Live a good life cuz I seek it 🔥❤️

Dissociations (prod. jeweleryboy)

ive been thinkin
its not my fault
back on the wall
had my back up on the wall but they makin feel horrible no matter what I thought
i know this cant be enjoyable for as long as i want
but my thoughts still seem recorable so i tell em wassup
its making me feel terrible when you say what you want from me
i can see through your smile when you dont whats wrong with me
i promise that ill get there one day
dont wanna say probably
but maybe this is all the reasons why they been bothering
theyre not following
its cuz they dont know what its been like when i get to work
its been hallowing
see me spill pain on shirt
and they like oh my god what is wrong w him
maybe this could be something thats really good for me
so it would really be something if i would back out
wish that i could walk through life somewhat comfortably
feel like a zombie homie need a nap like right now
Been tryna tell em this ain’t something i can write down
i hope these words thats in my head will help my bank account
but thats not really why im here not here to make it out
im just tryna tell em how i feel from the confines of my house

just give me time ill turn nothing to something
all these restless nights alone this shit aint something i wanted
im in the gutter now
his bones are no longer solid
just pull me out
i can barely stand for this let alone stomach
its too much for you
i know that feeling myself
but how do you think i feel after "letting you down"
the path to life is steep
if nothing else than you should stay for me
im floating right before i fall asleep
if nothing else ill see you in my dreams
just know that ill love you eternally
but i feel so worthless
i wanna see
wanna see ya
wanna show you my song and give your head a kiss
i look disgusting bae got blood coming out my lips
i fear the day you call me trash i think ill fucking flip my lid
some days i think that my shit trash but nah fuck it im him
im fucking drunk right now so fuck it aw fuck it im him
baby me and you got love like pam and jim
this feeling inside of my heart so hollowing

hollowing (p. under the maple tree)

i walk around with that mac
i just wanna pop them pills where they at?
where they-
i walk around with that mac
i just wanna pop them pills where they at?
I just spilt this mickey on the floor got me mad
uh oh
pop out on live got tweakers in the chat
my momma prolly think
that ima failiure
yeah i made mistakes
that ill prolly never learn
I drank so much that everything i saw turnt to a blur
I think i found the one she tell me things i never heard

dont tell me things that you know aren't true
just give me time and i'll wait on you
just give me something to wait on
baby you know that i put that shit on
dont tell me things that you know aren't true
just give me time and i'll wait on you
Balenci skulls or the bb i cant choose
I love designer Murakami my shoes
smoking on that loud bitch come again?
no hablo espanol they'll think i'm alien

i walk around with that mac
i just wanna pop them pills where they at?
I just spilt this mickey on the floor got me mad
uh oh
pop out on live got tweakers in the chat
my momma prolly think
that ima failiure
yeah i made mistakes
that ill prolly never learn
I drank so much that everything i saw turnt to a blur
I think i found the one she tell me things i never heard

failure (cabber)

JudgeGame (legos)

prod. deadends

lyrics:
whyd it all go wrong
when i fell in love?
said you care you dont
i held on so long

whyd it all go wrong
when i fell in love?
said you care you dont
i held on so long

when you wear that necklace
do you think of me?
or did you throw it out
with the other things?
it only feels a year
but fuck, yeah, its been 3
genie, i only have one wish
i wish that she didnt leave

whyd it all go wrong
when i fell in love?
said you care you dont
i held on so long

whyd it all go wrong
when i fell in love?
said you care you dont
i held on so long

when you wear that necklace
do you think of me?
or did you throw it out
with the other things?
it only feels a year
but fuck, yeah, its been 3
genie, i only have one wish
i wish that she didnt leave

necklace

living like this w merlot (lostcage)

prod @s0ftskelet0ns
i just added violins :)

lately ive been cold inside my skin
hard to warm up when nothings within
cant contemplate too much about it
hard to my live my steady doubting

I don't wanna die yet
living life got no regrets
im lucky im still breathing
stay in I aint leaving
anxiety's my life
overthink too much try fight
its hard but its alright
im coping im coping

citalopram

Vocals by @youngspazz123, @irlswamp, @notaheroo, @notcursed
Mix & Master by @youngspazz123
Produced by @prodcxrter
Released with safehaven.
Cover by Scarlt / safehaven.
YouTube Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dB8A5P62H-s

lyrics:
(Taylor's Diary)
I'm sorry, but I don’t relate
'Cause there’s no one to call when I break
They tell me i'm wasting my life
'Cause I’m doing drugs til they rids me away
Take a look at myself in the mirror I’m disgusted in everyway
My life full of stress and I’m so depressed
I wish you would pull me outta my brain
200 the dash
Took my pride and threw it in the trash
Whole time I was wearing a mask
Tryna be someone else didn’t last
But either way it goes 
Imma be alone until I’m bones 
All I have is our memories
I’m sorry that I built a broken home
I’m sorry I was never perfect and sorry I was never worth shit
I just wanted you to love me and maybe realize I was worth it
So if we’re being honest I’m a crumb
This ain’t moncler bro I’m a bum
I drink until I go numb
Or I drink til I throw up
Haven't seen my daughter in a month
Tryna hold it in and act tough
Tears drain from my eyelids and nobody cares that I’m fucked
I’m walking in quicksand
Sinking by the second
I keep coming back i don't know when I’ll learn my lesson

(Swamp)
It’s muddy in my cup
And there’s a forest in this blunt
Ion got time for no bullshit so can we wrap this up
I’m just tryina catch me a buzz
But these Russians ain’t enough
Should of filled em with more skunk
Instead we’re still here on this love shit
Like do you even really want this
Are you upset or just sunkissed
Like my bad you’re feeling loveless
I guess your skin ain’t the toughest
But I’m back in ball
Blockin goofies like a prime Chris Paul
Oh you wanna talk? Baby don’t hit call
If your mission is to watch me fall
Tell the truth, don’t lie to me
It’s funny I can see the irony
Let me take a page from Taylor’s diary
Learn to smoke away all my anxiety
But it’s
Tough luck
No chance
Ima surly fold again
I’m fucked up
Oh man
Don’t leave me here alone, my friend
(x3)

(notahero)
Burberry glasses on but you’re not in the frame
I don’t wanna leave the house girl i ain’t pregame yet
This shit going back and forth like wii sports tennis
And i keep coming back don’t think i learned my lesson
I don’t wanna get to know you
I don’t even know myself
Drunk as fuck in this function singing like alvin
Simon on my belt
Tommy keep me warm when it’s cold
Wear that shit like pelt
If its bout my queen then i'm gon fold
That’s how the card's dealt
Baby you're so perfect
I can’t treat you wrong and if i do i don’t deserve it
I might be better gone lately i been feeling worthless
But you tell me that i'm wrong and swear that i have a purpose
Yeah, burberry glasses on but i've been feeling worthless
Yeah, this shit going back and forth like wii sports tennis
Yeah, i keep coming back don’t think i-
Drunk as fuck in this function singing like, wear this shit like pelt
Tommy keep me warm when it’s cold, yeah, wear that shit like pelt
Tommy keep me warm when it’s, that's how the card's dealt

(Notcursed)
I don’t feel much older
But i’m really worn down
Wish i knew when i was younger this was how i’d turn out

Cold room flooded out the summer
And i’ve been in this dark mood month after another
It’s been feeling daunting lately
No one here to shape me
Yeah i could, i know, but my mental needs saving

I might feel better when the winter comes around
I’ve been finding lost letters that were better unfound
I stay locked in this house
The keys been buried now
You’d think i wanna get out
But i don’t know how

I might get better when i learn to love myself
I’ve been writing less letters to girl who never helped
She still looks like me now
Down to the skin
I see you’re getting freaked out
Should’ve never let you in

Taylor’s Diary - I’m sorry, but I can’t relate (ft. notahero, swamp, notcursed) (cxrter)

lyrics

i don’t even understand why u left is it all my fault?
guilt permeates the air like i didn’t care
now im starting over from scratch why’s all this seem so fucking typical
it’s easier to breathe and stare while i go nowhere

life, keeps fucking me over like left and right
man sometimes i just wanna fuckin die 
i waste my time inside
i barely show my face
i feel so out of place
like an alien up in space
man i just want a taste of a normal life

like how’s i supposed to know
u were gonna go
a target placed on me it’s like u were aiming for my throat
throat, mine closed up i couldn’t say no more
fuck i think i passed out and smacked my head upon the floor

what was i fuckin thinkin huh
love blinded me and it’s obvious 
holdin back tears and it’s bad for us
i’m done
if i can’t count on u
then, then what would u have me do?

i don’t even understand why u left is it all my fault?
guilt permeates the air like i didn’t care
now im starting over from scratch why’s all this seem so fucking typical
it’s easier to breathe and stare while i go nowhere (2x)

JudgeGame (legos)

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