corbin cover
cover of "mask it to the casket" :)
https://open.spotify.com/track/16u5jqodaQ5oWqhoTxhJhe?si=CeaWjF9zSFumLTxvtCpsbg

I can't be your crutch, can't hold myself up
Most days feel like a scumbag, I'm pushing my luck
Always saw through it, puppet on a string
I'm no narcissist, not in love with me
I get too frustrated when I'm not sedated
Threw away all my passion, baby I'm paying for my actions
Why you gotta celebrate it? I think that the wall's 'bout to cave in
I'm a kraken, my feelings being drowned, yeah, I sank them
Pathetic, yeah, I'm so pathetic, I get it
I'm a menace, it's time for my penance
Confession, I've been known to cause infection
A weapon, lethally inject, no discretion, no
I can't be your crutch, can't hold myself up
Most days feel like scum, I'm pushing my luck
Always saw through it, puppet on the screen
I'm no narcissist, not in love with me
No emotion, I mask it to the casket
Can't control it, do you really want to see me relapse?
Overloaded, I think it's time I pack in
Any way you fold it, yeah, it's always gonna be a back then
No, no emotion, won't let them see
Nothing to show, no vanity
I think I've lost all sanity
I have become my worst enemy
My heart is breaking, it's more than what's fair (more than what's fair)
I'm non-existent, it's like I'm not here (like I'm not here)
Don't wanna sink again, I don't, I'm scared (I don't, I'm scared)
I'm getting tired of this

mask it (corbin)

I don’t know how to tell 
My mental hasn’t been doing oh so well 
This feeling seeming bottomless 
I know because I fell down 
And I haven’t reached an ending 
I think it’s all depending
And I’ll learn it all the hard way 
So you don’t have to 
But you won’t listen just like me
And you’ll learn it through the tough way too 
But that’s just you 
And you’re just as likely 

All details left behind by blurred leering eyes 
With the deafening and dampened cries 
We find again and again and again 
Yeah we find again and again and again 
I got 3 3 3 that’s 9 out of 10 
Got these angel numbers keep on living up inside my head yeah 
Wanna go and take from us I vet that 
Mmm mmm
Still got your life and I don’t think you wanna bet that

I I don’t think so
It’s cause I know so 
Make a bit alone might just do it solo
Hit the armory yeah flaunt it it doesn’t bother me 
Visit when you want takes some honesty yeah honestly 
Take in spades the suits won’t even talk for free no
Roll another couple G’s yeah my g’s know
Breathe out easily
I’m focused I’m alright 
They ask the difference it’s difficult it’s always like 

I don’t know how to tell 
My mental hasn’t been doing oh so well 
This feeling seeming bottomless 
I know because I fell down 
And I haven’t reached an ending 
I think it’s all depending
And I’ll learn it all the hard way 
So you don’t have to 
But you won’t listen just like me
And you’ll learn it through the tough way too 
But that’s just you 
And you’re just as likely 

I’ll round the bend now I just need to lend a hand 
Take hold now but make that choice alone 
Allow the rest to take the mend and fill the land 
Yeah you may have won but take a look at what you’ve sowed 
The blade it takes but it gives in bold 
Told again this past has got its hold

leering (irby)

something real.

lyrics

im not too concerned about the outside
bloody me and bury me by half time
swear its been the same since last time
i dont even know what i live like
plants are sprouting out by the cracks in the floor
im not in my ways
since i walked out the door
everytime 
everytime i sit here wanting more
this feeling in my chest dont go away anymore

the lights are busted
and the heaters off
last time i checked
its freezing out
feels my lungs are 
collapsing now 
the metal decorations have rusted out
so bb come and visit me
im engulfed in misery
im sick of pain when i wake
and all the injuries
so bb come and visit me
hold me while i fight the freeze
i sit here awake
throwing up in the bedsheets

im not too concerned about the outside
bloody me and bury me by half time
swear its been the same since last time
i dont even know what i live like
plants are sprouting out by the cracks in the floor
im not in my ways
since i walked out the door
everytime 
everytime i sit here wanting more
this feeling in my chest dont go away anymore

The Outside (p. dash)

body going missing

prod: https://soundcloud.com/block-tane https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz
 
i can hear my own heartbeat
pound in this quiet
hands bound back
with this rope
he'll tie me up
(i can hear my own heartbeat pounding
i can hear my own heartbeat pounding)
i can feel the cold concrete
laying down, crying
itching through scabs
to be whole is all i want
(i can hear my own heartbeat pounding
i can hear my own heartbeat pounding)
open me up
god willing i'll make it
your shirt soaking with blood
oh, my body keep shaking
place my flesh upon a sigil
brand with my initials
this night will make me whole again
the embers start to whistle
nothing left, no one to hold me
bloody ceremony
i will lose control again,
the heavens will disown me

please, please
it's all that i have
(like magician, body going)

like magician,
body going missing
bloodied up my palms
baby i feel like a christian
just how i envisioned
prep for the incision
pierce right through my heart
until my fingers finish twitching
oh yeah,
i think i like it, i don't wanna pretend
i'm fucking begging for it
cut me again
and again, and again, and again
and again

(let us pray, let us wish
to partake in communion,
let us partake in communion,
and feast upon the old blood)

where i'm going
i won't make it back
hope he's waiting for me
vision going black
nothing i have left will make it past
open me up
god willing i'll make it
your shirt soaking with blood
oh my body keeps shaking
keeps shaking


paleblood

produced by @prod-dash 🖤
mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEgzoEH60Cg

harmonies construct of her in vain,
when i had felt the same, i wonder what you let slip loose
idolized in holistic refrain from scaring you away,
but it was you who had left so soon
redundancy falls on the floors of insult,
diffusion of awe is now subtle appall
when the fracturing stops, he returns to his lot
and continues to watch the forgotten responses

how long has it really been?
on everything i could've been your confidence;
wounded deep, but regardless you were gorgeous
external forces couldn't conquer this fortress,
girl i was all in,
now i'm more of like a martian,
a foreign entity ignored and made of sport in pure extortion
the score depends on those who force it,
but on my life i'll never pry into this systematic fortune

easy aches at your name
november stays, but it's may

he's licking tears and steeling bones
from baring sights of burning homes
and of the counterparts still present, most have nearly decomposed
the oxygen persists, but the fluids marching in
wreak havoc on the aspens, now his blood is wearing thin
the centuries forgot receive his aching and distraught,
converting portions of distortion into frequencies bewrought
the ice goes in by division of his temperance
sickly to this weather, but she ain't even my medicine

it's two-forty-two as the film rolls into view
i beg your pardon, i'm enshrouded by the memories construed
just anyone won't do,
the comfort causes calluses he's unable to move
they stare at him in twos

the burial becomes attraction, and of the visitors, it's nothing but distraction
come one and all, before root is sawed, the chainsaw, it stops,
he of wooden rot, with that pandora's box, reverse the plot
the acid sat within his stomach summits to his top
begone of influence it's over 'fore it had begun
i'll never feel that same alikeness, they just read me wrong,
just to do me wrong

bare trees conceive cold leaves,
you showed me what we couldn't be
washing over me, frostridden stings
that sole breeze had spoke "don't leave"

easy aches at your name
november stays, but it's may

the paneling glows a familiar sequence,
but it's passage won't open to those who would seek it
through timing and tamper he had managed to enter
unaware of it's contents, he treads a bit deeper
in awe of the contrast from seeker to aether
he's welcomed to stay, but he's covered in shivers
for those it abducts are reduced down to neither
so backwards he goes, where his soul doesn't meet her's

come the night i'm allotted what's divine
i got bugs up in my head,
they always scratching, leaving bites
ain't no energy to waste on those unkind
only time you talkin shit is when you're doing it online

november (dash)

been a while since something like this
thank you for being here
prod by forzen (@whyeldershock on ig)

heavenly, at the sight of her angel wings;
been alone since seventeen
ain't expecting them to feel for me, that'll never be
let eden breathe, pick and twist from the apple tree, 
felt confliction at the bite and sting
left uncertain of it's purity, of what's underneath

cup so cold it's frozen, you already know
dialtone revoking all we had engrossed
mentality awoken from over the phone
i'm never that open, you had me from the go

couldn't catch her on the way out
she ain't here for what i'm saying now
it's even worse that i'm seeing how
you let me, you let me
why'd you let me down

let me, let me, let me, let me down
let me, let me, why'd you let me down
l-let me, let me, but you let me down
h-how'd you let me down
how'd you let me down

heavenly, at the sight of her angel wings;
been alone since seventeen
ain't expecting them to feel for me, that'll never be
let eden breathe, pick and twist from the apple tree, 
felt confliction at the bite and sting
left uncertain of it's purity, of what's underneath

eve (forzen)

"one day we gon be okay baby just stay"
i can hear just how you told me like its yesterday
ill be sure to send my love from the cosmos
i guess lately its just been harder hitting high notes
i guess lately its just been easier to let my mind go
i guess lately im feeling bad bout dragging you along

cuz i dont want to see you at the bottom
and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

but i cant make you smile
havent seen those pearly whites girl whats got you down
we can live another life if we leave this town
one day i can make it right one day youll be proud
in the passenger seat found my reason in the stars
i got holes in my jeans you got anger in your heart
its not as easy as it seems so i try to play my part
control alt then you deleted me im back here at the start
i got bad lungs one more cigarette
another sad song posted on the internet
i guess its not fun tell myself im not upset
when the days done find a place to lay my head
from the day we met swore to be my best
we both know the fire started when you call my friends
now im only feeling sorry for the shit i said
one day imma be a star im just not shining yet

and baby you can tell me if its too much
i know i can be a lot so you just say som
and i dont like myself if we need something to agree on
im up making songs fell asleep with my jeans on
i can tell you love me from the way you take my jeans off
id love if youd stick with me ill look better when i wean off
the same songs just in different styles
you wonder when i been this happy girl its been a while

denim w/ halfhearted (p. under the maple tree)

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

FLEX +ilymeow (prod. mjanee)

777F0LD NEK0 (PR0D. F0NY WALLACE)

'messenger pigeon'
ep, out now

thank you for being here.

eve (forzen)

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