produced by taylor morgan

[blxty]
do you feel good?
i don’t really want this till’ it feels right
take a knife stab it straight through my third eye
everything was fine till I said- ugh.
everything was fine till I said
do you feel good?
i don’t really want this till’ it feels right
take a knife stab it straight through my third eye
everything was fine till I said- ugh.
everything was fine till I said

[mental]
i don’t wanna care, but I’m always bothered
i feel like I’m awkward, running out of options
everyday I wake up, feeling like I’m lost inside
and it hurts me every time I watch you cry
i don’t care though, I feel like this all the time
i don’t wanna run away I think I lost my (ugh)
i don’t wanna run away I think I lost my mind
i don’t wanna run away but I can’t watch us fight
tell me why you don’t care
when I openly stare, does it hurt?
‘cause you make me feel like I’m so much worse
you make me feel like it’s so much worse
and I don’t like it when we kiss
it’s like I’m floating off this bridge
it makes me vomit, makes me sick
i think you’re honestly my shit

[blxty]
i wish I was dead
i’m not better off alive
take it how you want
it just makes me cry
i can’t talk to you
i hate it when you’re fried
used to show me love
but now you tell me lies

it’s just I don’t wanna do it
everyday I’m talkin’ to you I just lose it
take some medicine but it all feels useless
(take some medicine but it all feels useless)

do you feel good?
i don’t really want this till’ it feels right
take a knife stab it straight through my third eye
everything was fine till I said- ugh.
everything was fine till I said
do you feel good?
i don’t really want this till’ it feels right
take a knife stab it straight through my third eye
everything was fine till I said- ugh.
everything was fine till I said

medicine +mental

produced by negativecreeper & guardiangel
art by @cryinggsilence

@i9bonsai
@kggn
@negativecreeper
@guardiangelll

[blx]
no no
im at my brink im like no no
i been sinking im like no no
i dont know where to go go
im like waves ya im one with the fluid
i dont wanna do it anymore i cant do it
i do what i want ya dont look at me stupid
i tell them to move it well they're going to fucking move it
i told them to love me well they're going to fucking love me
how am i gonna get my point across ur acting like a dummy
oh he acting funny wrap him up justt like a mummy
and i said she looking stunning when im with her it is sunny
go go (go go)
said she wanna love me i told her that i dont need that
go go (go go)
she told me she love me i told her that she dont mean that.

[i9bonsai]
leave me in the cold i dont wanna go out。。
anymore but i know that i dont want to stay around,, anymore
n i dont want to b bound by the chains n the words n the sounds ::
yh its time t forget it then (・・;)ゞ
i dnt wna pretend:: i cant let u in

goin t to the road。。 can u let it end?
if i stay around its a never ending mess
its not enough,, we just needa c it less
its a mess 2much with tht excess

cut tht off,, :: (・人・)

[ku]
go go
go go
wipe my tears as u leave me in the cold
im on some stuff that u aint heard of movin slow
whts the big deal im messed up dont u know
this
hopeless
focus
on my eyes
we’re almost there
psychosis
i did evrything i cld but its all bogus
all tht stuff u put on me w/o a notice
feel the addy in my stomach got me so sick
its clear u rnt tht so tell me why im homesick
feel the walls theyre closin in im claustrophobic

no no ft. i9bonsai & kuru

performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

can i tell you a lie?
or some sh*t that i can't hide anymore
i told her i was fine
i kept it all inside of my core
you send shivers down my spine
howd i make it out alive? i don't know
act like you don't see me cry
things can't be the way they were before

if i could turn back time
id tell another lie

"we never loved eachother"
so why'd you pull me closer?
i made it through the summer
remember last october?
told me we'd be forever
but that won't give me closure
i had to crop you out the picture
i know that it's over
so why can't you accept it?
i told you that i get it
i don't know your intentions
so bring me to my senses
you knew that once it ended
you couldn't have my friendship
its just part of acceptance
i thought that you would get it

i should've known love is expensive
i'm tired of all the f*cking screaming i get it i know
and i think i'll leave a message
man everything that she says it just hits hard at home
told you that i am sorry
I am not, girl my heart's just rot
so my head's just thoughts of you and i cant think
i cant breath i cant sleep

another lie feat blxty

#RESTORED

@kggn @sjr-beats @user-882451933
📸@twikipedia

u dont love me baby are u sure?
take these mellys till my tummy hurt
i remember i was never heard
now they flocking to me like a bird
check my pulse ya just like a nurse
make it pop ya just like a nerve
never first i was always third
shawty how im supposed to take ur word

do it wrong, all i do is do it wrong do it wrong
take ur problems break them all in half 
and now i'm moving wrong (i'm moving wrong)
only wanna come back when i'm moving on
see u round the corner who u snooping on
look me in my eyes i dont wanna sign off
i cant love u i dont wanna lie ugh
if i like it then im gonna buy ya
tell me how am i supposed to make it right ugh

i was never first i was always last
i wanna go back i wanna go back
make me feel so hurt make me feel so mad
she gonna make me crash my heart has a crack
we was supposed to last
my heart broke u wont take me in one piece
already dead swear 2 god i'm a mummy
built this from ground up and burn me to nothing
i wont lie i miss you, and i know that you don't
is it wrong if i love? cus im falling in love
and enough is enough i'm calling ur bluff
why are you so rough why am i still here

pulse (kuru sjr 23)

@pyu
@1luvpurp

you could give me one more kiss
i feel like a piece of shit
i wish i didn’t exist
i would touch your fingertips
hold them til my body slips
hold you til i wanna live
hold you till you’re gone again
i wish i was really fine
i wish i could go a day and night without missing your eyes
i wish i could show you that there’s still light on the other side
i wish i could fall into your lies and trust you every time

i wish you would leave me alone
never make me feel at home
i miss being something whole
i wish i could be a ghost
never missed me anyways, i try but i still feel so dull
i wish i could, i wish i could be a ghost
but i guess thats typical
i feel so invisible
i mistook a broken heart for you being invincible
we’re back at the part again where i’m bit by the winter cold
we’re back at the start again but this time my heart isn’t yours

until ur gone prod meta & luvpurp

lyrics: 

bae, whatchu really see?
is it really me?
i tried to cover up
everything that makes me hate myself
y cant u luv someone else?
i can feel it start 2 melt
under canopies of fake facades
i cant bleed another drop
pls just leave, im not ur god
i can feel the squeeze of ur jaws

(from ur jaws)
(beauty in the open seas)
(from the jaws of a enemy)
(feel the teeth bury deep in me)

u ask me what is wrong between u and i
where do i begin?
inside the belly of a monster
let me in
no way 2 stop her
theres no innocence
desolation of a human
this rotten skin

(let me in)

bae, whatchu really see?
is it really me?
i tried to cover up
everything that makes me hate myself
y cant u luv someone else?
i can feel it start 2 melt
under canopies of fake facades
i cant bleed another drop
pls just leave im not ur god
i can feel the squeeze of ur jaws

(from ur jaws)
(from ur jaws)
(from ur jaws)

prod me
ty @pay for the help on this song

humandesolation

@closr18

i know its hard to see the tears here on a black shirt
all ur words hurt like a fractured bone
treating me dumb like I didn't know the answer
wanted u to think I was the only one
in my life
threw it all behind just to see u cry
tried to look back it was me behind
look me in the eyes I cant even try
its not the same i was always broken
I don't feel the pain I got ibuprofen
tell me what to say all the words you've chosen
laying here like I haven't awoken
tried to run and leave me how?
ur words have the safest sound
grab my hand trust me like I figured it out
don't know the plan cant wait for it to turn all around

Ibuprofen (closr)

red panda red panda
imma need all the apples like red panda
sit down when i stand up just like red panda
put my hands in the air like a red panda
yeah i swear im sensing something
spend this all on nothing
imma need my apples
or i'm feeling grumpy
wrap him up like a dumpling
feel my heart it's thumping
my beats they be bumping
i'm up like i'm jumping
i'm up like i'm jumping for real
if i did you how you did me
how would you feel like for real
then don't do me wrong
i been with my bros like a red panda
what da hell you on
i got new margiela on
i don't think we'll be here long
red panda red panda
i was in la with delta sipping on some fanta
chillin with sandy and rana trip down to atlanta
they want handouts like im santa
i can't hangout with a random
tell mental lets go lets go
hit up eli hit up keith i hit up all my bros
we're all red pandas throw our hands up
jumping at the show
i'm like a seed if i drink water then i'm gonna grow
like is this thing on
he can't be like me
he can't be what i'm on
he be hating over twitter but he sing my songs
i'm seeing rojo like red panda might do something wrong