produced by sk8miles

completely non profit

lyrics

so who showed up to ur funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw your family pulling up with all their caseroles 
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
for every moment u spent living I sat here alone
( I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
but at the gruesome end I ask u where'd ur friends go
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

we live our lives online and wonder why we're so alone
i go outside to get reminded not to leave my home
you should lighten up and maybe then u'll find a bit of hope
you should be shutting up man I don't even care a bit at all

computer screens and actors
lights off n my back hurts
car wheels roll backwards
lives lost like captives
dying youngs in fashion
I live that gutter life no mansions
no handouts no pensions 
wear my body out for my paycheck
don't say nothing, don't spray it
I been in my head of late just brain me
take a .45 or a mil' o' 9 and send the lead out of my cranium
brain splatter on pavement
all of the grey matter just wasted
if u want something just take it
can't be assed complaining bout it

thoughts tracked on a post it
can't connect at all with humans (humans)
something broke in my brain machine
I can't talk to u without booze in me
(did u find ur halo?)
so friends come n they always leave
but that's fine tho it's alright with me
I've found the way that I'm meant to be
all alone I can finally breathe 
(did u find ur halo?)
let me breathe
bury me in mulch n rotten leaves
(did u find ur halo?)
July will mark the two years that I've grieved
why waste ur time I beg you don't believe in me
(did u find ur halo?)

so will u show up to my funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw my family pulling up with bottled alcohol
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
keep the numbers low I had no friends that they could get involved
(I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
shout out to my ones across the world I'll never see at all
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

banking on a funeral (sk8miles)

prod @sorrow_bringer

 it really does kill me that i'm not able to showcase what i create/put out how i want it to be, but the piece itself matters the most to me. hopefully one day i'll be able to put together like a music video/lyric for a majority of what i put out, but for now, this is all i got. thank you so much for supporting me and music to this point. i really, really appreciate it. more than just that. this is everything to me. thank you for listening. <3

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

brass knuckles mounted on my fists
sweat n grease; let it drip
like a typhlosion, my body is molten
i will not let opportunity slip
it's all for the kid, that i had been
i fucking miss him, but i shouldn't let
adolescence turn to codependence
just how in the fuck did we grow up to this

i'm sorry if you don't like my voice
cause i don't either, i do not have a choice
i take a break for a couple days
then i come back, just to fill the void
i'm so annoyed by every noise
and a breath away from breathing poison
a leap of faith isn't what i'd take
just freefall into clairvoyance

i don't keep track of the shit i accomplish
trying my best to avoid being pompous
now the weight of the world's being pushed on the girl who had given me hope
for the things i had wanted
ain't that some bullshit
honesty lies in between the cracks
of what we deem that is evil
but we can't live without it
can't live without it

oh, it feels like i stall time
when i submerge myself in a foreign pathogen
all feels well, till i cross that path again
flicker the blood off your hands into mine
what an orthodox method of covering crime
i just wanna cry
she just wanna crash
just leave me behind
there's no going back

but, what if i fuck this up again
would you be my only friend
my mentality's kicking the bin
cause honesty lies within sin
with every thought, grows ornery tension
every night i'm a loss, and i'm building retention
stars don't cross if you don't pay attention
my tears don't drop if they're not worth a mention
you cannot feel what i feel.
she's probably not even real
i'm probably not even real
so i'm going in for the kill

i'd fuck off if you'd just ask me
but everybody else just stands there, laughing
i really thought this through
yeah, it's you
something bout the way you stab me
then patch up the wounds
kinda like it never happened

did it ever happen..

retention [prod. sorrow bringer]

produced by neverforever

cty_gazing_ inspired by city gazing by hero

completely non profit 

lyrics

rain clouds above me
my souls fuckin ugly
everyone act so roughly
not like we playing rugby

so c'mon
u get a free throw
i'ma break ur ribs with my feet tho
u can keep those
knocking out some teeth like t bone
12 zero

switch just flipped 
so I drink and drink and drink
Molly got boys fucked 
why do I not feel a thing
sitting in a gutter 
feels like where I'm meant to be
lemme take a second 
i just need some time to think

sunrise
that's home time
well past dawn when I close eyes
my surprise 
pretty sure that i hate going outside
like oh my i can be a hypocrite ik
dont we all sometimes 
like don't lie
u don't see the grey sky

that's all i see
in u and me

all the bad all the hurt
i guess i just see the worst
fuck urself
fuck the world 
save it? nah it don't deserve
i been burnt
i have learnt
good intentions same as dirt
i been burnt
i have learnt
good intentions same as -

rain clouds above me
my souls fuckin ugly
everyone act so roughly
not like we playing rugby

fuck like
i really woke up?
fall asleep face up i wanna choke up
fully gave up
yeah
zoning out this bitch while smoking with the raindrops

this ain't life i'm stuck in my own self made hell
hate the world almost half i do myself
i just suck but u should know i'm something else
self aware i take the devil's side in hell

cough up sludge I force it back into my gut
taste just fine it's like a stronger form of bud
bought an h and in a week I'm out of bud
sleeves r stained, recycler bong that's full of muck

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well it gets lonely 
city gazing from the satellites
all alone here 
in this spaceship and the latern light 
well ive got oxygen 
enough to maybe make the night
but ive accepted that this place 
is where I'll come to die

the view ive got from in my coffin
well it's really nice
if I jumped what'd be the chance 
I'd land in powerlines
a mangled body's not the image 
that I'd hope ud find
a lump of coal that u can bury 
is worth the piece of mind

maybe best to turn this ship 
and gun for saturn's rings
I'd meet an alien 
and tell him how I really think
this world is ugly 
if u took the time to sink it in
people selfish and absorbed 
inside of useless shit

ive got a problem
ive forgotten how to let u in
my vision fades 
alarms are blaring, I hit jettison 
a fire show ignites
somewhere above the midnight sky
I hear just silence
void is pretty fond of eating life

city gazing, with my homies:
foreign parasites 
a formed allience 
between the dead and all this moldy life
I pull the plug on sos
command don't give a shite
I found ignition in the pain
that came from u and I

dmg_ctrl_/cty_gazing_ (neverforever)

prod. @byedias

i don't feel like me today
not much is feeling okay 
these pills hurt my brain 

leave my body under rain
u can ruin my name
just please end this pain(2x)

stab me again i don't care 
in my back or my face is the same yuh
the amount of scars's insane
try to count the times ive been betreayed yeah
yeah, life's never fair
but all i can do is get faded
different strains of dona juana 
got my eyes spinnin like a fucking beyblade

i'm really about to get hollow 
got my heart filled with sorrow 
i got no hope for tomorrow 

i guess i go where the river goes
in the river with the the reefer smoke
ill hit the hay until i go ghost    

i don't feel like me today
not much is feeling okay 
these pills hurt my brain 

leave my body under rain
u can ruin my name
just please end this pain(3x)

plug_luv pt.2 (dias x savior nate litothedon)

https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead
https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz

lyrics:
impractical use of your head
you kept up your walls, blocking out all your friends
eta; some hours
i'll probably be sober
to realize i still hate myself and grown colder
distain
(exhausted and jaded)
your headspace
(show no relation)
stained gray and faceless

refraining from the actions
that'll probably f*ck me further
i miss not pertaining all this weight
and worrying bout the future
but don't get me wrong,
i love all my friends
i hardly reach out, but they know how it is
just a burnt out soul in a tie-dyed kid
when the colors all fade, then the bl**d dries thin
got chilled-out wind in my lungs
winter has pa**ed, but i can't see the sun
waving away to the ones that i love
that difficulty ain't apparent at all
so inconsiderate, i need a light
so f*cking tired of wasting my time
put their heart inside of mine
(inside of mine)
(i'm out of time)
(f*ck)
(out of time..)
(tiedyed.)

autumndropsdead - tiedyed (nate2timez)

prod. neverforever x weepings

I watch days march on by
See my friends live their lives
while I'm frozen in place
My passion's left no trace
~
I was once filled with life  
A glimmer in my eyes
But that boy has died
and I've no where to hide

(Do you know how tiny you are?)

I must find myself; but don't know where to look
I followed my heart; but I swallowed the hook

Now I'm being pulled in like every direction I can't make a choice
I been so damn quiet these days I fear that I'm losing my voice
I don't have a purpose; I don't have a path to break through the noise
Now all of the things that used to bring joy have left me devoid

smthn hella different

apathy [prod. neverforever]

LATE BIRTHDAY demo

phase 10

Scars in Code (Ethereal Echo Remix).wav

❣6 missed calls (ft. noah2000 and lil skele) (prod. nevrfall)❣

Genuine (ft sewerperson)

A INDEPENDENT CURATOR, ASSISTING IN THE GROWTH OF SELECTED ARTISTS.

3/4 TRACKS RELEASED "UNCHAINED, VOL. 4"

autumndropsdead - tiedyed (nate2timez)

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