God Why

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Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me (Lukas Bach Bootleg)

my remix of fishers new song blackberries sung by bbyclose. ENJOY!!!

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Blackberries - Fisher, bbyclose - EMRI Remix

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BLONDISH ft. Stevie Appleton - Never Walk Alone (Olly Watt x Macca Grills Edit) [FREE DL]

I’ve been praying for this so long,
Then a moment came, it was all gone.
A look in your eyes, the storm in my mind,
Searching for shelter, some peace to find.

Your eyes were stars in a midnight sky,
Every wish I made was just to survive.
Then I saw you standing right there in front of me,
Like a gift straight from heaven, set my soul free.

[Pre-Chorus]

But Father God, I feel the ache,
Every time I give, it breaks.
You show me love, then tear it away,
I’m left here screaming, asking why today.

[Chorus]

Why, Father God, do you give, then take?
Why show me a life that I can’t embrace?
You know my pain, you know my scars,
Why keep dealing me a broken deck of cards?
Why, Father God, I don’t understand,
Was this all part of your greater plan?
I’m crying out, don’t leave me blind,
I need your light, I need a sign.

[Verse 2]

You took my childhood, innocence too,
Things I never chose, but they cut right through.
Day after day, the pain wouldn’t stop,
I asked you to lift me, but I still dropped.

Every love I give, it fades away,
Every joy I find, it don’t stay.
Am I just the game? Am I just the test?
Are you trying to see if I’ll stand the rest?

[Chorus]

Why, Father God, do you give, then take?
Why show me a life that I can’t embrace?
You know my pain, you know my scars,
Why keep dealing me a broken deck of cards?
Why, Father God, I don’t understand,
Was this all part of your greater plan?
I’m crying out, don’t leave me blind,
I need your light, I need a sign.

[Bridge]

I’m on my knees, torn apart,
You’re the only healer of this heart.
Through the storms and endless night,
I’m still reaching for your light.

Even when I don’t know why,
Even when my tears still cry,
I’ll hold on, though I’m weak inside,
Father God, don’t let me die.

[Final Chorus]

Why, Father God, do you give, then take?
Why show me a life that I can’t embrace?
You know my pain, you know my scars,
Why keep dealing me a broken deck of cards?
Why, Father God, I don’t understand,
But I’ll keep walking, holding your hand.
Through all the pain, through all the cries,
I’ll keep on searching for your eyes.

Why, Father God


I have fought, I never laid it down,
Through the fire, through the battleground.
I’ve loved with all I had inside,
But you give, you take, you break, you hide.

What kind of God just sits and sees,
The broken hearts brought to their knees?
One day beauty, the next it’s gone,
Tell me, Father, where did I go wrong?

[Pre-Chorus]

I’m holding these cards, no straights, no flush,
Nothing but pain and a faith I can’t trust.
Tired of bluffing, tired of disguise,
I just want truth when I look in her eyes.

[Chorus]

What kind of God are you?
Do you watch us break, then make us new?
Seven weeks of heaven turned to stone,
Now I’m standing here all alone.
If it’s your will, let this love survive,
If it’s not, then take it from my life.
What kind of God are you?
Tell me what I’m supposed to do.

[Verse 2]

She was bliss, she was breath, she was light,
You told me “treat her like your wife.”
Now I’m left with silence, left with pain,
Crying out your holy name.

I see the man she loved before,
But every tear cuts me to the core.
I’m begging, God, for just one sign,
Is this her heart, or never mine?

[Chorus]

What kind of God are you?
Do you watch us break, then make us new?
Seven weeks of heaven turned to stone,
Now I’m standing here all alone.
If it’s your will, let this love survive,
If it’s not, then take it from my life.
What kind of God are you?
Tell me what I’m supposed to do.

[Bridge]

Do I disappear into twilight skies?
Do I fade away where the stars collide?
Is there a place for a soul like me,
Or just a mess of memories?

[Final Chorus]

What kind of God are you?
Do you hear my cry, do you see me through?
Take this pain, take this heavy load,
Guide my steps down the narrow road.
If it’s your will, let her love remain,
If it’s not, then take away the pain.
What kind of God are you?
Father, I’m still reaching for you.

What Kind of God Are You?

What A Life (Omri. Remix) [Extended Mix]

“True to the Core” is a raw, faith-driven anthem about survival, truth, and divine purpose. Big John pours his soul into every line, reflecting on years of struggle, loss, and resilience. From building his life out of nothing to learning how to live in honesty after a lifetime of lies, this song is both a confession and a declaration of spiritual awakening.

Guided by God’s light, John stands as a man reborn — no longer hiding behind the masks he once wore to survive. Every lyric testifies to the strength it takes to face pain with love, to speak truth even when it hurts, and to recognize God’s plan in every twist of fate.

With a voice that carries both grit and grace, “True to the Core” isn’t just a song — it’s a testimony of faith through fire. It reminds listeners that God’s light doesn’t just expose the truth… it heals it.


“True to the Core” is a raw, faith-driven anthem about survival, truth, and divine purpose. Big John pours his soul into every line, reflecting on years of struggle, loss, and resilience. From building his life out of nothing to learning how to live in honesty after a lifetime of lies, this song is both a confession and a declaration of spiritual awakening.

Guided by God’s light, John stands as a man reborn — no longer hiding behind the masks he once wore to survive. Every lyric testifies to the strength it takes to face pain with love, to speak truth even when it hurts, and to recognize God’s plan in every twist of fate.

With a voice that carries both grit and grace, “True to the Core” isn’t just a song — it’s a testimony of faith through fire. It reminds listeners that God’s light doesn’t just expose the truth… it heals it.

Truth in My Core

My name is John. I have been a broadcaster for five years and have been writing music and poetry for twenty years. I didn’t even realize I could read and write until I discovered I have mirror-touch synesthesia. I perceive everything from right to left: my poetry, words, and compassion. My childhood was challenging, to put it mildly. However, God showed me a way to help others through the words I share. Every song I write serves as a ministry. By addressing various issues, I hope to assist those with troubled pasts find healing through my words. I am a pastor, and this is how I spread God’s message—by feeling the emotions around me and understanding the feelings of the people I encounter, because I have experienced similar struggles. God allows me to see you in ways that others cannot.

Truth in My Core

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