induratize

a sacrifice bittersweet 
that’s what mortality means 
and that’s what you did to me 
so i don’t want a meaning at all
i don’t wanna fall in love 
i won’t allow it 
cloud nine baby all my thoughts 
are clouded now 
he all talk he ain’t bout it 
twitter fingers but i put my money 
where my mouth is 
dreams and respirations what i dream of 
basics and examples what you’re made of 
i won’t fall a victim to the fate so 
we won’t ever be the fuckin same.

meaning.

( i love you ) 

ima hide my voice 
that’s how ima hide the pain yeah 
remnants of myself they keep 
spilling out the container 
and i can’t contain it yeah 
no i can’t contain it 
and this like the fifth time 
that i realized i don’t know myself 
and even if i did i cant live right 
without your help
if i can’t breathe your air 
then i don’t want it 
been thinking bout the other me 
i fuckin lost em 
and i know i can’t commit to shit 
that’s who i am yeah 
i hyperventilate when nobody’s around yeah 
and nobody’s around 
i’m better in the ground

compulsive.

prod. blanx

lyrics: 
step back i'll do all the talkin
if you gave me my respect 
then i'd let you all in no stallin
don't wanna face this world
pray for me darling 
the way i feel 
dont wanna reconcile on the 
past when he left my home
i just keep making these beats
cause i feel alone 
i don't wanna do this shit anymore.

isolate

Get back 
I don’t want nobody who could make me feel like that 
“Don’t Call”
In your contacts 
You left your prescriptions 
Now you’re coming over, a contradiction 
But really we not new to it 

Last time you was telling me I talk to much about it 
Now you’re telling me to say sum’n?
If it’s not a problem 
You gon make one 
Tryna start it over
Selling page one 

Not coming back
Funny as hell
Hoping you enjoy yourself 
Now you outside screaming 
I don’t need your help
Now you outside 
Hoping you not lost without it 

Baby I don’t wanna be your lover
You don’t really want no love 
Tryna work it out I doubt it 
You not showing out enough 
All we do is, screaming, shouting 
Baby have we danced enough?
You can see it all surrounding 
I just had to beat your punch 

Who that, who you taking me (for)
Bad line, whatchu say to me 
Long nights, she won’t wait for me
Sweet talker, you savory
I can’t keep fighting myself 
I see you crying as well

and I could sit around 
But I’m better than you told me
It ain’t a problem being lonely 
I tow the line with myself 
And cut the ties with you 
I ain’t walking back to this hell 

I was lying whichu 
Told me I’m a bastard
That’s how you felt 
You say you hate getting mad and baby
We couldn’t tell 
You telling me I’m the problem really
You shouldn’t yell
Preeing ya hands at the table baby
That’s show and tell

Who that, who you taking me (for)
Bad line, whatchu say to me 
Long nights, she won’t wait for me
Sweet talker, you savory
I can’t keep fighting myself 
I see you crying as well

savory (KBL)

coprod @31sentinel
guitar by @billsburyjoeboi


LYRICS:

Can you show a little bit of sympathy
Or something please?
I need it
I think I lost my aim, reeling, feeling defeated
I guess I'll write another song and delete it
Because it isn't all what's meant to be 
I just feel like it ain't me, staring at a screen
Falling from the mezzanine I hope it make me bleed

Batter up I'm bad enough to die
Saddled up and shattered I'm alive
Things don't change no matter how I try
Run away before I fade tonight

I need a therapy release to get blessed with peace, I plead
One shot and I'm down on my knees again
Can you show a little sympathy

Exhaustion runs through my lungs 
Selfishness, it's all for fun 
All humility is gone
So I'll find a way to be fine 
Wish you'd show a little more kindness 
Cause now your animosity's blinding 
Affection doesn't always need guidance 
With two sides, you'll always be biased 
Into me, the need is flowing
Sympathy, you never show it 
It's sad enough, commitment isn't mine
It's adding up, I'm bad enough to die

Batter up I'm bad enough to die
Saddled up and shattered I'm a lie
Things don't change no matter how I try
Run away before I fade tonight

Put another face on and my body in the back-seat
Hold it on my hip, so a buddy couldn't blast me 
Keep it under lid, till my sons get the best of me 
Hold my heart in a hearse like it's meant to be

And you just couldn't believe how
Couldn't believe how I got it back

And you just couldn't believe how I got it all back
I need a new life cause of overreactions, it's
All strife since the day that you left 
I said I wish I knew a way to get the cold off my breath

Batter up I'm bad enough to die
Saddled up and shattered I'm alive
Things don't change no matter how I try
Run away before I fade tonight

SYMPATHY

SYMPATHY (feat. Dylan Longworth)

fwb(cover)

(prod. blank)
guitar loop: rjpasin
lyrics: 
when i let you in
didnt know id lose my head again
step back see the whole world fall on me
its all my fault not who i wanna be
and i swear
you wanted something else
dont wanna talk about it
just be by myself
and its over now but i cant regret it
things that you said in my head
never left it rent free down in my head
been stuck for a while now
gave up my home and
i stayed home for a while
tried to cope
but it didnt work im all out of hope
when i let you in
didnt know id end up here again
the seasons change up
filled with karma
is my debt all paid up yet?
and have you taken enough?
ive been shaken up
ive been breaking down
its pulling me apart
and ive faken enough
i dont wanna bluff anymore its hard
but i see now
my smile was your touch
i lose breath with no lungs
and these warm summer months
been cold since you gone
woke up new epiphany
i see what you did to me
i was fucked up mentally
but all i needed was amenity oh
when i let you in
didnt know id lose my head again
step back see the whole world fall on me
its all my fault not who i wanna be 
and i swear
you have to find who you are
it's time to let go.
you fell out of reach
summers been passing time through the breeze and
in my head i plead
someone to save me don't wanna end up stuck in a daze
stare at a daw just to feel anything
bring all my hopes up, tearing em down
no one can hear me despite all the sounds
and i can't move on
you said be honest so ill just say it
i hate myself got no replacement
so im here, stuck between these ears
while avoiding every mirror
avoiding all my peers
and i've felt this way for years
and i see it so clearly
i was falling you ain't even talk to me
doesn't matter now
can't regret it now
or make it better now
don't regret it now.