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STREETLIGHTS (FT/ A DISTANT VOICE)

prod. dercept x ayoley

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rest in peace

Mixed/Mastered By Me https://soundcloud.com/sadboykana & https://soundcloud.com/auby4rc
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/lindenblossom & https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
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[Lyrics]

(kana)
Why do i keep trying?
Questioning my life now
God i feel so tired
Always being let down
And you were just a liar
Girl you got me fucked up
Walking down the wire
You're wastin my time love
Quit textin my phone up
I swear that i'm so done
I swear i'm not in love
Left me feelin so numb
Pictures on my walls i
Burnt it all to ashes
Made sure that i left them
How you left me
I'm damaged

(akiradoves)
i feel so dead when i'm holding my hand 
the tears on your chest babe i don't understand 
tell me why you lie tell me why you're cold 
and i don't wanna wait anymore
so tell me why you're gone
somewhere around my heart hurts
sometimes i feel useful 
but most the times i feel like i am nothing

(auby)
you make me forget the things that i said
i don't wanna hurt you but you make me upset
i need to focus on myself instead
don't know if you want this
it's all in my head

suffering w/ kana & auby (linden & nevrfall)

Prod. Venus

Lyrics 

This song’s a message to my older self
Huh
I hope that one day you can find yourself
i hope it worked out with that girl you love
or did you fuck up like i thought i would
I hope the thoughts don’t keep you up at night
cos right now i cant fucking sleep at all
Hope that you overcome ur anxious mind
or it’ll be your fucking funeral

tides changing, and i been contemplating my thoughts, 
smooth sailing is not smooth if you bail when its hard
I hope you beat the demons that left you so broken and scarred
hope you surround yourself with people that wont
TEAR YOU APART

AND WHILE YOU’RE AT IT WONT YOU LET SOMEBODY INTO YOUR HEART

START TO APPRECIATE THE TIME YOU SPEND WITH HER IN YOURS ARMS

CAUSE RIGHT NOW IM DISSOCIATED I FORGOT HOW TO FEEL

WOUNDS REOPEN THAT I SWEAR HAD 
ALREADY FULLY HEALED

Its like everything that’s happened lately hasn’t been real
life’s been feelin kinda pointless uh 
oh
maybe higher powers set me up
But I dont know if its just me who’s lost oh
I give up i fucking guess they won

This song’s a message to my older self
I hope that one day you can find yourself
i hope it worked out with that girl you love
or did you fuck up like i thought i would
I hope the thoughts dont keep you up at night
Cos right now i cant fucking sleep at all
I hope you overcome ur anxious mind
Or it’ll be your fucking funeral

message to my older self

lyrics¬

he's everything
that i wanna be but never was
and i bet he treats you better
than i, ever could
we,
were always fighting i
think i misunderstood
what you meant when you said you loved me
i didnt think anybody could

im sober now
dont cut me out
i fell in love
too fast, for my own good
but you're the one that loved me too
i cant imagine a life without you
cos we stick together like feathers and glue
and i would be finished if i lost you, too

he's everything
that i wanna be but never was
and i bet he treats you better
than i, ever could
we
were always fighting i
think i misunderstood
what you meant when you said you loved me
i didnt think anybody could

inevitability ill get replaced
missing the times i wake up to your face 
reminiscing on places we visit apart but together 
in juxtaposition oh
why does it have to be this way?
i hate its not us spending everyday, together
what ever happened, to, forever? 

he's everything
that i wanna be but never was
and i bet he treats you better
than i, ever could
we
were always fighting i
think i misunderstood
what you meant when you said you loved me
i didnt think anybody could

misunderstood (marco)

produced by scotty splash
mixed by Lxst Boy, XELFIY, & hero
mastered by Lxst Boy
@xelfiy
@not-a-fucking-hero
@scottysplash

-lyrics-
(Lxst Boy)
lets just go, go, go off the deep end
i dont know when we'll see it
rock the boat till we sinkin
break me apart keep the pieces
X2

(XELFIY)
woah, woah, woah
baby i think it’s time i
go, go, go
uh, drinking till i get slow 
i wanna hit you up but baby
i had already known 
what u gonna say
and i don’t wanna hear that, no
digits in my phone
baby leave me alone
gotta call the plug and get him over here
so i can get gone
i am big strong
i take this sip to boost me up
and then i get on
i don’t even fucking know her
she said she gon come over
but i ain’t even sober
i just hope she don’t notice
cause i don’t wanna get older
i should leave right now
before you even say a word
cause i know i’m gon get attached 
way too fast and get hurt
yeah i know i ain’t him
but i know that she’s hurt
and they’ll fuck it if it’s cringey
baby what could be worse
fuck it if i’m stingy
i’m jus tryna get more money
ion know why you love me
oh bae i’m tryna get the money

(hero)
yuh
look at that ugly brain
but look at that gorgeous face 
ion know how im liked so much
when there's so much more to hate
proportions skewed in two i had nothing left to say
everything exposed
and i guess she jus liked the taste
go go go go
ion see no other angles its jus forward u gotta
go go go go
i can't settle for a moment i jus gotta fuckin
go go go go
take a breather its the end for u 
so quick u gotta
go go go go
go go go go

(Lxst Boy)
lets just go, go, go off the deep end
i dont know when we'll see it
rock the boat till we sinkin
break me apart keep the pieces
X2

go! w/ xelfiy & hero (scotty splash)

shoutout @sadboiforever for this beautiful production
if yall want this on spotify run it up for me pls ily

lyrics:

what a fuckin letdown
you turned out to be...
now im burnin all these photos
in an attempt to let it go
and these conversations 
saved inside my phone
i want to delete them
but i cant...
i just wanna leave this in the past

just want to leave this
in the past...
and ive been thinkin about you
see you in the bottom of this glass...

why do you have to
go and do this shit to me?
i been crying my eyes out
instead of sleeping...
so fuckin tired of needless beating...

now ill never be the same!
yeah you fucked me up
and now ill always be afraid...

afraid...ill always be afraid...

letdown...[+2001]

this isn't really the most me kind of song
just a lot of gibberish thrown together but i did want to share at least something as it's been a hot minute
i hope i'm back to usual soon <3

Lyrics:

it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better you're never hearing this

could you tell me that you love me
even if you'll never mean it i need something
i been needing reassurance that i'm something
this shit is fuel for giving up please
so could you tell me that you love me
it's fucking lonely in this body so i share it with her lusting
oh could you fuck me

could you fuck me right back
i won't get attached
just need to make it thru the night without a rollie or a pack
at least the music has my back
yuh
cuz i know people never last
yuh
i made this shit so in a week i'll have a song to cry to
i made this shit so in a year i'll be at peace and i won't mind you
she said that she'd be right there nothings ever right there
i'd honestly be dead if i found another life there

so let me know if you relate
or i'm alone to fight my fate
i tend to fall in love too quickly
have the habit getting clingy
have a habit sort of sticking
it's probably something that i'm missing
from my childhood or misery
and now i can't remember much
but i know i never really wanted this
and the things i'd give to run back life again
now i fantasize bout the corny lovey shit
but it's probably better you're never hearing this

yuh it's probably better you're never hearing this
yuh it's probably better you're never hearing this

it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better
it's probably better you're never hearing this

something, anything.

lyrics -‌ ‌written‌ ‌by‌ ‌@backyardbeetle
produced‌ ‌by -‌ @killedmyself

follow me:
soundcloud - @backyardbeetle
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backyard beetle - spoken (prod. killedmyself)

vocals & lyrics: cuts

chasin all these ghosts in my head, baby
i cannot think straight
i been feelin dead, fuck it
everyone is so fake
we been upset, fuck it
everyone is so lame
we been upset, fuck it
everyone is so lame

oh oh, why can’t i face it?
oh oh, why do i play this
oh oh like i been racin 
i bend out chasin, i been out fakin

wasted all my energy, still i ain’t enough
wonder if the time will come when i should give it up
cause everybody lately tryna act like they tough
i am so stuck, aye, i am so uh

chasin all these ghosts in my head, baby
i cannot think straight
i been feelin dead, fuck it
everyone is so fake
we been upset, fuck it
everyone is so lame
we been upset, fuck it
everyone is so lame

oh oh, why can’t i face it?
oh oh, why do i play this
oh oh like i been racin 
i bend out chasin, i been out fakin

i wonder if ill ever be enough (no i dont think so)
maybe i should just give up on you (thats what you want tho)
cos ive sucha bother you can see it in my retina
took too fucking long i think i need another step up

wasting all my energy im starting to fade
made you wanna cry but who was betrayed?
thought you were the one but youre just a lame
youve been so fake

chasin all these ghosts in my head, baby
i cannot think straight
i been feelin dead, fuck it
everyone is so fake
we been upset, fuck it
everyone is so lame
we been upset, fuck it
everyone is so lame

oh oh, why can’t i face it?
oh oh, why do i play this
oh oh like i been racin 
i bend out chasin, i been out fakin

upset!

3/4/23
original song credits towards @sewerperson // @hatefulbeats

this shit's gotten me through some of the most fucked days
thought i'd cover it
yea

9TAILS - Ready Set Go (cover)

never give up


also known as sixthirtyeight


musician / graphic designer / engineer 

backyard beetle - spoken (prod. killedmyself)

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