Ripped off of youtube

Cry all night
Go to sleep
Then wake up
And repeat
Wonder why I'm still so weak
Break the floor from under me
I'll return with my soul
Right before the feeling goes
Why can't I see my toes
Can somebody cut the rope?
Hear the cries of the fiends
Mind my business while they feast
All I see are broken dreams
All I need are memories
Paint the walls and the crows
As they drag me down the road
To a place that I know
Guess it's why I feel at home

Has the light ever shown?
Deep inside the world below
Ease the pain from getting close
I just want to feel at home
Am I at the bottom or the top?
Why they keep me down when I'm up
See my halo hanging right above
Guess I really never cared enough
Funny how I'm always on my own
Even when they say I'm not alone
Maybe I should take the blight and roam
To a place the light'll never go
Watch it go until it's almost gone
Everything I've known to love is lost
Did I try too hard to write my wrongs
Why can't I just seem to move along?
In this place that's only kept me low
I could never feel the weight I hold
Is there still another way to go?
All that's left of me in here are bones

Cry all night
Go to sleep
Then wake up
And repeat
Wonder why I'm still so weak
Break the floor from under me
I'll return with my soul
Right before the feeling goes
Why can't I see my toes
Can somebody cut the rope?
Hear the cries of the fiends
Mind my business while they feast
All I see are broken dreams
All I need are memories
Paint the walls and the crows
As they drag me down the road
To a place that I know
Guess it's why I feel at home

the only halo I'll have will be the rope around my neck (prod. by born hero)

[Chorus: Toshokan]
Feeling like your patient, dismissed
I've been waiting so long for this
But now it's wasted and I'm pissed off
My heart still burns and I still feel lost
Will we fall apart?
I get lost in time
When I feel the lows
I forget the highs

[Verse 1: Toshokan]
And I'm afraid I lost another friend
Seems like everything is fine 'cause I'm forced to pretend
Fade into oblivion, don't wanna make amends
If this is serious, then it's my descend
My eyes still burning 'cause I cried all night
I'm still hurting, nothing feels right
Bentley called me up like it's the middle of thе night
Still got a voice in my head, pleasе don't think that I'm lying
I miss you, you don't really care
When I needed you, you were there
Talking about me is not fair
Yeah, talking about me is not fair

[Chorus: Toshokan]
Feeling like your patient, dismissed
I've been waiting so long for this
But now it's wasted and I'm pissed off
My heart still burns and I still feel lost
Will we fall apart?
I get lost in time
When I feel the lows
I forget the highs
[Bridge: Toshokan]
I couldn't see the truth
How could I be so blind?
And when I feel so blue
I stare up at pastel skies
Will we fall apart?
I get lost in time
And when I feel the lows
I forget the highs

[Verse 2: sewerperson]
She's in the party, it started after the party (After the party)
I understand and I'm ready
Memories were made for forgetting
I keep my confidence close
Keep my drink filled with Henny
Girl, I just need to relax and I hope my body can let me (Body can let me)
And I got this target on top my head and it fucked me
I hope you'll still try to love me, I let my barriers down
And I prepare for the ugly
She's at home with her partner and I just hope that she's comfy 'cause girl I know it gets rocky
But hold on (Hold on)
Baby, stay strong (Stay strong)
Hold faith even when it seems lost (Seems lost)
It's alright (Alright), when we move on (Move on)
Don't talk, I can hear your thoughts, yeah

pastel skies (prod. wolfgang pander) 

toshokan - PATIENT w/ sewerperson

2nd single on duskdreams, thanks to @dxnnyymusic for crying on his verse coz he gets no females

album soon...

lyrics
im stranded here baby 
but its cool now
took the time for myself
confirmed what i knew, now
i’ve let th waves take me 
had to move out of that cruel town
if i dont make it out its ok at least ive 
drowned out all of this blue sound

i found peace in this silence
no surprises
solice in a death where there is lack of violence
down in the depths where no heads r collided
frowned upon rest, took my meds lost my eyelids

i knew all of that shit would come back to bite me
now having swam with the sharks i can tell u i took it lightly
out of spite, we like fighting 
“but lemme make it right please”
as if that makes a difference on the outcome, its just timely 

im stranded here baby 
but its cool now
took the time for myself
confirmed what i knew, now
i’ve let th waves take me 
had to move out of that cruel town

all of that blue sound
it takes so long to just reach me
i cant tell if u gon come around

waves crashing, goodbye is all that i see
u wanna see where i go now
circles, in circles and circles
im catching the surf but my heads down

quietyyy
catching the surf but my heads down 
im a strong swimmer but baby i might drown
you’ll never catch me around again
keep me in thoughts ill live on in your head
keep it in mind that you’ll find 
someone else to move on with 
it gets so much better when you reach the end

dont you forget bout the memories we cherished together, ill never forget what you said
that you’d wash away all my worries no matter how big
but my waves push you back and you’re watching me sink
my mental state reaching the brink
the vast ocean cold like my heart
and the frostbite took over my mind i cant think 
go call for lifeguards, its pointless, im lifeless, i cant see a thing 
the ocean it takes me i cant SEA a thing

and if I dont make it outs its ok coz I drown out all o' that poo sound :)

blue sound ft dxnny (sleepy fish)

Face Down

Face Down w/ Caspr, JOLLY WRLD, & screwyounick

Hold my hand
_____________________________________________________________
Hold my hand
I need
some guidance
I need
Reliance
Still a kid in my bones like
Overthinking my whole life
9-5 kill my soul
Don't want to do what I'm told
I remember playing all day
Couldn't take a wrong way
Now I'm older
Push that boulder
It's September already
Now the summers' soon ending
My flame smolders
Getting colder

I've got to fly on my own
All alone
I've got to try, Can't postpone
Now I'm grown

But I never said it was easy
I'm waiting for death to come free me
I pray that this winter don't freeze me
There's levels to life like a Avicii
The king of my mind like Medici
I'm human, can't help but be greedy
I know that this world doesn't need me
I don't let it make me uneasy
Can't go back I know my own fate
I've tried to run but can't sedate
These feelings I've always felt
Inactions add up to hell
I can't help but to rebel
I'm stuck inside a cell

I've got to fly on my own
All alone
I've got to try, Can't postpone
Now I'm grown
I've got to fly on my own
All alone
I've got to try, Can't postpone
Now I'm grown
_____________________________________________________________

Produced & mixed by John Wehmeyer & Weepings
Written by Weepings
Mastered by Weepings
Eternal September | 2023

Hold my hand

I like making music prod flyskiii

lost our ways

@steadysuffer
prod: @yungcold

lyrics:
i seem to forget everything you said
let me bleed
feel my blood
on your knees
growing love
never felt such growing pain
ive never felt such growing pain
ill never let you grow away from me
im too fucked up for this conversation
and honestly
im contradicting, scatter brained
all my guts spread out on the floor
and i cant take this anymore
i hate your guts, but i love you more
im so fed up, but i cant walk out the door

cut me open from the inside
i dont wanna know what you did last night
cut me open from the inside
take away the pain from the inside
take away the pain
i dont wanna see your face anymore
silhouettes on the back porch
where you left me
where you left me to die
i wanna know why the color of your eyes are white

recovery (prod. notmorgn) out on spotify

bakeract