Lyrics

Drunk, stuck, don't give a fuck
I still ain't had me enough
Why so shook? Knew what was up
I never lied about none

I told you I wasn't what
You were still searching to find
You hurt you
I was just taking advantage and passing the time

I'm not even what's close to divine
I lost hope and I never will find
It again, I'm in the shit again, I'm never fitting in, God I know that I'm not getting in
Your heaven, I'm hellbent on my only purpose

You think I'm at the top
But I feel like I'm losing
Life's hard wanna stop
Something in me keep choosing

To fight off these thoughts
That tell me let it off
That tell me that I'm not
Worth everything that I got

That bitch ain't care
Why the fuck should I?
There's some in the air
That makes me wanna die

So why do I fight?
When I think I'm lost?
Maybe because I
Can only fight when lost

Stuck in a cycle, that's how my life go
Honestly think that I'm psycho
Midnight, can't keep my eyes closed
I might need Nyquil, I never like it when I feel

Like I can't sleep cause you'll be in my dreams
Even when you don't care you're the one that I see
In my life for the rest of eternity
Why this love in my chest keep on burning me?

Why the girl that I love keep on hurting me?
Don't know what's wrong with me, everyone always deserting me
God why the fuck did you burden me? Death is an urgency
All my emotions are murkin' me

mercury.

sad chill - https://youtu.be/n01hH8t4nO0?si=kJQfxJlaZQOVOHuk

lyrics ⬇️ 

(brecken)
everything’s been cold since you left me
over and over I thought  were never ending 
now we’re crying in the back seat
don’t leave me here alone
don’t leave me to bleed
yeaaaa
Everything we hoped for
Never meant a thing there’s no receipt 

you told me I’m a closed door
well there’s so much that you could never see

i change my attitude when you said that  I cannot defeat you
i don’t need no body else to tell me something when ur see through
i know I need you 
I just wanna please you

ill never leave you
i jus wanna teach you
that anything could go wrong when im gone
wake up every morning hoping that ur still in love
maybe its been long enough since i ahd opened up
ill tell you what ive done
i ruined what once was

and its been long enough since i had trust
i really never feel like im enough
ill tell you for the last time
i ruined what once was

what once was w/ lil booj & halfhearted (yunnygoldz)

Lyrics

Winter's here now I feel at home
If you're not here then I don't have one
I feel fear when I don't feel you 
How could I not fall apart when you
Left here but didn't take me there with you
I guess what you are to me I'm not that for you
Every thing that I said bad for you
I tried my fucking best to be there for you

winter. | Produced by nowhere valley

https://open.spotify.com/track/65CyUFbuHMgrcVCqI8Z2UI?si=5Q0qGd90QimlaC4vH9RSSw 

linktr.ee/lottaheart

produced by smokerose

-shoutout @jolst for mastering this-

used to have a heart now im heartless
walk around at night in the darkness
thinkin bout how time's passed too fast
 i coulda sworn you said, "if i crash, you crash"

im in my car lookin at the sky
lookin at the stars, look at how they shine
even though they're far, they're not hard to find
used to have a heart but you let it die
[x2]

used to have a heart now im heartless
walk around at night in the darkness
thinkin bout how time's passed too fast
 i coulda sworn you said, "if i crash, you crash"

i try to fall asleep but somethin bout it's torturous
haunt my memory, i wish that i could torch it
want you next to me, this shits so unfortunate
i'd do anything to see you at my doorstep

im in my car lookin at the sky
lookin at the stars, look at how they shine
even though they're far, they're not hard to find
used to have a heart but you let it die
[x2]

stars

Produced by saint mike

Lyrics

We're worlds apart but I still feel the warmth that's from your love
I see what you could be but you only think bout what you was
I don't like that you don't like the things I like about you girl
From my angle you look like an angel

Being stuck in the past, finding ways to bring it back
Make it last, no stranger
Like a hundred on the dash, I might need to bring it back
Wanna crash my anger
I don't like it when I'm lost, figured out that what I thought
Was safe was danger
Don't wait too long, that change won't be what you want

I can't ever figure where but I know it's fucking there
In the air, I just wanna see it show
I just wanna see it bare, all the colors I don't care
Wanna stare into the pit of that hope
I just wanna soak it in, I ain't ever really had
What it is they say you do
Show yourself, show me what I should of fucking felt

Show me what to feel, show me something fucking real
Show me that this life is not just on repeat till the day I'm still
Show me what you see, show me something to believe
That I'm not just wasting time cause I feel like I'm wasting mine

I don't wanna feel like this, no not ever, not again
I just gotta fucking win this once
Getting sick of getting pissed over shit I shouldn't miss
I won't miss if I point this gun
In the center of the side of the head my brain inside
Don't cry when the shell gets dumped
I can't show you what's inside, so I put it to the side
So I lie and I say there's nothing

Even when I fucking know there's something
Don't really know how to cope so I'm puffing
"If you need me then I'm here" that's touching
"I'll always care cause I love you" you're bluffing

Okay, never mind
Don't come in this head of mine
I thought I was dead inside
But I swear that this pain's alive

We're worlds apart but I still feel the warmth that's from your love
I see what you could be but you only think bout what you was
I don't like that you don't like the things I like about you girl
From my angle you look like an angel

Being stuck in the past, finding ways to bring it back
Make it last, no stranger
Like a hundred on the dash, I might need to bring it back
Wanna crash my anger
I don't like it when I'm lost, figured out that what I thought
Was safe was danger
Don't wait too long, that change won't be what you want

I can't ever figure where but I know it's fucking there
In the air, I just wanna see it show
I just wanna see it bare, all the colors I don't care
Wanna stare into the pit of that hope
I just wanna soak it in, I ain't ever really had
What it is they say you do
Show yourself, show me what I should of fucking felt

danger.

Produced by septfree x maestrowons

Lyrics

Head's on fire, heart's on ice
Liar liar in your eyes
I see right through your disguise
But I don't care no I don't care

Want it bad so do me wrong
Knife in my back, it feel like love
All I had won't ever come
Into my life again, really miss my friends

Miss those times
Where I ain't think like this
Cause now I've crossed that line
Where I won't ever feel better again

Sit with my head in my hands
Remember when I wanted bands
I wish I could give it back
Replace it with what I had

I sold my soul for a moment of pride
Never again will I trade off what's mine
I rather struggle while feeling alive
Than to feel like I'm numb cause of money in my bank

Think 'bout that for a second
I was selfish and I regret it
There was so much I could've done
All I did though was dig myself a deep hole

Now it's raining, now it's pouring
But I'm treading, one day I'll get over this
I been waiting for a moment
Where I'm saved but it's not coming

cws've.

Produced by kledyy

This song carries a deep emotional weight, capturing themes of identity, longing, self-conflict, and inner turmoil. It’s a powerful piece but it’s important to note that it represents a past version of myself that was caught in double-mindedness and seeking validation through relationships, identities, and external recognition.

The lyrics reveal a struggle with self-identity and fractured personas. I express the pain of trying to reconcile different parts of myself—Ken, Detmer, Garrett, Qayin, and unknxwn.—and the longing for someone’s love and acceptance.

From a faith perspective, this could serve as a testimony of how God’s love has provided me with the wholeness and purpose I was searching for through those identities.

Identity:

“Ken is my name but I’m not who he is” reflects the disconnect you felt from your true self.

Biblical truth:

God created you with purpose, and your identity is ultimately rooted in Him.

“I have called you by name; you are mine.” (Isaiah 43:1)

Love and Longing:

“Wish you would tell me you love me, you won’t” expresses a deep yearning for love and acceptance.

Biblical truth: 

God’s love is unconditional and fills the void that no human relationship can.

“The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: ‘I have loved you with an everlasting love.’” (Jeremiah 31:3)

Inner Conflict:

“Garrett told Detmer to unhand me” and “I’m not alive, I’m an echo” capture the battle between the parts of yourself and a sense of emptiness.

Biblical truth:

True peace comes from surrendering all parts of yourself to God.

“A double-minded man is unstable in all his ways.” (James 1:8)

Lyrics

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

Why you leave me on my own?
I need you more than I need my own breath in my body
Cause what is it worth
If you're not the one that I'm spending it on?

Ken, detmer, garrett, qayin, unknxwn.
They came to save me when I was alone
Nobody else did, nobody else will
Nobody on earth will know the pain I feel

Guess I'll explain it again, Ken is my name but I'm not who he is
Detmer is all of the things that he hid, Garrett just wanna make peace and amend
Qayin don't really care who he is, he gone be cool with whoever he with
unknxwn. is an alias we only use it when tryna be confident but we be faking it

Don't call me crazy, I'm not, I make sense to myself and that's all that I got
Cause what's it all matter if what really matters to me is not what I say I believe?
So find out what matters to you & don't ever let it be moved
And don't ever let it get lost, cause you only get one and that's all

Wish you would tell me you love me, you won't
You won't say that till the day that I die
I really wish I was who you'd want
You're in my heart but I'm out of my mind

They hear this shit and they think that I'm...
Can't even say what they thinking
I'm the only that could ever understand me
Garrett told Detmer to unhand me

I'm in a place that I can't leave
Wish that I was but I can't be who that girl want
Why can't she see?
Everything that she did, does, will mean to me

I need her bad, I can't let go
Gave her my heart but where that go?
I'm not alive, I'm an echo
I got unlimited songs like eckō

ken is my name but I'm not who he is.

Produced by kledyy

Lyrics

I opened up my chest, laid it bare for you
I pulled out my heart, something I never do
I scraped out the pain, every secret, every scar
I was hoping that you’d see me but you always stayed so far

I gave you the pieces, every single one with care
I was hoping that you’d hold them but you just left them there
I poured out my soul, let you see it all
But you never even caught me when I began to fall

I scraped it clean, down to the core
Gave you the love I’d never shown before
But you turned away, left me bleeding out
Now I’m hollow inside and I'm filled with doubt
I gave you my heart, every piece that I could
But you never would love me in the way that I thought that you would

You were the light I reached for in the dark
The warmth that I chased to mend my broken heart
I showed you all of the places I hide
The ghost of my past that I kept deep inside

Now there's nothing left but an empty space
Echoes of a love that time itself won't ever erase

i've scraped my heart clean to give you everything i possibly could.

Lyrics

I wish I had back my friends, I just wanna turn the time back
Losing another I love, I don't know if I can take that
I replace pain with a drug, mom ask about it, I fake that
One day I'll stop doing pills but until then let me take that

I stay up late watching movies 'cause I just see sleep as a skip to the next day
And every time that I wake up I'm just hoping that I don't succeed to the next day
It's so fucking bad, I'm always angry but I'm never mad
Fucking depressed, I'm not just feeling sad, I wish that my body was inside a bag

I wish that I wasn't awake, I wish it was all just a dream, I wish it was all fucking clear
There's always a read in-between, and I fucking hate it, it sucks
Always asking why I'm not enough
I'd end it all if I could, put a knife into my fucking gut

unknxwn. - If I could.

i'd end it all if i could. (2017)

whore.

I feel like a god damn waste
God if you're real you can god damn take
My life away cause I god damn hate
The shit that my mind can god damn make
Me feel, sometimes I wanna take three pills
Just to feel like I have free will
Why can't these god damn people just be real
Some days I feel so low, to the point where I just wanna let go
Gun at my head and I might let it blow
Goin' through shit that you don't even know
I'm fuckin' stuck in place full of snow
Been here so long I don't even feel cold
I need another cup of my merlot
I don't have any love left to show

I live in Hell but you never could tell
Cause the way that I hide it is too fuckin' well
Losing my trust in humanity, full of insanity
I don't have a soul to sell
But if I did, I would
Keepin' that shit would honestly do me no good
I rather thrive on this Earth while I can
Than struggle when shit gets to hittin' the fan
I'm a mess stuck inside the body of a man
Need an escape I just might take a xan
Don't judge, you ain't been through the mud
Don't think that I do this for fun
I'm just a fucked up fuck up
Do it yourself, or I'll shut you up
I don't need help cause I never had none
Standing my ground I will no longer run

winter. | Produced by nowhere valley

Archive: unknxwn.