livin' my life
I'd honestly be better off playing russian roulette
I dont feel like I should try
I'm down in the dumps and I'm fucking upset

truthfully.

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