lmaooo why tf is this so hard god damn bro

am i stupid bro where is the sendflowrs feat?

ily all, y'all are my everything
go show @emptychest all the love in the world
(casperrr)
i really wanna stay
but i think i will go
cuz im stupid high
but i'm feeling low
sitting by my window
looking at the leaves that the wind blows(2x)

(emptychest)
that the wind blows
it makes it always cold
and i will never know
never know, where the fuck to go
been reaping what i sow, i think its time to float
(i think about it like everyday)
away.
i think about it like everyday
stay in my brain while you stay in your lane
they say that it gets better but i dont think i believe them
smoking hella potent, think this shits gonna free me soon
that the wind blows
i really wanna stay
but i think ill go

i really wanna stay.
(casperrr + emptychest)
i really wanna stay
but i think i will go
cuz im stupid high
but i'm feeling low
sitting by my window
looking at the leaves that the wind blows(2x)

i really wanna stay w/emptychest (wissery)

prod heydium <3

lyrics: 

yeah i struggle a lot with myself
i spend a lot of time stuck in this hell
caught up between realities
i try not to become another victim of mentality
but i tell you what..
this life is slowly killin me

da da da da
this shits too much
da da da da 
like i rlly give af?

how do i make this something real?
i fuck with the aesthetic
i just dont get the appeal...
and its kinda fuckin me up
hardly livin wit the liquor and the drugs
this life has never been enough
i hate myself and it fuckin sucks
yeah its been so long man, stuck in this rut
i could die tomorrow
yeah, nobody give af 

yeah nobody give af...
nobody give af...

NOBODY GIVE AF

Spotify

nobody give af [+heydium]

She met a boy, he was nice enough
She didn't care that much, she knew it'd never be love
He came to visit, slept in her bed
And all her friends had said just how this would end

She was too high to stop him, he took what he wanted
And no one believed her, she dropped out of college
His friends are all toxic: "I know him, he's honest"
This shit makes me nauseous, I wish I could stop it

I know you like me better when I'm too fucked up to talk
You like me better when I'm too fucked up to talk
I know you like me better when I'm too fucked up to talk
You like me better when I'm too fucked up

She told her friends and no one seemed to mind
If it was just one time, or they were both too high
Or if she led him on the way she likes to do
I bet she asked for it. I bet she liked it too
This body wasn't yours to start, so why the fuck you complaining
Fill up the sink with the blood and the vomit, body decaying
Swallow a million pills til we can't understand what you're saying
We'll call you crazy til you kill yourself and watch in amazement

But she didn't listen, thought maybe this was different
Maybe she deserved a break from all the shit she'd been in
He didn't care at all, blame it on the alcohol
Days awake from adderall, he says "I like you better when you're too fucked up to talk"

I met a girl, she was nice enough
I didn't care that much, I knew it'd never be love
She came to visit, let her sleep in my bed
And all my friends had said just how this would end

But I didn't listen, I thought maybe this was different
I thought maybe I deserved a break from all the shit I'd been in
You didn't care at all, blame it on the alcohol
Days awake from adderall, I know you like me better when you're too fucked up to talk

I was too high to stop you, you took what you wanted
And no one believed me, I dropped out of college
Your friends are all toxic: "You know her, she's honest"
This shit makes me nauseous, I wish I could stop it

But I didn't listen, I thought maybe this was different
I thought maybe I deserved a break from all the shit I'd been in
You didn't care at all, blame it on the alcohol
Days awake from adderall, I know you like me better when you're too fucked up to talk
But I didn't listen, I thought maybe this was different
I thought maybe I deserved a break from all the shit I'd been in
You didn't care at all, blame it on the alcohol
Days awake from adderall, I know you like me better when you're too fucked up to talk

TOO FUCKED UP TO TALK

thing I found on my laptop that I never finished 

the original song that the "damsel" line was in 
love u

also rare one layer flowrs vocals here (sorry)

"thats ur man is it? he's kinda handsome" 20'

Ivory Tower Kid (feat sendflowrs) [prod taha]

produced by neverforever

completely non profit

lyrics

told her do not worry
trouble getting up in any way without a coffee
fuck it gimme tea, gimme chai inside a latte
pass the competition no Ferrari I'm Bugatti
summer ain't for me I like my coats with excess pockets

don't go minding me I like to blend in with the objects
from my corner read the room out like a blurb and all its contents
drunk and in the city streets I'm walking singing nonsense
since we were 17 I've never stopped to watch the comets 

ay

lately do not fuck with outings 
no I do not wanna party
everybody here draining
u can keep all of ur conversations 
think that I'd rather just talk to the table
it kinda get me 
it kinda wobbly n never just stable
throwing up on this instrumental
fractured words gonna border mental
I'm offline and she's temperamental
talking shit on her screen of metal
how u let twitter impact how ur head screwed
how u let people decide who can love u
lately I sit in my room
and I just smoke thru
I'm losing the will just to pull thru
but honest it's been good to see u

good to see u
can I get a preview
let me see the other side
and tell me was it peaceful 
come and see u?
I can barely speak dude
I vomit words onto a beat 
but conversations where I'm weak

where I'm weak
and so I weep

winter heat drops
all the leaves rot
my face will leak snot 
I'm like a tea pot
my heart will weep blood
it's filled with red muck
don't mind my weed cough
my lungs are black sludge

I got bad habits in my backpack
how u fuckin with a thumb tat
I got a razor blade and a bruised waist
I don't eat enough and that's my bad
too many fakes just chasing plays
u ain't ever blowing up and it's so sad
I'm not chasing fads I'm just born to rap
I ain't even wrote this down in my notepad

it's off the dome
kicking in the streets without a home
and I almost copped a charge but I came home
so lighten up there's not a lot of hope
and what u got is what u taking home

vomit (neverforever)

produced by soloft
mixed and mastered by me

time is a blessing but cursed all the time
what i would give to rewind 
all of the nights where it felt so right 
they hit like a brick every time 
i still hate going outside 
sometimes I wish I was blind 
still choose to ignore it, but never forget it, and yeah I regret it 

tell me right now
tell me right now
is it nice on the other side of this hell?
i know calling at the worst time’s suicide
let me find out and I’ll tell you what it feels like 



i got a problem with spending my money before it deposits
that is an easy one, i have a thousand, don’t know how to solve them 
please do not tell me you love me if you’re always busy
no ring when im calling 
yeah, not gonna lie, a lot of my dreams involve bridges and falling 
i walk around with my anger a lot 
know it’s not healthy, im learning to stop
i been working OT
chasin a check tryna figure it out 
don’t really feel in control of my life 
and that shit don’t sound right 
only my best in the cover of night
kill every beat and I don’t even try 
on my mind in the middle of the night 
wanna die at the thought, can we go for a drive?
catch a vibe, smoke in the sky
nowhere near great but im feeling alright
all out of time
still gotta try
nothing to lose
so here goes the dive

i'll tell you what it feels like (prod. soloft)

music video
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https://youtu.be/w9Jfkvx8xbY
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prod. beamerboy
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lyrics_
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hates the only way to get through
yeah i say this quite a lot, but i cant even make a move
take a second, wait to breathe
hold, on patient 23
my anxiety was never this bad, it only seems
when i sit, and think about my future, always running free

death was creeping on to me
in my mind,, i could never say what's right
i keep pushing on the knife, let me be, let me breath
disassociate with me
climbing high, cause i cant see
where am i suppose  , to be
hate just keeps waiting, on me

hates the only way to get through
yeah i say this quite a lot, but i cant even make a move
take a second, wait to breathe
hold on patient 23
my anxiety was never this bad, it only seems
when I sit, and think about my future, always running free

you were pushing on to me
always sexualizing me
always mess a making me
just come decimate me please

patient 23

Lyrics:

lights out
i guess im tired
and i been fightin sumthin
im goin silence huntin
i just want a moment, give me a second to hone it
every day that i wake, i gotta sharpen the blade

oh you're takin it back like it was a typo uh
i guess i was never your type then huh
cause you only like em when they love you and then leave but i wasn't that cause i never did mistreat you
you put up your guard, defend
how do we start again
when every conversation we're havin ends in disgust
cause i got insecurities and i know you don't trust
but honestly baby i don't want it to be the end of us

every time that we start to get close you pull away
and i know that i still gotta say it right to your face
but i make time to make sure that i'm around
but you never called, even when i'm not im town
oh i'll stay here even tho i know that it's fake
and i guess that we tried but it's just not aligned to fate
honesty and regret abstained, i think i almost loved you

every body got an opinion, i will just shut down
cause maybe i don't wanna hear you out the picture run mouth
and baby if i'm honest, i think that you should run now
cause ain't it bout that time for us to get close and then bounce out
eyes bled red but i want hazel instead
i'm sorry that i wasn't there when you wished you were dead
axe grind, cut the line, let my neck snap
make sure that it's taut baby won't work if it's slack

overdose license, pure death i siphoned
bro said stick to the tests, don't give a fuck i did the rest
swallowed all dat shit to give my respitory a rest
i was doin shit that'd give a baby hair on chest
and no im not proud, but i escaped from that cloud
shut the fuck up, boy them voices aren't loud
all those numbers on the internet, but you can't pull a crowd
and if we post up on this side then you are not allowed

oh shit i gotta, lie down
im dyin here won't you pipe down
you always said that what goes around comes back
but orbital, that's not how i'd describe my path
cause i just looked ahead and i see distance in my past
and things ain't goin slow your just too used to movin fast
i still got a couple questions i'm afraid to ask
understand i would but right now ima let it pass

a_pattern_of_disaffection_ (secre x splashgvng)

produced by triple gemini (soundcloud.com/trplgmni)

something else left to say here
i don't know what
everyday left to change pace in the dark
holding out for the first time that we go back straight through
the streetlights from the backseat of the car
and i'm deeper again
i pour it straight and its days gone
you couldn't notice and then (couldn't notice again)
i think i'm losing myself (think i'm losing myself)
and i don't know how to tell you when its over
could you hide it from the start?

you don't even speak like you know me
straight laying down what you taking out of me slowly
first time on the first night, you're my only
but its so dark, but its so cold
but its lonely

do you think its the same thing
or you think that its gone?
cause its only worth saving
if its you that i've got
and i know that the waiting
gets inside of your thoughts
and the time that its taking
makes it feel like its wrong

thought that we'd do it again on the same street
making nightmares out of daydreams
june as cold as my face feels
but its easier when you hate me
i just always thought it was safe here

and i don't know how to tell you when its over
could you hide it from the start?

tell me again how it gets in your head
i'm just leaving its better this way
i'm just a second away
i'm just a second away
what would you call that?

read through the texts, do you wonder instead
why i'm making it easy again?
i'm just a second away
saw how it ends when you stay
and i wish we could fall back

you don't even speak like you know me
straight laying down what you taking out of me slowly
first time on the first night, you're my only
but its so dark, but its so cold
but its lonely

Somewhere Else (prod. triple gemini)

prod. josh bae x turro
cover art by @safeatlast <3💜

i swear im feeling wonderful
think those are racks? ill double those
brand new life, fuck all these hoes
im on a mission, i gotta roll

its not fine, but who cares? 
dont look at me, dont dare
mom shoulda told yo ass, dont stare
im boutta get on yo ass, today  
you can tell me anything, i promise it wont bother me,
im inside my yodieland, not caring and counting trees
counting threes, counting twos,
i need my weed, i need my blues
see me next week on a cruise aye
fuck what i see on the news aye
fuck what i see on the daily 
im getting pissed off at tryin' to save me
i dont care for a convo, unless its bout payin me
dont care bout a trick ass hoe that wasn't there for me ;'/
x2
people still scare me, scare me
brand new life, fuck all these hoes
im on a mission, i gotta roll
(awoo!)
hope i dont hit a pothole
im stuck inside the bottle
mom shoulda told yo ass, dont stare
im boutta get on yo ass, today  
im gonna blow real pack today
but im gonna crash hella fast just like every other day	

i swear im feeling wonderful
think those are racks? ill double those
brand new life, fuck all these hoes
im on a mission, i gotta roll

FUCK a team effort
(fuck iiit)
I wear black leather
(fuck uuuu)
im someone ledbetter,
im someone whos been better
(yh!)
you could tell me anything,
and it would probably bother me
(wha!)
cus i can barely stand to walk
and i hope this shit dont wear off,
yh

i need to hurry up
i need to pack it up
uh...
suck that shit up ,
you fucking suck ,
aint bled enough ,
fuck what you smoke, that shit boof
me and divine in a coupe
blasted as hell, we phase thru the roof
wtf we gon do?

counting threes, counting twos,
i need my weed, i need my blues
see me next week on a cruise aye
fuck what i see on the news aye
fuck what i see on the daily 
im getting pissed off at tryin' to save me
dont care for a convo, unless its bout payin me
dont care bout a trick ass hoe that wasnt there for me<3

i swear im feeling wonderful!
think those are racks? ill double those!
brand new life, like fuck these hoes!
im on a mission, i gotta roll!
simply hoping i am not broke,
don't know where the fuck to go..

!💜🔮🔌!

Ivory Tower Kid (feat sendflowrs) [prod taha]

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