IVORY TOWER KID (feat sendflowrs)  [prod taha]

[sendflowrs]
and as the cold came, it didn’t feel right
on my deathbed i pray for your warm soft kiss
these angels they lay next to me and calm it 
i don’t think i really loved you baby if i’m honest 

and in my resting place, keep the seal tight
cus i would raise all the dead for you if you wanted
i would purge these dark woods with a bow and harness 
just cut out my heart whenever u want it 

[nevermadeithome]

You’re not where i need you
When i sleep at night
My lungs are so hard to breathe through 
My throats so tight 
You’re pretty like the pleiades
I mesmerised just by your eyes
I can’t seem to look at you 
Your hue and glow just seem so bright

Sleeping at night in your gown wear 
Swim the sea
Kill the king just to be there 
Bring your coat because its cold where  we‘re leaving 
Hold my hand baby this is the deep end


[sendflowrs]
on my grave 
in native tongue under my name 
is a phrase that says
“the one i love will always get away”
guess it never changes
no matter how much i sit and pray
for a better day
i’ll always be the one that rots away 
call me anyway
call me when you’re home or MIA
call me when you’re sad
when you’re feelin down or feel ok
call me everyday
call me fuckin now before i tear my face 
maybe you would love me more if i would finally get in shape 

[blaidd]
Stack my chips up high like I'm all in
Fall in love with your face in the morning
All this hate in the way had me bawling
But now I got you 
Your love was the only thing to prove
This world is nothing without you 
Now i find myself with nothing left to do 
But I came back from a business trip 
I Wanna go home cause I miss my *beep*
If I stay longer I just might flip
I wanna go home to the softest lips

starlight (feat. nevermadeithome + blaidd) (prod. flesh + jolst)

lyrics //

didnt bother writing
i swore its all behind me
i saw it all play out
i saw the silver lining

guess we both figured out 
the reason weve been hiding
sick of all the run around
im sick of how you want him

you can try, break it off 
turn around take the fall
it was just the two of us
left the town where we grew up

holding onto grudges
im holding on nothing but
use me as a substance
pump me right into ur blood

(pump me right into your blood
im my mamas only son 
im my mamas only son)


i can be the one you want
i cant heal a broken heart
found me in a local bar’s street
find it funny when they run
find a feeling in a cup
fighting ppl that i love

my fist been clinched, i dnd my phone
miss the kid i was but now hes grown
if you’re the queen
then id be at ur throne
a peasant in the midst of common folk

you can try, break it off
turn around take a fall
it was just the two of us, 
left the town where we grew up
holding on to grudges, i’m holding on to nothing but
use me as a substance
pump me right into your blood

substance [neverforever]

Lyrics -

If ima fuck it up then shit, let’s do it over supernova stuffed inside this blunt
If there’s a salad in this bitch, no point to do it over lunch
But I can tell you missed the point and damn this roach is almost done 
let’s keep ‘em in rotation so we don’t run out of fun 
As I stand before the barrel of your gun 
All sensations lost my body weakens, I go numb 
It’s like I’ve seen something i know I  shouldn’t have now I’m stuck 
I was comfortable love, haven’t you ruined enough 

I get this sense of neglect right when you enter my mind 
Isn’t it obvious we’ve wasted our time 

Look how i fucked it up again 
Now the memories are ashes in the tray beside my bed 
Shit I took it to the head 
And leaves my conscience feeling fresh 
But that’s never what I get 
Now I don’t know

The Ruiner

lyrics ⬇️

i talk a lot about you i dont think you think of me
i hate the ridicule i feel like this is hide and seek
switch perspectives for a second maybe you would see
its not really all that perfect in this deep blue sea
i checked my vitals and my heart is beating beautifully 
nevermind the thoughts i had of what it coudlnt be
cuz i dont think too much or at all when i fall asleep
and im so sorry when you call i know you gon hear the beep
and its my fault that i did everything i did to you

but if you didnt jump conclusions i think wed be cool
split my body armor when you uncovered the truth
i drank that that poison every night
didn’t have nun to lose
not much else to do
like now that i can’t fall asleep
ur the only thing in my thoughts I miss all the dreams
it was nice that I escaped my sick reality
but now i gotta go right back to find my inner peace 

i talk a lot about you i dont think you think of me

i checked my vitals and my heart is beating beautifully 

and im so sorry when you call i know you gon hear the beep
and its my fault that i did everything i did to you

but if you didnt jump conclusions i think wed be cool
split my body armor when you uncovered the truth
i drank that that poison every night
didn’t have nun to lose
not much else to do
like now that i can’t fall asleep

now that I can’t fall asleep (secre)

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

turning shepherd into flock, he's bare and punching out the clock
and left it's hands a ten and two, and of it's bell, a copper blue
if it's the best that it can do, to buy him, should he re-coop
the inner portions have been warping, while his skeletal is looped

girl, i'm only a fractional gland to the tanner
organic of matter, in service of hazard
with the spirit coaxed in snot, they steal his crops, then send him off
the palpatations sign alignment that the collar had been popped
so watch him flee into trees where he is deemed a foreign beast
and of it's fauna, granted ease, 
the runic symbolism breathes
but as the phoenix tucks it's wings, the animosity is sworn
the creatures force him to a corner, as the ritual repeats

but most invited are divided by the drink
some evoke and others physically impede
but fuck it, i'm dunking my soul in elixirs
and ripping up scriptures they told me to read
evading persuasion of linear staging, 
you think in equation from playing campaign
i remember you had felt what i be
chrysalis tethered, eternally green

and she was lock and key, to his belief
internal leak is running deep and sinking streets
cold and heat have come to meet, releasing steam
but that peace is soon to cease, 
and he's deceased

turning sheperd into flock, he's bare and punching out the clock
and left it's hands a ten and two, and of it's bell, a copper blue
if it's the best that it can do, to buy him, should he re-coop
the inner portions have been warping, while his skeletal is looped

grace period betrayal (branwen)

made 3 years ago so i’m dropping it by itself instead of in the collab ep 💕 s/o @user-411557229

nowadays ion go out
city look like a ghost town
3 digits on the dash
check my phone for the comedown
how it feel to be alone now

if i keep it down, never make a sound
call log empty but the bottle aint
staying quiet now, yet this silence loud
left the read receipts on my overlay
then act surprised when friends gotta leave
fuck it never said that you had to stay
in fact better yet fuckin hit the books
cuz it’s nothin left 2 say n drugs to take

she told me hop off the adderall
we just not meant to be after all
i’ll be somewhere in the night time
cause ur not urself when there’s alcohol
i got sum thoughts i aint said yet
swear this codeine got me touchin sunsets
i got purple stains all in the bedspread
and i’ll be by myself till i drop dead
baby i’ll get back 2 you in the morning
i know to you that my life ain’t important
took away shit that was making me numb
blade drip my blood and it paint in the portrait
nowadays when it’s dark out
see ur face with the same doubt
leave that bitch in the past
and leave my name out of ur mouth

nowadays ion go out
city look like a ghost town
3 digits on the dash
check my phone for the comedown
how it feel to be alone now

spectre w/ residential.

in order <3 prod nevrfall
@breckenford
@user-642636378
@kiddamo
@notaheroo
@notcursed
@alex-thomas-fox

hurt (w/ brecken, halfhearted, kiddamo, notahero, notcursed, vails) (nevrfall)

hello? ... [nm4evr] (prod. branwen) what does it mean to truly feel safe

i can’t help but blank stare
when in your crosshairs
cus “life ain’t fair”
and she didn’t want me there 
when we’re on facetime 
she’s rolls her hazel eyes
cus she don’t care 
she didn’t wanna be there 
in the first place 

don’t promise me - i know you’ll break it
on my knees im begging 
cus i want you there
but you’re somewhere else 
she said “boy that praying won’t save this
when you fall don’t blame the pavement”
okay well fuck you then 
cus i’m good right here 

did you hear that?
she said don’t blame the pavement 
when i fall like that’s hilarious !!!!!!!
baby tell me all your favourites
i’ll put em in a playlist and keep it there with us
you want crazy? i’ll show you crazy
i’ll pull up on your friends and i’ll fucking bury em
i’ll lock you in this plain white room and when we go out they can’t help but stare at us 

i can’t help but blank stare
when in your crosshairs
cus “life ain’t fair”
and she didn’t want me there 
when we’re on face time 
she’s rolls her hazel eyes
cus she don’t care 
she didn’t wanna be there 
in the first place 
x2