performed, written, & produced by me @mental

I think you're my most beautiful secret.

There's a hole where my heart is. I mean, where my heart was. Been there since it started, it's gotta be karma. And I know that I could never love myself, from the trauma. Even if they try to comfort me I know I'm the problem. Tell me why.

I broke my own heart again and fixed it by myself. And I stopped it but it starts again, I'm never feeling well. Can you send me down to hell please? Cause I'm scared I'm not healthy. Don't know how to make it feel alright. I told you a thousand times but you can't get it through your brain. Told you that I hate you but you went up and you got away. I wish you would ago away. I don't want to see your face. I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE. ANYWHERE. NOT YOUR NAME EITHER

Tell Me Why

tell me whyy

#RESTORED

@kggn @sjr-beats @user-882451933
📸@twikipedia

u dont love me baby are u sure?
take these mellys till my tummy hurt
i remember i was never heard
now they flocking to me like a bird
check my pulse ya just like a nurse
make it pop ya just like a nerve
never first i was always third
shawty how im supposed to take ur word

do it wrong, all i do is do it wrong do it wrong
take ur problems break them all in half 
and now i'm moving wrong (i'm moving wrong)
only wanna come back when i'm moving on
see u round the corner who u snooping on
look me in my eyes i dont wanna sign off
i cant love u i dont wanna lie ugh
if i like it then im gonna buy ya
tell me how am i supposed to make it right ugh

i was never first i was always last
i wanna go back i wanna go back
make me feel so hurt make me feel so mad
she gonna make me crash my heart has a crack
we was supposed to last
my heart broke u wont take me in one piece
already dead swear 2 god i'm a mummy
built this from ground up and burn me to nothing
i wont lie i miss you, and i know that you don't
is it wrong if i love? cus im falling in love
and enough is enough i'm calling ur bluff
why are you so rough why am i still here

pulse (kuru sjr 23)

@tekea

i tell my bru lock in 
   im n the coupe hop nat shit 
   once tht doors locking 
   i kno she wna b intimate 
   need my money infinite 
   u dnt know how bad it’s been 
   tells me tht she will b back 
   but girl my patience’s running thin 

   r we gone n the wind 
   will the truth b unveiled 
   u want space , i want you 
   i just pray we prevail
   bend the knee 
   made u hail
   why his bitch biting nails 
   put a shell n his flesh 
   get him dead fuck a snail

   spread ur wings fly far 
   blonde hairs in my hand 
   start to break apart
   i could stay nailed down 
   or i could play my cards 
   is it you ?? is it me ???
   tht will break our hearts

   staring in the mirror 
   i dnt recognize myself 
  u   made me feel a feeling
   tht i never wished i felt 
   u dnt wna move to brisbane
   leave it all bhind 
   shes been living in my head 
   n iv been losing track of time 

   drugged up dreams about numbers 
   days passing 
   since the time we were lovers
   cry every night 
   bloody tears on my covers
   id die in the light 
   so my face remains covered

   die 
   die 4 my lover 
   she not my bitch who is this 
   had 2 CrushhHer
  why did u lie ??
  crucified under thunder 
   lines on my wrist 
   liking pics up on tumblr 

   b my only 1 
   imma kill them off till its only Us
   uve been ripping me apart 
   i hope its just 4 fun
   trna have u in my arms 
   but i jus feel jealous 

   feelings on the ground 
   so unlike me 
   teardrops on the page tht wre writing
   fight until  i have u beside me 
   she said b strong 
   hope u know tht im trying 

   pleas unwire me 
   i was coiled up 
   lab vests 
   body parts in a broiler
   gun aimed at myself 
   shoot, magnolia 
   kisses & a veil 
  u wont kno wht i told her

   staring n the mirror , 
   i dnt recognize myself
   uu made me feel a feeling 
   tht i wished i nvr felt 
   u dnt wna move to Brisbane??
   leave it all bhind
   shes been living n my head 
   n iv been losing track of time

music video

myself Prod Tekea

prod @yumenikki

this song is from summer 2024 during a very difficult period in my life. i am doing much better now. thank you for listening!

lyrics:

i cant stay awake
perc got me delayed
racing cars down interstate
money in my paypal
i dont wanna wait
u make me feel safe
i can never leave this place
nothing left to say now

u dont really get me
like u never met me
want you to forget me
why would you not let me
i just wanna let go
numb my head wit benzos
i thought we were friends tho
u thought wed be friends no

i stare at the wall now
i forget my thoughts now
i do what i want now
i just wanna fall down
i just wanna lay down
want you at my place now
in the bed im facedown
want u in my face now

nod off in the greyhound
in another place now
i dont wanna go back
i hate to be home now
girl i want you here now
didnt wanna leave you
i just wanna see you
i just wanna feel u

i just dont fuck with this
i smoke gas in the crib
she dont like how i live
ill put u on the list
jus popped it out the blister
i dont want to be fixed
u were my favorite kiss
so why do i feel different

i stay up i dont know my limits
crushing pills up i wan feel it instant
yuh, way too fucked up i cant listen
put the black tar on foil, lighter, flick it

it had me fucked up but i miss it
i was living with you it was prison
you were doing it with me, decision
i didnt wan be in love so i fixed it

come get me prod. freger

Produced By @pyu
Me VS Me ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤxx
join the dynasty server ^_^ discord.gg/n2E25Ztx3x

lyrics;
when u hear xo its gna be a hit
they ask where i been;i had to tell em i been out the mix
i put undercover on you, matching bracelets covering our wrists
iv been off the pills, i cant take emm; ya they make me siiick

u keep it real meanwhile im in a dream :P
my dream girl, ur voice been replaying on repeat
a different view, ur the only one that gets to me
take u to the mall, pick out wat u want, its all on me!

everything i couldnt get b4, now u got it
if u want dior then we could get it, its no problem
only 1 i see, if its not u, then i dont want it
benihana or sushi, u pick, whatever optionn

u always tell me to be strong
2024, remember 2021?
to u i dedicate these songs girll
ur the reason that im still breathing i got it all yaaaa

ilove u
ilove u
ilove u
ilove u
ilove u
ilove u
ilove u
ilove u

OutTheMixx (￣^￣)ゞ (Meta)

Produced by Lito and Tgwog

this song is almost 3 years old as of release

i love buying clothes
Might cop this beauty:beast
I’m up in shibuya with my bros having a feast
My bands they all increased
Takahiro on my tee
And dA too elite
Take a flight out to the east
Did you think that I was just finished
I got bands and they touchin the sky
They all snakes and i’m wonderin why
When i’m up with my bros feel alive
It’s a lot of them days that i cried
Now i walk inna store ima buy
And i moved out my home sayin bye
Had to dip now they wonderin why

I got this feelin it ain’t right to me at all
And i see things that always wanted me to fall
You gonna lie to me then say it ain’t your call
But you won’t speak the truth so I think that ima 
Ball without you
No bitch ima ball without you
I got my racks on my own ima go spend it all without you
No bitch ima ball without you

I’m in the back in the club with that muhfuckin rick yuh
I been doin this shit on my own so just get off my dick yuh
I’m too ******* i’m too ***** and no i ain’t joinin your clique yuh
You can see me outside of the venue if you talkin shit yuh

And i feel things that make me think that i’m losing my mind 
And she want me to slide i think i might take my time
I got too many sons that don’t pay dues think that’s a crime
I lost too many friends you see me overthink at night 

Did you think that I was just finished
I got bands and they touchin the sky
They all snakes and i’m wonderin why
When i’m up with my bros feel alive
It’s a lot of them days that i cried
Now i walk inna store ima buy
And i moved out my home sayin bye
Had to dip now they wonderin why

I got this feelin it ain’t right to me at all
And i see things that always wanted me to fall
You gonna lie to me then say it ain’t your call
But you won’t speak the truth so I think that ima 
Ball without you

requiem

prod @s1ninja

lyrics soon i think




https://open.spotify.com/track/1D9witPOcGBy5qZYmOUvab?si=1C7lEl0fSD-toVkalURSsA&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A4ddgpA1qvM7Reg6eaYP9lf

same lights same nothing (p. s1ninja)

red panda red panda
imma need all the apples like red panda
sit down when i stand up just like red panda
put my hands in the air like a red panda
yeah i swear im sensing something
spend this all on nothing
imma need my apples
or i'm feeling grumpy
wrap him up like a dumpling
feel my heart it's thumping
my beats they be bumping
i'm up like i'm jumping
i'm up like i'm jumping for real
if i did you how you did me
how would you feel like for real
then don't do me wrong
i been with my bros like a red panda
what da hell you on
i got new margiela on
i don't think we'll be here long
red panda red panda
i was in la with delta sipping on some fanta
chillin with sandy and rana trip down to atlanta
they want handouts like im santa
i can't hangout with a random
tell mental lets go lets go
hit up eli hit up keith i hit up all my bros
we're all red pandas throw our hands up
jumping at the show
i'm like a seed if i drink water then i'm gonna grow
like is this thing on
he can't be like me
he can't be what i'm on
he be hating over twitter but he sing my songs
i'm seeing rojo like red panda might do something wrong

red panda (blxty exo rochambeau)

throwin bombs in the chimeny huh
they dont know im an enemy huh
sing like usher on the melody huh
why this shawdy so heavenly huh
still be turnt in my seventies huh
i got the sauce got the recipe huh
when she walk past steal my breath out me huh
they can never get the best of me huh

i was down in the fl makin beats on the fl
i was born in the fl on the beach w the seashells
im on the beach w ur beach
i make her sing like adele
i know my name ring a bell
you only cop resale

its not my fault
baby whats wrong
i like ur moves
ur what i want
ur what i want
bae lets have fun
get with the groove
what have i done

throwin bombs in the chimeny huh
they dont know im an enemy huh
sing like usher on the melody huh
why this shawdy so heavenly huh
still be turnt in my seventies huh
i got the sauce got the recipe huh
when she walk past steal my breath out me huh
they can never get the best of me huh

they can never get the best
no respect im getting blue checks
name got a blue check
i got new patek and it make ur girl erect
bitch im the exec bite my tongue she bite my neck
neck
next
bitch im next up
yeah im next
i fly from texas to lax
just got a lexus i put it in my dex
(like its pokemon)

usher (ivvys eli.yf deyflo)

i dont wanna see yo face
sorry baby i'll be late
i dont wanna go on dates
lose my mind i go cray
tell me something i can say
tell me what would make u stay
been going through this too much
hop on a flight to la
hop on a flight to la
karma a bitch
we kick him out of the mix
touch a mic i get rich
that boy dumb he a fish
you not gonna blow u a dud
you not my gang not my bud
we spend a rack on grub
you cant tell me its all love
but you know i love you
i just hope that you love me too
will you still try to love me
after all that i put you
dont wanna let you go
i wanna let you know
that you're all that i know
i want you no more
i want you no less
big hole in my chest
pull my hair i stress
turn me to a mess