bappy:
tryna make it, tired of waiting
scared to face it all, i rise and then i fall
i know that i need help n help is just one call away
but i'm ashamed, nobody like me deserves to be saved

a fast death or a long life of nothing, go head n choose
its hard when 20 years down the line i got nun to lose
distracting myself could never free me from the truth
i swear my mind been bleeding out my mind forever bruised

wish i could cry, wish you was there for me
a hard goodbye, to what life used to be
the world jus keeps on spinning like a cd
fuck different choices, ya, no matter what the cycle repeats (x2)

via:
I know that love's hard to find
please wipe your tears with my mind
Hide that fear all inside
I had to trust when you lied
Thought I'd feel better once I fucking got up and tried
But I can't lie so many times I hope I just die

Gettin over it the hardest part of growing up
But when I'm in that room I still just feel like throwing up
And everytime you yell you tell me that it's all for love
I wan't no part of it I don't even wanna open up

Had no time to be young I'm always stressed out
And you know I freeze up when they bring checks out
They like "yo via you the best now"
And I'm so scared just to fucking let down

I ain't have a dad for my whole damn life
When he hit me up he like "hope you found a wife"
"Yeah I fuckin love you son just know you give me life-
but if it were the other way around, I wouldn't like"

bappy:
heaven or hell, your choice
life or death, your choice
pleasure, pain, your choice
life will lose its poise

i fell into the hole
where it ends, nobody knows
but i'll get back up one more time

via:
Gettin over it the hardest part of growing up
But when I'm in that room I still just feel like throwing up
And everytime you yell you tell me that it's all for love
I wan't no part of it I don't even wanna open up

Had no time to be young I'm always stressed out
And you know I freeze up when they bring checks out
They like "yo via you the best now"
And I'm so scared just to fucking let down

I ain't have a dad for my whole damn life
When he hit me up he like "hope you found a wife"
"Yeah I fuckin love you son just know you give me life-
but if it were the other way around, I wouldn't like"

bappy:
till it gets better it gets worse
but when does that change? cuz i feel the same
burning out cant even put words into a verse
asking "is this the end? or is it just a phase"

why do i still live like that when its bad for me
been closed off from the world now we in too deep
yea im wide awake, but ill try to sleep it off
no comfort in my eternal paradox

MY ETERNAL PARADOX II (with via) [PROD. BAPPY]

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