i just wanna be something to you
just let me imagine
even for a moment
i just wanna be something to you
just let me please have this
even for a moment
i just wanna be somewhere someday
where i can quit the acting with nobody knowing
i think we really need to have a talk
i just wanna start over
i don't know why you don't call
nevermind im too close
nah
my clothes smell like perfume
i wish that i had never known ya
should've known your heart was colder
man this bitch is cynical
just wanted to be someone to you
just let me imagine
even for a moment
just wanted to be something to you
girl let me please have this
even for a moment
even for a moment
even for a-

go stream!

i was never rlly good at swallowing pills

(you're so goddamn wretched)

im lovesick
cuz love sucks
since we locked eyes
i've been lovestruck
you walked past
i couldn't get enough
even your scent...
it still fucks me up
i wish that we
could just talk things out
but it seems i can't explain...
without u lashing out
stuck in your ways but,
girl we'll figure it out
why do you do me like this?
like girl what's that all about?
i care cuz im lovesick
cuz love sucks
since we locked eyes
i've been lovestruck
you walked past
i couldn't get enough
even your scent...
it still fucks me up
i wish that we
could just talk things out
but it seems i can't explain...
without u lashing out
i'd really hate for me to be left out
and the more distant you are,
i miss your voice's sound

cant explain without u lashing out

@crawlingunderyourskin
im tryna block my ears
tryna get rid of this noise oh
now i look at my peers
jealous of all this success oh
i can never do right
she tryna give me signs
now when i go cry
she wanna give me the side eye

@ripouturmolarsforme
i wipe my tears, off of my face
drenched in my sorrows
and you wont look my way
don't love myself, so my wrists will bleed
you deserve hell for what you did to me

@crawlingunderyourskin
i dont want to
fight no more
im so sick of
this fucking whore
im just tryna leave the nest
im just tryna do my best
im just tryna get out oh
im tryna prove the rest

@ripouturmolarsforme
let's put us to the test
your love infects me
she'll move onto the next
don't even care to text me
i hate havin to struggle
but you trapped me in your bubble

@crawlingunderyourskin
im tryna block my ears
tryna get rid of this noise oh
now i look at my peers
jealous of all this success oh
i can never do right
she tryna give me signs
now when i go cry
she wanna give me the side eye

im tryna block my ears, nauseous

it took all of my strength
to hold tears back and not cut my wrist
"tomó todas mis fuerzas"
to not give in to scarrin my shit

im this close to givin up
you never really gave a fuck
wait
i hope that you learn from us
or else your next will see you fuck it up
why cant you just turn to dust?
our memories just turn to dust
dont you act like you know bout trust
what could you know when you broke us?
i hope you know that you broke me
see that one night so vividly
it took all of my strength
to hold tears back and not cut my wrist
"tomó todas mis fuerzas"
to not give in to scarrin my shi
i know it pains you to see me ending up like this
don't think of running back
im sick of you, you stupid bitch

tomó todas mis fuerzas

if you (snippet)

lucille - burden (snippet)

you hate my flesh
but i need your skin
there's nothing left
repent your sins & wish for death...

what the fuck.

they're after me, i've seen it all
the way i bleed & beg for more

don't give me mercy,
when nothings working 
they're in your walls 
and always lurking

it's all my fault

lucille - sins (snippet)

lucille - homerun

the song.

this is my favorite song to date. not because it’s the best but bc of how much i cried. i was still so in love and had nowhere to go about it. i’m so grateful she’s back in my life. i love you

p.s., the date is the day we split. first day of sr year.

y = you
k = know
i = i
s = still
l = love
y = you

i begged after we broke up that’s where the title came from. still not proud of it but fuck it it worked

cant explain without u lashing out

hostile