Wow, photo is so close to https://soundcloud.com/lilsadeyes/jaded-prod-ocean

the deep end

it's not so bad w/ not home (prod. caustyk)

featuring @nothomex

i let that shit get the best of me 
now i be rockin on therapy 
i do this shit all so carefully
the weight on my neck is just killin me 
pour down sleeve 
i can't fucking sleep
watch my eyes close
yeah 
this shit like 3d
i like her nose ring 
lil bitch got tagteam
her love like bad dream
i pour my once all alone now
i whip it like green and i lay out
all of my boys trynna hang out 
but i'm just trying to smoke till i black out

It’s weird when I have future in my head 
Because before 21 I see myself dead 
I can’t see any color , how can I not be mad 
I don’t have an expectation for the start of my life only for the end
I can’t see anything I cannot blend 
In between the society , I’m on a deep end 
Will I be able to stand ? 
Find myself in this shitstorm 
Did they already know my end before I was born

Last summer I was more lost than found 
Was left picking up the pieces scattered on the ground
Couldn’t talk couldn’t sleep 
Couldn’t walk couldn’t eat
Lost some pounds I lost some weight 
Now all pants fall from my waiste 
Scars on my wrist tears on my face 
The deepest wounds are the ones you can’t see
I’m the only one who can feel
All the pain they reveal 
I hope I’ll get better this year 
Sometimes I stand still 
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried
I tried i tried i tried i tried 
i cried i cried I cried i cried

dead b4 21 (ft.not home.) prod.nadiak & marlas dreams

https://soundcloud.com/ripkais
https://soundcloud.com/yungaxstn

hopeless

kais - hopeless (ft. yung axstn)

https://soundcloud.com/ripkais
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

lyrics:
u cant tell me how i feel
u dont know my mind u cant tell me if im real
f*cking, laughin, crying u cant tell me if were good right now 
even if im bleedin ima still stick around 

honestly f*ckin tired of this 
sh*t just works out terribly 
problems thrown like snowb*lls 
so cold with it
anxiety 
sinkin in my brain 
got two feet but i still cant stand 
work through my troubles its takin its toll on my mind i cant help if i dont feel alright 
f*ck it ur right
im outta my mind

u cant tell me how i feel
u dont know my mind u cant tell me if im real
f*cking, laughin, crying u cant tell me if were good right now 
even if im bleedin ima still stick around 

u cant tell me how i feel
u dont know my mind u cant tell me if im real
f*cking, laughin, crying u cant tell me if were good right now 
even if im bleedin ima still stick around 

u cant tell me how i feel
u dont know my mind u cant tell me if im real
f*cking, laughin, crying u cant tell me if were good right now 
even if im bleedin ima still stick around

kais - can't tell me

chapter i

produced by ztope
completely non profit

lyrics

filtered beams of moonlight 
passing thru the ice above
i cannot bear to take my eyes 
off of my drowning love
why she had to follow me
why she had to jump
shes drowning in this lake
man cold water makes u numb

makes u numb
hit my head on rocks below
blood
blood fills the water oh my god
god cannot save us
oh we're fucked
fucked
sleeping on this bed of rocks
shadows of the trees
they dance on ice thats 3, 4 inches thick
is that lantern light
i ask her body what the fuck she thinks
this our savior 
and i hope he drags us up or else we'll sink
please just save her
i do not care if im on the brink

filtered beams of moonlight 
passing thru the ice above
i cannot bear to take my eyes
off of my drowning love
why she had to follow me
why she had to jump
shes drowning in this lake
man cold water makes u numb

it makes u drown

drowning at the bottom of a frozen lake (ztope)

wasn't originally gonna post this but whatever

produced by emptychest

completely non profit

lyrics

love letters
she's a real "go get her"
that momento lost forever 
guessing that u burnt my sweater
all the Polaroids she took 
are on my shelf and bound in leather
it's been almost two years 
and I'm not getting any better

hold on baby 
thought u said that ud be back now
the mountains cold 
but u don't notice when ur black out
I thought that maybe
u would like me better Rollin' up loud
but oh god
I've been drinking every night now

I used to always show up early
if I'm late i wasn't gonna come
I like to say I'm always busy
truth is I was busy lighting up 
so tell me what's the plan tonight
I think that I might stay inside
I think I'll write another line
I might just do this till I die
I spend my weekends getting high
and every morning fuck my life
but I look sober in my eyes
so everybody thinks I'm doing fine
it always seems to ease my mind
so honestly it not a waste of time
cus I've got things I try to hide
things u don't want in ur life

love letters
she's a real "go get her"
that momento lost forever
guessing that u burnt my sweater
all the Polaroids she took 
are on my shelf and bound in leather
it's been almost 2 years 
and I'm not getting any better

hold on baby 
thought u said that ud be back now
the mountains cold 
but u don't notice when ur black out
I thought that maybe, 
u would like me better Rollin' up loud
but oh god, 
i've been drinking every night now


bound in leather (emptychest)

prod hira :)

You dont wanna fly love, ill pull you down
Leave you in the dirt between the earth and the ground
Heal me from my scars, you keep bringing me round
Fighting with myself and i keep laying me out

Leave me in the rubble with nobody around
Swear i feel more comfortable not making a sound
Cause when i go to speak i swear that no ones around
Gentle at the heart, i swear my tongue is profound

Fearing for my life love
Expecting the worst
Bury any voice between the ground and the dirt
even the end love
i know it'll hurt
being here without you at the end of the world

So many people are watching
Crowded faces all around me, im moving with caution
I cant even stand the look of my face if im honest
Why the fuck does no one listen to me when im talking

You must be out of your head

Fighting a war with myself in the trench
Everyone be shooting, im still laying in bed
Tell your boy hes stupid and ill lay him to rest
Swing ur blade at me and ill put one in your neck

Leave me in the rubble with nobody around
Swear i feel more comfortable not making a sound
Cause when i go to speak i swear that no ones around
Gentle at the heart, i swear my tongue is profound

produced by sleepwater 

lyrics:
i hate everyone except you
lovers leave is overdue
i let myself   accept you
everything was made for two
i need a girl with hair
down to her shoulders yeah
hurry dont hurl round here
well i  know its cold my dear
we'll never lose hope round here
dont ever give up

 oh yeah, hello, oh yeah, help

pushing my limits no one going to stop it
killing my ex promise you never saw it
bashing our heads against the floor and the faucet
bath tub full of blood limbs in the closet
savour her head tie it up in a forest
its friday tonight but not the thirteenth
take off my mask so you its real
BURY HER BODY AND LET EVERYONE SEE
butcher that witch and go in for the kill
fill up the cask until her blood spill
leave her in a ditch then im going to chill
move on to next she got eliminate

violent

[AMV]: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DNv4eGItpyg 
produced by @nate2timezz & i
thank you endlessly for listening.
more to come in time
🖤

they say, "you're not alone"
but i'm weighing myself down to the bone
i'm deprived of your voice, your expressions, your tones
they scream, "don't.. go"
but i guess you didn't listen
i hope that you just missed it

i'm losing my grip on reality
i need some help or just someone around me
not a physical family
the moment feelings all erupt
they can't handle your trust
guess i was too much of a burden from the cut
but don't let yourself go and doubt on me
the ocean is howling
that's my kind of outing
you don't know the hurt that it brings
can't focus, can't breathe
i love you, but you know what i think?

i'm way too detached
you don't got my back
been tryna distract
"that boy's such a drag"
i lay in my bed; think things never meant
her hand; never leant
where have you been, love

that girl made me feel like i didn't wanna suffer
validated all my reasons
and then continued to smother
cards all on the table
the table's brittle as fuck
cause you leave with no intentions of hurting me
that's enough-

if what you say is what you mean
then fall back onto me
i'll swallow up your misery
i don't care what it brings
i'll be your puppet with no strings
just show me that i have meaning
like a matter, or a purpose
just a reason that i'm breathing
i've been wishing on the stars since a kid
they're where my arms don't reach
but my eyes look past them
the scars make a pretty constellation
they connect all i see
but at the end of the day, they still look past it

you gotta hope it lasts
you're holding yourself back
if you're falling, your wings' cracked
you gotta snap em back
and when the sky becomes the ceiling,
i'll throw rocks to make it crash
oh, don't look back (2x)

through and through
every time i break down my own recluse
just because i thought they understood me too
from my point of view
they never do (2x)

they say, "you're not alone"
but i'm weighing myself down to the bone
i'm deprived of your voice, your expressions, your tones
you've never known
but i guess you didn't listen
i hope that you dismissed it.

everlast [prod. nate2timez x autumndropsdead]

by the graves in the dark
*hold my hand*
i cant see, not even spark
on this land, fall apart

i just played you, im not smart
dripping faucets, hear the bark
from the dogs
in the old mans house

nothing's ever worse than getting high
yeah i said it right
laying down
my gaves been settled there
on my house
in my dreams, i just lay there
every night
i swear it comes back, daily and im 
ripped apart!

you could never tell, 
*that i been there*
yeah i hear all of the stories that ur telling them
everyone whos me, knows that im nothing like that
ur garbage human being, and there's no coming back

i just wanted die, good thing you'd never understand
i know i got too close to it, the days were running thin
outt line
really outta time

running through the trees, yeah im running through the breeze
now its set, im crying help!
no one ever talks now
this shi*s like poetry, im just tryna help myself. 

im just tryna walk my way out of this hell
im just tryna make a name to feed myself
the photos never really cut it, its an act im sorry please
dont just cut me off cause im not rich as i seemed
blood all on  my sheets
you name keeps ringing back amongst the graves, i just need to find some peace, oh well

nothing's ever worse than getting high
yeah i said it right
laying down
my gaves been settled there
on my house
in my dreams, i just lay there
every night
i swear it comes back, daily and im 
ripped apart!

you could never tell, 
*that i been there*
yeah i hear all of the stories that ur telling them
everyone whos me, knows that im nothing like that
ur garbage human being, and there's no coming back

grave 2 (prod. AsharpTheOne)

prod @nate2timezz <3

hope you enjoy
thank you for listening, like seriously, so much
gotta keep moving, somehow

irregulation; my heart, it still beats though
necromancy like i'm beyond the grave
sleeping a 14, or i'm up for days
but either way, i'll still feel the same
i'd rather feel burnout over withdrawals
repression, it kills me a lot, i can't sing it off
and it never stops
never stops
and it never stops
it never stops

how'd another worm get caught in the rain?
sun come out to enhance that pain
shame, shame
all that you wanted was someone to save
now that you're lost, you treat them as god
paying your dues, they've been clogging like clots
don't care about being 'part of your mirage
fuck an applause, this all i got

that weight upon the water's nothing more than just a storm
so what we drinking for? 
what we drinking for?
those ideals are everything you've only felt with utter scorn
so i can't take no more
i can't take none

fluid ghosts, i can feel them haunt my bones
i cannot break through the drapes though
radiation burn my halo
don't you go ask how my day goes
you're not concerned anyway
you're plastic as legos

quiet down while break the seal
'cause i'm numbin' down from what they claim is real
every day i wake just to fuckin break, then rejuvenate
i'm in shock, kinda like an eel

hit em with a swift so fast like an aipom
they went from a real to fake in a day; gone.
rollout like an autobot, waiting for december sun
who am i depending? 
honestly, not anyone anymore

so, you like to target? 
trust me there's no need to implore
inside my cartilage, there's already arrows galore
you're my narcotic, the thought of you imposes me warmth
or so i thought it; ultimately leaving me sore


irregulation; my heart, it still beats though
necromancy like i'm beyond the grave
sleeping a 14, or i'm up for days
but either way, i'll still feel the same
i'd rather feel burnout over withdrawals
repression, it kills me a lot, i can't sing it off
and it never stops
never stops
and it never stops
it never stops

so i can try to fill in all the blanks
when shrouded in mirage, i'll take the blame
poison in the pot,
love it 'till you hate the fact that you forgot
what mattered anyways

aipom (nate2timez)

There’s something in your eyes or maybe it’s the water
Hold close to me I have to reside
Right here right by ur side
Stay here part of my life

Don’t set me back now 
Leave me all alone
I’ll keep wearing designer so I can hide the mold
Surface to my body
Im not getting cold
U can talk all you want ur music is getting old
They keep wanting more from me
Then you wonder why I feel like I’ve been letting you down
You stayed away from me
No friend would be dragging me around 

Take me to the edge of the world 
As long as I’m with my girl I
Question much but I don’t question your words like
Got a grip around me I keep holding tight
I cant keep up with demand and I can’t sell right
I’ve given everything to you
And I won’t ever stop
If I was bleeding out, I’d know it’s not enough 
Hold my
So hold my hand till we turn to dust
I’m never close enough to you until we both combust 

Heart and soul it’s still not enough 
I’d give you every single limb until I’m truly worthless
You’re perfect 
Say goodnight before you sleep and it’ll hurt less

Take another picture I’ll use my Polaroid 
Rip me from the image you’re playing seek and destroy 
You’ll never capture anything if you keep holding me down 
I keep running I’ll keep running buried under the ground

You were never a friend to me
No regret you would have said it all again
Such a cunt you’re a tragedy 
Never thought you would be so awful yet

polaroid

NOW DAYS (prod. sorrow bringer)

lyrics:

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

i had it all planned
we could just fall back
onto the couch look at the moon and just smoke up the whole pack

now its all u said i said
whenever u mad im mad
who got the heart on snapchat
if she hit u up dont call back

catching up cause she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when u go out
cause when i fall asleep ur the one i dream bout

brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak, now ur too busy to go out
throw my dreams out all i do is sleep now

ur the one i dream bout (prod. mydepression)

prod by me //

lyrics:

i don't think it's fair how u talk to me like this, i get so fuckin pissed i wanna throw my fuckin fist thru the wall.
i dont rlly care if u talk down on my name, I got family care about me I don't need u and these lames.

time is ticking, time is ticking, they can't hear me out.
all this isolation got me feeling distant now.
far from perfect, I'm not worth it, get away from me.
fml i kinda hate it, that's the truth at least.

oh, how did I fall so low
no don't..

"u cant tell the truth" u tell the truth, but u gon fuckin lie.

i lay in bed afraid to death, i lay awake at night.

fracture

kais

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