deleted track "​i’m not evil." by @unknxwn7 (detmer, garrett)
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Lyrics

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

I keep seeing shit that I just tend to hate
Anger I been fiending it, without it I can't make
Now I'm on the edge, I might jump into the lake
I can't get out of my head, I don't wanna even think

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Why the fuck do I feel this?
How the fuck do I heal this?
Everyone in my mentions
Telling me that I kill shit

I wish that shit was me
I don't wanna deal with me
God a sign I need to see
I don't know if I can be

Who I need to, I don't mean to
Come off like this, I'm not evil
I am only just a human, just like you
That's going through it

Tryna figure out what I should figure out
Nothing even matters, we all end up in the ground

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

​i’m not evil. (prod. puhf)

so long. (unmixed/snippet)

Lyrics

I can do a lot with this microphone and my thoughts
For 5 whole years I only took a couple nights off
And every time I did I met a new demon to fight off
Safe to say I learned my lesson, all I see now is progression

I don't focus on the path ahead
I been making my own sometimes don't know where to step
So sometimes I fall through, don't know where to run to
Relapse or rewind that's what I'm never gone do

You could never fathom what I feel
I'm the only me so only I know what it is
Not saying I'm special but I got a head full
Of memories I only that I went through

Truthfully all of our lives are a lie
We all wake up choose who to be just to survive
The real you is the farthest from who you are
If you take off that mask you won't know who you are

Neither would I, I'm scared of what's inside
Of this head full of thoughts that I always will hide
I barely cry cause I wasted so many tears
With the time that I did could of moved on from it

I'm a wizard, I spell out these words
Spit a verse like it's magic but some are a curse
Turn something tragic to something that's worse
Now I watch what I say cause these vibrations lurk

You could never fathom what I feel
I'm the only me so only I know what it is
Not saying I'm special but I got a head full
Of memories I only that I went through

Truthfully all of our lives are a lie
We all wake up choose who to be just to survive
The real you is the farthest from who you are
If you take off that mask you won't know who you are

Find my mind when I'm losing it, havoc I'm fluent in
Told me don't do it, I'm doing it
This beat is a drug, I'm abusing it
I don't like talking to people, I'm threw with it

I sit in front a screen just screaming
Sat in the back of class just dreaming
'Member you laughin at what I believed in
Don't come to me actin like I was believed in

truthfully.

lyrics

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

Why she acting like she want to talk to me?
Tell me what you really want and get the fuck up off of me
We were never even close, why the fuck you blocking me?
Sensitive as fuck, so it's better not to talk to me, talk to him
Seem to know so fucking much about each other now
You can have your fun while I'm suffocating underground
I don't give a fuck, both you fuckers fucking put me down
Now I'm fucking hurt and there's no one around to be found

unknxwn. - Faults.

unknxwn. - faults.

I can't live without you
All my songs are all about you
I know that I don't amount to
Anything that's worth your time

I can't live without you
All my songs are all about you
I know that I don't amount to
Anything that's worth your time

I don't wanna go through
Life if I won't ever hold you
I been tryna show you
I was true with what I told you

But you don't care to know me
And you won't ever show me
That you feel what I feel
Guess I won't ever heal

I can't live without you
All my songs are all about you
I know that I don't amount to
Anything that's worth your time

I can't live without you
All my songs are all about you
I know that I don't amount to
Anything that's worth your time

ICLWY!

Produced by septfree

This song reflects a raw, unfiltered expression of heartbreak, unrequited love, and obsession. The pain and longing in these lyrics capture a deep emotional struggle and also exposes the dangers of placing one’s identity and worth in another person. From a faith-based perspective, this song could serve as a powerful testimony of how unhealthy attachment can be transformed through God’s healing and the discovery of His unconditional love.

Unrequited Love:

“What I saw in you, you did not see in me.”

This line conveys the pain of loving someone who cannot reciprocate. From a Biblical perspective, this speaks to the human tendency to seek fulfillment in relationships rather than in God, who is the only source of complete love and acceptance.

Scripture reminder:

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” (Psalm 34:18)

Obsession and Idolatry:

“Girl, you my drug, I’m a fiend.”

This suggests the unhealthy attachment and idolatry of another person. Biblically, anything we place above God in our hearts becomes an idol, which leads to emotional and spiritual harm.

Scripture reminder:

“You shall have no other gods before me.” (Exodus 20:3)

Heartbreak and Agony:

“Look at my heart, look at all these scars.”

The scars represent the emotional wounds caused by misplaced hope. Healing begins when those wounds are brought before God, who can mend them.

Scripture reminder:

“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” (Psalm 147:3)

Lyrics

Care so much about you but you don't see that
Told you that you were the one, you told me that you never could be that
And I know what that really means, what I saw in you, you did not see in me
What I saw in you I still ain't seen, girl you my drug, I'm a fiend

Where my hug at? This ain't a meme
Girl I need you, call me please
It's okay, I don't care if you lie
Can you tell me you love me?

I don't wanna leave june in july
My body is sick of this place
Too many games and I don't wanna play
I still got time but I don't wanna stay

All of the colors I knew are now grey
I really wish I knew what I should say
It's been so many God damn years
Why the fuck would you ask me if I am okay?

Did it stop your heart when you saw your name?
Oh, you thought changing it'd keep me away?
Oh, you thought changing it was the end of it?
I'm making songs but bitch I'm not pretending it

Just cause you don't love me don't mean that I stopped
Ooo shit, okay I'm blocked
You really think that mean something at all?
I'm down the street and I'm parked in my car

I can see you in yo God damn yard
You don't see me hiding in the dark
Look at my heart, look at all these scars...

*auditory agony*

NEED HER BACK, ALL I HAD THEN
NEED HER CLOSE, GIRL WHAT HAPPENED?
THOUGHT WE HAD SOMETHING SPECIAL
GUESS I WAS WRONG, GUESS I WAS WRONG

Care so much about you but you don't see that
Told you that you were the one, you told me that you never could be that
And I know what that really means, what I saw in you, you did not see in me
What I saw in you I still ain't seen, girl you my drug, I'm a fiend

just because you don't love me doesn't mean that i stopped.

Produced by flower x luffysome

This song expresses raw pain, rejection, and a deep longing for love and validation. It reflects a cycle of seeking fulfillment through a relationship, embracing pain as a necessity and using anger as a coping mechanism. From a faith-based perspective, it highlights the emptiness of trying to fill a void that only God can truly satisfy. It’s another piece of my story that could be reframed as a testimony to healing and transformation.

Misplaced Identity and Worth:

“I need the pain, I ain’t nothing without it.”

This line reflects a dependency on pain and rejection to define my identity, which ultimately leads to toxicity and despair. God calls us to find our worth in Him, not in our suffering or others’ approval.

“But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession.” (1 Peter 2:9)

The Futility of Seeking Validation:

“Gave her my heart, she ain’t care nothing about it.”

This lyric echoes a common struggle: placing your heart in the hands of someone who cannot fulfill its needs. God offers the love and care that no human can perfectly provide.

“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” (1 Peter 5:7)

Embracing Pain as Inspiration:

“Fuck inspiration / I just got hate inside of my body and this where I take it.”

While pain has driven my creative process, this lyric reveals the limitations of using anger and despair as a source of inspiration. God invites us to channel our experiences toward healing and purpose.

“Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.” (Romans 12:21)

Longing for Love and Connection:

“I just wanted to hold your hand.”

This simple yet profound statement speaks to a yearning for closeness and intimacy. The Bible reminds us that God is always present, offering a love that fulfills this deep need.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” (Psalm 34:18)

Lyrics

Some of my music might make you uncomfortable
If that's the case then it's not meant for you
I need the pain, I ain't nothing without it
So girl you can hurt me if that work for you

Gave her my heart, she ain't care nothing about it
Like bitch, can't you see that I did this for you?
That girl got the key to my heart
The lengths I would go, she don't know how far

I need the pain, I ain't nothing without it
Say she love me but I fucking doubt it
Nobody saved me, I was drowning
They don't hear what I'm saying, they just hear how I'm sounding

She don't care that I'm hurting, she left me deserted
I want her love but I guess I ain't worth it
I just spoke up, don't ask how I wrote it
I feel like a rodent

Everybody I see only wanna get rid of me
You don't understand what you just did to me
Girl, I wish that you knew what you meant to me
I'm so good to you but you so mean to me

What you mean to me, guess I don't mean to you
Girl, you're my drug and I fiend for you
Baby, call me when your lips are black
I would bleed for you

Some of my music might make you uncomfortable
If that's the case then it's not meant for you
I need the pain, I ain't nothing without it
So girl you can hurt me if that work for you

Gave her my heart, she ain't care nothing about it
Like bitch, can't you see that I did this for you?
That girl got the key to my heart
The lengths I would go, she don't know how far

Know that I should but I can't let it go
Did so much but you don't even know
If she isn't there then I don't wanna go
Need the pain so I don't wanna cope

Fuck inspiration
I just got hate inside of my body and this where I take it
Broke my heart but bitch, I ain't breaking
This a song but bitch, I ain't faking

Bitch I ain't faking, I swear
I would prove it to you if I cared
But I don't so I guess that you won't
And it's cool cause I know that you don't

Understand all the shit that I'm sayin'
I just wanted to be your man
I just wanted to hold your hand
But you told me that I can't

i just wanted to hold your hand.

Produced by kledyy

This song carries a deep emotional weight, capturing themes of identity, longing, self-conflict, and inner turmoil. It’s a powerful piece but it’s important to note that it represents a past version of myself that was caught in double-mindedness and seeking validation through relationships, identities, and external recognition.

The lyrics reveal a struggle with self-identity and fractured personas. I express the pain of trying to reconcile different parts of myself—Ken, Detmer, Garrett, Qayin, and unknxwn.—and the longing for someone’s love and acceptance.

From a faith perspective, this could serve as a testimony of how God’s love has provided me with the wholeness and purpose I was searching for through those identities.

Identity:

“Ken is my name but I’m not who he is” reflects the disconnect you felt from your true self.

Biblical truth:

God created you with purpose, and your identity is ultimately rooted in Him.

“I have called you by name; you are mine.” (Isaiah 43:1)

Love and Longing:

“Wish you would tell me you love me, you won’t” expresses a deep yearning for love and acceptance.

Biblical truth: 

God’s love is unconditional and fills the void that no human relationship can.

“The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: ‘I have loved you with an everlasting love.’” (Jeremiah 31:3)

Inner Conflict:

“Garrett told Detmer to unhand me” and “I’m not alive, I’m an echo” capture the battle between the parts of yourself and a sense of emptiness.

Biblical truth:

True peace comes from surrendering all parts of yourself to God.

“A double-minded man is unstable in all his ways.” (James 1:8)

Lyrics

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

Why you leave me on my own?
I need you more than I need my own breath in my body
Cause what is it worth
If you're not the one that I'm spending it on?

Ken, detmer, garrett, qayin, unknxwn.
They came to save me when I was alone
Nobody else did, nobody else will
Nobody on earth will know the pain I feel

Guess I'll explain it again, Ken is my name but I'm not who he is
Detmer is all of the things that he hid, Garrett just wanna make peace and amend
Qayin don't really care who he is, he gone be cool with whoever he with
unknxwn. is an alias we only use it when tryna be confident but we be faking it

Don't call me crazy, I'm not, I make sense to myself and that's all that I got
Cause what's it all matter if what really matters to me is not what I say I believe?
So find out what matters to you & don't ever let it be moved
And don't ever let it get lost, cause you only get one and that's all

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

ken is my name but I'm not who he is.

vanished. (2021)

YoungNate - Hustle Ft Rack$ (Jpbeatz)

all credit to:
https://soundcloud.com/unknxwn7

lyrics : 
i feel not alive
fighting my mind trying not to die
dont know how to deal with the pain inside
so i make a song put the pain inside
every time i feel alone i got nowhere to go
they dont see the pain i got no one to show
this graph of mine goes lower and lower
one day i hope that its over
fuck my life
will i go to sleep no not tonight
i just wanna see that fucking light
i dont wanna live another night
when the moon comes up so do my problems
like algebra i cant solve em
fuck one cup
i need the bottle
i dont cut but im self harming
she seems okay
im not over
im so full now
im knocked over
im not alright nor okay
it'll get better but not today
she seems okay
im not over
im so full now
im knocked over
im not alright nor okay
it'll get better but not today

vanished. (2021)

Archive: unknxwn.

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