The thirteen sessions - Crumbs pass

I made this, produced by @halberd-3000
Mixed by @Tylasno
Coverart by @remo_raps

She loves me, but I don't love her back
Should I, feel awkward or even feel bad
I got girls at my neck tryna get me check
But I don't care I fell in love with my bad
What should I say I'm, tempted just to humor her anyway
Gotta feeling I'll go on a date with her but then decay
So am I evil or childish? I'm confused at the subject
To play the game is a crime, and I'm afraid to be a suspect
It's easy when you think about it
feelings bloom but for me it's forever winter
My soul is frozen and broken, my body north december
See it's not irrational, I'm just afraid of heartbreak
And if anything mutual feelings are kinda startling
I'm, cupids narcoleptic fall in love easy as I fall asleep
And it's not hard to get a love song flowing outta me
So it's not you it's me I promise I'm just shy and overlooked
I wrote a verse instead of telling you I'm feeling kinda shook

She loves me, what did I do to deserve you
you're just a muse that makes me make tunes
I'm heartless, know that I'm sorry regardless
I'm just a fool don't mean to be cruel

Guess I'm acting like a tsundere
I'm soon to pay for the moves you made into fooling me
And to be honest I'm just tired of foolery
I pray that either you and i are soon to be we
Or at least we freeze all the talks of the breeze and other topics
I keep a guard of my heart but you just brought lock picks
Stop it, Imma beautiful loser guess I cover it up with a douche
I'm just afraid of how I could treat you when I'm the one you chose

She loves me, but I'm heartless... I'm just a fool

Heartless (prod. halberd)

prod.@glutenfreebeats

lyrics by @youknowlimbo
and @jalentyree

Halo

cast a spell~

voodoo ft Limbo(prod. gfbeats)

Listen on Spotify here: https://open.spotify.com/track/49Q8TIMlAhkWItGCT9HlFC?si=1QKaT78NTsCib64mJ8WOHw

Written, produced and recorded by me.  Same with the flute.

Lyrics:
You are the type of girl that's open about everything
I have a hard enough time relaying my feelings
It's not a good idea to tell you how I feel 'bout you
Break everything and separate us is the only thing it would do

*Chorus*
You'll never find out (2x)
what goes through my head when you pass by
or the feelings in my chest when you say hi
or when you talk about your day and i talk about mine
You'll never find out (2x)
All the sad nights you put me through
Cause I know I'll never have a chance with you
but I know there's nothing that I'll ever do
**

I try to take these thoughts and throw them all away
Because there's no point in feeling emotion if it ruins your day
Even if I wanted your love, I don't want the fallout
I'd rather feel nothing at all than feel like i'm falling down

*chorus*

You'll Never Find Out

Lyrics
yo walking down the street i think i see you
a bit intimidating but i think i wanna meet you
and so thats when i start to wave, lockin eyes and being brave, 
to garner the attention of a angel thats flying away
yeah and my breath starts to get shallow 
i think of all the things to say and greet instead of hello
dont want to be a simple guy with simple charming points
so simplistic yet so complex i dont wanna disappoint
cus youre that type of girl that seems so far away
i wanna close the distance but i dont know what to say
like hey, hello, how are you and things of that nature
please dont be suspicious i dont wanna be a stranger
uh
excuse me miss i dont meant to take youre time
i wanna be with you forever tell me am i out of line?
youre so divine, beauty that just cant exist
its so sublime, you leave me in a state of bliss

uh and so I mellow, i chill out to the sound of rain
drink coffee, its espresso
im used to macchiato, or a passion fuit tea
im nervous while i say this but would you get some coffee with me
i see a smile, then i see her lips part
stood still like a statue, be mistaken for a piece of art
now this start of a brand new weekday
yeah this the start where im calling you my new bae
cus you the star shining down onto a good day
yeah you the star i be moving to on my way
my repetoire makes me seem like im a star
a modern day magician i amaze with playing cards uh
im looking at the scene i feel and then i bounce back
im quicker witted than i used to now i kick back
dont be surprised when im looking in your eyes 
to see what kind of face you make and makeup you apply
i spy your hands on the table so i reach out
and hold them tightly in my hands so you dont pout
i wouldnt mind being stranded with you 
at a coffee shop in winter with some coffee for two yuh

Coffee Shop (Prod. Iruka)

mr. brightside.

The rocks on the bottom are cold when you first touch. 
Been on ‘em so long, it doesn’t bother me so much. 
I wake up and salvage what I can of my dreams 
before I splash some water onto my mood and have to leave. 
I take a step out, breathe. Sigh to release the pressure.
Physically, I’m present but my eyes keep tryna exit 
out the window. Picture myself anywhere but here. 
Need to turn off autopilot and remember I can steer 
but my floorboards creak. 
I haven’t had a normal conversation in like a week. 
Just “No, I don’t need a bag,” 
and “Thanks for swiping my card,” 
then try to get out as fast as I can 'fore I need to talk. 
Hurry the walk back before my body falls apart. 
Drop down onto my bed like why did I even start. 
As I slip back into slumber, I wonder 
where the why of it's all gone.
I keep coming back ‘cause I've been going so long.

The more I learn, 
the less I feel I know it.
Feelin’ like the less you know, 
the more I feel alright.
But somethin’ ‘bout that voice I hear reminds me 
that it’s only the beginning tonight.

I wanna write a love song but I can’t 
‘cause I can’t be around a girl without apologizing in advance 
for all the mistakes that I haven’t made, 
problems I haven’t caused. 
I self sabotage before I even get a chance to offer 
my hand in yours on a romantic walk through a national park.
I’d give you half of my heart if I wasn’t standing so far,
if I didn’t flash up my guard automatically 
when actually, I’d trade every star in the galaxy 
if it meant that the gravity 
couldn’t grab you and steal you away.
I just wish I had a reason to be feeling this way.
I just wish I had an address to send these letters to. 
‘Stead I fold them into airplanes, 
throw them and hope that they get to you. 
I wanna fall so you can catch me.
Cry into each other’s arms until it passes. 
I wish I could say that I’ll make you happy but I can’t.
I’ll try to figure out how ‘til I get the chance.

The more I learn, 
the less I feel I know it.
Feelin’ like the less you know, 
the more I feel alright.
But somethin’ ‘bout that voice I hear reminds me 
that it’s only the beginning to life.

Tears don’t mean a thing in the pouring rain.
I ain’t got nothin’ to lose. I got it all to gain.

the more i learn [prod. by mr. master]

If you're tryna talk shit you should date my ex

Date My Ex

i wish... (prod. elijah who)

A song I wrote a while back when I was all angsty and shit that I finally got around to recording.

Lyrics:
I don’t wanna go through this
I think I’m just gonna kick back and let my mind drift
I don’t really have any time for this shit
I wanna isolate myself, I feel real irrelevant 

Why do I wanna please anyone I need to just have fun but I don’t wanna feel lonesome

Currently pondering, wandering, wondering, why I jack off to the point where there’s no cum

I hate existing, crying for help since the beginning, yet I’m still persisting, making snaps when no ones even listening 

Fuck it, 
(chorus) x2     

I was damaged
But I’ll manage
I’ll micromanage my life 

Grant it, something goes wrong
I’ll leave the planet, vanished- so long, bye-bye

Fuck it man, you’re out of your mind if you really think I value my life
Mind is dreaming through the whole day, nightmares keep me up at night

I am more than gone, just have a look at one of my songs
Fuck the web, fuck my friends, fuck you for sticking around this long

I’m feeling nauseous     
My mind’s in this constant process
Conscious of worrying people and doing nothing to stop this

Fuck it

(Chorus) x3

Hey vaughn, what’s up you preachy hypocrite
Brushing people off but then advising them like you know shit

You don’t know anything, it’s been a whole year and you still bring her up
On top of that, you’re breaking hearts but play victim, you’re fucked up

Tell your friends you wanna die
and then schedule your suicide
But on Instagram you lie
And say you made it up the whole time

When you made your friends cry
And you say you do this cause you’re bored
Well guess what my guy
You don’t deserve friends anymore

You don’t deserve a fucking audience applauding shit you narcissist 
You need some help, but you’re too stubborn to take a step back and face all of this 

Maybe just jump off a bridge, you’re not an artist but a coward bitch, I’d love to see you powerless, it’s your fault for starting this

You don’t get into fights with people you just take it out on yourself
maybe you should take a break and call someone or maybe get some help
Instead of making people your whole world and leaving them in hell
Man fuck you, you pull shit over people just so they can’t tell

if you’re joking or serious 
Driving everyone delirious 
Stop being such a fucking dick
Hey vaughn are you hearing this

of course you’re not
Cause one incident caused a chain reaction
You’ve grown anxious
And forget how you used to get people laughing

But you remember how you used to scream loud
Talk shit about people to the same people you’ve talked shit about
I propose a solution that I think is best
stop fucking over other people just because you can’t get over your ex- man!

I deserve to go through this
This time next year I’ll make sure I don’t exist 
I don’t really have any time for this shit
Maybe I should just go ahead and end it-

I don't wanna go through this

thank you for your patience :)
prod. by @weirddough
ft. @alysmsc
mixed by @ibr
art by @em_ka 

Lyrics:
[annotations at https://genius.com/Zamir-flowers-in-my-soul-lyrics]
flowers, flowers in my soul 
see the way they're blooming so
flowers, flowers in my soul
all they need is room to grow 
(x2)

she was really quite the rose, all those seeds that she had sown 
within the garden of his heart turned to trees when they had grown 
and each one had its own little solitary heart
that was bleeding all along where it was carved into the bark
and written there inside
permanent but superficial, their initials were inscribed
it was the simplest of times, they were young and foolish
her two lips were as beautiful as budding tulips
irises bright as irises when he’d look into them
she was a flower blooming
she was a cherry blossom, he thought she was very awesome
ironic how he decided to fall for her in the autumn
he thought she would never leave, that their love was evergreen
but, but it wasn’t, winter came
still thinks about her, no other flower has been the same
no, no other flower has been the same
it’s a shame, it's a shame, it's a... shame

flowers, flowers in my soul
see the way they're blooming so
flowers, flowers in my soul
all they need is room to grow 
(x2)

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flowers in my soul w/ Alys (prod. by weirddough)

collab i did with @paradise97music. mix and mastered by @halberd-3000 , and artwork by @collidingwithmars .

GO SHOW SOME LOVE FOR THIS ON YOUTUBE -> www.youtube.com/watch?v=8cO8OlgsW70

LYRICS
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I knew a kid, from out in the banks, he was,
A little quiet, didn’t think too much, about it,
He’d sit alone at lunch, and throughout it, he would,
Be solely focused on his book he wouldn’t go without it,

I wondered what words he might write down,
Cos’ words are more important when they’re not typed out,
On the cover he had drawn a pretty girl in a white gown,
And if the book got soaked when it rained then she might drown

And all those other boys well they don’t like him,
They think he’s strange cos he dresses like a viking,
And anything he’d say they would put a spike in,
His vampires heart and strike it down like lightning.

As the days go on, he’s dressed in black,
Avoiding thinking about having to go back,
Home, is not where his heart is, plaque,
His mother only remembered on the wall on a rack,

And his dad has been a little angry ever since,
Has too many unhappy happy hours to convince,
Himself, he’s okay, all the bruises, he presses, on his child's body, takes away, some pain, just a little bit.

He’s done -

The kid snaps it all off so clean,
He’s ready to act out whats been playing in his dreams,
He’s ready for these people to be running make them scream,
Once he’s done it all only then can he be free,

He stops buy his uncles to pick up the gat,
Shoots his uncle in the chest and then shoots the cat,
Turns around the corner and goes back to his dads,
Hits him on the head and shoots him through his cap.

I don't wanna go through this

blendtastic