s/o @starfallxo :D

production: mistmurk (@mistmurk), me and rift (@musicbyrift)
mixing & mastering: me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

stream :)

fiction w/ starfall (mistmurk + avit + rift)

production: me & soma (@prodsoma)
mixing & mastering: me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

[intro]
feel alone n helpless
i paved this road w/ no end
tired of playing pretend
just wanna get out this mess

i’m not okay, i confess
these last few months, i’ve been stressed
i just have so much regrets
i just have so much regrets

[verse]
i’ve only had myself to get through all of this, it’s hell.
it’s lonely when the ones u used to know have said farewell
bleeding out, my eyes r open
can’t see, all my senses broken 
i wish that i wasn’t so hopeless
i wish that i wasn’t so hopeless

[chorus]
nobody even knows it, but i’m tired
i can feel killin all of my desire
doesn’t help when all my “friends” don’t even bother
not a thing that i can try to make me calmer
i’m drowning in emotions down beneath 
i’m grinding all my teeth
it’s getting hard to breathe, so...

tell me, was it a waste?
dug six feet down, no escape.
feels like i just got replaced
by someone better than me
if i left w/o a trace, no one would ponder
this path i’m going down, don’t even wanna 
staying silent cuz i don’t want any drama
heart is bleeding on the floor, guess that’s just karma 

[verse]
i tried my hardest just to be there for y’all
gave every person my all
but u still let me just fall 
u stare and laugh at me when i’m at my low 
don’t have to say it, ik
all that u do, yeah it shows
that i’m not welcome here
that u don’t even care
act like i’m unaware
a sight i cannot bear
i tried my best, i swear
heart on my sleeve, i wear [s/o rod wave]
just left me in despair
u never were a friend

[chorus]

apathetic (avit + soma)

stream on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0bawM83DKPc6x34fbSouE7?si=c9817a13a32349a5

too many issues i cant solve emmm
thanks 4 everything, really proud of this song i hope yall like it lol

lyrics:
you say its for the best,
but i feel way too stressed.
i swear that im losing sight
of what i do best
i wanna be right
yeah well im obssessed
its bad that i lie...
but theres stuff i cant confess

ive been down and so hopeless
im losing my focus
i hope i can show this
my life is so bogus
my career is tanking
everythings taking
a dangerous route

i, want, you to tell me
cus ur the last damn person that im needing to please
and your eyes say no but i can see all your greed
im an asshole addict with tendencies to grieve
i hate the person im becoming
i swear its natural but i feel like its evil
ive been losing focus in the sight of my dreams
i wanna turn back time but i dont think i can leave

take another step forward, i wish that i could step more
i try to turn around to face the problems but i get bored
they tell me im a monster in disguise without a big roar
seeing all my friends going up wish i could get more

and everyone around wants me to change myself
ive been stuck up in the clouds where i cannot find help
ive been dragged inside the mud and ive been down in hell
and really i have not been feeling all too well

i, want, you to tell me
cus ur the last damn person that im needing to please
and your eyes say no but i can see all your greed
im an asshole addict with tendencies to grieve
i hate the person im becoming
i swear its natural but i feel like its evil
ive been losing focus at the sight of my dreams
i wanna turn back time but i dont think i can leave

i, want, you to tell me
cus ur the last damn person that im needing to please
i, want, you to tell me
cus ur the last damn person that im needing to please

issues (siemspark & ayoley)

i tried at least.

production: me
mixing & mastering: me & windfield @findwield

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

these last few months in these thin walls
blood spilt w words, i’ve been through it all
n i grow tired day by day 
watching all my “friends” leave me 
wish they’d just stayed...
don’t know who i am anymore
i just don’t wanna b ignored
sick of it all…
cuz i’ve changed for y’all for far too long 
n all ur lies roll off ya tongue 
i’m done j being what u want 
it’s clear that i do not belong 

i could change the way i look
i could switch the way i talk 
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me 
i just try again n again
so i can feel like i fit in
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me
making the same mistakes
these problems, i create
ingrained inside my brain
falling back to my old ways
i’m tired, don’t wanna let myself go any further 
cuz everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me

my memory’s faded and i’ve lost who i am
this piece i’ve painted, fragments of what was then 
let’s leave it in the past
let it decay to ash
let it just falter… away
feel like my whole life, i’ve been erased
always made me feel like i’m a waste
wishing i could never ever wake 
people switching up on me, it’s hard to say 
but i don’t really feel a thing but apathy
yeah every part of me is numb to pain 
everyday is just a cycle of my misery
and i hate it
cuz it’s always my fault and i’m always the cause of my fall

i could change the way i look
i could switch the way i talk 
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me 
i just try again n again
so i can feel like i fit in
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me
making the same mistakes
these problems, i create
ingrained inside my brain
falling back to my old ways
i’m tired, don’t wanna let myself go any further 
cuz everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me

stream <3

same old me

my brains talking too loud and i can’t turn it off

when you can’t trust your friends how you know it’s gonna end when you can’t trust your head what is real and what’s pretend when you’re staring in the mirror and you’re seeing someone else now you turn to the one thing that won’t make you feel let down 

fell in love with a substance i use it like a crutch so why can’t i stand up fell in love with corruption i want you all to hate me it makes me feel so up

fell in love with a substance i use it like a crutch so why can’t i stand up fell in love with corruption i want you all to hate me it makes me feel so up

cause i feed off your negativity i’m the one that you hate to see doing better and better and better you know me i can say it’s whatever blood stained dreams hide inside of my sweater stole the stars from the sky hid em under my mattress couple thousand wishes hoping that i can manage couple thousand more hoping that i will vanish 

fell in love with a substance i use it like a crutch so why can’t i stand up fell in love with corruption i want you all to hate me it makes me feel so up

fell in love with a substance i use it like a crutch so why can’t i stand up fell in love with corruption i want you all to hate me it makes me feel so up

makes me feel so up

makes me feel so up

fell in love with a substance i use it like a crutch so why can’t i stand up fell in love with corruption i want you all to hate me it makes me feel so up

substance (yungspoiler & king theta)

(@prodnomu)
comic art by https://www.instagram.com/jigglytofu.art/
sample is 'adventure spirit' by yvette young 

always love u guys for all da support
//
Ill admit it im a little jealous 
When were together  
theres no problem no not whatsoever
But when im texting 
u i feel a stupid fucking pressure
My fucking head hurts 
Desperate times just call for desperate measures
Were both depressed and
Lately it feels like a lack of effort
In our affection
Lately it feels like there's been a sever
in our connection
Wish that you and me dint have this distance
So we’d feel better
cuz it all comes back when were together
Like hell to heaven 

dam hate how im selfish and full of myself
Manipulation’s not good for your health
I keep my mind off this sht but its always right there when im wishing that im someone else
someone that always jus knew how u felt
That way id take care of u by myself
I hate the feeling of helplessness tired of being a burden thats useless as hell
Stay by ur side
You say ur good but i still see u crying
You say its fine
Break out a smile
But i see through it i see that ur dying inside every time
But “its o kayyyy”
Thats what u say
But the fact that i know that ur hurting
Is the worst thing
Please jus go away
Cuz this feeling of familiar heartaches
It destroys me
But its okay
Buts its okay
Tell me its okay
yea its okay
yea its okay
yea its okay

yvette

spotify

ukg 2.0

stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/complicated

this song SUPER underrated
in an alt universe i'd be making this stuff by default

prechorus
it’s the worst when i run out of things to say
while i’m around u (awwww)
and i can’t bear hearing the ‘no’s or maybes
just say that i’m a weirdo (thats cutee)
go round in all these circles that i go crazy
thinking bout u (woooo)
and i’m fearful
that i’m nothing more than a talking point to u                          -----damn thats kinda deep :((

chorus
and i’m supposed to brush it off (YAS)
finding bigger fish in the sea (QUEEN)
but they don’t know that being me is a rather thankless job (SLAY)
i’m overdramatic (u bet)
shedding all these pointless tears -----> crybaby pussy ass
if only they were here and find out that they’ll never manage -yea bruh they cant be me

verse
well i’m not one to talk
but i might show forth
all my dark thoughts and inhibitions
desensitised
to this brick wall of mine
why can't things be complicated £+#)£what is this poetic shit ew
x2

back to the top xxx

'midwest emo on crack riff' by yvette young

complicated

stream the mf song

death practice

production: heavn @heavenindaclouds
mixing & mastering: me & heavn

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

[hook]
ur voice rewinding in my head like a recording
if i could take back all the time, then i’d restore it 
i never gave u ‘nough of my love or attention 
and it’s my fault that what we had are now just fragments 

[verse]
wish i could hit restart
b4 we fell apart
yeah i’d give everything to pause that moment of our lives
and all those fights were meaningless
whenever i start to reminisce 
about the past
can we go back?

[bridge]
can we go back?

[hook]
x2

[outro]
yeah I've been picking up the pieces
of this broken home we've made and
i need you x2
and if I tell you all my secrets
will you keep them close to your heart?
for me <3 x2

broken record (heavn)

production: heavn @heavenindaclouds + loop by stagehoax @stagehoax
mixing & mastering: me & heavn

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

again w/ heavn (heavn + stagehoax)

ima be honest, i just winged it on this one.

production: jane remover @janeremover
mixing & mastering: me & jane remover

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

lights out
darkness shrouds ‘round my head
my doubt
clouds my thoughts ‘til i’m dead
without you baby
i can’t stand
to even sleep inside my bed

lights out
i wish that i could forget everything
lights out
i wish this void wasn’t consuming me
lights out
everything i do, you’re always right next to me
lights out
i just want you out my head
lights out
let me breath for one damn sec
lights out
i hope this pain inside won’t last
lights out

lights out (jane remover)

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