performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

[mental]
i could never hate u
doesnt matter what u do
i know that u hate me
usually i hate me too
tired of complaining
but idk what else to do
tired of explaining
every wrong move i choose

feels like ive lost every reason
nobody else to believe in
think ive got too many secrets
so i keep sleeping and dreaming
that once for a change i could feel something else
and it pains me to stay with the cards ive been dealt
i could keep moving forwards and look for some help
but id rather exist with just u and myself <3

[blxty]
so bby tell me what hits harder den my words
i'm sick n tired of explaining so u first
i still cant find it so i cant tell u my worth
so bby would tell me would u feel the same..
if u were hurt
Like wud it work?
wud u find me useful?
or wud i b like dirt?
and maybe it's just a process
One that i can not process
bang my head n the wall
and u wont tell me i lost it
pls jus tell me i lost it

https://open.spotify.com/album/5dkyRFb1yJPEI0MDEtQi8v?si=7obS22PkQE-X6LH4oxsTHA

after you feat blxty

[kite]
faded in black dissappear out of sight
left it all behind it makes the day too bright 
u were the last u were the first 
made it all worst this is the life i chose
no one can make it right
can someone put me out my life
i cannot even make a scene
i cannot even see thru this screen

just like that im in my head
i-i
just like that im in my head

sticky in my veins
everything turned horrible
4 no reason u took me for the worse
blood just drips 
ion wanna hear
ill never change i took it for a steer

感情なんてどこにもないの

in my head ft. tropes (prod. 6houl x guami)

on all platforms!!
@k4rson
yea i knew that u would lie
bitch i feel like u jus never rlly tried
howd i let this happen so many damn times
but whatchu know abt ur friends hitting my line 👀
and ive been feelin suicide 
spinnin in a cycle 
i just keep my eyes closed
and u know that i been chillin now
did this shit all by myself
this shit aint even worth the help

i know u w/ karson (shinju & cutspace)

@yureiclub
prod. me (obviously) 
lyrics:
 I don’t rlly wanna chat, I’ll leave a  message 
Playing games with my head will leave me restless
See me with my new friends, and we flexin
Don’t hit me with a FaceTime only textin x2

I don’t need ur help with nothing
I needed u more, you were something
You’re all by urself, thoughts lusting
Fucked up so bad, can’t trust me

I can’t let go and it seems 
I still see you in my dreams 
craving your love, let me bleed
this is all just what I need x2

I don’t rlly wanna chat, I’ll leave a  message 
Playing games with my head will leave me restless
See me with my new friends, and we flexin
Don’t hit me with FaceTimes only textin x2

restless

blxty + emotionals - on god (waifu yugen)

hellooo light music

@mental

[blxty]
i can't remember last night
blinded by the black light 
we jus took a sharp left 
like baby i don't feel right
i just wanna see you 
hop onto the next flight
everything is okay
tell me that it's alright

and now it's over
i was thinking i should try but i don't owe her
and now i'm older
shoulda recognized you make me feel colder
take the weight and the pressure
off my shoulders

[mental]
its been a minute since i felt like i was in love
cant confess its too hard for me to speak up
hate me more than any one u think of
i dont wanna be me why they wanna be us

dont think that i bleed enough
for my mistakes
every single promise that u made
u love to break
ya im hurt but ima act okay
lay on the pavement
look at me i glance away
dont wanna face it

i can feel the tears i try not to cry
wasted all my time why do i even try
said that i was fine but rly its a lie
hate it when we fight
wish it was alright

im not even started but i feel like being done
and maybe its my fault that i end up feeling dumb
u got caught up in ur pride wish this wasnt how it was
i got lost inside my mind i just cant stop feeling numb

alright ft. mental (mental)

arid - for U (skunc + nesa) #us

@victxrw
@chrxmey

victor:
your choice
your thoughts
your heart
frozen in time need a restart

tall tale
ill play 
my part
its so dark, its so dark

yeah i try and i try to make everything right
and i lie awake, every single night
i cant fucking take every single thing i like
but i clench my fist and just say that im alright

meeeee:
i hate to face the consequences
its hard to fight but theres nothing i can do
my heart is broke in 2
feelings i never felt for u

victor again:
ive never felt this way inside my head
i feel so lonely
hold me close and hold me tight
you are my one and only

you hate then love me just pick a side
berate me or hold me you decide

cause its your choice
your thoughts
your heart
frozen in time need a restart

tall tale
ill play 
my part
its so dark, its so dark