I wrote this song based on the feeling of missing who you used to be. I've changed a lot as a person over the years, and sometimes I feel like I can't recognize myself anymore, and I can't really enjoy the things I used to be passionate about, even though I kept a lot of my flaws, which makes me kind of sad and feels like I've become a worse person.

Recently, I went through a major life change and I fell out of touch with a lot of friends, which I felt was partly because I'm not really the same person they chose to be friends with in the first place anymore. This song kind of embodies that feeling.

Slippers

water spirit

dont get out of bed
it's nice to get some rest
i'll make u breakfast

tell the truth to me
should i stay or leave?
your pokerfacce is getting hard to read

living in a haze
when was yesterday?
you turn to me and say

"why do i exist?"
i could say the same
does anybody know?

i've been taking days off
and i'm scared when i stop
why can't we just live life?
if she's real then why
is it like this
when it could be different
for now, i'm living
for you

god (for you)

Live Laugh Love (mixtape)

Wild Woman

You'll Never Hear This

When I'm Alone

lyrics:

miss me, won't come over
brush you off my shoulder
free the space you're taking up
hear me out
I think I know by now
you won't
cause you don't

why would I even want this?
there's nothing here left to miss
I'm only being honest
but you could call it wrong
just don't call me

now I'm a silhouette how could I forget
all the light I had inside
before the emptiness
I was bleeding out
you pretend you care
you wiped away my blood and rubbed it in
to dye your hair
you're so sadistic
you though I'd miss it
I had a feeling I was caught up
picking fights with a ghost
now I know

charged me all my lovers
paid the price and suffered
felt there's no space where I belong
won't you let me leave
don't you feel a thing
you won't
cause you don't

why would I even want this
there's nothing here left to miss
I'm only being honest
but you could call it wrong
just don't call me
don't call me
don't call me, call me, call me

don't call me

one of my favorite songs of all timeee xo

breakeven

I Hate Love

i found this cool lookout spot in echo park while i was in LA and loved walking up there. i think i recorded this the day 'fuck it up' came out. i never uploaded because i didn't think it was good enough lol. it's rough, but i wanted to share it now anyway. a last little piece of 'fuck it up' before 'dark side' comes out next week. enjoy x

watch on youtube: https://youtu.be/6v8g65acPRQ
stream 'fuck it up': https://ffm.to/fiu_cl

fuck it up! (live & acoustic in LA)

I’ve been living a lifetime just waiting for a feeling I could belong here now anymore.
I’ve been doing my best to try to ignore signs that only had shown I’d been here before.

I’m a miserable dirt bag, I couldn’t love anyone or anything else but myself enough.
I’ve been trudging through hurt and I couldn’t trust anyone or anything else til I found your love.

I’m standing at the edge now.
How the fuck did it come to this?
How could I ever slow down,
To let go of the ones I miss?

But I’ve got a lot left to give, 
And I don’t want another soul to leave.
Always feeling like I’ve been branded,
With a burning inside of me.

And you’ll never know what it’s like to have to walk alone through this hollow life,
And I pray for better days for you and I,
But all I’ve seen is blood and red with sacrifice.

I’ve been living a lifetime just waiting for a feeling I could belong here now anymore.
I’ve been doing my best to try to ignore signs that only had shown I’d been here before.

I’m a miserable dirt bag, I couldn’t love anyone or anything else but myself enough.
I’ve been trudging through hurt and I couldn’t trust anyone or anything else til I found your love.

don't call me

Baileyrp

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