wow you guys have made so much improvement, love u both <3

S@d Æsthetic Essencials Vol.3

ibleedicare - https://soundcloud.com/slaughter-tone-records
xipz - https://soundcloud.com/xipz_sad
prod - https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNAtv_nKd0gVqlZNOzzamqw

Eating Air w/ ibleedicare & lil XipZ (prod. tennis player)

beat prod by ross gossage & aldaz & lockhome
recorded and mixed by nkno x cash nasty
mastered by nkno
artwork by heartlessarik

2 Years

2 Years (ft. cash nasty) (prod. ross gossage & aldaz & lockhome)

lyrics - written by backyard beetle and jxsie beats
produced by - umu
here is a link to the producers' youtube channel -
https://www.youtube.com/c/producerumu

follow me:
soundcloud - @backyardbeetle
bandlab - www.bandlab.com/backyardbeetle
youtube - www.youtube.com/channel/UC-4-VT3d7ke7q99LWiWikzw
spotify - open.spotify.com/artist/7Kmx3CsboLQGgQRrmQimz5

backyard beetle - closure w/ jxsie (prod. umu)

Main Artist: lil XipZ 
Featured Artist: teddyboi
Production: Shxdy808
Mixing: lil XipZ x teddyboi
Mastering: teddyboi
Cover Art: lil XipZ & teddyboi
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@xipz_sad.am
@teddydontgo
@shxdy808
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LYRICS:

[intro: lil XipZ]
i think you still care, i see you listening 
but you cant talk to me, you're blocked on everything

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
i see you listening to me, do you still think about me?
is there something that youd like to say?

wanna tell me that you miss me? 
just to play with my feelings
too bad, that aint gon happen again

[verse: teddyboi]
i see you on my songs bitch, why you still listenin?
look at my wrist, now my neck, bitch its fuckin glistenin uh huh
i ran through your friends, a rental huh?
fuckin all of your mentals up
swirl it, like a double cup
while your listenin to another song yeah
i was too busy making money
while you were cheating on the low
but thank you for that, cuz now all the albums are flowing yeah
i know that youre angry, but i made you who you are so you can thank me
i got someone unique to finesse you can you blame me? uh huh
but its hilarious that youre still blowing up my phone, on my tik tok, my dms, can you just leave me alone?
bitch, im not god, i aint your saving grace
you stupid bitch had done me wrong so ill never forgive her aye

[Chorus: lil XipZ]
i see you listening to me, do you still think about me?
is there something that youd like to say?

wanna tell me that you miss me? 
just to play with my feelings
too bad, that aint gon happen again

Our Exes Still Listen To Our Songs lol (w/ teddyboi) [Prod. Shxdy808]

Main Artist: lil XipZ
Production: yungdreamer555
Mixing: lil XipZ
Master: lil XipZ
Cover Art: lil XipZ
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FOLLOW US ON INSTAGRAM
@xipz_sad
@prod.yungdreamer
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LYRICS

[chorus]
i got blood dripping down from my hands
i slaughtered the demons that were roaming my head
i killed em one by one and theres no going back
i dont feel bad for it tho, i feel no regret

they shouldve left me alone
years ago
they shouldve left me alone
thats what i told them when i was smashing their skulls

[verse]
i got blood on my hands
feel no regrets
im living life crazy
what happens next?

where do i go?
what do i do?
everyones been asking "what happened to you?"

i simply do not have answer
when i call, i have no one that answers
is this what it feels like to be all alone
lost in my head again, why is my life so dull

im searching for my purpose
why do i feel worthless

do they think that i deserve this?
whatd i do to deserve this?

[chorus]
i got blood dripping down from my hands
i slaughtered the demons that were roaming my head
i killed em one by one and theres no going back
i dont feel bad for it tho, i feel no regret

they shouldve left me alone
years ago
they shouldve left me alone
thats what i told them when i was smashing their skulls

Blood On My Hands [Prod. yungdreamer555]

Released by: 333 Collective
Artists: soulfade, XSLIMEX, HeyLee Manzeron & lil XipZ
Produced by: Crizzy White
Mixed by: soulfade, XSLIMEX, HeyLee Manzeron & lil XipZ
Mastered by: lil XipZ
Cover Art by: lil XipZ
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Love Like a Pill (w/ soulfade, XSLIMEX, HeyLee Manzeron & lil XipZ) [Prod. Crizzy White]

listen to mæsks music: https://soundcloud.com/maesk337

beat made by https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_161

pekarots yt: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBVicoij06gb6PA2rapkqFg

/lyrics/

(tearsonmygucci)

i need help like i don't know what I'm supposed to do
sit under an overpass breathing fumes
passing street lights down another avenue
if i gotta die i would rather rot with you

back in april we were fighting just like usual
said you hated me oh so casual
held you tight but then you were gone 
if id known that it would be the last i held on

i see faces looking through the window
thoughts are whirling i just wanna be alone
oh solitude is rare cause i still hear you 
in my room 
lead my to my tomb i can't take it

thought i had convinced myself I'm better of
every morning i was better i was moving on
but i saw you in my dreams and i know that
it's never gone away my heart just went numb

all this pressure gonna make my skull cave in
at the end i hope you know that i still never gave in
it's hard to loosen up my grip 
cause i know I'll slip
without you to hold me back from losing it

(mæsk)

I've got this calming view and now I’m picturing ur face
And u now wanna talk, ok let’s talk about this pain
And now I’m sat beside a tree I’m taking all the shade
If u were here right now I know you'd wash it all away


I’ve got things I’ll never mention but it’s haunting me
Clouds are taking shape I swear that they’re taunting me
My head goes down but, swear I’m no different to all these broken leaves
If u were right now I’d view the world so differently

One more time,
The pressures building and it’s heating up
Wasn’t being honest when I said that I was fine
What’s in the past is deep and buried, I know I can’t do much
I’d be content if I could only see u one more time

(tearsonmygucci)

thought i had convinced myself I'm better of
every morning i was better i was moving on
but i saw you in my dreams and i know that
it's never gone away my heart just went numb

all this pressure gonna make my skull cave in
at the end i hope you know that i still never gave in
it's hard to loosen up my grip cause i know I'll slip
without you here to hold me back from losing it

I never gave up on us - ft. mæsk (Pekarot)

cardigan ft KcChalk (irby x jolst)

mixed, mastered and produced by yours truly.

lyrics ¬
Moonlight bouncing off your pretty face 
i knew that id fall in love with you anyway
Cruel eyes infiltrate the shattered gates
Crumbling to ashes as she celebrates

I got a sickly feeling that i met my fate
but i dont wanna face it, if it means "so long"
and i dont think you really wanna know my name
formalities are pointless if you cut me off

A battle stalemates
Sacrifices in vain
lost the war, pay in blood for mistakes that i made
bet you came out unscathed 
Completely unfazed
I have no doubts you’re truly proud of the path that you blazed

X2

Moonlight bouncing off your pretty face 
i knew that id fall in love with you anyway
Cruel eyes infiltrate the shattered gates
Crumbling to ashes as she celebrates

I got a sickly feeling that i met my fate
but i dont wanna face it, if it means so long
and i dont think you really wanna know my name
formalities are pointless if you cut me off

Moonlight bouncing off your pretty face 
i knew that id fall in love with you anyway
Cruel eyes infiltrate the shattered gates
Crumbling to ashes as she celebrate-

thank u for 300 followers :)

stay disciplined <3 

lyrics 

sittin on top of a tree, hoping i make it out
just tryna get in good habits, then i turn it on and hit the ground
sipin my coffee
please dont make a sound
let me sip my coffee or im jus gon sit around

feel the breeze, brush the leaves, and look at ur hometown
feeling so small, its ok, yeah its allowed
but if u think about it for too long, tommorow will become the now

im on track to 200 songs this year if u round to hundreds
my notes on like a thousand, yet my motivation plumets
i cant tell u why i do this, i cant tell u nothin
but its like every fuckin night, even when im not productive

i still feel there’s hope but i cant tell u when its coming
i jus wanna know, like please give me a sign or something
but you cant rely on an outside source
so put in front your musts and remove all this fuckin “wanting”

like remove all this fuckin wanting 
just do it
like remove all this fuckin wanting 
ooo 
remove all this fuckin wanting 
remove all this fuckin wanting

slow process (drkmnd x no spirit)

Veins

prod. sorrow bringer
artwork done by my gf :)

you broke me down was it worth it?

you broke me down was it worth it?
i’m breaking beneath the surface
waiting for a higher purpose
but i know that’s worthless
i fear not for the end
i know that i’ll be fine
cause i’m the after life 
i know that you’ll still be mine
i’m letting go of the past cause it was flawed by desgin

failed from the fucking beginning 
they were out to get me
but i ended up winning
so i’ll sit back and wait
while you take your place
fucking your lying games
you’re such a fucking waste time for me
now it’s time for you to see

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 
you were to me
i can finally breathe
i was on my knees 
begging for you to leave
my life for good this time
well it seems i finally got what’s mine

nothing can change my mind
nothing can help you now
watch as the blood drips down
from your eyes
while you cry
no surprise 

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 

you broke me beneath the surface
you’ll soon realize how worthless 
you were to me
i can finally breathe
i was on my knees 
begging for you to leave
my life for good this time
well it seems i finally got what’s mine

broken beneath the surface (sorrow bringer)

self-prod

Reject - https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/RMw1y

Alcohol & Medicine w/ popularreject

mixed and mastered by @ztope, featuring @swno, check their stuff out <33

dream tales:

work on myself
i don't need no help, i'm doing great
tell me more about you baby, where have u been?
time moves fast, when ur stuck in a dream
im feeling so lost, could u hold my hand?
wish i was more than a friend
could u pretend u feel the same?
could u pretend that u don't hate me?
filled up with hate
look into my eyes and scream that we're not the same
woah
i still feel the same
years went by and i still feel the same
yeah
im still in my bed
looking through the window as i'm fading away
ay
im just sick of the pain
ready to give it up and ill be back to my real name
im just sick of the world

swno:

bitch I’m sick I need drugs
i need love I need fixing 
coughing up my Lungs Blowing smoke
like a piston  Listen  let me 
lose myself Up in this
fuckin prison All This talking but
you steady acting  Distant non existent 
yeah i say im fuckin living 
im always suffocating Contemplating fuck this
life fuck you placemen

we're not the same w/swno (prod. grey)

prod me.
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run through the fog
kick it till im gone
blue eyes in the sun
red lips, but i think im fallin off

dead for season
cold fall keeps me breathing
knife in the hole 
blonde hair in the snow

wish away and call me out again
i swear to god, you'll regret this eventually
i cannot tell you what to do!
but ur the boss, and ur cocky its true

set, a break
makin a video to escape, this place
its so fuckin depressing can you wait, a sec
but ur  way to pushy what am i, to say?
ill run away

and hope that i can make some sense of this
ur lacking on ur evidence!
but residentially, i need to find a way
to escape, and live another day!

i didnt ever think this was hard
running through the smoke, and the fog
honestly i just wanna get far
why are you so alarmed

run through the fog
kick it till im gone
blue eyes in the sun
red lips, but i think im fallin off

dead for season
cold fall keeps me breathing
knife in the hole 
blonde hair in the snow

why did you give up!
was hoping that we could be something!
i been so, fed up!
sorry love i know were nothing

knife in the hole!
but that hole is my heart
fallin out love again

i cant understand!
the things i do for minimum wage.
its ridiculous

Kill me and open up again!
IM SORRY YOU DONT GET ME MAN
GET SLAMMED FOR THINGS I DONT EVEN DO!
WHATS THE POINT, IM BEING USED

run through the fog
kick it till im gone
blue eyes in the sun
red lips, but i think im fallin off

dead for season
cold fall keeps me breathing
knife in the hole 
blonde hair in the snow

knife in the hole

(prod by @slatervstheworld)
11/XX/22 -- lmao I forgot to put the date here
PERFORMED AND MIXED BY @capkyle x @yami_music-533562095

\\LYRICS//
[INTRO VERSE]
Thoughts in my mind
Yeah, I see em' real clearly
Thoughts in my mind
I kinda feel alive
But lately it's been just a little bit harder
To stay on the path of alignment
 
Father once asked me if I think I'm a big man
Sitting in my room, thinking about what he said
I hate myself, and I kinda wanna die
But baby, you make it all better

[CHORUS]
20 thousand years I been lost
Inside the mirrors
Tryna conquer all my fears
I been drinking to much beer, so

20 thousand years I been lost
I conquer fears
Hate myself without you
There's just something about you, girl

[VERSE]
My baby, call me amazing
To bad demons in my mind all hate me
It's crazy, the way you put up with me on the daily
Grab the 9 and cock it back 
Take my life, it's a heart attack
Call me a snitch, I shoot the rats
Shoot the rat

[VERSE] - Yami
I just wanna die
Iike I don't feel alright
like every time I live another day, it's just a nightmare
Running from my fears cause I can't fight them alone
Holding back my tears cause I only cry at home

No, I don't like how I look in the mirror
With my blood shot eyes
Pale skin filled with fear
I look nauseous
Done with falling into love 
Yea, you broke my heart now I don't feel enough
Yea, your toxic

[BRIDGE]
Baby, I been overthinking, lately It's a struggle
Stepping in mud, been falling into puddles
The rain falls fast but at last I find some answers
To problems in my head while they tell me run faster
I'm never giving up but I have all these 
 
[VERSE]
Thoughts in my mind
Yeah, I see em' real clearly
Thoughts in my mind
I kinda feel alive
But lately it's been just a little bit harder
To stay on the path of alignment
 
Father once asked me if I think I'm a big man
Sitting in my room, thinking about what he said
I hate myself, and I kinda wanna die
But baby, you make it all better

[CHORUS]x2
20 thousand years I been lost
Inside the mirrors
Tryna conquer all my fears
I been drinking to much beer, so

20 thousand years I been lost
I conquer fears
Hate myself without you
There's just something about you, girl

Cap.Kyle x Yami, - Reflect+ (prod. slatervstheworld)

never give up


also known as sixthirtyeight


musician / graphic designer / engineer 

backyard beetle - closure w/ jxsie (prod. umu)

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