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Benedixhion

God songs

inthaMIRROR [prod. urbs]

YUNG BRATZ

produced by @horsehead
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lT_lqh2PFik

Look At Me Now (prod. horse head) *VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION*

im feelin lost and ion know where else to go now
ion really have a place to call my home now
everybody hatin and i feel so cold now
why do everybody make me feel alone like
x2

ive got so much shit to say 
baby take me from this place
i just really cannot stay 
tears are falling down my face
i feel colder every day
know they want me out their way
ill be gone ill be okay 
i just need some fucking space
i walk by i feel them hate 
wanna die cause i relate
wanna cry i feel insane
i get high but cant escape
would they love me if i change
am i lost am i too late
soon im dead i cannot wait
please dont love me its a waste

wanna die so fucking bad
youre the best ive ever had
wanna die when i look back
cause u always made me sad
cant get over shit im done
i just make another song
nothing helps im fucking numb
ill be gone bitch pass the blunt
ive been hurting for so long
baby kill me in your thongs
ive been dying all along
let me go where i belong
get me drunk bitch get me high
give me pills and let me vibe
when its time just let me die
im so tired of this life

let me die

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let me die (prod. lilhappylilsad)

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Jake Hill & Josh A - Suicidal Thoughts

beat prod. by Vessels & TMK Beats
guccihighwaters: https://soundcloud.com/guccihighwaters

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I can't feel my face, think I've gone insane
I can't see the light since it always rains
I've been falling down, falling down baby
Gotta save me from this ghost town baby
I know you hate that I'm not sober
Take a shot to the face, I'm a soldier
If she gets closer I might just have to ghost her
If anything happens got my gun in the holster

I'm still alive. I haven't died
I'll be alright. Yeah, I'll be fine
'Cause I'm a soldier
Gucci already told yuh
Yeah, I'ma ghost her
Leave her with no closure

She don't love me no more
That's why my heart's gone cold
I might send her, in the mail, suicidal notes (yeah)
Try to drown my sorrow
Take another pill and I'll faze out 'till tomorrow

New day, new mistakes to be made
New day, new people to betray
New day, new horrors to be tamed
New day, just send me to the grave

I don't want to try, but they tell me that I'll be fine
I'ma drink away my life. Staying up until the sunrise
Popping shit I don't know the name of
Makes me feel all bubbly 'cause I'm empty on the inside

I can't feel my face, think I've gone insane
I can't see the light since it always rains
I've been falling down, falling down baby
Gotta save me from this ghost town baby
I know you hate that I'm not sober
Take a shot to the face, I'm a soldier
If she gets closer I might just have to ghost her
If anything happens got my gun in the holster

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i'm not sober w/ guccihighwaters (prod. Vessels & TMK Beats)

convolk: https://soundcloud.com/convolk
mixed in part by Qawi Kamri (https://soundcloud.com/qawikamri)
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teardrop shawty sing the feelings away
i feel ugly when i see myself no matter the day
imma do this shit, the music shit, no matter the pay
if you in my path i hit yo ass right outta my way
i wish it wasn't like this

my heart's so broken
i wish there was a potion
to help with my depression
that's drowning me like an ocean
forget the notion
'cause i retract that
now my sadness weighs me down
like it's a backpack

i feel alone in my home
there's no way out
i feel alone, so alone
there's no hope now
and i don't know where to go
i hate this town
and if i can't get away
then i might drown

you don't need me
hide my feelings
please don't leave me
i'll stop breathing

teardrop shawty sing the feelings away
i feel ugly when i see myself no matter the day
imma do this shit, the music shit, no matter the pay
if you in my path i hit yo ass right outta my way
i wish it wasn't like this

benedixhion x convolk - dying alone in my room [prod. MURDFLEX]

too cold for a blanket to save me
so i froze to death while i waited
i feel the ice grow inside of me
on my tongue i can actually taste it

i know that nobody can save me
so don’t try, your time would be wasted
i feel my memories fading
hate my life, and sometimes i wanna take it
don’t know if i’ll make it to twenty
not alive, and i can’t find my placement
take drugs in such large quantities
for this pain, but i still can’t erase it

i think i’ll drown in the memories
i hate my life and i’m fine with it ending
broken inside and there’s no way to mend me
i’m a lost cause. there’s no point in pretending

i fell in love with a sadist
she left me with scars and i fucking hate it
her name is the drugs and she’s just like an angel
but her wings fell off and she ain’t got no halo 

i wake up everyday
and i wish that i didn’t
those visions were vivid
i wish i could stay asleep
cuz you were in my dreams

i do not know what to say
you made me feel different
like actually living 
but now that you’ve gone away
you’re only in my dreams

i know that nobody can save me
so don’t try, your time would be wasted
i feel my memories fading
hate my life, and sometimes i wanna take it
don’t know if i’ll make it to twenty
not alive, and i can’t find my placement
take drugs in such large quantities
for this pain, but i still can’t erase it

glaciers

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@benedixhion - glaciers [prod. misery]

convolk: https://soundcloud.com/convolk

lyrics:
walking through my hometown
everything has changed up
used to be gunshots
now i see teslas
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot
i don't want jokes
i want answers
walking through my hometown
everything has changed up
i was on the road
you was out doing lame stuff
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot
you don't want smoke
i'm a head shot

everyday i feel the same
it's like why'm i not okay
why can't i just be happy for once
i'm always stuck in place
i don't think i can be saved
i have always been this way
i am dying in my room
and it's the middle of the day oh
feel my body die slow
i been feeling so low
i should help myself
but i don't even wanna try though
feelings don't sway me
everybody hates me
think i'm going crazy
feel like this on the daily

wasted my youth

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benedixhion x convolk - wasted my youth [prod. curtains]

just friends?

if u wanna go motherfucka just leave, shit
we dont gotta talk while u walk or speak bitch
lookin at my phone while u texting "i miss this"
if thats what u think why the fuck did u ditch it

why u still leavin if ur scared that u lost me
ur minds sprayin bullshit, let yo heart do the talkin
u always slam the door, but you come back knockin
u try to murder us, but cant stand the haunting 
(x2)

my heads so twisted i cant fucking think
how many words did u even mean
you say u miss me and make u feel things
that no ones brought out for u to see

ghosts from ur past and ur last just passed me
in the same night you left, you text him
so whats the truth, how do u feel
do u hate him and want me or was that never real

if u wanna go motherfucka just leave, shit
we dont gotta talk while u walk or speak bitch
lookin at my phone while u texting "i miss this"
if thats what u think why the fuck did u ditch it

why u still leavin if ur scared that u lost me
ur minds sprayin bullshit, let yo heart do the talkin
u always slam the door, but you come back knockin
u try to murder us, but cant stand the haunting 
(x2)

ditch it (overwhelmed) [prod. hxrxkiller]

let me die
i don’t really know what the point in life is
everybody knows that we won’t survive
i jus wanna go shawty i can’t fight this
always on my page but you never like
it’s fake
you ain’t really love me
that’s great
i been counting up my bankroll 
all day
i been drowning in my problems
let’s escape

i been in my bag
and i ain’t stoppin bitch
i love poppin tags
so i been shopping
i don’t understand
girl what’s your problem now
you make me feel dead
cuz you’re a toxin bitch
i already know your love is counterfeit
pretty sure she hates me but she loves my fits 
strung out on the daily but these drugs are bliss
i don’t wanna live i’m fucking done with this
i don’t know what i should do
i’m lost and missing you
i wish it wasn’t true
what the fuck am i gun do
oh whoa
i’m just dying in my room
oh no
i keep falling for you boo

why’s my mind feel like it’s a prison
i don’t understand
i just wanna life that’s worth living
won’t you hold my hand

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toxin [prod. thatboineco]

run far away as fast as you can

just a lil loosie, more songs coming soon

Run Far

My cover of this wonderfully written song by Hayd.

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Thomas Reid - Changes (Hayd Cover)

i was overindulging in the wrong things
counting the seconds till i would feel nothing
wasting my days
i was losing my ways
but now i found something
worth keeping safe

holding onto you
lettin my past go
something bout yo eyes
got me lost in yo soul
feelin alive
like never felt before
take care of my heart
with feelings
worth an overdose

baby i aint dead yet
whatsup with the roses?
never had someone 
show me that they noticed
diggin through my dirt
and still puttin they nose in
no need for a eulogy 
with the emotion u showin

baby i aint dead yet
whatsup with the roses?
never met someone
who could hear the unspoken
commit selfless actions
but never question the motive
thought i was buried too deep
now my caskets open