Ashes

Prod by @imgeist
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Lyrics -
Smile though its killing me
The way we all lie just,
To keep getting by though
Why's it so hard to see
That we're lost in the dark
And we're just fallin apart

Made a bed filed it with roses
It's just so sad they quit when we lost it
Well don't go and throw us away
We still have plenty to say
We're just down for the moment

Don't ever let go
And if you feel your losing all hope (you know)
I'll be there I'll be there
So if your down please just let me know (woah)

Smile though its killing me
The way we all lie just,
To keep getting by though
Why's it so hard to see x2
That we're lost in the dark
And we're just fallin apart

And it just keeps getting worse
My head's bout to explode
With all my thoughts
On my own

I can't feel anything
Without u holding me
And I'm just
Falling apart

And I am sorry that
I keep on fucking up
I'm not, heartless
I just can't keep it up

I'm always giving you my best
Maybe try to reconnect
Maybe give me a 2nd chance
To prove myself x3
Fuck

Smile though its killing me
The way we all lie just,
To keep getting by though x2
Why's it so hard to see
That we're lost in the dark
And we're just fallin apart

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A smile fit for a crime w/ Deadfish (Prod. I'm Geist)

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

lyrics:
staring at the random number
but my mind is at a blank
lookin at my computer
so i ask, "who is this"
it was my lover
how could i forget?
ur light im thunder
ill hurt u twice again
staring at the late phone call
whoops did i miss that on purpose?
yeah that was intentional
and all this distortion
girl i never wanted this
for u to go off to college
and honestly i hated it
so id never have a chance

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

i tried my best baby but this is never gonna happen
im not the one to show love, shouldve known that was a problem
i picked these flowers for u i know u probably tossed em
now i just be resting from girls n everybody
she dont really love me
she just like to attention
how am i this stupid
omg im gonna lose it
take in all this caffeine
i still have no energy
drinking all this coffee
still got no energy

she say that she forget everything we ever had
baby that is horrible
i think she got some problems
so u need to worry bout yourself
and theres no denying that u need a lil help
i already played the part 
so go find someone else
i know that she hates it
how i been so far cropped out in the distance
i need to stay away from u 
no its not an accident
ive focused avoiding u this whole time on purpose
im sorry not really atleast i didnt forget

at least i didn't forget

heylog - at least i didn't forget

produced by @user-374890447 and @sinxi
lyrics
oh no it hasnt even been long
since you have been in my arms
hasnt even been long
nothing truly made sense till you came into my life
that was intense, when you kissed me for the last time
i never really understood what it meant to feel alive
i thankyou for fucking up my life
damn shes gone forever ill never get to know
if we'll last here beside my window
i said its now or never or ill dip bro
but your the one that left me, oh 

really hit me hard that i been needing you
wear a bandage but it be bleeding through
sent you a package cant you just see it through
can you open it can you just plead into
lot of oak in here maybe some trees in you
i've got an open ear that needs attending to
its very open here its very nice out of my room
its very lovely but i lose sight of you
can you not think its me losing my mind
i just wanna see you in my life
im imagining things you wouldent like
i just wanna give you a piece of my time
listen up im alone im alone all the time
got a few friends but they're online
need to go out better my life
its such a joke i stay online
IM SUCH A JOKE ALL THE TIME
EVERYONE KNOWS MY LIFE
I NEED YOU CLOSE YOUR MINE
OH PLEASE DONT YOU KNOW YOU'RE DIVINE
that way that your hair moves
freckles presented infront of me
i know that your special 
can you come home

home

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prod. @deademane

(heylog)
between the glass
is filled with poison
i feel like trash
apply the ointment
just stay back
he needs some time alone
cus through the cracks
is the widows home
don't come inside here
i would bounce
we're not alive here
don't stick around
when ur minds clear
come in the house
cus i'm not safe here
so get me out

don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

(casperrr)
oh she
she is lying thru her teeth
i swear that she wants to kill me
lay with my lifeless body
while staring at the ceiling
her actions are deceiving
she cuts herself she's bleeding
the blood is running and she really
fucking loves to see it

welcome to the widows home
there's cracks and holes in every wall
the emptyness fills all those holes
this place really tourments my soul
but you can't leave neither can i
i'll go into a room and cry
i'll try to just make up my mind
cut my hair lock myself inside

there's nowhere to go to now
there's no1 to save you now

(heylog + casperrr)
don't come inside here
you might fear
people always die here
bloods along the cabinets
he sacrificed a lot here
everything was gone he loved
and now there's nothing left here
he said he wants to make a change
so he cuts every piece of hair
don't come inside here
you might fear
everybody dies here
walls are colored red
and i see bodies lying everywhere
roam around the room
can you tell there's nothing left here
you're quick to quit imagining
that you brought me inside of here

casperrr x heylog - there's nothing left here (deademane)

produced by xona 

[???]

-lyrics-
I might act like you but I’ve been knowing my own limits
I can’t help myself when you treat me like I was different
oh my god, I swear I’m falling all apart and it won’t stop
it’s like September and it doesn’t seem to rot-

like you..

I might stab myself or two
don’t walk within these hilly dunes
I’ll fall right here and shoot through you
“stay by side”
I’m not your other guy
this isn’t choice I just know that I’ve been airtight 

I’ve been so upset, ember through my chest
where did all your friends go(?) coalesce
I might need a grip to pull me into this 
drugs are different, they walk into a depth
ay, yeah
caught within my skin 8 leg to my sight 
I’ll tell my truth and leave you hanging so you won’t cry- don’t try
ain’t one, ain’t by your side
so so, out of line? enduring all the fights

~

my life is hurting for a way to pause
I’ll hang around and let it go on
yeah, yeah
I can’t choose on what I’m on
I tend to change and I’m worried that-

talk down oh my oh my-
it’s on me to make it out alive 
more found within my skin
8 eyes, 8 legs
they left off from my head

the coldest winter seemed so innocent, swim through the rivers and reach my instrument
I threw my life on the line for a threat.
I’m so depressed, I’m at fault for this shit
I wanna run but I can’t deny
feelin’ dread to our trust and I cry
and I can’t find a source why oh I, hate my life I don’t need an-

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spiders III

produced by sleepwater
piano by melon musik

wait for me in my next life
i swear that ill be fine
got three new chains on my neck fye
tell me im divine
got a deer trapped in the headlights
in a road full of pine
its coming near, following through me
i dont really mind if i die
through the window my neck and spine
i watched my body die
on the ground theres blood on the floor
never leave my side
tendants broken to the core
pendants my neck when im sore
penance she let her mourn
permanance purgatory
in doors

It's october, branches casting 
dont let go were everlasting
antidote w car fumes rising
way too close my hairs nearly frying
check his pulse a boy here is dying  
dont convulse a tear, see him trying
release from every joy now im crying
convinced u not to steer, into the dying

chemicals in my heart i feel so gloomy
with you youll tear me apart
im scared youd lose me

me
her

mourn

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lyrics - 

give the kinda love that i need right back
kinda on the fence but i'll take my chance
tired of the mistakes making me sad
can't get the thought of you outta my head

where do i go?
who can i trust to leave me alone
put on a show then go home
dying to know
i hate and i loathe
written in stone the words saying
'love you'

i'm missing all the memories
i can feel your soul slowly making less of me
safe to say it hurt to watch you leave
now there's no one left to help me here

you're feeling alone on a friday evening
try to hold on love i'm trying to see you
i know you're hurting, you stumble bleeding
i'll keep you whole
you're scared 
you can hold my hand
we'll walk alone, no light to guide
but i know where your heart is
and i know how you're feeling now

let go don't cry just

you're sick to death of me
you hoped i feel the same but it's
just too much to leave here
i'm dealing with the shame of it
thinking that you loved me
i cry and medicate
it's just too much to intake
i'll try my fucking best i
didn't wanna calm down
i'm tryna come to terms with it
molded my emotion
to feel like you're controlling it
so what's it gonna take right now?
gotta keep my feet on the ground

now that love has washed away
contemplating life and i’m sure you can relate
and i’ve seen better days
recently been bitter what’s the point if i ain’t gonna make it in life
i’m always stuck by your side
and can you do me the same
and stay close to mine

don’t leave now i still haven’t kissed you
when you walk out my house i already miss you
let’s snuggle here in the back of my car
our eyes meet the galaxy, we’re counting the stars
my dad says i need to be home before eleven
but she does not want me leave, “logan stay a second” 
a couple hours isn’t very long to spend that time with you
and i finally got the gut to lean in and kiss you

mistake w/heylog

Lyrics:


No I know that you don't really need me
Got caught on in this place you won't see me
On and off, different moods what're you feeling
What're you feeling
What're you feeling
After that let's get out of this place
No ones home now I'm wishing you could stay
Took a step further back staples in my face
Bodies shot red liquid is falling down my leg


This is not the same it is not the same
On the drive home I do not feel safe
I'm the one to blame I'm the one to blame
Without you this time I don't feel okay


Baby your my home, can't imagine it with someone else
Eyes are pointing to the floor don't want you to see myself
Are we on a different page or are we on a different shelf
I'll be reading chapters just so I could be with you or else

Driving home now I'm wishing I could stay
Lightning strikes the summer skies hear the city train
Purest words between your lips is keeping me sain
Ill keep you safe around my arms u give me all your pain
Just miss your flight and stay with me I'll give you better days
The weather shifts with waterfalls we're kissing in the rain
If your in doubt you know I'm here just tell me anything
We're out of time you gotta go is this where it will change?


No I know that you don't really need me
Got caught on in this place you won't see me
On and off, different moods what're you feeling
What're you feeling
What're you feeling
After that lets get out of this place
No ones home now I'm wishing you could stay
Took a step further back staples in my face
Bodies shot red liquid is falling down my leg

heylog - Driving Home & Im Wishing U Could Stay

Stream "know a thing" by @heylog (prod. @irby314)
https://streamlink.to/knowathing-heylog

Lyrics:
i don't wanna heal myself again
no, i don't need to miss you like i did
promised recently i'd hit decline
but i couldn't do it this one time

i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
do i even give a damn
do i even give a damn

every night i wake up in a sweat
every single word you ever said
come together without feeling harm
quickly run to you with open arms

can't believe i'm doing this again
it's been so long so like, how you been?
they don't even know a thing or two
they know more about me than 'bout you

i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand
i don't know why i can't
feel anything or understand

do i even give a damn
do i even give a damn

heylog - know a thing (irby)

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lyrics:

and i guess thats how life goes
live a long life then turn to a ghost
its a one way road
take a million turns still end up home
now your body cold
memories play like motion pictures
now you outta know
this ain't what i depicted
were placed then taken away from our loved ones
live from the place where money is more important
planet earth
what is it worth

the inhabitants ruin everything
there is no break in this chain
all we want is everything
then everything is induced with pain

they still don't know
they think its alright

they still don't know
they think its all just a lie

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i guess w/ bones & cat soup

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(prod. @pxnch)
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buzzing

buzzing (prod. pxnch)

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(prod. @prod-mangetsu)

LLP<3

first sight (prod.manget$u)

produced by heylog <3

lyrics:
tell me this aint true
cus im really scared to speak out
lovers all around me
god i feel twice as lonely now
she said, "log feel my pulse
and listen to my heart pound"
but i aint feel nothin dude
nor do i hear a sound
i dont care about anyone for now
except for you
shes back for the third time
to me thats some great news
i could see u every night
ik u wouldnt want to
she ask to go out for a night
im really tryna play it cool
she said logan smile more
but ur the reason i didnt whore
im dancing while the rain pours
im guessing u could call it bored
got acne growing through my pores
i thought it couldnt get any worse
apparently it can
face is full of red sores

she loves whatever she wants
but she only loves herself
whats that smell
ITS SELFISH
its hard to love someone
when they dont love you back
i tried but it left a birth mark like the one on my forehead
she always checking her phone
and never looks up
it never really phased her
she always got luck
she always got what she want
love and all the fun
i tried to be nice
but u took at my trust

i think im reaching the heavens
beretta come here and just end it
i know that ppl will miss me
but right now it dont really mean nothin
i wanna rest with the goddesses
havent found peace in a minute
im in the section of fantasy
while ur still trapped in the fiction
she said, "i love u logan"
but i know ur full of shit
how could u approach this
save my soul or squash it
i was really lost in it
u took the advantage on me it was really sus
but i was dumb n went with it

so tell me this aint true
cus im really scared to speak out
lovers all around me
god i feel twice as lonely now
she said, "log feel my pulse
and listen to my heart pound"
but i aint feel nothin dude
nor do i hear a sound
i dont care about anyone for now
except for you
shes back for the third time
to me thats some great news
i could see u every night
ik u wouldnt want to
she ask to go out for a night
im really tryna play it cool
she said logan smile more
but ur the reason i didnt whore
im dancing while the rain pours
im guessing u could call it bored
got acne growing through my pores
i thought it couldnt get any worse
apparently it can
face is full of red sores

look u got what u want
u feel good about yourself?
whats down there
ITS HELL
because thats where u belong
with ashes and evil
but i could say the same thing about myself
her face beaming off the summer sun
i wont forget a single lil thing
her flaws she aint got even one
the memories created were more important to me

birth

produced by heylog

lyrics:
my thoughts could start a riot
im thirsty for some violence
this boy think he a god yeah
i could fit him in my pocket
i got posers poppin sockets
dont even try to study this
i think its pretty funny when
she fangirl in his messages
but look he aint no special man
ur not even either yea
im relieved to get this off my chest
i hope u both listen to this
i hear he likes to talk a lot
but all i hear is silence
lay out their positions
while i go back to work again

if u love me pls dont say it
id rather u lie it
my heart is close to dying
no way i can revive it
leave me here in peace and silence
if im hurt youll hear the sirens
oh take me to the ambulance
these voices feel so ambient
my gas shot i cannot break it
ur bestfriend real good at flaking
honestly i kinda hate him
what goes on inside that brain of his?
she worship all the wickedness
i cannot just stand for this
her soul with flames and ashes
dont look back as i walk past it
my heart is half divided
she threw it in the garbage
that explains why i cant find it
could u spare me a medkit
i been busy duct taping it
but that cant even hold it
the pieces keep on falling
no she dont even notice
she ask "hey should i post this"
OMG YOU GOT ME MEGA PISSED
have i told u how im sick of it
how u love me when im just a kid
she crying while im grinning
im laughing while she fearing
i feel like pandora
tag along cus im useless

i dont wanna talk baby could u just let me go
i feel safer praying even god thinks im alone
nobody can hear me here yelling in the pillow
punch holes in the wall oh man im getting pretty close
move on to ur face ill give ur boy a bloody nose
jump into the ice its cold but i forgot my clothes
she touch 'round my stomach and feeling all my ripples
nails scratching the crevices she kissing my freckles

my thoughts could start a riot
im thirsty for some violence
this boy think he a god yeah
i could fit him in my pocket
i got posers poppin sockets
dont even try to study this
i think its pretty funny when
she fangirl in his messages
but look he aint no special man
ur not even either yea
im relieved to get this off my chest
i hope u both listen to this
i hear he likes to talk a lot
but all i hear is silence
lay out their positions
while i go back to work again

freckles

guitars were done by SADisfying & heylog

lyrics:
and i try to run from u but i end up right back where i begin
her waist is skinny young face may i borrow u just for one sec
and there's this place we'll stay where the fire burns, it's nice and quiet
ill be by your side i swear take care of u until i end
i'm in the mud cut up god forgive me for i have sinned
i pull out the nails and heal i guess that's what i get
and i'm pullin out my hair and i'm still learning how to control it
but i'm still doubting me to this day i'm really tryna fix it
and you're a thousand miles away i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess with bags under my eyes and i don't look good
and i run from u and i recommend that u run from me too
and u left me but i left u don't know if we'll be back together soon

i write this song i'm scared to death no one will even like it
and i dump my thoughts to the world i'll probably regret this
and i can't sleep if ur rent free in and out of my head
so basically i'm starting to think i'll be like this for infinite
and you're a thousand miles away i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess with bags under my eyes and i don't look good
and i run from u and i recommend that u run from me too
and u left me but i left u don't know if we'll be back together soon
and you're halfway across the world i bet tonight u look so good
while im a mess and my hairs a nest and im too ashamed to look
and i fell for u and i recommend that u fall for me too
and u left me but i left u first i hope we'll meet again soon

there's this place we'll stay

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