Black Iris

S. Q. 109

Objets D'Blunt

Here's Looking at me 
Let's drink to my health 
Here's hoping that everybody's thinking about me all at once... 

Here's looking at me 
Well, I'm a beautiful guy 
I'm one of the most interesting people I've met (If I say so myself) 

And I don't want to love you --- I just want you to love me 

Here's looking at me and all my eloquent charm 
Here's hoping that you see fit to worship me 
On my terms 

And I don't want to love you, I just want you to love me...

Here's Looking At Me

Foreign Smokes

HYbr:ID II

HYbr:ID Ectopia Environment

There are those who read the weather
Looking for signs and omens
Cold is seeping through the floor
Stalking me (especially my feet)

I am the cavalry
No one's riding to save me
I'm the adult now
There's no one coming to rescue me

Threw myself into a prism
To show myself in another light
I don't need to be the first or the best
As long as I'm ok...

I am the cavalry
No one's riding to save me
I'm the adult now
No one's coming to rescue me

No One's Coming

Just a couple of years ago
We all agreed on basic facts
Science had respect
People weren't so easily confused
We've backslid 50 years
Nowhere is agreement any more

Threat of murder on 5th Avenue
Can't tell now
what's up or down
In or out
Murder on 5th Avenue 
I don't know what's right or wrong any more


You're in til you're out
Day is night
Up is down
You are til you're not
happy or sad
The world is a thousand shades of gray

Murder on 5th Avenue
Can't tell now
what's up or down
In or out
Murder on 5th Avenue 
I don't know what's right or wrong any more

Murder On 5th Ave

I think I just fell into a hole
And I can't find my way out
The reason I'm hurting is I'm still existing
Not looking to die, I just don't care to live

Some days I just want to go home
But there is no home, no place where I belong
I'm homesick for a house
That isn't mine anymore

Gravity feels like it's seeking me out
Makes me heavy, numb, and dumb
Pulling my energy away from me
It's no wonder I feel cold

The light at the end of the tunnel, extinguished...
No relief on the way, just more of the same
But I'm still here, and the darkness won't win
I've made it this far, may as well keep going

Gravity feels like it's seeking me out
Makes me heavy, numb, and dumb
Pulling my energy away from me
It's no wonder I feel old

Numb

My cover of the Four tet song Three Drums.
Electronic Beats

Three Drums (Four Tet Cover)

I don't like being alone
But I hate being with people more
Wanting to go out
But happy to stay home

Waiting for the day to end
With no special reason why
Sometimes I'm angry with the sun
Taunting me with its shine

I've been socially distant
since way before the plague
Rather read a book than attend a party
Trying to sleep a lot - awake is SO exhausting

Knowing what you need to be happy
Does not make doing it any easier
And things we WANT to do
Often don't deliver happy...

I've been socially distant
since way before the plague
Rather read a book than attend a party
Trying to sleep a lot - awake is SO exhausting

Exhausting

I've tried to always think the best
But I am often disappointed
When I am feeling charitable
I'll sometimes admit I've made mistakes

Things I've done that I regret
And all those things I never did
I regret those too
Things I can't unbreak
I'm reaching the edge of what I think I know
I'm approaching the point
Where there is no point anymore...

I've done things I never should have done
Either stupid or hazardous, or some mixture of both
But sometimes I learned
And mostly won't do it again

Things I've done that I regret
And all those things I never did
I regret those too
Things I can't unbreak
I'm reaching the edge of what I think I know
I'm approaching the point
Where there is no point anymore...

Regrets

I don't know how to grieve anymore, 
I've forgotten how to cry 

Everybody's weary, and now too numb to fight 
Impossible things become du jour --- How is that a life? 

Mistakes were made - somebody got it wrong 
Everybody's watching everything go wrong

Rules and order breaking down 
We'll wait another day to take the kids to town 

And now we've held our breath collectively 
At the edge of a future we can't escape 

Time to exhale, time to breathe 
We have a lot of work to do 

Though I'm still breathing, and my heart's still beating 
At least a piece of me has died 

We stand by watching, stupefied at what we see 
The past has passed, we're here right now 

The only answers now that count 
are the ones that shape tomorrow 
We have a lot of work to do...

Tomorrow V2

Wasps' Nests

Aging Spinsters

Fountain Fire

Pre-California

I don't know what's going on 
but I know that something's really wrong 
I don't have a plan for it 
I don't know what to do at all 

It's not easy here for me 
To Pretend that I'm who I want to be 
Once I could be anyone at all 

There's no need to shine a light 
On where to go or how to sleep at night 
No native scouts to guide us 
No cover here to hide us now... 

It's not easy here for me 
To Pretend that I'm who I want to be 
Once I could be anyone at all 


We learned what we did not know 
And never guessed where we could never go 
I don't have a word for it 
Tried one on, but couldn't make it fit

It's not easy here for me 
To Pretend that I'm who I want to be 
Once I could be anyone at all

Murder On 5th Ave

Blunt Objects