.notalone

ура наконец

benedixhion

SAD 16

что-то типа электроника,(хз)

convolk: https://soundcloud.com/convolk
mixed in part by Qawi Kamri (https://soundcloud.com/qawikamri)
______________________
teardrop shawty sing the feelings away
i feel ugly when i see myself no matter the day
imma do this shit, the music shit, no matter the pay
if you in my path i hit yo ass right outta my way
i wish it wasn't like this

my heart's so broken
i wish there was a potion
to help with my depression
that's drowning me like an ocean
forget the notion
'cause i retract that
now my sadness weighs me down
like it's a backpack

i feel alone in my home
there's no way out
i feel alone, so alone
there's no hope now
and i don't know where to go
i hate this town
and if i can't get away
then i might drown

you don't need me
hide my feelings
please don't leave me
i'll stop breathing

teardrop shawty sing the feelings away
i feel ugly when i see myself no matter the day
imma do this shit, the music shit, no matter the pay
if you in my path i hit yo ass right outta my way
i wish it wasn't like this

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benedixhion x convolk - dying alone in my room [prod. MURDFLEX]

i run away from my problems
'cause i know that i can't solve them
you hold me close and you say it's fine
look into my eyes, you know i'm not alright

you know i'm not okay so don't leave
you can tell me what you want
you can tell me what to be
i be really on my own
i ain't even got a team
shawty, why you playing games
why you mess around with me
my heart is broke
it's way past fixing
pass the liquor
now i'm sipping
my head's spinning like a beyblade
when you tell me to come over
i'm like, "on my way"
whoa
i'm all on my own
girl, just hit my line
yeah girl, just hit my phone

i been running
you can't catch me
where you going?
i been tripping

i'm not okay
but that's okay
wait, no it ain't
my life is lame
i wish that i could get away
but i'm stuck right here in this place
hey
just get me outta here
i'm like i
don't wanna rot in here
i might die
if i'm alone without you
so why
you chasing for the clout boo
i needed you
so why you treat me like i'm see through

i run away from my problems [prod. windbreaker]

hey, i missed u

lyrics-

i'm so cold
i'm so lost
grown so old
now i'm gone
we were younger when i left
but now i'm back and you've moved on

tell me where i'm going
i've been lost for a minute
i ain't got the time
you just tryna get my digits
racing through my brain
like my mind's in the olympics
drinking down the bubbly
now i'm spinning like a fidget

seasons going by
like the girls i fucking cared about
understanding why
'cause my life's something i'd do without
you should know i try
but you always fill my mind with doubt
leaving me alive
but my heart is fucking black by now

my heart is probably gone by now
buried somewhere in the ground
people change
i stayed the same
thought i had it figured out
my brain is full of rain and clouds
everyday i'm filled with doubt
constant stress
i'll let em down
take a pill
i'm better now

take a pill
i'm passing out
right up on her parents couch
we were at her parents house
but she still topped me with her mouth
we been going through some things
i don't wanna feel this pain
run away
forget my name
run away from everything

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seasons going by like the girls i used to care about w/ hammy [prod. nciku]

ATTENTION

Joji - ATTENTION

too cold for a blanket to save me
so i froze to death while i waited
i feel the ice grow inside of me
on my tongue i can actually taste it

i know that nobody can save me
so don’t try, your time would be wasted
i feel my memories fading
hate my life, and sometimes i wanna take it
don’t know if i’ll make it to twenty
not alive, and i can’t find my placement
take drugs in such large quantities
for this pain, but i still can’t erase it

i think i’ll drown in the memories
i hate my life and i’m fine with it ending
broken inside and there’s no way to mend me
i’m a lost cause. there’s no point in pretending

i fell in love with a sadist
she left me with scars and i fucking hate it
her name is the drugs and she’s just like an angel
but her wings fell off and she ain’t got no halo 

i wake up everyday
and i wish that i didn’t
those visions were vivid
i wish i could stay asleep
cuz you were in my dreams

i do not know what to say
you made me feel different
like actually living 
but now that you’ve gone away
you’re only in my dreams

i know that nobody can save me
so don’t try, your time would be wasted
i feel my memories fading
hate my life, and sometimes i wanna take it
don’t know if i’ll make it to twenty
not alive, and i can’t find my placement
take drugs in such large quantities
for this pain, but i still can’t erase it

glaciers

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@benedixhion - glaciers [prod. misery]

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moniker

convolk: https://soundcloud.com/convolk

lyrics:
walking through my hometown
everything has changed up
used to be gunshots
now i see teslas
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot
i don't want jokes
i want answers
walking through my hometown
everything has changed up
i was on the road
you was out doing lame stuff
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot

everyday i feel the same
it's like why'm i not okay
why can't i just be happy for once
i'm always stuck in place
i don't think i can be saved
i have always been this way
i am dying in my room
and it's the middle of the day oh
feel my body die slow
i been feeling so low
i should help myself
but i don't even wanna try though
feelings don't sway me
everybody hates me
think i'm going crazy
feel like this on the daily

wasted my youth

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benedixhion x convolk - wasted my youth [prod. curtains]

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ringtone

i watch my life as its falling apart
but i feel fine as i lie in the dark
this life’s a game and i’m playing my part
soon i’ll burn out like a dying star

without the drugs i’d never make it
the only way i’m getting by is staying faded
yeah
but half these plugs be selling fake shit
it got me feeling kinda off, they prolly laced it
whoa
i’m fucking wasted
i feel like gucci, take a shot right to the face bitch
you never wanted me so that’s the way i face it
i shouldn’t even give a fuck, ‘cause girl you’re basic

i’m over that chick
and i’m so far gone
i might crash my whip
just for the hell of it
‘cause i don’t give a shit
i’m fucking done with this
i’m screaming fuck you bitch

big bands in my pocket
yeah
wallet chains wit no wallet
yeah
i got plans to be up next
yeah
i won’t stop till it happens
yeah

i smoked an 8th and now i’m cruising
all i really want in life is to make music
but everybody fucking hates me
my dad despises what i’m doin, says i’m lazy
well, you can hate me from afar but i’ll keep moving
‘cause i got big ass fucking goals while y’all ain’t do shit
you waste your youth going to college like you’re s’posed to
i spend it doing what i want while making big moves

oh my god i think i miss you
i don’t wanna but i think i do
i just wish i didn’t miss you
i don’t wanna but i think it’s true

end of the world and i feel fine [prod. sketchmyname]

Joji  - pretty boy(without Lil Yachty)

cuz ima
fiend fiend fiend
ima
fiend fiend fiend
sippin on promethazine
cuz ima 
fiend fiend fiend
yah for u i am a fiend
i got my purple drank
sippin on it
purple drank 
and i’m sippin on it

i already know that i’m a burden
you just played my heart lil bitch
you always got me hurtin
your love is a counterfeit
so i should prolly curve it
like a nascar
she told me i’m gifted
i’ma go far
i’ll switch out that bitch like she jewelry on my wrist
yuh
she makes me sick makes me always feel like shit
yuh
i’m over it got nine milli in my clip
yuh
i’m copping fits like i’m fulfilling a fix
yuh
ay
if you gotta prollm lil bitch get out my face
i’m so sick of living i just wanna waste away
i already know that my damned life just can’t be saved
yuh
i’m so sick of feeling pain
i take all these drugs
but it still will not go away
what the fuck is living 
my whole life is just a waste
i don’t wanna feel this 
rather lie inside my grave

i really took my shot
now i just pray that i hit it
that bitch jus sucked my cock 
then she jus exit the building
i told her i can’t trust
can’t let her fuck wit my feelings
she mixing love wit lust 
i hate that it’s so appealing
i really took my shot 
now i just pray that i hit it
that bitch jus came to fuck 
then she jus exit the building
i told her i can’t trust 
can’t let her fuck wit my feelings
whether it’s love or lust 
i just know it’s so appealing ay
i got the bag and i sealed it ay
i’m spitting fax hope you feel it ay
there’s no relaxing these feelings ay
i wish that i didn’t feel things
drugs drugs drugs in my cup in my cup
you can catch me in the corner and i’m sippin on my

i already know that i’m a burden
you just played my heart lil bitch
you always got me hurtin
your love is a counterfeit
so i should prolly curve it
like a nascar
she told me i’m gifted
i’ma 
fiend fiend fiend
sippin on promethazine
cuz ima 
fiend fiend fiend
yah for u i am a fiend
i got my purple drank
sippin on it
purple drank 
and i’m sippin on it

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fiend4u [prod. thatboineco]

grab my bag and i hit the exit
everybody here’s just pretending
she added me to her friend list
she ain’t even know what a friend is
ay i got my drip always flexing
brand new fit that shits an investment
she rolled some blunts for the session
goddamn that bitch ambidextrous
yuh
i ain’t even know her but i’m calling back
she says that she love me what the fuck is that
got my money in the bank yeah them paypal stacks
she invite to the party so that’s where i’m at
that girl so sweet like a candy bar
believes in me says i’m going far
girl you know ima be a star
so much to see jus get in my car
i hate the fact that i miss you
i’m sick of crying in tissues
you just left n that was the issue
i’m obsessed like what’d the fuck i do
hey wait
she ain’t really love me
she jus playing all the same games
sippin on the bubbly got me spinning like a bayblade 
off the shrooms n i be tripping on the same day
mayday
ay

grab my bag and i hit the exit
everybody here’s just pretending
she added me to her friend list
she ain’t even know what a friend is
ay i got my drip always flexing
brand new fit that shits an investment
she rolled some blunts for the session
goddamn that bitch ambidextrous
ay
she says i’m pretty she had to let me know
we were high off the pillies she said she likes my clothes
counting up 50s then spent it all on dope
when i’m out on the city i smoke away my woes

why’m i feeling so shitty like what the fuck is life
i’m so tired of living i think i’d rather die
but i can’t drown in self pity i need to make it right
if you ain’t talkin money then get outta my sight

friendlist [prod. thatboineco]

let me die
i don’t really know what the point in life is
everybody knows that we won’t survive
i jus wanna go shawty i can’t fight this
always on my page but you never like
it’s fake
you ain’t really love me
that’s great
i been counting up my bankroll 
all day
i been drowning in my problems
let’s escape

i been in my bag
and i ain’t stoppin bitch
i love poppin tags
so i been shopping
i don’t understand
girl what’s your problem now
you make me feel dead
cuz you’re a toxin bitch
i already know your love is counterfeit
pretty sure she hates me but she loves my fits 
strung out on the daily but these drugs are bliss
i don’t wanna live i’m fucking done with this
i don’t know what i should do
i’m lost and missing you
i wish it wasn’t true
what the fuck am i gun do
oh whoa
i’m just dying in my room
oh no
i keep falling for you boo

why’s my mind feel like it’s a prison
i don’t understand
i just wanna life that’s worth living
won’t you hold my hand

toxin [prod. thatboineco]

i keep asking is this really love
shawty tells me i should sober up
ion know if i can take this
i can’t take another fake bitch

big bands in my hand
i’ll count it on my own
ain’t need no fake friends 
i’m better off alone
yeah
why’d you stab me in the back
again
what the fuck is up with that
goddamn
you don’t really love me
can you just tell me the truth
you’re dreaming of my money
while i’m stuck dreaming of you
oh
it’s a lie
you never cared
i don’t know why
you’re never there

put my money in the bank bitch
yuh
lil shawty made a lane switch
yuh
pass the blunt i think they laced it
yuh
but you know i’m still gun face it
yuh
basic
you’re really basic
i can’t fucking take this
you make me so sick
left me on the pavement
thought you were my friend
i’m always sedated
i fucking hate it
cuz you’re so basic

pseudoLove [prod. sketchmyname]

different
everything’s so different
i feel so removed
i been really feelin distant
they ain’t really wit it
i’m really wit it
money spent while sad
couple thousand on my jewelry bitch
why you mad
well i’m better by lonely bitch
so i’m glad
the really drugs control me it’s
not a fad
i really need em bad
and i really want you back
shawty won’t you hold my hand
yeah

feel the drugs inside my system
yeah
they abuse me i’m a victim
yeah
then again i fuckin picked them
what is there to say
maybe i’m insane
cause i treat life like a game
my bad
this is just a faze
that’s cap
i been switching up my lanes
that’s fax
so you best get out my way
‘fore you end up in a grave
yuh
i been really in my head lately
will you love me when i’m dead baby
i won’t even lie don’t think this life’s for me
cuz i’m trapped inside my head
so won’t you set me free

when i pull up i’m so faded uhuh
i’m jus really glad i made it uhuh
feeling like this is the matrix uhuh
‘cause this shits a simulation
i feel your vibrations
yeah
look
i’m so sick of waiting
let’s jus hit the road shawty
me n you’ll be famous
oh my god
nothing’s in our way bitch
whatchu thought
cuz i’m really finna make it
yuh yuh

victim [prod. urbs]

you got what you wanted all along
you told me you loved me
but you didn’t you were wrong
yah
i been falling on my own
i don’t wanna lie i think i’m better off alone 
yah

hey love
you gun watch this fade away or you gun save us
you gun watch me die today i’m outta patience
cuz i do not wanna play these games i’m tryna make up
cuz we ain’t finished
won’t you hear me out
just for a minute
all these people run they mouths
but they don’t get it
baby i jus need you now
won’t you please just be yourself with me
times running out
are you down to go to hell with me

or nah
i got lots of problems
please just call
are you a really a true day one
or a fraud
she jus want me for my paystub
bitch get lost
when i leave i’ll take a coffin with me
cuz i’m so dead bitch
if you really wanna problem with me
you finna get it
type back type back
don’t want you sad so i always write back
trapped in my head always stuck in the past
yeah yeah always stuck in the past
yeah yeah always stuck in my head
yeah yeah feeling better off dead
honestly i’m upset
honestly i’m obsessed
with you
you’re shining like a diamond
always blue
when you say you love me
is it true
give a fuck about the money
i want you
i just need my boo

go2hell [prod. thatboineco]

yuh
oh whoa
i don’t really know what
to do
i jus wanna go back
to you
i hate that you’re really gone
can’t take being alone

yuh
i know
you aint really wanna hold me close
you just couldn’t wait to let me go
oh
so let me go
i’m turning to the tabs and the shrooms
i can see the energy in this room
i’ll leave from this vicinity to the moon
but the tears keep falling for you

what’s next
i ain’t really wanna another ex
can we just talk you saw my texts
please don’t leave me here on read 
i’m begging
for you to come save me
the simulations breaking
everybody here is faking
nobody gives a damn
i need you
you don’t need me
everything in life is fleeting
you say you’ll always be there
but i know one day you’ll leave me 
popped off
i jus wanna pull up in a
droptop
so i gotta keep on grinding no i
cant stop
everyday is a reminder
that my soul is gone
im so fucking lost

im falling for you
ion even care if you knew 
gotta cut the past off
start new
baby just back off
were through
baby just say u aint have time for me
but u do with your friends i know ur not busy
now u wonder why i always act all pissy
i know ur doing shit and i know u dont miss me
i dont see us
falling in love
you took whats mine
now i am stuck

letmeGO ft. heylog [thatboineco]

baby you don’t give a fuck about connection
baby you don’t wanna take in my direction
baby we can hit the bank in a second
we can roll up all the dank for the session
you’re the one i want but you’re fucking playing games
i don’t really know, i just really wanna stay
i just wanna go, i think you’re a hoe
baby i don’t even think i’ll let you in my home

i been feelin low
i been feeling dead inside
i don’t even know
why the fuck i am alive
left me all alone
won’t pick up the phone
i don’t wanna live i think i’d rather be a ghost
yah
my plug got me for the low
yah
i been drownin in my woes
yah
shawty please don’t let me go
yah
Ugh
left me on my own
ion really know you like that
it kinda drives me crazy that you never text back
and you ain’t really love me
cuz you can’t bitch i’m dead
this isn’t real i’ve turned
into a fiend i’m obsessed
hey baby lay me down in my coffin
poppin pills with no plans on stoppin
I might die tonight i feel lost bitch
fuck this life i’ve ran outta options
yeah
i’ve ranna outta options
i keeping taking more to feel something
i’ll keep taking more till i’m nauseas
i wont even lie i’m so gone bitch
i got all these problems lately
i been fucking waiting till the day you save me
why you gotta keep me waiting
what’s up with these games you playing

no signal ft. capoxxo [prod. ramseybeatz]

life is just a rave
and i’m frowning in it
percy to the face
you can’t save me bitch
i’m drowning in it
everything was fake
it was counterfeited
pills inside my brain
i jus wanna feel
a fucking difference
no i’m not okay
i’m so lost
stuck inside my head
i can’t sober up
feeling better dead
is this even love
all this weight thats in my chest
got me feeling stuck
life is so fucked up

i don’t wanna know what you’ve done
i’ll jus shoot my shot like a gun
everyone dies so let’s jus have fun
i needed you but you didn’t want me
i’m so dead i feel like a zombie
everybody’s fake they’s jus copy
life ain’t fair cuz nobody loves me
oh
then why you still haunt me though

i keep staring out my window
in my room without you
was it really something baby
i weep when i think about you
it is what it is you
left me like i’m nothing baby

i don’t understand
you said you needed me
wasn’t in the plan
cuz you ain’t need a thing

chemicals [thatboineco]

little tin soldier

do you love me
i don’t know
i don’t understand a goddamn thing 
just erase me
let me go
i can’t even take the suffering

cant pick up the phone
i’m fucking wasted
just to make it on my own
i’m staying faded
everyday is a blur when your sedated
hope this music shit works i needa make it
cuz i’m right back
where i started
i hate feeling like that
disregarded
everyday i want my life back
disregard it
yah 
fuck feeling regret there’s no restarting

i’m fucked up in the backseat
got me luv drunk in a taxi
i don’t wanna love you if i’m only being used
so can i trust you
or will you put me in a tomb
yah
i wish that i could say i knew
yah
but i don’t
are you tryna play me
ion know
i feel like i’m failing
on my own
i feel like a ghost

it’s my head
i think that i’m broken
let me rest
you don’t even notice
that i’m dead baby
i think i’m drowning lately
yuh
oh
yuh
oh
one more
i’m feeling wavy
help me
i’m suffocating

grape ape soda [prod. thatboineco]

https://soundcloud.com/salemavenue

promnight: 

wake up every morning 
just to feel the same old nothing 
and i’d rather keep it all inside 
then let you know what’s it’s really like 
inside my mind 
and i know i don’t express it right 
just know that i really try 
it’s so hard, it’s so hard 
to let it out 

and i don’t feel 
the way i did, last year or the year before
i’m lost, more lost than found 
and i can’t get it out 
i don’t know where to go 
in the end i’m all alone 
people change their faces 
i’m always replaced and 
nothing new fucking changes
i’m done with this shit 

leave me alone 
i don’t need your help 
i don’t your texts 
i’m not ur friend 

salem avenue: 

sunlight 
saw you in the sunlight 
cut me in my heart like a dull knife 
everything i did was 
for you i swear 
i could have done it better 
i know 
left me with a dark soul
everyday i go out 
make me feel unknown 
in every way 
everyday i come back home 
tell me why i feel more alone?

it’s taken me 
some time to see 
that when you say my name 
you’re speaking on 
someone you don’t know 

tell me 
where i should be when the world comes crashing down?
you want a smile on my face?
while you letting me down

when the world comes crashing down

when the world comes crashing down w salem avenue (prod. iof)

Im about Come up off a check
I ain’t fucking with u unless u coming correct
And I’m about to slit my fucking wrist
Cuz the sad boi image is a big hit
And ima get the bag then i dip
150 on the dash in the gucci whip
Zoom Zoom, Fast make it Flip
And i never ever ever ever ever fucking simp

Ay I’m about to flex on my ex
New bitch blow my sticky like a semtex
Make it pop, call her charli xcx
My drip clean like a bitch call it windex
Aye I’m about to run up on my ops
Bet they pull a 6ix9ine and call the fucking cops
Yeah im about to spaz in this bitch
Make ur girlfriend mad when i cum quick

So Face it, ur hating cuz you’ll never get all this paper

Im about Come up off a check
I ain’t fucking with u unless u coming correct
And I’m about to slit my fucking wrist
Cuz the sad boi image is a big hit
And ima get the bag then i dip
150 on the dash in the gucci whip
Zoom Zoom, Fast make it Flip
And i never ever ever ever ever fucking simp

Ima start a circle in this bitch
Give a dead body life, that's an easy fix
Hold my hand, light a candle in the room
It's about to go down and we're bringing Lemmy back from the Tomb
It's a riot in this bitch
Breathing fire on stage, whole front row eyebrow singed
MetalHeads, Spin kicks
Whole crowd going crazy for a motherfuckin Circle Pitt

So Face it, ur hating cuz you’ll never get all this paper

Im about Come up off a check
I ain’t fucking with u unless u coming correct
And I’m about to slit my fucking wrist
Cuz the sad boi image is a big hit
And ima get the bag then i dip
150 on the dash in the gucci whip
Zoom Zoom, Fast make it Flip
And i never ever ever ever ever fucking simp

Aye, yea
I’m about to run up on my ops
Bet they pull a 6ix9ine and call the fucking cops
Yeah im about to spaz in this bitch
Make ur girlfriend mad when i cum quick

Gucci Whip feat. circle pitt (Prod. Young Taylor)

i wasn't put on the guest list....

love u, hope u are safe