Zapomniany kotek

convolk: https://soundcloud.com/convolk
mixed in part by Qawi Kamri (https://soundcloud.com/qawikamri)
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teardrop shawty sing the feelings away
i feel ugly when i see myself no matter the day
imma do this shit, the music shit, no matter the pay
if you in my path i hit yo ass right outta my way
i wish it wasn't like this

my heart's so broken
i wish there was a potion
to help with my depression
that's drowning me like an ocean
forget the notion
'cause i retract that
now my sadness weighs me down
like it's a backpack

i feel alone in my home
there's no way out
i feel alone, so alone
there's no hope now
and i don't know where to go
i hate this town
and if i can't get away
then i might drown

you don't need me
hide my feelings
please don't leave me
i'll stop breathing

teardrop shawty sing the feelings away
i feel ugly when i see myself no matter the day
imma do this shit, the music shit, no matter the pay
if you in my path i hit yo ass right outta my way
i wish it wasn't like this

Spotify <3

benedixhion x convolk - dying alone in my room [prod. MURDFLEX]

(prod. blade901)
soundcloud.com/blade_901

[lyrics]

ya i wake up at night again
breaking entitlement 
folding my hands to the back of my head
obvious tension, furious silence
cover in canvas in august.

it beats me
telephone, letters, old frames 
on a night of december
call me i'll be up waiting
neck deep in a rut now i'm fadiing
wake up, time for make up same as always
i'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
a cover for your lover, steadysuffer
a goner, got no father 
i'm just a loner

you taught me how to not be there
while mommy always taught me not to stop and stare
these people i erase from my thoughts go where?
i'm sick of every lie that i cry with swear

it's been a long time, i'm feelin like shit
pick up the gun, now i'm wid it
i'm feelin fucked up, i wanna get buck
just lost my mind like i'm vision
blood splattered all in my kitchen
she wanna think that it's pretend 
not comin back for a minute
i'm gone but i'm still singin
 
she's so cold
hold me close and dont let me go
baby that's fine
you leave me alone all the time
oh yeah, please tell me was it worth it
too many fucking voices they're echoing
in my head
oh wait, now tell me where your hiding
left me with nothing when I was ten
but now i'm crying

i see you stand all alone
outside our house i watched you go
not enough to feel bad, just enough to let go
every thought in my head eats away at my soul
mom and dad are upset, I don't know what to do
i was just a young boy crying alone in my room

it beats me
telephone, letters, old frames 
on a night of december
call me i'll be up waiting
neck deep in a rut now i'm fadiing
wake up, time for make up same as always
i'm sorry i couldn't take it so let's break this
a cover for your lover, steadysuffer
a goner, got no father 
i'm just a loner

don't enter pt. 3 (prod. blade901)

convolk: https://soundcloud.com/convolk

lyrics:
walking through my hometown
everything has changed up
used to be gunshots
now i see teslas
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot
i don't want jokes
i want answers
walking through my hometown
everything has changed up
i was on the road
you was out doing lame stuff
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot

everyday i feel the same
it's like why'm i not okay
why can't i just be happy for once
i'm always stuck in place
i don't think i can be saved
i have always been this way
i am dying in my room
and it's the middle of the day oh
feel my body die slow
i been feeling so low
i should help myself
but i don't even wanna try though
feelings don't sway me
everybody hates me
think i'm going crazy
feel like this on the daily

wasted my youth

listen on Spotify <3

benedixhion x convolk - wasted my youth [prod. curtains]

she ended up dipping a week after i dropped this ;/

lyrics: 
im so fucking terrified 
how this is gonna turn out
im so fuckin terrified
that this aint gonna work out
im so fuckin terrified
its gonna turn out like last time

im so fuckin scared
oh im so fuckin scared
that one day when i wake up 
she really wont be there
im so fuckin terrified
i dont want it to turn out like last time

im counting the days 
till things go wrong
im counting the days
till you are gone
im counting the days
till u say, im not where u belong

im counting the days
since things felt right
im counting the days
you hold me at night
im counting the days
till i say

im so fucking terrified 
how this is gonna turn out
im so fuckin terrified
that this aint gonna work out
im so fuckin terrified
its gonna turn out like last time

im so fuckin scared
oh im so fuckin scared
that one day when i wake up 
she really wont be there
im so fuckin terrified
i dont want it to turn out like last time


Couple in love

.♥/(,")\.(".)♥★
..★/♥\♥/█\♥★
.♥_| |__| |_ ♥

terrified {prod. NXCTURNAL)

Produced by Paryo

Lyric video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_joXtIT0is

LUV U BABY WHY YOU NEVER TELL THE TRUTH

Lyrics:

[Verse]
see i've been trynna find a way
but cant escape this fucking place
and you know that i'm fine
had to say it just in case
trynna stay in my own lane
dont give a fuck bout what u say
all i see is fucking rain
and trynna live with all this pain
all i do is fucking sleep
heres my heart that you can keep
yes i know that love is fake
but i fell in it way too deep
i cant go back theres no help
yeah i rather burn in hell
being stranded in the woods
just wanna die, i wish i could

[Chorus]
i survived, but no one tried
can you look me in my eyes
not much time for me to hide
help me find a brighter light
yeah im fine but theres a line
i have nobody by my side
it's been ages since i cried
thats why im stuck inside my mind
i dont know what to do
i was waiting here for you
come and save me, luv you baby
why you never tell the truth
fucked up feelings,
have no meanings, 
stayed up 2 nights
it got me bleeding
why you gotta do this
tell me why

[Bridge]
yeah tell me why
i stayed up 2 nights
tell me why

baby i tried
waiting for you 
but you didn't reply
why, why

[Verse]
see i've been trynna find a way
but cant escape this fucking place
and you know that i'm fine
had to say it just in case
trynna stay in my own lane
dont give a fuck bout what u say
all i see is fucking rain
and trynna live with all this pain
all i do is fucking sleep
heres my heart that you can keep
yes i know that love is fake
but i fell in it way too deep
i cant go back theres no help
yeah i rather burn in hell
being stranded in the woods
just wanna die, i wish i could

[Chorus]
i survived, but no one tried
can you look me in my eyes
not much time for me to hide
help me find a brighter light
yeah im fine but theres a line
i have nobody by my side
it's been ages since i cried
thats why im stuck inside my mind
i dont know what to do
i was waiting here for you
come and save me, luv you baby
why you never tell the truth
fucked up feelings,
have no meanings, 
stayed up 2 nights
it got me bleeding
why you gotta do this
tell me why

Biteki びてき

brighter light (prod. Paryo)

prod. @metlast

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
I took my pain and turned it to apathy
I took your name and engraved it into my heart
I took your voice and turned it to melody
I took your lies and thought that it was love
I took my pain and turned it to apathy
I took your name and engraved it into my heart
I took your voice and turned it to melody
I took your lies and thought that it was love

[Verse]
Thought that it was love
How could I be so blind?
In love with a ghost
who never looked into my eyes
never looked into my eyes
All my efforts to let you love me for once
All the times that I've seen you with someone
Else hanging around or falling in love
Bringing me down but I can't let you go
I know you probably hate me
or you may already forgot me 
whatever people say
Shawty, they'll never stop me
Wrote a lot of songs to you 
But you don't even care 

[Chorus]
I took my pain and turned it to apathy
I took your name and engraved it into my heart
I took your voice and turned it to melody
I took your lies and thought that it was love
I took my pain and turned it to apathy
I took your name and engraved it into my heart
I took your voice and turned it to melody
I took your lies and thought that it was love

STREAM

apathy [prod. metlast]

•𝖗𝖚𝖓𝖓𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖒 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖕𝖊𝖗 𝖍𝖔𝖕𝖊 𝖍𝖎𝖘 𝖘𝖜𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖌𝖔𝖓𝖊 𝖒𝖎𝖘𝖘•

[LYRICS]
I don't want to be like this
living in my head like it hurts oh shit
running from the reaper hope his swing gone miss
don't fear the ghost like he don't exist okay
I don't want to be like that
I could never really go back go back
I don't want to hurt your back
carrying my thoughts on your shoulders
gone break you fast 

don't say it 
I know it
old thoughts
controlling
moods swings
keep flowing
bipolar
I'm ghosting

I set fire
to my head
I'm tired
of memories
of liars
and
cold nights
desires
a friendship
didn't have shit
I'm crazy
it's okay
that's 2 sides
of my 1 brain
got 404
to my domain

I don't want to be like this
living in my head like it hurts oh shit
running from the reaper hope his swing gone miss
don't fear the ghost like he don't exist okay
I don't want to be like that
I could never really go back go back
I don't want to hurt your back
carrying my thoughts on your shoulders
gone break you fast 

don't say it 
I know it
old thoughts
controlling
moods swings
keep flowing
bipolar
I'm ghosting

Running From The Reaper [Prod by. metlast]

screaming into the void of nothingness
111

burnout

Music video link: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=18cjnRsgHvA