AWGST & ANTON #FOREVERWALKINGTHRUDECEMBER

Spend A Life Together

Better try to run before you meet my fucking gun
Look into my eyes and you won’t see another sun
You’re a fucking pest caught up in the web I spun
Make a mess, make you depressed until I’m fucking done 
Leave you numb 
Beating on my chest like a drum
Walking zombie like it’s thriller  
maniac, leave you cooked like a griller
Have you sucking on ya thumb 
Turn your brain to bits before I’m fucking done
Wake up decomposing and my eyes are glazed
Getting high so I can put my thoughts away
I don’t wanna feel my fucking feelings today 
Now my hand is poking out my motherfucking grave 

Getting high, decomposing

Pumping through the parties you’re at
Got the last laugh cuz your body is wrapped
Trapped, imma make you hurt
All you fuckers made me an introvert 
Feeling lack of worth and I’m still holding onto hurt
I let the pain grow through my chest like bamboo 
Bile spilling as Im dialing up my fucking death doula
I feel like I’m a loser  
Screws getting looser
Marijuana nicotine media abuser 
My head is like living in somebody that I don’t know’s house 
My bed is the only fucking place that I get to escape my doubts 
(Yawn)

INTROVERT

(prod. saint mike)

i've become so numb, i can't feel you there
become so tired, so much more aware
i'm becoming this, all i want to do
is be more like me and be less like you

linkin park - numb ( bendreary cover )

i'm leaving now, but not forever.
i'll be back soon as i can.

i'm seeing you with someone else,
you don't even care.
break promises and go away,
but i'm still for you.

comeback if you want to,
i'll be here, still waiting on you.

everything gets dark when i see your silhouette,
will i be the one to wear the wedding dress with you?
everything gets dark when i see your silhouette,
will i be the one to wear the wedding dress with you?

im leaving now, but not forever. i'll be back soon as i can. (p. pekarot)

pill heads, junkies
hurting in love only made it worst
but i knew we both werent ready for it.. oh no…
you got your act together, pulled right through, but i’m still stuck right here
you’ve grown a lot you’re like a shining star
so dont look back at me at the start
the finish line’s so close for you
i cant tell if you just like this feeling of control over me
or if its really the same love you used to feel… 
you said you’d never love me like you did before and honestly that kinda hurts
but all that shit was so toxic…
cause at the same time i understand
you loved me too hard for who i am


i didnt deserve you back then, neither do i now
i never showed my love, left you in so much doubt
i know it doesnt do much but i’ll say i’m sorry again
cause i didnt deserve you back then, neither do i now


i messed up, big time
oh no… here goes time
you were always by me
always here for me and i was not
cause you were dying, why wasnt i there?
(you were dying and no one was there)
“cry on my shoulder”, bullshit, i never really showed you that i cared
and now i fear it’s too late…
cause you dont believe it when i say i always loved you and i really understand
i’m just a real bad lover
but you can trust me and you shouldnt
cause i dont even really get it myself
i dont know how i was so wrong
for so long, now you’re movin on…
cause at the same time i understand
you loved me too hard for who i am


i didnt deserve you back then, neither do i now
i never showed my love, left you in so much doubt
i know it doesnt do much but i’ll say i’m sorry again
cause i didnt deserve you back then, neither do i now

sorry again

valentines day (@prodbystryder)

Billie Eilish “When The Party’s Over” X “You Oughta Know” remix by Zeal

When The Party Is Over, You Oughta Know

It takes one look at the history books, to recognize what's going on in the world around us today. I find too many parallels between the current genocide of the Palestinian people, and the genocide of the Native American/Amerindian people that occurred 500 - 100 years ago. I am Boricua, and what I see going on is a war on all Indigenous folk. We stand in the way of sacred resources/land that could profit imperial capitalist of the western world. We stand in the way of the entire operation that is Capitalism. Our lifestyle, the lifestyle our ancestors, is the strongest contradiction to the sentiment that "Capitalism is human nature.". Our ancestors lived amongst each other, focusing their lives on their community and helping their fellow people thrive, nowhere in this mix do you find the individualism that fuels the inferno of Capitalism. Nobody felt the need to make a profit, or have the most of anything. We found our sense of harmony within the world around us, in balance with the animals, the trees, the water. This way of life, being so in touch with the world and people around you, is a threat to the western way of living.  Hence why, the savaged European American patriots and the genocidal European Zionists both call for the extinction of Indigenous folk all over the world. They do their best to wipe out our cultures, and blockade us from any reminiscent of what's left. I've learned so much about my own roots from the so called "Migrants" (LITERAL INDIGENOUS PEOPLE OF THE AMERICAS) flooding NYC right now, think about that, shoutout my Mexicans, Amazonians, Salvadorians, etc. The fact that there is a wall to keep us off our own land is revolt worthy, OUR Turtle Island. Indigenous is Indigenous, doesn't matter if you are in North America, South America, Central America, The Caribbean, The Middle East, Africa, Asia!! These borders, they build to excuse killing us, mean nothing. They are threatened by the people who can live and thrive outside of Capitalism. I'll save my words, however it's eerie that zionists hide behind Judaism, the same way that colonizers of Europe hid behind Christianity, in an attempt to hide their true ulterior motives.

LYRICS:

saying that ur sanctioned by divine intervention 
i’ve heard this joke before
i’m not laughing anymore 
fool me once, shame on you
there ain’t no fooling me twice 
no guilt in killing a zionist
a zionist killed my wife 

you must feel so big 
funding all your pigs 
to kill all my kids 
you robbed of innocence 
u say it’s in the name of god
i see thru the facade
i know it’s in the name of greed 
what else would it ever be ?
black gold bubbling underneath
another meal for the american feast 
Indigenous folks,  from west to east
stand in the way of the imperial beast 
why do you think they kill us all
can’t start building till we fall
they might have to build a wall  
and call us invaders of our own home 

saying that ur sanctioned by divine intervention 
i’ve heard this joke before
this time, it means war
fool me once, shame on you
there ain’t no fooling me twice 
no guilt in killing a politician 
a politician controls my life 

take away my house
take away my food 
take away my mouth 
take me for a fool
take away my god
take away my right
take away my mind
i’m still gonna fight 
if i want freedom
i’m gonna have to fight
our votes don’t fucking matter
gonna have to fight the genocide 

lying about sanctions of divine intervention 
i’ve heard this joke before
hatred filling your core 
fool me once, shame on you
there ain’t no fooling me twice 
no guilt in killing the western world
when this world is killing my mind  

horror beyond my comprehension 
a world full of so much tension 
nobody is paying attention 
nobody ever wants to mention
we lost our lives for food  
we lost our lives for land
we lost our lives for living
our death is in their plan
nobody wants to mention
our extinction 
is in their plan  
but ill live to see the extinction of the man

THEIR PLAN, OUR EXTINCTION (prod. Alteg)

Was A Dead Boi (prod. The Ushanka Boy)

CONTROL w/ Capital prod. sapjer

**LYRICS**

GIRLHEROINN:
left me 
bare skin
deer teeth 
sink in
you left me
you’re nothing
you blocked me
i’m blushing 

break me down till the of tip dawn
im feeling weak but this k is strong
oh let me rest post hit the bong
im always here but you’re always gone

TXNY:
Why do you play upon my vices
Cut me with your knife But Think I kinda like it
Might be a vampire Sleep until the night hit Looking for my heart Don’t think I’m gonna find it

Get ur phone out come on baby let’s some pics
Girl a freak yeah-she really want my dick
But I think she only like me cuz my fit
Don’t want no drugs just really wanna kiss

GIRLHEROINN:
left me 
bare skin
deer teeth 
sink in
you left me
you’re nothing
you blocked me
i’m blushing 

burn me down and smoke my ash
my cup is full but i’m outta gas
that’s a needle break
heart pumping fast
just one more dose
and my pain will pass

LEON:
Got this gas in my blunt
No i don't really feel shit
Pour another line
With these drugs
I won't feel this

Pain inside
With All those
nights you cried
Love

Now im back on my feet
I ain't never going back
Imma make another rack
All this time will pass
Now im living in a house
And it's full of glass
With my name on that plaque
But my heart is black love

prod/mix/master: leon
cover: girl heroinn
vox: girl heroinn, txny, leon

linkin park - numb ( bendreary cover )

bendreary

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