Verse 1 – The Litany (External Voices)
You’re too loud, too proud, too plain,
Never sunshine, always rain.
Not enough work, too much mind,
Leave the smarter girl behind.
Your hands too slow, your dreams too wide,
Stay meek, stay sweet, stay inside.
Your nails too sharp, your laugh too wild,
Not the mother’s favored child.

Chorus
Who said I was plain? — They did. I did.
Who said I was rain? — They did. I did.
Who said I was bad? — They did. I did.
Who said I was fat? — They did. I did.

Verse 2 – The Mirror (Internalized)
I took each word and wore it thin,
Stitched their lies beneath my skin.
Whispered faults like sacred prayer,
Built my walls and called them fair.
If pain’s the proof of being real,
Then shame’s the cross I learned to feel.
I taught myself their bitter song,
Sang it softly all night long.

Chorus
Who said I was plain? — They did. I did.
Who said I was rain? — They did. I did.
Who said I was bad? — They did. I did.
Who said I was fat? — They did. I did.

Verse 3 – The Turn (Awareness)
Who said I was? — They did, then I did.
Wore their words like a lace-stitched lid.
Thought if I bled enough, I’d be pure,
Thought if I bent enough, I’d endure.
But truth is patient; it waits below,
For one clear “no” to let it grow.

Chorus
Who said I was plain? — They did. I did.
Who said I was rain? — They did. I did.
Who said I was bad? — They did. I did.
Who said I was fat? — They did. I did.

Bridge
I am none of those things you define,
And even if I was — it’s fine.
I am me, by God’s design.
No longer the sum of thoughts that bind,
I am the sum of mine.

Final Chorus
Who says I am plain? — They do. I don’t.
Who says I am rain? — They do. I don’t.
Who says I am bad? — They do. I don’t.
Who says I am fat? — They do. I don’t.

Outro
I’m good enough to breathe again,
I’m good enough to fall and mend.
I’m good enough, even if not whole —
I’m good enough to love, body and soul.


***** Description *****

“Not Good Enough” isn’t about one story — it’s about every voice that ever whispered, you can’t, you shouldn’t, you aren’t.
It begins with those echoes we’ve all heard, the ones we learn to repeat to ourselves, and ends with the quiet, resolute no more.

The cracked pavement and the lone daisy on the cover mirror the song’s heart — resilience where none was expected, grace blooming through the fractures.
It’s not about defiance; it’s about release. A song for anyone who has ever carried the weight of not enough, and finally decided to set it down.

Not Good Enough

Another very fine tune from Kocosaur https://soundcloud.com/kocosaur/serenity experiences the 'I-can't-help-it' enrichment procedure from me ... 

serenity

A dark, cinematic alternative rock track that bleeds exhaustion and defiance.
Whispered verses crawl beneath the skin, breaking into raw, raspy power as the chorus erupts.
Warm distorted guitars and analog drums echo like a heartbeat fading in the dark.
“Soulsucker” is for those who’ve given too much — and finally whisper back, “so go suck someone else.”

Lyrics, concept & creativity by me – music produced with AI (Suno).

TaniSa - Soulsucker

#electro #futuristic #deephouse #choir #experimental

You’ve entered the sequence.
Each track is a mirror — what you hear depends on what you bring.
Same face. Same name. Different fate.
There are no random songs here — only messages chosen for you.
If it reaches you, it was meant for you.


how much pressure

This song is my sonic spell for the Halloween witching hour — a dark ritual set to rhythm and flame. It’s about the raw, forbidden energy that awakens under a blood moon, when power and danger blur into one. Every lyric paints the image of a ritual gone too far — crimson light flooding the sky, whispers that ignite the air, and fate twisting in the shadows. It’s not just about curses and cauldrons, but about the intoxicating pull of primal energy — that moment when you surrender to what you can’t control and dance with the darkness instead of fearing it. 

It’s me channeling the chaos, the mystery, and the beauty of the occult into sound — a song that feels like a spell being cast in real time.


LYRICS: 

[Verse]
Crimson orb ascendant
Shadows crawl
The night's malignant
Twisted sister circle
Primal
Undenied
Power surges
Fate denied 

[Prechorus]
Chant begins
The words ignite
Burning whispers in the night 

[Chorus]
Blood moon hex
The curse takes flight
Shattered bones in pale moonlight
Twisted ritual
A morbid dance
Take your chance! 

[Verse 2]
Cauldron bubbles
Venom boils
Victim screams
The soil recoils
Eyes of demons
Pierce the gloom
Seal your fate inside this tomb 

[Prechorus]
Chant begins
The words ignite
Burning whispers in the night 

[Chorus]
Blood moon hex
The curse takes flight
Shattered bones in pale moonlight
Twisted ritual
A morbid dance
Take your chance!

Blood Moon Hex

Here's an original song titled "Children Are People Too" ---- heartfelt and meaningful, written in a slow Country Style that could fit either Country style or Pop. This inspirational song reminds us to put Chidren first, allthe way!

Children are People Too

“True to the Core” is a raw, faith-driven anthem about survival, truth, and divine purpose. Big John pours his soul into every line, reflecting on years of struggle, loss, and resilience. From building his life out of nothing to learning how to live in honesty after a lifetime of lies, this song is both a confession and a declaration of spiritual awakening.

Guided by God’s light, John stands as a man reborn — no longer hiding behind the masks he once wore to survive. Every lyric testifies to the strength it takes to face pain with love, to speak truth even when it hurts, and to recognize God’s plan in every twist of fate.

With a voice that carries both grit and grace, “True to the Core” isn’t just a song — it’s a testimony of faith through fire. It reminds listeners that God’s light doesn’t just expose the truth… it heals it.


“True to the Core” is a raw, faith-driven anthem about survival, truth, and divine purpose. Big John pours his soul into every line, reflecting on years of struggle, loss, and resilience. From building his life out of nothing to learning how to live in honesty after a lifetime of lies, this song is both a confession and a declaration of spiritual awakening.

Guided by God’s light, John stands as a man reborn — no longer hiding behind the masks he once wore to survive. Every lyric testifies to the strength it takes to face pain with love, to speak truth even when it hurts, and to recognize God’s plan in every twist of fate.

With a voice that carries both grit and grace, “True to the Core” isn’t just a song — it’s a testimony of faith through fire. It reminds listeners that God’s light doesn’t just expose the truth… it heals it.

Truth in My Core

Composer: Adam de la Halle (1230-1287)
from the book: Medieval Duets 
for Soprano and Alto Recorders.
enjoy! 

Tant Con Je Vivrai

SugarSynth: "Can't stand the subtext"
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It's never simple, never straight. 
Served confusion on a plate. 
Builds a whole world with what it won't say, 
what it won't say
Wants the reaction, skips the blame. 
Every new day is a hidden test. 
Is it realness... or just like the rest?

Do I really hear it like that? 
ye 
This feeling's growing and I just can't mean it. 
It doesn't matter what I find, 
It just can't leave my mind, 
Your motives are unkind.
Like that.

A shift in the air, 
where?
a half-finished phrase. 
maybe
You think you smart with the hating, 
But your opinion's not translating.
Look, I'm not participating.
Now who's the one innovating
(playing, playing)

Do I really hear it like that? 
This feeling's growing and I just can't mean it.
It doesn't matter what I find,
It just can't leave my mind, 
A trap you have designed.
Like that.

I'm tired of being empty, 
Tired of giving all my love. 
my love, my love.
I gave so much I disappeared... 
Now I'm learning how to miss me. 
I just want to mean... 
Mean what I say. 
And not have to feel my life... 
like that. 

Yeah. uh. 
Tired of being empty, 
tired of the haze. 
My whole reality became a maze. 
Stretched me so thin that I broke in the middle, 
Left me to answer their impossible riddle.
They just want the reaction, they don't want the cost, 
Never admit that my whole self got lost. 
So I'm rebuilding, learning to miss me,
You see the shadow, but you don't see history. 
You just erase it. Can't even face it. 
My mind's a room that you tried to make vacant. 
But the lights are comin' on now. 
Yeah, 
the lights are comin' on now. 

This feeling's growing and I just can't mean it
Doesn't matter what I find
It just erases my mind
Do I really hear it like that
I just can't mean it
Uuuhh

Erases my mind.
Leaves my world behind.

Like that

“Faded Polaroids” is a nostalgic soft rock ballad that looks back on memories captured in time — love, laughter, and the moments that slowly fade but never truly disappear. With heartfelt male vocals, acoustic and electric guitars, and a warm, cinematic sound, it captures the bittersweet beauty of remembering what once was.

https://music.youtube.com/search?q=boxeybob+music

https://music.youtube.

Faded Polaroids

My name is John. I have been a broadcaster for five years and have been writing music and poetry for twenty years. I didn’t even realize I could read and write until I discovered I have mirror-touch synesthesia. I perceive everything from right to left: my poetry, words, and compassion. My childhood was challenging, to put it mildly. However, God showed me a way to help others through the words I share. Every song I write serves as a ministry. By addressing various issues, I hope to assist those with troubled pasts find healing through my words. I am a pastor, and this is how I spread God’s message—by feeling the emotions around me and understanding the feelings of the people I encounter, because I have experienced similar struggles. God allows me to see you in ways that others cannot.

Truth in My Core

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