the deep end

it's not so bad w/ not home (prod. caustyk)

featuring @nothomex

i let that shit get the best of me 
now i be rockin on therapy 
i do this shit all so carefully
the weight on my neck is just killin me 
pour down sleeve 
i can't fucking sleep
watch my eyes close
yeah 
this shit like 3d
i like her nose ring 
lil bitch got tagteam
her love like bad dream
i pour my once all alone now
i whip it like green and i lay out
all of my boys trynna hang out 
but i'm just trying to smoke till i black out

It’s weird when I have future in my head 
Because before 21 I see myself dead 
I can’t see any color , how can I not be mad 
I don’t have an expectation for the start of my life only for the end
I can’t see anything I cannot blend 
In between the society , I’m on a deep end 
Will I be able to stand ? 
Find myself in this shitstorm 
Did they already know my end before I was born

Last summer I was more lost than found 
Was left picking up the pieces scattered on the ground
Couldn’t talk couldn’t sleep 
Couldn’t walk couldn’t eat
Lost some pounds I lost some weight 
Now all pants fall from my waiste 
Scars on my wrist tears on my face 
The deepest wounds are the ones you can’t see
I’m the only one who can feel
All the pain they reveal 
I hope I’ll get better this year 
Sometimes I stand still 
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried

dead b4 21 (ft.not home.) prod.nadiak & marlas dreams

https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt
https://soundcloud.com/jolst

COMMUNITY, Vol. 1

skele - burden

https://soundcloud.com/ripkais
https://soundcloud.com/yungaxstn

hopeless

kais - hopeless (ft. yung axstn)

he said it, i'm too damaged

w/ @scapexgoat


i'm trying my best 
i swear i am 
tryna show you i need you 
i wanna hold your hand 
i've been hurt so fucking badly i forget who i am 
this was never part of the plan 
so can you promise you won't run from me 
cause i'm so scared i'm fucking shaking
it gets hard to breathe
n i'm not used to someone wanting me 
god, it feels so fucking comforting

so pour me a drink
and i'll sing you to sleep 
n he said it
i'm too damaged 
bleed through the bandages
i'm so gone, god
i wish i never met him
n just to go sleep
have to be off fucking sedatives
i'm so gone, god
i wish i never met him

[scapegoat] 
i was in the backseat 
looking at my phone
why you never text me
i feel so alone
i just wanted you to stay 
tell me when the fuck you're coming back
i know i'm so bad
hate to see you like that
tell me why the fuck it hurts so bad
i wish i could save you but i know i can't
how the fuck can i help you,
i can't help myself

bleed through the bandages (w/ scapegoat)

https://soundcloud.com/ripkais
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

lyrics:
u cant tell me how i feel
u dont know my mind u cant tell me if im real
f*cking, laughin, crying u cant tell me if were good right now 
even if im bleedin ima still stick around 

honestly f*ckin tired of this 
sh*t just works out terribly 
problems thrown like snowb*lls 
so cold with it
anxiety 
sinkin in my brain 
got two feet but i still cant stand 
work through my troubles its takin its toll on my mind i cant help if i dont feel alright 
f*ck it ur right
im outta my mind

u cant tell me how i feel
u dont know my mind u cant tell me if im real
f*cking, laughin, crying u cant tell me if were good right now 
even if im bleedin ima still stick around 

u cant tell me how i feel
u dont know my mind u cant tell me if im real
f*cking, laughin, crying u cant tell me if were good right now 
even if im bleedin ima still stick around 

u cant tell me how i feel
u dont know my mind u cant tell me if im real
f*cking, laughin, crying u cant tell me if were good right now 
even if im bleedin ima still stick around

kais - can't tell me

lyrics:

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

i had it all planned
we could just fall back
onto the couch look at the moon and just smoke up the whole pack

now its all u said i said
whenever u mad im mad
who got the heart on snapchat
if she hit u up dont call back

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

ur the one i dream bout (prod. mydepression)

Don't fall in love with me,
Don't fall in love with me, no no.

And every night that I cry,
I'm so alone, nobody wants to-
pick up the phone and call..

Stay Away, I’m Hurting.

I dont wanna wake up
laying alone, always dreaming about your touch
i'm getting used to isolation, i don't feel nah
reminicing about your love

i see you standing there, you're with someone else
you see me glancing but your acting like you couldn't tell
yeah, i feel like the weather getting colder,
yeah, i hope i forget you when im older, yeah
i've been drawing pretty pictures on my wrist with a razor
i don't need to call yeah i know that you wont answer me
just tell me what i don't see
woah

about your love

skele - about your love (prod. remghost)

Part 1:

I bet you'll care,
I bet you'll fucking care,
when I'm dead in a bath tub,
slit from ear to ear.

I bet you'll care,
I bet you'll fucking care,
I can love you while I'm here,
but it's not forever..

and she said together..
(she lied to me.)
we'll be sad forever.
(we'll be sad forever) (x2)

Part 2:

Don't tell me that you love me,
I know that you are fronting,
and all I ever asked of you was the truth.
I tell my friends you're nothing,
but deep inside you love me.
And every time I leave her; come back to you.

Sad forever, Yours truly.

𝘪 𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘭 𝘮𝘦

lyrics:
I know I seem different, sit down u should listen 
I know I feel so distant, im not me I kno u wont miss this

i'm sorry, the chemicals are breakin me down slowly
I cant control me x2

I don't even know who I am
i'm aching 
its suffocating 

smoke some shit, hope i feel it
my chest to weak for these feelings
I start breathing heavier 
, i'm insecure, my life's a blur

fuck I wanna feel u on my lips, yea
I know hasn't been long but I still miss yuh 
u callin my phone u cant leave alone
I rlly like that, I cant lie 
yea I rlly cant fight that 

confused ab my life and where i'm goin now
I hope I make but sometimes I think don't kno how

“ look at the brightside” fuck that 
u don't even know me 
sayin shit like u rlly think we homies

i'm sorry, the chemicals are breakin me down slowly
I cant control me x3

chemicals

spotify

chemicals (prod.kamikaze)

*tell me won't you stay w me tonight*

And we'll.. Share this pain again,
Cos I'm, so in love with her.
She's back inside my head again, and I can't help it.
And she'll be here tonight.

Catch me if I fall, please don't ever let go.
Depression in our heads, and it comes back in cycles.
I won't ever leave you, no,
I'm not like the rest. I'm not like the rest at all..

Ana, Ana,
I'm not like the rest at all..
If no one ever hurts you again,

I guess that my job was successful.

And Ana, Ana,
I'm not like the rest at all..
I'm not like the rest at all..
I'm not like the rest..

I'm not like the rest at all..

If no one ever hurts you again,
I guess that my job was successful.

And Ana, Ana,
I'm not like the rest at all..
I'm not like the rest at all..
I'm not like the rest..

I'm not like the rest at all..
I'm not like the rest at all..
I'm not like the rest..

hi
s/o ocean for proding

lyrics:
I dont know if im enough
at times living gets tough yeah 
I dont rlly wanna scare you 
but these thoughts in my head dont know how to work through

dont tell me its already its already morning
I cant even sleep when its boring
anxiety leaves when im snoring 
when I wake up the rain starts pouring

and wont stop pouring
I dont wanna hear ur stupid stories
I dont care if u say ur sorry
bc I know that u dont rlly want me

dew (prod.ocean)

HEART BEAT (prod. rxhff)

Prod by. me :)
mastered by soundcloud.com/cay2o
lyrics:

they whisper to me, wither away
don’t want them to see so I cover my face
i’m insecure and my feelings dont matter
stuck in a loop am I like this forever
fuck it I might be
feelin low like highkey
how you act so fuckin bland like a white tee
I dont think you understand why you like me
why you like me you ain nothin like me

ima do it for my friends and the people who don’t mean shit
cause I’m the only one who gon give what they need
shit if I ain gonna make it
then I hope whoever does knows how to treat a fuckin bag and keep they friends close too
dont know you do I have to,
crack a smile to a stranger, bet they lied too
gonna get a tattoo, 18 real soon
ima hussle till I make up back to you

I don’t want no problems
cause I ain gonna solve it
I know everyone around really hates me and it’s okay
i’m sleepin till its too late
for any of my plans to work
fuck it ima wake up when all this shit easier

nothin like me

prod by me 

shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for making fyeee wit me

lyrics:
wait for my chance but you take it
lifes not really what you make it
you give me these looks and I hate
this town so small I could break it

you’d give me yo love if you wanted to
you take my heart and you throw it jus tell me the truth
im stuck in this loop of regret
I talk and I talk but this feeling is still in my chest
I keep givin up I cant make it through
all of this shit that I do I do it for you 
im sorry im tryin my best
I cant give my all if im stuck up in this stupid mess

I'm so stressed 
feeling like shit cause I'm broke and depressed
I just want peace but you cant take a break
stuck in this loop we get mad everyday

skele: 
im tryin me best and you know it, and no im not mad I would show it
I make a bag to just to blow it
I dont wanna leave but im goin
I would give all of it up 
I hate the plays and I hate the come up
its stressin me out
they always want me to be perfect shit makes me nervous 

hate or dont, love me you wont
been here before babe I know how it goes
you know how I feel when you say that 
i’ll be here forever I mean that.

if u wanted to w/skele

prod by me //

lyrics:

i don't think it's fair how u talk to me like this, i get so fuckin pissed i wanna throw my fuckin fist thru the wall.
i dont rlly care if u talk down on my name, I got family care about me I don't need u and these lames.

time is ticking, time is ticking, they can't hear me out.
all this isolation got me feeling distant now.
far from perfect, I'm not worth it, get away from me.
fml i kinda hate it, that's the truth at least.

oh, how did I fall so low
no don't..

"u cant tell the truth" u tell the truth, but u gon fuckin lie.

i lay in bed afraid to death, i lay awake at night.

fracture

prod by me again love u guys <33

lyrics:

maybe its the way that I been feelin lately
I keep trippin on your laces its so complicating 
suffocated by your breathe
while you’re sleeping
tell me is it me or is it everything this weekend

so its me and you 
in this polaroid burnin 
I cant seem to tell the truth
its so hard when im with you
burnin pictures in my wallet you can see it right 
its the only way im ever gonna sleep at night

fk it tho, it’s okay im gettin my money up
I know you dont believe me but I give a fk
if I fall, imma end it all
im tired of these fights endin in draws

I get so fkin stressed that I cant calm down
and all my friends are busy and they gone now
I cant help but feel alone cus I dont go out 
im so stuck in my head I cant get out 

I say I love you and I mean it, I know you dont believe it
all the shit that I been feelin I wish I wasnt breathin 
I seen it cant believe that im not dreamin 
I always close my eyes cause I cant look I’ll jus be terrified 

terrified, of my visions, im so terrified
look me in my eyes, cant u see this fkin parasite
parasite, eatin at me killin me inside
I cant fall asleep and I cant get up I put my life aside

polaroid

prod me ,,

lyrics:

I dont wanna talk, I dont wanna get outta bed I dont wanna walk,
I jus wanna leave here nothin even matters
I already accomplished all my goals and I jus sat there
I dont rly see what u see in me cus ik in my head ur an enemy
I dont feel okay I dont feel like me
I would take on all the pain if it meant I could be here

its hard to explain jus how I feel
okay im pissed off but that shit aint real
I can see thru all the fake shit in my head
but sumtimes it makes me feel like im fuckin...
dead, jus got outta bed
finally got up and now im headed to the shower
wash away my problems but I cant cus this disaster is never gonna end I cant wait for the after, life sucks ik.
I cant catch a break I swear im always on my toes
I try to use my energy I try to give the most
I swear that ima be like this until Im comatose

I dont care what u think of me
I fall down the same path everyday
fighting my problems is tiring
I fight myself jus to get sum sleep x3

i can't catch a break.

i already tried my best, so why try again

prod: https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic

wake up
i can see my breath
cold hands
i can't feel my skin
shaking, body aching
pull me closer
breaking
i can't take anymore
this isn't the life that i wanna live
i already tried my best 
so why try again
is it over yet?
can i call it quits?
it's
seasonal depression
sick of everyone telling me it's a lesson
i should make more of my life 
cause "it's a blessing"
"and you'll be fine once you stop with all the stressing"
nobody understands
i can't get out my bed
i hate the helping hands
i've lost my fucking mind so don't you get it man?
they know nothing about me 
"he's just having a bad week"
it's lovely 

hide my problems in the alcohol 
drink myself away till i can't even feel a thing at all
i'm becoming just like you
it scares me to death,
i don't wanna but i have to

the deep end

夢