next2u (emorave)

ty for the bday wishes :)
@mental
@15elias

[blxty]
wake up~~ cant look at myself in the mirror
so done my reflection is never clear
there's noway! i can tell u why i'm shedding tears
there's noway! i can tell u that ur what i fear

[mental]
ohhh i dont wanna see whats next
whole life ive been a walking L
i dont think ur my friend
i was down i had to save myself
and u make me choose
cause u hate me too
not dead but im close to the option
no life easily forgotten

[blxty]
let the vines come consume you
you can't run from your fears
you can try to close your eyes
but that wont save you here

mirror ft. mental (elias x mental)

#us #wip
credits:
@haveonlyonechance
@ogpichu

intro from love is war 

[hook]
is it my fault
if u dont care anymore
shes making me blush
and i just stare at the floor
knew it was coming felt it in my core
asked u if u still like me u said not anymore
2x

[verse]
you said i would be hard to forget
you knew a different me, way back then
i cant take back things i said
but i still remember the day that we met
i put my life into you
it was all for nothing
i put my time into you
wish i got away with something

bridge from kaguya as well :P

hook repeat yup

spotify

my fault (tenoji)

hellooo light music

@mental

[blxty]
i can't remember last night
blinded by the black light 
we jus took a sharp left 
like baby i don't feel right
i just wanna see you 
hop onto the next flight
everything is okay
tell me that it's alright

and now it's over
i was thinking i should try but i don't owe her
and now i'm older
shoulda recognized you make me feel colder
take the weight and the pressure
off my shoulders

[mental]
its been a minute since i felt like i was in love
cant confess its too hard for me to speak up
hate me more than any one u think of
i dont wanna be me why they wanna be us

dont think that i bleed enough
for my mistakes
every single promise that u made
u love to break
ya im hurt but ima act okay
lay on the pavement
look at me i glance away
dont wanna face it

i can feel the tears i try not to cry
wasted all my time why do i even try
said that i was fine but rly its a lie
hate it when we fight
wish it was alright

im not even started but i feel like being done
and maybe its my fault that i end up feeling dumb
u got caught up in ur pride wish this wasnt how it was
i got lost inside my mind i just cant stop feeling numb

alright ft. mental (mental)

its not what it seems w/ lyn

You lookin real stupid

hit you in your heart
Yea well that’s just how we do it

fw us, elevate we going shooting

youre a bitch and we all already knew it 

make myself bleed thinkin I might die
cause ion rlly give a fuck about my life

off a pill you can see it in my eyes
Blood shot, fucked up til the sunrise

you cant hang with us so keep it down
like fuck that bitch thinkin bout it make me frown

everybody know my name like im the baddest bitch around
you my kids, yeah nobody wanna learn so just sit down

you got me feelin suicidal 
say youre the new wave but bitch you aint no tidal  🌊 😔

Heart (negative.creeper & eczotic)

@terastic
@negativecreeper

[arid]
yea i left my heart open needa lock it
left behind guess i was the target
tryna get to u but im not far yet
i dont think u see my scars yet
i dont wanna stay
only feel the pain
i feel locked in my brain
i dont need u girl i just needa find my way

[tera]
locked up inside my brain
i stay by myself do this shit my own way
said u wanna talk i tell u not today
its left in the past i think u should go away
tears falling on my t shirt
if i could js go back in the past yea i wouldnt wanna meet her
hittin my phone yea i think she need a beeper
drink too much ima sip a couple liters
ima tell her that its over
im not gonna be there if you need a shoulder to cry on
and i think u need some composure
gotta go away so i cant be the one u rely on

scars w tera prod tera + negative.creeper

Splatter

(prodheavn)
@blackwinterwells
https://app.matter.online/tracks/67750

Stream

end it +blackwinterwells

@0rch_id
@odel007

[blxty]
maybe i'm not the bad guy
but i'm awful
keep it all inside
put my feelings in a bottle
moving too fast full throttle
guess that's what i get for being thoughtful

i can't even see right now messed up
how am i gonna walk when i can't get up
in the hall i'm a student
lights off watch your whole movement
and you treat me like a bad guy
gotta keep my head high
everyone on standby
nobody to stand by
gotta keep a hold of myself
if i would've let go, you would have fell

[orchid]
push the bullshit into my head
never listen to what u said
check the bullshit into my head
never listen to what you
oh i felt like i tried so hard
but its never enough or a little bit too much
im bleeding from my eyes in the ceiling
cut my skin like its peeling 
heartbeat pull it out my chest
see? crush it into mess
we never really meant
i rip open your legs
meat eat it oh so fresh
bleed run myself to death
see? aint it oh so blessed?
she opened up my head

awful ft. orchid (odel)

a compilation of thoughts
prod me

yea i got it
fuckin round with synths till i drop dead
unkempt ;; unsaid 
i dont even talk 2 her
i dont even fuck wit her
she dont even follow me on twitter 
(x2)
 
they say dont cry dont stop
they say keep tryin till ur at the fuckin top

n theyre trying 2 bring me down
talk down on my name wait whats that sound? its a bithc (xd)

but ima keep it 10 toes down
i dont mind u around :D

yea i got it
fuckin round with synths till i drop dead
unkempt ;; unsaid 
i dont even talk 2 her
i dont even fuck wit her
she dont even follow me on twitter 
(x2)