could get me through the hole day just by listening fr

produced by heylog

lyrics:
walking me home 
didn’t have a clue 
that you would ruin me 
i was such a fool 
4 years with you

honestly sometimes i think hate you 
i never wanna love again 
can this be is the end  
can’t believe i trusted you 
i never wanna trust again 

i remember everything so clear 
i shoulda know from first glance 
that you would ruin me with any chance
i really didn’t want you to go 
but i really can’t let you stay 

even tho what you say 
i can’t trust you either way 
and nothing will ever be the same 

if i let you 
you would be 
the death of me
you might be the death of me

with u (prod.heylog ♡)

produced by me
hope you enjoy <3

socials:
www.instagram.com/deadfishig/

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lyrics:

And I’m so sick of always fucking up
Always apologize, it’s the last time
Blame it on me, i’m never good enough
Lost my peace, now I lash out

Cant get rid of the taste out my fuckin mouth
Carve out my tongue, said too much, bleeding out
Doesnt matter what I do, it’s way too late
Screaming out and procrastinate

I can’t
Stay here
Mental
Dread and
Pain gets
Stronger
Isolated

I can’t keep it up, nah
Throw me out, leave me to rot
I think it’s easier that way for me
You have no say in this, so just leave me

I dont care what they say
I ignore, most of dms
I don’t know why it’s so hard to
Keep a convo, maybe laugh

Caught myself staring at the ceiling
Everyone pretends they know the feeling
7 years has passed and I’m still healing
You will never know what I’m concealing

Caught myself staring at the ceiling
Everyone pretends they know the feeling
7 years has passed and I’m still healing
You will never know what I’m concealing

blame

stream

Self prod :) 

LYRICS 

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

Break me take me leave a little more for me desire
Cannot tempt the fate of one that meddles with his heart
Iron melts like gold and I cant stand it when you're hot
Leave me on the phone for like hours til you're gone
I don't want this love I wanna break into your heart
Clearly nothings there all your empathy is gone
Maybe you're just scared and all this time im wrong
I don't really care I just wanna see you gone

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

Throwing nothing but stones
Oh why she tell me that she love me
When she hate me the most
I get im ugly I can't handle 10 degrees in the cold
thats why im always at home
Leave you with the best time that I ever had
Wish I had the best life that I ever had
Tripping in the next life what we never had
I don't really care I just wanna see you gone

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

Love stuck in my lonely ways
I gotta leave me its my only way
I cannot take it with the shit you say
I swear this town should burn in fire
And il run away

THIS TOWN SHOULD BURN IN FIRE

feel my world just decay as i'm growing up . . .

huge shoutout to @byekento for carrying tf outta this song, u one of my best friends bro ilysm <33

>lyrics<
i been through too much
tryna do too much
feel my world just decay as im growing up
sprials swirling away; brain is blowing up
tryna hurl all my pain; i been throwing up

i just been too fucked up to remember
the times i gave soul back up for the devil
i take a couple puffs; im not more than a vessel
im thinkin way too much; i'll just go fuckin mental

i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them 
i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them

and i been tryna find my way back
if you really love me 
why the fuck ain’t you just say that 
i know im still caught up in my head 
i can’t escape yet chase a paycheck 
still alive but im looking for my fucking grave damn 

and i know that its still gon be the fucking same 
i know i won’t ever change
i know i’m the bad guy 
so i stay inside my lane
fuck no i ain’t reaching out
but i still wish they heard me now 
i know that i let ‘em down

its all my fault so i stay alone 
never had a place to go 
never had a place like home
always somewhere dosing off
i could never let it show
nothing but a sacrifice 
know its all inside my mind 
all this time to figure me out

i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them 
i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them

all plats

impaled w/ byekento [prod. dercept x jolst]

prod by stezzyxl 
guitar by michael harrison 
enjoy ^\^

lyrics:
she’s like a mystery, a puzzle i can’t solve
i try reach out but she ghostes, and withdraws
she loves to keep it to herself, silent resolve
the more that we don’t talk, the length of it evolves

she invites a side of her, a stranger i don’t know
her words and action are like poison she can’t control 
as her dark side emerges, fear begins to grow
the more I fight, the more she tightens up her hold

maybe someone else needs come and take my place
to whom i once loved to the point i’m losing faith
10 months have passed yet, you remain the same
you turned into the being, that u know i hate

oh
where have u been
no one likes me anymore (x2)

(leave me)

she makes me turn into the person that i don’t wanna be
she ripped my heart out of my chest and layed it so we can feast
her actions says it all she will not change even if she tried
but i’ll still hold on to her even if it makes me die

why would i
go ahead and ruin my life
for someone like yourself
if i didn’t even care for ur health
so tell me 
why would i
try so hard to make this work
if i didn’t even care for ur worth
but u treated me like i’m dirt 
so tell me (x2)

ive done some things that i dont like to say
i’ve been all of the the things that i say that i hate
a cheat, a lie, the smoke in the sky
i don’t want u to see, can u please close ur eyes?
but i have learned from all my mistakes
i will never go back to reside in that place
i have changed for the better and that i can say
i put that on my grave (x2)

back in time ll

prod by: admiin 
recorded, written, mixed and mastered by me

lyrics: 

I heard there’s visitors coming around tonight 
Guess I’m gonna hide
Lock myself inside always confined
Keep inside the box don’t think outside 
Dont think outside 
And I don’t wanna get out of here
Confronting you is my biggest fear
Lock myself inside always confined
Can I make myself crystal clear 
I push away the ones I hold dear
Lock myself inside always confined 

And I’ve been staring at these walls for way too long
I know this place too well
Yet, I don’t want to leave 
Cause if I do I’ll feel inclined to talk to you 
And I know, I 
Can never meet the expectations that you set on me, so high 
There’s a tough decision left for me to make 
Don’t need you to tell me, I know that its make or break 
(Its make or break) 

I heard there’s visitors coming around tonight 
Guess I’m gonna hide
Lock myself inside always confined
Keep inside the box don’t think outside 
Dont think outside 
And I don’t wanna get out of here
Confronting you is my biggest fear
Lock myself inside always confined
Can I make myself crystal clear 
I push away the ones I hold dear
Lock myself inside always confined

Have a good day/night ty <3

confined (admiin)

tysm too @xona & @heylog
for jumping on the song, love ya kings <3

Lyrics.
xona -
by myself
I need your help
to leave this place and reach a realm 
where I’m safe from all of this
it’s raining and I don’t know when
this envy, this hatred will end
as long as you know it from then 
i cannot bleed for you longer
you got me locked in this somber-
state and it’s not even shocker 
you walked all way and just prospered
i can’t believe that i knew 
i would be here to rue
you’re gone without telling me too
so where do i go without you?

Heylog-
i'm almost home babe
sorry i'm a little late
i've traveled far and wide
i've seen some better days
i can't get enough
look in my eyes and tell me i look rough
here lies a soulless place
i just heard some cries that do not sound okay
heard shots coming far away
hard to misplace thoughts when they are insane
i'm here outside ur place
babe i've come home and now ur safe
i'm alright
i'm just fine
hide every cut from the fight
i'm alright
i see light
darkness gets lost from behind
i need something i can feel, something i can feel
somewhere i can hide
somewhere i can heal
u mean nothing to me now
i mean something to me now
send the warriors out to battle on the field
u know what's the deal
every enemy i fought is dead
now their families kneel
i'm sorry i had to kill ur friend and so now ur next
never saw it coming cause he's dumb
shit's a bloodybath 
i'm bleeding
they're grieving
sorry i had to kill them
i'm reaching
the ceiling
there's a new king since yours dead

enemy ft. xona & heylog

guitar played by @user-374890447

lyrics:
what do you know about this
what do you know about this
oh what do you know about this
I'm sick of saying that I'm okay

I'm sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i pray it don't
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but im all alone
im sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i pray it don't
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone

say what u done to me
you open me gave me misery
you blow out the candle as i set it alight
fate wasn't kind to me
your over me were history
into someone else
erases every part of me

I'm sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i pray it don't
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
i wanna leave but I'm all alone
I'm sick of saying no
my friends are out while i lay at home
when time ticks i prey it don't
i wanna leave but im all alone
i wanna leave but im all alone
i wanna leave but im all alone

anxiety

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy^\^

lyrics:
lately i’ve been feeling like i’m fucking dead
a walking corpse hanging by a single thread
about to cut loose; the hand that i was once feed
oh no i beg

for mercy
i’ve done my best for you, but you just hurt me
i question myself if she really knows me
1 year down
i’m on my knees
and i still beg to this day

for closure
whenever u sad, u had my shoulder
whenever i was down, i just got lower
i screamed away
oh i’m in pain
and i still beg to this day 

for you
never once a day i didn’t love you
i treated u the same after i’ve been through
all the lies
and all the fights
and u won’t do the same

ur a piece of shit
ur a liar
our memories
are now on fire
ur like a cigarette 
with a bitter taste
left inside my mouth
i can’t erase 
ur pathetic
ur delusional 
u find it so cool
like an aesthetic 
u think ur always right
u wanna start a fight
u want the war? i’ll bring it to u
u won’t win this time 
oh i am different now
u can’t control me now
i won’t allow ur words to hit me if i hear a sound
and i will block u out
and i will turn u down
i’ll turn away from your mistakes, u cannot fix this now

hope u guys like dis one!!! <3
another epic song w me and @imgeist
produced by: what?boy

LYRICS:

Take me back to last winter
When you were still here with me 
And I’m feeling so bitter 
Feeling so bitter sweet 
I’m gone, and your out 
Thinking bout what I should be doing now 
Leave me in the gutter 
I need some time to think about what I have done cause I’m at fault 
And I don’t think I deserve you I am better on my own 
So just leave me in the dust

As I run 
And I go to a place I don’t know 
It’s all changed, see your face, i don’t see you the same as before 
And I’m sorry I was always so cold
And do you have a second to spare 
I need your time baby, I just wanna get outta here
Been losing my mind lately, I cannot see things clear 
I suck at time saving, I ain’t seen you in a year
And since then I ain’t functioned sober 
And it’s you I can’t seem to get over 
But you don’t even remember what we had 
You just blame it all on a hangover 

I’m gone, and your out 
Thinking bout what I should be doing now 
Leave me in the gutter 
I need some time to think about what I have done cause I’m at fault 
And I don’t think I deserve you I am better on my own 
So just leave me in the dust

just leave me in the dust 
oh why the pretty words when u don’t care for us? 
you left a hole in me and ask me where’s the trust 
like you didn’t tear it up 
and it’s okay my love 

but tell me how you feel cause i’ve been losing my mind 
there’s only so much i can take before i let it all die 
and it’s been said my whole life
same song like one thousand times 
but i’m too tired to fight 
so can you save me the lies 
 
you don’t know the start of me 
and i don’t know what to believe 
you left me here just to bleed 
now i’m begging for relief

I’m gone, and your out 
Thinking bout what I should be doing now 
Leave me in the gutter 
I need some time to think about what I have done cause I’m at fault 
And I don’t think I deserve you I am better on my own 
So just leave me in the dust

have a good day :)

bittersweet w/ i'm geist

lyrics -
hard to think there's no way, incredible
you had him take my place
then one of you
tried to drag my name so i wanna know
what part u had to play cos' i'm sick of u

and it's funny cos' i think you've gone and lost it
got your hand on the button saying 'watch this'
and my hand's under the table as i hear you
staring as i came into the room but i don't see you

why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?
why you gotta act like that?
waste my serotonin like that
baby fix ur attitude
why you gotta do me like that?

S.O.S i caved
but i'm still alive barely
tried to beat the struggle but got lost along the way
went too far alone, no rest 
and took it on myself to prove the dark would coat the day
hard to show love most days
no compassion from my friends
but i love that i pulled through
never know for certain
but i'm glad that i'll be home soon

scared to death of life i'll
battle through the pain and kick it off so
don't you ever worry i'm okay, love
cos' i don't really care no not at all though
stick a sword straight through me, watch me bleed out
i won't say a word i'll make you feel that
this moment that we're in will never end
a new life for us will grow
begin

freeze baby, put your hands to your head
'this is love?' she said
i don't get this or the conversation
i ain't good with stress
i can't clean the mess you left
great now it's complicated
just put the gun away, love
there's no time to fight me, we'll figure you out
take my hand and slowly we'll figure this out

i could steal my heart right back
give me fuckin credit cos' i'm loving all that
trauma that you're giving when you're thinking too fast
take another pill i'm sure it'll slow u down

confined (admiin)

B MURPH (@bmurphxo)

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