RIP (ft. Rixi)

first but last PROD. 5head

i want you out, you're stuck in my head
you're the silence in the halls and it's deafening
erase this, you're stuck in my head
like all the calls and texts that you forgot to send

i don't want anything to do with you and your attitude
bottling up pieces inside 
but you didn't care if you were breaking mine
if you would just apologize it doesn't matter who's wrong or who's right
i'm not saying it's too late, just stop wasting my time

now it's so cold
now that you're not home
i didn't wanna be alone
i just wish you would change instead of hating,
resuscitating dead situations
until then i want you to know
i hope you fucking choke

(i mean, if we're burning bridges i'll bring the matches)

i want you out, you're stuck in my head
you're the silence in the halls and it's deafening
erase this, you're stuck in my head
like all the calls and texts that you forgot to send

CHOKE

i’m really sorry about the last time
i lost my cool
it was such an out of character thing to do
take me back to the days when
we were standing in your kitchen
took a tab now i’m trippin

and i was stuck there just greening out
the taste of acid in my mouth
your voice is still in the back of my head
it’s just a little quieter now

i’m gonna miss your arms around my waist
you can’t lie and say that it wasn’t great
the time that we spent together 
i’ll think of it forever

all the pain left when you touched me
now i’m tangled in my sheets
i didn’t think that you’d leave me
now i guess that we’re history

COOL

he makes movies,
and we talked for hours
about how the energy
just moves around us
i'm talking with a boy who's always talking with his mind
i don't know how he gets it right, it happens all the time

and i'll come home in his t-shirt
i'll be sure to call if it doesn't work
but this shit is wrong
you're making it worse
but i feel like i'm holding on too tight

stop me
you're floating away
you're floating away
you're leaving no trace
please stay
and wait for me
and i'll give you some room to breathe

she hits me up on the weekends
bend it over, do a backbend
everything is just so different
and now you're falling off the deep end
you say it's just too hard
then why the fuck do you keep on trying
'til you follow through
i'll be finding you in the closest lifetime

i'll send her my love
it's just enough
but just not for you
you say it takes too much
this shit so wrong
i'm making things worse
i still feel like we're holding on too tight

stop me
we're floating away
we're floating away
you're leaving no trace
please stay
and wait for me
and i'll give you some room to breathe

BREATHE

i’ll text you first but it’s performative 
i burn out so fast i don’t know what normal is
probably won’t reply to strangers on the internet
it’s just because i’m not impressed
stepping out of my comfort zone
only when i’m manic
it’s all i’ve ever known
people think i’m stupid ‘cause i hold my tongue
no one knows i feel so deeply even though i’m just so young

i hate this it all sounds the same 
it just makes things worse ‘cause they can’t feel the shift inside my brain
no stimulation, no connection promised
i don’t know maybe i’m just being way too honest

they wanted longer songs, gave it to them 
but no one listened to the words that i had written
i kept coding everything in fucking metaphors
because it would’ve opened all the doors to
the inside of my mind, everything that i feel all the time
cant tell who’s wrong or who’s right
different colors change in my mind
i reference all my older songs
repeating thoughts ive had before
but i fear that no ones listening

i hate this it all sounds the same 
it just makes things worse ‘cause they can’t feel the shift inside my brain
no stimulation, no connection promised
i don’t know maybe i’m just being way too honest

HONEST

eyes like letters left unread
baby come back to bed
come and sleep next to me 
forget what i had said

you have a way about you there’s just something in the way you move
call me and i’ll follow through
make me fade right into you
i hate it when you talk to me
it makes me wanna fuckin leave
this ain’t how it’s meant to be
you’ll always be apart of me

i haven’t felt love since your soul touched mine
and now i think about it all the time
missing you comes in waves, i’m drowning
cant find a pulse ‘cause you’re my heartbeat

you have a way about you there’s just something in the way you move
call me and i’ll follow through
make me fade right into you
(and i’m on one, i always take it too far
i wanna feel you, and all your heart shaped scars)
i hate it when you talk to me
it makes me wanna fuckin leave
this ain’t how it’s meant to be
you’ll always be apart of me

i don’t need to be right
i just wanna understand
i love you as much today, as i did back then
you don’t need to talk
your music says more than you ever do
hold me until we smell the same
watch me fade right into you

HEART

Lyrics:[Miss Me]
life is a bitch so take a step back
i don't even know why she hates me like that
i feel like I don't want to do anything
i just wanna chill or maybe pop some pills again
yeah see you on the other side
yeah girl u know that ain't a lie
u and i live in different worlds
but we know mine is gonna die (aye) 

yeah u know i usually don't let nobody in my heart 
but i left a door for u 
share with u a piece of my soul
there's the loneliest place that i'll go 
there's the loneliest place you can't never imagine
only can pills and drugs got my heart open
they want to kill me and act like its nothing (woah oh) 

sometimes i wonder what's happening
try to get out my mind but that aint happening
the devil kept me inside
brainwashing me makes me want to commit suicide 

teardrops on her face telling me it's fking wrong 
did i hurt your feelings girl im sorry but im gone
ecstasy on my face they gon miss me when im gone 
all I've left are these songs
see them pumping all my songs
will u miss me girl
u the only one that i'll call on my phone
will u miss me girl
when i go to hell i'll be all alone
(i'll be all alone)

Lil sJeep - Miss Me (Prod. sobernapbeatzz)

she (prod.Noah Banx)

read between the lines (ft. Rage from Bad Neighbors) (prod. Murda Beatz)

5 stages of loss. Maybe this will help anyone going through pain and cannot understand why this could happen or can help in any type of way through 1 of the most painful journeys a human can go through. Take time to understand why and time to understand how you can be better. Time..... oh how much it could drag on. Or how much it can speed by. TIME..... Be grateful for your feelings of pain and love.

DENIAL

🧚🏾‍♀️ 2016-2023 🧚🏾‍♀️

CHOKE

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