performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

[mental]
i could never hate u
doesnt matter what u do
i know that u hate me
usually i hate me too
tired of complaining
but idk what else to do
tired of explaining
every wrong move i choose

feels like ive lost every reason
nobody else to believe in
think ive got too many secrets
so i keep sleeping and dreaming
that once for a change i could feel something else
and it pains me to stay with the cards ive been dealt
i could keep moving forwards and look for some help
but id rather exist with just u and myself <3

[blxty]
so bby tell me what hits harder den my words
i'm sick n tired of explaining so u first
i still cant find it so i cant tell u my worth
so bby would tell me would u feel the same..
if u were hurt
Like wud it work?
wud u find me useful?
or wud i b like dirt?
and maybe it's just a process
One that i can not process
bang my head n the wall
and u wont tell me i lost it
pls jus tell me i lost it

https://open.spotify.com/album/5dkyRFb1yJPEI0MDEtQi8v?si=7obS22PkQE-X6LH4oxsTHA

after you feat blxty

ty for the bday wishes :)
@mental
@15elias

[blxty]
wake up~~ cant look at myself in the mirror
so done my reflection is never clear
there's noway! i can tell u why i'm shedding tears
there's noway! i can tell u that ur what i fear

[mental]
ohhh i dont wanna see whats next
whole life ive been a walking L
i dont think ur my friend
i was down i had to save myself
and u make me choose
cause u hate me too
not dead but im close to the option
no life easily forgotten

[blxty]
let the vines come consume you
you can't run from your fears
you can try to close your eyes
but that wont save you here

mirror ft. mental (elias x mental)

so yea
@twikipedia
@sanriorose 
@curtainss







































so silly silly

so sad ft. twikipedia (dolly & curtains)

@blackwinterwells
@quannnic
@litothedon

[blxty]
off all night u tell me stories
at my brink jump off 10 stories
i'm so lost can call me dory 🐟
stab me in my chest omori v-v

i'm so obsessed
i fall asleep
yet somehow you still flawless me
i know i'll still have troubles in the next stage
stuck up in my headspace
wish that i could fly away,,
from you.... . .. .
i know it's hard 
but realize i need you
i know it's good for me
but not for you

[wells]
what am i to do
close my eyes im leaving you
in the dust we're done im through
though i wish it wasnt
true
i've had enough of you
i don't know what to do
still dreaming about you

no i dont need my heart back
yeah i know its all used up
im devoid of all my love
not that i ever had much
but i still miss your touch
you made me feel so loved
but now you fucked me up
and it hurts way too

lost ft. blackwinterwells (quannnic x lito)

blxty [@blxty]
secre [ @bluudd]

yeah
got a couple bands up in my pocket
bet u already knew cus u pocket watchin
how u at 10k and ur songs be floppin
i unload the k now ur body floppin

baby i'm in love with bands
baby g-star on my pants
baby would u take a chance
yeah
baby sorry in advance
i showed her all my brands 
now she takin off my pants

yeah yeah yeah yeah

if u fw me jus say yeah yeah yeah
im in luv w g's at the bank like ha ha ha
u think im a joke im like ha ha ha
she blowin me kisses my shawty bad bad bad
im wearin this shit u never had had had

blxty - i <3 bands (secre)

hellooo light music

@mental

[blxty]
i can't remember last night
blinded by the black light 
we jus took a sharp left 
like baby i don't feel right
i just wanna see you 
hop onto the next flight
everything is okay
tell me that it's alright

and now it's over
i was thinking i should try but i don't owe her
and now i'm older
shoulda recognized you make me feel colder
take the weight and the pressure
off my shoulders

[mental]
its been a minute since i felt like i was in love
cant confess its too hard for me to speak up
hate me more than any one u think of
i dont wanna be me why they wanna be us

dont think that i bleed enough
for my mistakes
every single promise that u made
u love to break
ya im hurt but ima act okay
lay on the pavement
look at me i glance away
dont wanna face it

i can feel the tears i try not to cry
wasted all my time why do i even try
said that i was fine but rly its a lie
hate it when we fight
wish it was alright

im not even started but i feel like being done
and maybe its my fault that i end up feeling dumb
u got caught up in ur pride wish this wasnt how it was
i got lost inside my mind i just cant stop feeling numb

alright ft. mental (mental)

everything by me @mental

new day but same pain
i know some things never change
look @ this place
see the smile on my face
it gets erased
all the things that shouldve stayed
all got replaced
thats why i dont trust when u say those words
thats why i dont love cause my heart just burns
running out of luck yea i might be cursed
nothing ever felt like itd make this worse
but u seemed so sure

thats why i dont feel the damage
thats why every time i look my heart stops
thats why every time we kiss my heart breaks
in the back of my mind im still pissed off
tell me what i did, did i kiss wrong?
i dont wanna sing if its this song
ive never felt one day this off (x2)

and it felt like u were right
i forgot the way to sleep
so i thought bout u all night
and i thought at least u tried
but i figured out u lied
im just resting in the sky

erased

@kiryano
@jjaholics @pray4solo

[blx]
every time we talk she's just tearing my heart out
oh you love me well.. show me you love me then
i start every morning just puking my guts out
shouldn't have thought of you i shouldn't breathe again

oh you love me well,, tell me you love me then
oh you'd cry for me,, go ahead start crying then
why do you mess with me mess with my heart again
and my heart is saying i don't want love again

love again ft. kiryano (jj x solo)

instagram.com/melodramalovestory
@heroz2299
@rewind214

thousand things i wna say to u 
but there's oceans between us two 
love always  seems to come out the blue 
me or him girl u gotta chose 
ohh i can tell when i see u 
ik that fell dont wna lose u 
all the words i say do they get thru
x2

i cant get away pull on my heart 
its my favorite melody 
when u told me how u felt i felt insane 
is this real am i living in a dream 
can u say it one more time 
bc i havent heard those words before 
blush when u walk in the door 
yea u know i js want more

tell me if its fate 
when i saw u my heart melted 
but ur out of my league 
between me and u 
ur love put me in a coma 
yea i love the aroma
hit my phone ill pick up 

one call away
will u meet me next sunday 
ive been wondering all day
if im wrong js stop me 

but i think we could be sm more than we are 
circle small so dont act like u knew 
boyfriend mad cause she show more love 2 me 
wind tmr is the same as today 
i could wait here ok 
however long it takes

spotify

love always seems to come out the blue (heroz rewind)

lyrics:

i've been staring at the mirror all day
something different 
there's something different about my face
spitting image
all i'm spitting is some flame
and you know that i'm in pain all the time but it's okay

i just wanna flex so hard i pass away

i don't know what else to do
when i'm alone up in my room
all i think about is you
i can sense impending doom
i can feel it coming soon

spitting image (yukiii + etai s0)

aura (odel x elias)

Instagram

human face mask (shinju)

@qqqu1ncy
yuppp ty for the support lately <3

she wont call me 😐😔 (qqqu1ncy)

instagram

best of me (sense)

https://open.spotify.com/track/30qOE3LSUCmV2ImcHJzjFF?si=m8xQlUZvRem3OTc2BMHoew

@kuraiiii
@176s

[lyrics]
im stressed u help me calm down
still i cant let my guard down
my heart always gets knocked down
so i keep it in lockdown

u make me calm down (you make me believe in me)
im still in lockdown tho
cant let my guard down (you make me believe in myself)
cause u might knock me down

free me
take me away
love, u
cant say the same
im trapped
inside my brain
hate almost
every day

u make me feel a lil bit better
when im down and under the weather
i can come to u for attention
hope u know u hold me together

protect prod sense & kurai

@0rch_id
@mental
@mkne
@1vessel

[blxty]
i'm a nuisance
always crying in my room over some bullshit
how u feel bb i can see right thru it
how u want me even when i'm foolish
make me psycho i think imma lose it

[orchid]
make me syko i'm on my bloodpop bitch
clean the claws and i go back on some brute shit
looking at me copy on my newness
keep your head down looking like a student

step up out the maison in my margielas
i cant really blame u looking at me jealous
i just blew a tabi check on some ma+
i'm not cold anymore in my homme plus

[mental]
i wanna give up lots
i dont give enough thoughts
guess we'll have to pick up
wherever we left off
dont think i'll continue
look at everything u set off
whenever i'm with u
i can feel my heart stop

i dont have the patience for ur lies
goin thru a lot but i been tryin
i got memories back when u were mine
everything u say it reminds

mirror ft. mental (elias x mental)

blxty

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