my heart still hurts but its alright when he tells me its alright

This has been stuck in my head fo half a year

i can’t remember last night blinded by a bright light

coming back to genres i used to like is so fun

performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

[mental]
i could never hate u
doesnt matter what u do
i know that u hate me
usually i hate me too
tired of complaining
but idk what else to do
tired of explaining
every wrong move i choose

feels like ive lost every reason
nobody else to believe in
think ive got too many secrets
so i keep sleeping and dreaming
that once for a change i could feel something else
and it pains me to stay with the cards ive been dealt
i could keep moving forwards and look for some help
but id rather exist with just u and myself <3

[blxty]
so bby tell me what hits harder den my words
i'm sick n tired of explaining so u first
i still cant find it so i cant tell u my worth
so bby would tell me would u feel the same..
if u were hurt
Like wud it work?
wud u find me useful?
or wud i b like dirt?
and maybe it's just a process
One that i can not process
bang my head n the wall
and u wont tell me i lost it
pls jus tell me i lost it

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she's just an apparition
i'll play the cards i'm given,
skin still itching.
(uh) keep living,
how come when im still kicking,
im the villain?
evil, woah, villain
she don't know, villain

and i look in her eyes
and i just see a lie,
see the ghost of a smile
while i'm watching her cry, wondering why
nothing to live for, nowhere to die
look at the sky, stars in a flight
i just want love, guess it isn't my time

she's just an apparition
i'll play the cards i'm given,
skin still itching.
(uh) keep living,
how come when im still kicking,
im the villain?
evil, woah, villain
she don't know, villain

i guess im the villain
gotta build my resistance
its a haunting existence
cause im the villain

evil, woah, villain
she don't know, villain

villain

villain (shishy/souls)

#us #wip
credits:
@haveonlyonechance
@ogpichu

intro from love is war 

[hook]
is it my fault
if u dont care anymore
shes making me blush
and i just stare at the floor
knew it was coming felt it in my core
asked u if u still like me u said not anymore
2x

[verse]
you said i would be hard to forget
you knew a different me, way back then
i cant take back things i said
but i still remember the day that we met
i put my life into you
it was all for nothing
i put my time into you
wish i got away with something

bridge from kaguya as well :P

hook repeat yup

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my fault (tenoji)

engineered by me
produced by me, waifu, and malikai 
featuring miraie
art by @cryinggsilence


[Hook: kuru]
You know I woke up and got me some cash
Now I'm headed back to sleep
Nah, I ain't really tryna clash
I'm just really tryna geek
Nah, I ain't even gotta try
I'm up and you broke and you cheap
And you know I almost died
But you know that this ain't Angel Beats
But you know, we on go, we on go forever
But you know, we on go, we gon shine forever
But you know, we on go, we on go forever
But you know, we finna glow, we gon shine forever

[Verse: kuru]
You know that I'm bored so I'm taking like trip to trip to state to state 
I don't really wanna hear you speak 'cause I got too much on my plate
I don't wanna speak to you no I won't conversate
I don't like to talk to clones I swear you're all the same
I swear you're all the same but I still got too much to say 
I go 180 on the freeway I might have to pray
Got my heart broke like Otonashi now I stay astray
No matter what the fuck they on I'll always stay the same

[Verse: miraie]
I'll stay the same, stay the same, but will my fate change anyway?
I can't say, that my future stay the same, lame
Think twice before you act cause life is not a game
It's a shame, I can't seem to remember yet I miss your name
I need an angel just like Tachibana Kanade
I lost my heart and kissed a girl who looks like Sanae
I still regret about it, feel like it was yesterday
Just to find out that you're just another bird of prey
[Bridge: kuru & miraie]
I'm way too tired can't fix my mistakes
But I can't give into the hate yet
They always tell me to go take break
But I ain't even choose own my fate yet
Losing my sanity, trapped in this world, I'm lost on real and fake
I own my destiny, no shit no lame no coffee break

[Hook: kuru]
You know I woke up and got me some cash
Now I'm headed back to sleep
Nah, I ain't really tryna clash
I'm just really tryna geek
Nah, I ain't even gotta try
I'm up and you broke and you cheap
And you know I almost died
But you know that this ain't Angel Beats
But you know, we on go, we on go forever
But you know, we on go, we gon shine forever
But you know, we on go, we on go forever
But you know, we finna glow, we gon shine forever

[Verse: kuru]
I swear you're all the same but I still got too much to say 
I go 180 on the freeway I might have to pray
Got my heart broke like Otonashi now I stay astray
No matter what the fuck they on I'll always stay the same

[Outro: miraie & kuru]
I swear you're all sum fake can you please get the fuck away
Devils are in my head I lost counts on the days I pray
Hell or heaven when I die this shit gon stay the same
Run your mouth like all you want but you gon have to pay

shine forever +miraie (ku sense malikai)

awooooo light music club!!! awooooo!!!!!!!!!

@mental
@bugbu6
@beatsbykrave

[blx]
If I needed your help,
Would you come on my side?
I need your decision baby this is not a do or die
You ask me if I feel okay and honestly I feel alright
I walk past you out the door cus bby i don’t wanna fight

I don’t wanna fight with you right now 
I’m walking home
Had something to tell you on the tip of my tongue but it’s out my dome
If I were you and you were me you’d probably be alone
Maison Margiela's my toes 
I’m not a friend I’m a foe

[mental]
i feel like im trying way too hard
not to let you take away my heart
giving up feels like a dangerous part
to play it might make me break apart

it might make me fall down
i was floating like i wasnt even on ground
bad thoughts really need someone to break my walls down
mad lots i been getting pissed at all the small sounds
need ur love if i wanna calm down

foe ft. mental (lovbug x krave)

hellooo light music

@mental

[blxty]
i can't remember last night
blinded by the black light 
we jus took a sharp left 
like baby i don't feel right
i just wanna see you 
hop onto the next flight
everything is okay
tell me that it's alright

and now it's over
i was thinking i should try but i don't owe her
and now i'm older
shoulda recognized you make me feel colder
take the weight and the pressure
off my shoulders

[mental]
its been a minute since i felt like i was in love
cant confess its too hard for me to speak up
hate me more than any one u think of
i dont wanna be me why they wanna be us

dont think that i bleed enough
for my mistakes
every single promise that u made
u love to break
ya im hurt but ima act okay
lay on the pavement
look at me i glance away
dont wanna face it

i can feel the tears i try not to cry
wasted all my time why do i even try
said that i was fine but rly its a lie
hate it when we fight
wish it was alright

im not even started but i feel like being done
and maybe its my fault that i end up feeling dumb
u got caught up in ur pride wish this wasnt how it was
i got lost inside my mind i just cant stop feeling numb

alright ft. mental (mental)

@victxrw
@chrxmey

victor:
your choice
your thoughts
your heart
frozen in time need a restart

tall tale
ill play 
my part
its so dark, its so dark

yeah i try and i try to make everything right
and i lie awake, every single night
i cant fucking take every single thing i like
but i clench my fist and just say that im alright

meeeee:
i hate to face the consequences
its hard to fight but theres nothing i can do
my heart is broke in 2
feelings i never felt for u

victor again:
ive never felt this way inside my head
i feel so lonely
hold me close and hold me tight
you are my one and only

you hate then love me just pick a side
berate me or hold me you decide

cause its your choice
your thoughts
your heart
frozen in time need a restart

tall tale
ill play 
my part
its so dark, its so dark

restart w/ victxrw (chromey)

@angelicxmei
@resolve1k

[arid]
i dont want to have an equal opposite reaction
u know it happened
theres too much damage to cover the things i lost
back then
everything collapsed in
couldnt manage how everything went wrong
everything i say
u heard it all then u threw it all away
i know i let my feelings break
i do it often and its ok

[angelicxmei]
take the blame
never say that u know me well
break the boundries that ive set
i see how u play
throw words to the wind
i wont catch what u say
its all lost i wont win
same shit happens again

everything is toring me away
im insane
im wating till the sorrow go away
so i remain
meeeii
bloody stains are on my neck
nobody seem to understand

collapse w/ mei (inno)

Blokino

i want my shirt back +8485 (lilac + winter)

https://open.spotify.com/track/6PDebqHSQ1GztmM2y1O0wa?si=L2cUSHRFSNCWJQ9Jd4ZQ0A

close my hands like amen 
i dont pray to god i pray for payments
never-needed demon like satan
sacrifice myself to paimon

i was walking by myself some shit i usually do 
why would anybody wanna walk the way i do
nothing true
guess im just fucking screwed
why do i see this thru
why would anybody wanna walk the way i do

im blessed that im nothing left 
i could write it on my chest with no ink it's red
am i ready to fall for them
my darkest truths
inside its you outside i lose
my mind: not bound by time
and the way that i lie 
its a fucking crime
i can only stay true when im splitting in two
cause theres only one glue when im apart its true

taste the rain its like wine
u get urs ill keep mine
cause sumtimes i would cry
itll wash off just like bye

fall has come and gone again
i was left without a friend
paint by number comprehend
the things i draw and recommend cause

i was walking by myself some shit i usually do 
why would anybody wanna walk the way i do
nothing true
guess im just fucking screwed
why do i see this thru
why would anybody wanna walk the way i do (x2)

alright ft. mental (mental)

blxty

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