i feel so suicidal
i’ll just drown in this bottle
yuh
drown in this bottle
yuh uh

she just wanna fuck me and leave
so i can’t trust
no i don’t got no team
cant sober up
my cup
bitch fill it up
fuck love
bitch i’m on drugs
oh god
im on xans back to back 
with no pause
don’t think i can handle it
i feel lost
i don’t care about the cost at all
no not at all
you don’t love me no you never call
call call call
come and fuck me in the bathroom stall

i’m floating
wasted all my time devoting
all of me to you
thought you were my boo
till you played me now we’re through
i’m floating
wasted my whole life devoting
all of me to you
till you played me like a fool
you just hurt me bitch we’re through
oh wait
i just wanna take you
on a date
promise i won’t play you
aint no way
i’m just really tryna see you
in LA
hey baby
won’t you come and save me
i can’t take the waiting
it feels like the whole world hates me lately
i feel so suicidal
i’ll just drown in this bottle
yuh
drown in this bottle
yuh uh
i feel so suicidal
i live life on full throttle
aint no fucking brakes
till it puts me in my grave

suicidal333 [prod. thatboineco]

Benedixhion - StillTOXIKK

Happy birthday to me.

Produced by Living Puff

Lyrics

Told her she was all I needed and I meant it
She said, "Ken I mean it too" but she didn't
I don't wanna feel anymore feelings
Girl you great but what you see in me is not what it is

I'm a lost cause baby, it is not all
Greener on the other fucking side when I am the fault
I'm the reason that you can't get right
I got demons and they meeting with me every single night

I just turned 21 and I wish that I didn't
God if you sent me a sign this time, I didn't get it
I don't understand why I'm alive, I need a minute
All this fucking time, I been spending it on sinning (x2)

She's a bitch but I know I'm no better, I'm an asshole
And it's been 3 years but she still the one I call though
I'm a fucked up sad little lost soul
I don't know how it got this bad when I fought so hard

Got so far from myself in my own mind
Tar on my breath, I do wrong when I know right
Where you are? I don't know
If I get in my car I'ma throw it off the road

Turned 21, wish I didn't
You sent me a sign, I didn't get it
Why am I'm alive? I need a minute
All this fucking time, I just been sinning (x2)

I just turned 21 and I wish that I didn't
God if you sent me a sign this time, I didn't get it
I don't understand why I'm alive, I need a minute
All this fucking time, I been spending it on sinning (x2)

spotify.

XXI.

benjis on my mind i ain’t stoppin
till i’m getting to the bag i be chasing the profit
shawty lookin so bad took my heart n she copped it 
they keep hating on my swag till the moment i’m poppin
go ahead and keep talkin
i said
i just popped 3 xans now i’m dead
i just wanna put 3 rounds in my head
i feel stuck
shawty doesn’t love me it’s only lust

uhuh
bitch you know i run it up
give no fucks
i jus want the cash
hundred on the dash
i been living fast as fuck
i like that
i been off the xans and blunts 
ain’t no cap
i don’t understand
wasn’t in the plan
now i can’t sober up
hate my past
got too many problems baby
i don’t think that i’m worth saving
i feel like the whole world hates me
i can barely function lately
i need more drugs
i could never get enough
put that syrup in my cup
uh
i feel so lonely
cuz nobody even knows me
no wonder i’m always floating

spotify </3

alwaysfloating [prod. exine]

Pouring my heart and soul into everything i make
I'll bring justice for the ones who are silenced
I'll be your saviour when there's nothing left
I'll be your saviour when there's nothing left

Pouring my heart and soul into everything i make
I'll bring justice for the ones who are silenced
I'll be your saviour when there's nothing left
I'll be your saviour when there's nothing left

Let me express myself for you
Cause i know how hard it can be
Sharing emotion it isn't always easy
Listen to this song when you feel lonely

When the world doesn't quite understand
When there's no one you can talk to it feels heavy again
It takes a toll when you're always a shell
It takes a toll when you can't be yourself

And i know what it's like, Take my word for it
I've been through Hell and back, But i learned from it
Take your negatives, Make something great of it
Take the loss cause you can learn from it

I mean i did
We're the same are we not
Humans with emotions and feelings
We've been through some stuff

Pouring my heart and soul into everything i make
I'll bring justice for the ones who are silenced
I'll be your saviour when there's nothing left
I'll be your saviour when there's nothing left

Pouring my heart and soul into everything i make
I'll bring justice for the ones who are silenced
I'll be your saviour when there's nothing left
I'll be your saviour when there's nothing left

When the world doesn't quite understand
When there's no one you can talk to it feels heavy again
It takes a toll when you're always a shell
It takes a toll when you can't be yourself

When the world doesn't quite understand
When there's no one you can talk to it feels heavy again
It takes a toll when you're always a shell
It takes a toll when you can't be yourself

Stream On spotify

Saviour

inthaMIRROR [prod. urbs]

ay
i was out in public
always got my percies on my me 
i was raised with a cold heart
in tha trenches im so sorry 
brodie
i ain’t wanna do it
you was fuckin with my mission homie
oh
except that you ain’t even really matter tho
i destroy that pussy like im destroying this flow
and you know i’m fuckin geekin everytime i do a show
on god
yes i know
i’m lost
thas fo show
uhuh

look
i was out in public
always got my percies on my me 
i was raised with a cold heart
in tha trenches im so sorry 
brodie
i ain’t wanna do it
you was fuckin with my mission homie
oh
except that you ain’t even really matter tho
i destroy that pussy like im destroying this flow
and you know i’m fuckin geekin everytime i do a show

oh whoa
oh whoa
you can catch me trappin
got sum xanax for a bad bitch
when she hit my line she be fienin
she an addict
ya ya
i be chasing down tha bands bitch
i be chasing down a bad bitch
oh
oh whoa
ay
this tha life i live
ignorance is bliss
real shit

mnstr

Monëy4Lonëlinëss (ft.yerky, Xtasee) (prod.IKLK)

اندال

what you want(feat. convolk) prod. by AirOcean

Single off of my first project Identity Crisis dropping Feb 28th 2020
Thanks to nev ver for the awesome feature.

OUT NOW on All Platforms!

Lil Rage
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inthaMIRROR [prod. urbs]

benedixhion