this song so perfectly describes such a fucking experience us queer folk struggle through constantly and Atlas always fucking brings it perfectly God it's a mood

Miss gworl been had that bloodmoney in her 👹👹

its been 4 years since i first heard this song. i dont know if ive ever been truly happy since before that time. Actually thats probably a lie but damn life just truly doesnt really get that much easier it blows

this shit helped me get through some of my darkest times. Thank you, Atlas <3

These lyrics man, So relatable it’s scary

JoshIGuess Favorites (Many To Still Add)

@dercept & @prodmichael
I wanna see ppl throw hands 2 this song live


Left behind for the vultures you know this hurts
Limb by limb i'll disappear it's over
Morality is lost the cost of closure
Throwing cheap blows i'll return them ten-fold

Hands up, broken jaw sucker punch
Bitch let's dance, don't get cut
Got glass shards up on my tongue, kiss of death she makes me numb
Broken promise oh my god
If I'm happy what's the cost?

Living in constant pain, watching you rot away
The quicker I start to cave, watching your flesh decay
Yea I really loved you, could you ever even say the same?

Pulling teeth everytime we speak
Scattered thoughts are frequent, never think
Lost a part of me, noose been on the tree
Leaves are falling green
Wonder if you'd still fall for me?
Fall for me

Yea you always said that it would all be me
Barbed wire around your neck hear the blood gurgle through the screams
Say you been down bitch i'll show you what true pain means

Hands up, broken jaw sucker punch
Bitch let's dance, don't get cut
Got glass shards up on my tongue, kiss of death she makes me numb
Broken promise oh my god
If I'm happy what's the cost?

Living in constant pain, watching you rot away
The quicker I start to cave, watching your flesh decay
Yea I really loved you, could you ever even say the same?
Say the same

spotify link<3

fleshh (dercept x michaelwarren)

hey, thx 4 listening, seriously.
this is the first song i've mixed completely from scratch,
so i hope it doesn't sound too foul 
prod. @prodskellington <3
cover art sketch by @bleulmao

~~~lyrics~~~
a minute away
i’m gonna fade
back into the nothing
shit what do you say
fear to be fake
look at my face
fucking disgusting
throughout the day

i can’t talk if i can’t even breathe out
she seems off there’s gotta be a reason
raindrops fall everywhere i don’t need it
think this calls for the death of a weakness

check, check, check,
troubled mind, covered ears
less, less, less, chitter-chat full of tears
let’s, let’s, let’s, get the fuck outta here
can’t afford being gone
but i’ve lost will to care again

the cycle ends
what’s the point in this
low love, slow thumbs, so numb

winter crept upon my hands
and all i am’s ideas through a screen
is it true that you were never meant to be?

troubled mind, covered ears [prod. skellington]

Biteki AMV: https://youtu.be/aMOX-qUEWMw
prod. farber
this 1 been in the works for a while 🖤
i hope some of you find relation & or clarity.
ft. @user-411557229

[autumn]
so seems you took away my breath
feels a little off where do i begin 
like oh~
why’d i get so bent 
starting to believe that i’m a bit obsessed
like oh~

cause i’ve always really wanted space
now i just wanna see your face
(see your face)

girl i want this bad
i told you that
i’m not just sad
my world’s been plaid

hello?
praying you’d pick up the phone 
how’d it go?
being on your god damn own

so seems you took away my breath
feels a little off where do i begin 
like oh~
why’d i get so bent 
starting to believe that i’m a bit obsessed
like oh~

[not home.]
they wanna be me
she gonna leave me
for somebody new
off of the shrooms
cold in my room 
lost in the ceiling
look at the moon

[autumn & not home.] 
(2x)
look at my face when you’re talking
(when you’re talking)
i get bored so i smoke now i’m coughing
(bitch i’m coughing)
all the friends at the house 
now i’m yawning
(what the fuck bitch)
they be chasing all the
shit up in my pockets

obsessed w/ not home. [prod. farber]

went for something different.
made this with the intention to expand my creativity as an artist
and the hopes to understand myself more as a person.
hope you enjoy :')
prod. @branwenmusic & @rvrhiv 🖤
cover art done by @akanenosketch

~~lyrics~~
(i got these daggers in my spine)
(they come right at me from the skies)
(just tell me why, why)

knowing that you’re safe
could you save me from this bad dream
know it’s kinda late
girl i’m sorry that i’m asking
glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat  
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end
do you understand?

go into a rage 
when i see you in my sight
everyone the same 
and i always wonder why
tell me what it takes
just for you to stay mine

swear i’m fucking sick
everyone’s a prick 
running fucking swift
don’t ever stop, won’t ever quit
eh i was a mistake
in this world; why do i stay?
no, seriously.
THIS SHIT SUCKS!!!

hush…

glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within

i’m rotting from within!
i should probably go
there's blood under the snow 
infinity below
i hear the echoes of bellows

aren’t you just happy for me
i wanna be someone else
stuck inside a catacomb
it’s like my own personal hell 
just give me the signal 
and i’ll try to book it outta here
it’s not that i’m terrified
this is just how i look my dear 

i got these daggers in my spine
they started raining from the sky
i didn’t make it home in time
within your arms is where i lie

i rot, everything’s stupid 
i want you, but i’m useless
time’s not real, we are lucid 
i’m just, gonna lose it all


glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end 
do you understand?…

infinity below [prod. branwen x rvrhiv]

@autumndropsdead
@caspywaspy

(autumn)
breathe in breathe out
breathe out (2x)
keep me around
(keep me around)

can't you feel the stress from the trees
see em bleeding?
trying less and less what is
left to believe in?

too much to express so i pent for a reason
go and be my guest
hunt me down; deer season
yeah, yeah

i need to breathe in, breathe out
breathe, please.
(please)

(casperrr)
i'm deep down in my head again
and i'm laying down in my bed again
i hate this stress, doesn't let me rest
baby lately I've been praying for the best

and i hate this life but i'm afraid of death
why is time going by so fast
and my head is turning to a fucking mess

i wanna go away and move out west
hate builds up and fills my soul
(fills my soul)
baby i've been trying to do this on my own
so~

(autumn & casperrr)
breathe in breathe out
breathe out (2x)
keep me around
(keep me around)

autumndropsdead - Deer Season (ft. casperrr) [+ 2001]

짙은 눈썹, 오똑한 코

눈은 부었어 어젤 잊어버린 바보

잠깐 졸며 오후를 느낀 방법

전화를 받고서 매우 어설펐던 3초

슬프기도해 너무나도 반갑다가도

할말이 너무 많았지만

강제로 잊혀져버리기만

수많은 말이 가슴에서 태어나 입술에 닿지만 

혀끝에 걸려있는게 관계의 끝과 시작

다름이 가끔 이 연줄의 숨통을 잡을때엔..

어찌말할바를 몰라 그저 향내음 처럼 밴

습관이란 녀석을 찾아 멀리 떠나가던 곳

친구와 나누던 대화처럼 구차한 변명

사랑한다 말하기엔 시간을 다시 재보면

몇일일지 그 "해"에 몇번의 "달"이 바뀌었는지

"별"일아니라며 널 그렇게 "바람"맞췄는지

변함없던 따스함하며, 내겐 전부였던 대화의 반복

호감이란 말론 전부 다 표현도 안되던

널 사랑한다 말이 입근처를 스치면

만지작거리던 내 옷깃을 여며

아침에 뿌려놨던 향수에 쩔어

그런 타이트한 분위기에 젖어

겨울이 아닌데도 앞에 서면 꽁꽁얼어 버려

시간이 숨어 복기해봤던 쓰라렸던 추억

더이상 비싼척은 안먹혀

Moneys aint needed 

Sight like a top spinnin'

Look at me feelin dizzy

Wishin truly gettin closer

While givin you an Attractive proposal

Darkness makes relationship a fxckin' dimmer

어둠이 가로등에 예고없이 내리면

반대로 전구다마안에 밝게 타오르는 기적

내 심장에게 당장 그만 뛰게 시켜

지겨웠던 oneway love tho 

상심이 살아있던 love loc

Ain't nothin but a part of love fo sho

찝찝하던 7월 중순의 비가내린 밤

더 더워졌던 8월에 땀냄새가 베인 삶

널 사랑하길 포기했던 9월의 집앞

쉬어가기로 결정했지 10월엔 잠깐

전역했던 11월의 자유의 땅 밖

12월이 지나, 반기를 새로 짜야했던 패턴

캐시미어도 아닌데 먼저 대금값을 쥐어준 김에

내게 일도 시키려고 했지 너의 어깨에 기대

그래서.. 내게서 떠난 너는 지금 어떻게 지내

슬프지만 나는 잊지못한 주제에 편지를 찢네

눈물은 흐르는 장맛비로 씻네 

치료를 위해 모아야하지 지폐를

그러려면 폼잡기 보단 중요시해야지 셈을

피리를 불지 않아도 조심해야만 하지 뱀을

신부의 전달되지 못한 예물

신랑은 사랑을 잊어야만해 이제는 

내겐 상황은 유리하지 않으니까 전화선 뒤로 숨어

비오는 날 밤 이루지 못한 꿈을 꾸며

잠결에 시간을 묻던, 친구에 눈치를 준 너..

이 작은 건물에 갇혀 우린 체면을 구겨

마르세유의 봄과 가을을 맞이하던 내 고향 

기억의 저편 잊혀진 얼굴들을 다시금 본다

겉으론 멀끔이 빛나는 백화점 내음과 섬광

삐그덕 거리던 샹들리에와 오후의 적막

그날의 충격 기하학적 건축물의 차가운 점과..

thanks to. B Noise, 2pac, 이상(김해경), 테스트로, 드제

건축무한육면각체

first part produced by @flayvors @smwun, second part produced by me

LYRICS:

coffee in the mornings
afternoons i lay awake
and hope that something's out there
something that can take away
my breaking state of mind
breaking state of hatefulness
it happens all the time
it happens

having coffee in the mornings
afternoons i waste away
and hope that he returns soon
smiling with patient grace
and makes sure that i'm fine
makes sure that my mind is calm
it happens all the time
it happens

it happens, it happens
it happens, it happens

like a plane crash shark bite, i know that the chance is low
but i'll be waiting here until the day that you can stand to go
where i am, 'cause i'm not a patient man
but i could wait forever for another chance to take your hand
and dance in place, break a manic state and start to feel again
drift through space, kiss my bliss away inside a helix spin
wistful hate, self-inclined and self-inflicated lately
i'm no help with livin', dear, i'm just a selfish fucking baby
and that's too real... far too real to ever say it
so i'll rewrite this verse again and strike all the cursive penned
and think of something better, a bit less detrimental
my life is still in beta... my hit-reg existential
for now, at least, i cower in my coward speech
happiness is out of reach whenever you are out of reach
i'd give it all away for just a single hour each
where both of us can come to terms with our off-balance feet
and learn to walk again

bottom of abyss or bottom feeding bottom-barrell staring
old apparel wearing, take the ferry in to bury him
sanitarium i spend my days and my nights quite
often, off it, talking toxic nonsense
common knowledge brought straight to the tables
stray from the fables, play through the cables
so the sound resonates in every nook and every cranny
read the book and popped a xanny every crook i got uncanny
at the last of it, taxing your passages, rapping a masochist
back to the past a bit, adamant savages, mad at him
hold the talisman above my fucking head like a trophy
and hold your head up in the air like a talisman
no battles or second chances around if you tattlin
all these snakes when they rattlin turn to vacancies after it's said and done
no rest for a setting sun, so impressed that you've never done
what you claiming... fuck the game and the statements, i've said enough

peace

IT HAPPENS // DIRT

hey, thanks for 50k <3

additional rock stuff at the end by me :~)

lyrics:
thank you for every moment shared
for every hug and kiss when i was stepping over there
to visit you... some might not think it's fair
but all the time i got to spend as yours and all the care
was more than i could ever ask for
you treated me respectfully and that's more
than anyone else... but now i'm sat sore
caught up in my panic like a task force is breaking down my back door

and i hope to see you thrive, to see you thrive

'cause i'm lying in my bed
with my pillow held over my head
wishing that the weight of all this stress
could hold it down and stop my breath

we must go our seperate ways
i know that is the truth
i wish that i could travel back
to the moments spent with you

and freeze time and space in a silent place
to appreciate your smile for a little bit longer

i'll try to be stronger than i am

a wistful remembrance

stronger than i am (prod. mt marcy)

produced by me, featuring great vocals from @smrtdeath

i don't know
where i am
i'm searching for something
to replace your hand and

i don't know
where you went
i just want you back
in my arms again

fix this (feat. smrtdeath)

i made this whole shit and i'm lit as fuck
shout out my homie shelby for taking the cover photo

bitch my wrist looks like a fucking glacier 
i done killed the game and now it needs a savior 
bring it back to life, i feel like brendan fraser 
never make mistakes, so i don't need erasers 
bitch, you bouta see me take the cup 
better pick them cameras up 
i hope you filming this 
only skill and never luck 
run the game and run amok 
i hope you feeling this 

every color diamond on the chain 
my shit looking like a pride parade 
smoking loud 'til i'm in hyperspace 
i got so much money, think i'm tyra banks 
i got so much money i got tired of banks 
hundred trillion in a giant safe 
couple billion in my hiding place 
(underneath my bed, please don't tell the feds) 

if you touch my paper, then i'm seeing red 
knuckle sandwich on some pita bread 
diamonds snowy, i might need a sled 
yung sleepy hollow, all i need is head 
fuck it, sleep tomorrow, it's a party night 
fuck it, i'm the nicest when i'm on the mic 
fuck it, i ain't never work a 9 to 5 
but i'm on my grind all the fucking time 

yeah... 
and that's true, if you really wanna talk facts 
i don't know why you always gotta talk back 
y'all shady, i ain't talking 'bout a cross-hatch 
oh, my god... yeah... 
and that's true, if you really wanna talk facts 
i don't know why you always gotta talk back 
y'all shady, i ain't talking 'bout a cross-hatch 
fuck out my mentions

fuck out my mentions

download <3

emo emo emo emo

lyrics:
halfway down the street from my front porch 
i watched you puke 
too drunk, passed out, hoping you could find 
something to do 

i'm so worried 
when i see you leave 
'cause nobody knows 
if you'll make it home or not 
i'm so worried 
when i see you leave 
'cause nobody knows 
if you'll make it home 

and maybe it was my fault 
so afraid, slam my fist into the drywall 
so high, i see the crimson in your eyeballs 
i just hope you pick the phone up when i call 
and maybe it's the highway 
but something's feeling really fucking weird tonight, eh 
i just hope you listen to me now when i say 
i'm not ready to lose you 

and maybe it was my fault 
so afraid, slam my fist into the drywall 
so high, i see the crimson in your eyeballs 
i just hope you pick the phone up when i call 
and maybe it's the highway 
but something's feeling really fucking weird tonight, eh 
i just hope you listen to me now when i say 
i'm not ready to lose you 

i'm so worried 
when i see you leave 
'cause nobody knows 
if you'll make it home or not 
i'm so worried 
when i see you leave 
'cause nobody knows 
if you'll make it home 

halfway up the block from where you sit 
i'm looking weak 
back then, past times, you and i would wander 
through the streets 

i'm so worried 
when i see you leave 
'cause nobody knows 
if you'll make it home or not 
i'm so worried 
when i see you leave 
'cause nobody knows 
if you'll make it home

WORRIED

this is a song about dissociating 

produced by fats'e 
soundcloud.com/youngburial 
twitter.com/youngburial 

art by ghostly pixels 
twitter.com/ghostly_pixels

lyrics:
laying alone, i dissociate 
laying alone 

i saw a pictureframe 
and it turned out to be a mirror 
my reflection's so much clearer 
when i'm not aware it's me 

i saw a maple tree 
it was growing in my head 
when everybody else was dead 
and i climbed up it just to see 

i saw myself again 
but i stood outside my being 
i could understand that being 
isn't all there is to be 

i see the future now 
got too distracted by the present 
to remember that my head is 
not a vehicle for fear 

and it's a long way down if you fall 
and it's a long way up if you don't 

and it's a long way down if you fall 
and it's a long way out, so 

i sit in the center 
and i ponder my disinterest 
for it all 

it's a lot easier 
to imagine ending things 
(to imagine ending things) 
when i'm watching myself 
from the third person 
(from the third person) 

it's a lot easier 
to imagine changing things 
(to imagine changing things) 
when i'm watching myself 
from the third person 
(from the third person)

dissociate (prod. fats'e)

and i'll carry my pen like a sword
(thanks to @nosentences for the sample)

lyrics:
and so i meander this hallway
and try not to step on the cracks in the floor
don't think i know how to relax anymore
everything's either passive or coarse
either passing the course with the masses
or passing the torch that they using to scorch all the fabric
bask in the fourths on the staff
'til the core notes collapse in the tracklists

and i watch 'em all fall to the floor, watch 'em shatter into pieces
always knew i didn't matter in the thesis
didn't ask much, never tried to paint on my mirror
to make my own face any clearer
but things that used to be compliments
feel like insults now
things that used to be compliments
feel like insults now

i'll walk a million miles away
'til my insoles turn into dust
don't want my kinfolk hurting as much as i did
when i first learned to burden this rut
speak like an arcade cabinet with arcane sadness
lost in a pac-man maze where the ghosts are never blue
and the weather, too
it's all dark and dismal 'til a better mood

see, i lost my mind in a health potion
they all want mine once the wealth goes in
mind so bright, sense of self so dim
'cause i hid my old ways in the trunk
but things that used to be compliments
feel like insults now
things that used to be compliments
feel like insults now

and if all goes according to plan
i'll be scoring my autobiopic
don't let 'em look up to me as a prophet
don't let 'em philosiphize on the topic

and if all goes according to plan
when i'm scoring my autobiopic
i won't let 'em tell you the comedy's cosmic
you don't need a punchline to be a bit honest
with me

autobiopic

@youngburial

pretty fucking emo so here's this

lyrics:
put up a facade and you saw right through it
told me i was worthless but i already knew it
i don't care how i die as long as i do it
don't care how i die as long as i do it

put up a facade and you saw right through it
told me i was worthless but i already knew it
i don't care how i die as long as i do it
please close your eyes, i don't wanna put you through it
at all

hair in my eyes, i can't see straight
drugs in my veins makes me knees shake
baby, won't you hold my hand while i limp through the hall
feeling trapped in my mind, need an escape

every day is just a mess of depressive episodes
panic in my room over never letting go
singing songs you've never heard about that seven-letter word
this anxiety gon' place me in the wreckage in the snow

i'm tired, so tired all the time
this stress on my back's been severing my spine
no, i'm never doing fine

put up a facade and you saw right through it
told me i was worthless but i already knew it
i don't care how i die as long as i do it
don't care how i die as long as i do it

put up a facade and you saw right through it
told me i was worthless but i already knew it
i don't care how i die as long as i do it
please close your eyes, i don't wanna put you through it
at all

facade (prod. fats'e)

hey cool song coming for 100k
here's a thing i made this morning
also i'm on hiatus

@beet_farmer

lyrics:
wake up, take my morning walk, and pass out on the porch again
shatter under pressure, pilot corpses made of porcelain
terrified of questions, 'specially "lesser than..." or "more than friends?"
i panic over people like a swimmer to a dorsal fin

i'm out my element in every single element
bad with conversations, speak in nervous stares and mellow shifts in tone
in every room i occupy, i play the elephant
and glance at clocks to tick away the moments 'til farewell and dip

if anxious was a role one could fill upon a credits list
i'd grab an oscar every other time i left my bed a bit
performing well enough to leave my colleagues in a deficit
the academy awards would be incredulous

i'm often opulent in time alone, purveyor of the faux pas
horrible at family festivities, silent, phone on
i wander to the dinner table, fumble to the coleslaw
and wish i was at home so i could doze off

morning walk (prod. dweeb)

thanks for 100k on soundcloud <3

thank you to charlie for the fantastic verse 
http://www.soundcloud.com/youngburial 
http://www.twitter.com/youngburial 

and thank you to perry for the wonderful art 
http://www.twitter.com/welcom2helldude 
http://cottoncloudsproductions.tumblr.com

patience is a virtue (feat. fats'e)

https://www.eventbrite.com/e/gravehouse-live-in-la-tickets-880030052577

JoshIGuess the Singer, Songwriter, & Engineer

JoshIGuess was brought upon the earth in Lodi, California. Growing up, he had been raised and educated in Stockton, California. His earliest releases revolved around mostly Youtube & Soundcloud, most notably starting with childhood best friend Athryn. 

His music journey continued evolving by making connections at local shows in California, befriending people such as whatafuckingbitch & many others.  

During 2020's Epidemic, Josh met close collaborators known as AkiraDoves, Reapers Shadow, & many more. Together they took time to improve their musical journey and push themselves further than what they were.

Josh also started to engineer for multiple artists including Kurama SD, D34D @imactuallyd34d, Lil Kush, & more artists upon request.

As of recent times, JoshIGuess has continued his journey of pursuing his music career. This includes live events, videos, collaborations and help from listeners like you.

dissociate (prod. fats'e)

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