ur flowers are dying w/ sideview drive [wisssery/jolst]

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Lyrics:
I 
Just hitched a ride 
And found my way back into you life 
I’ve 
Been told a million times 
This won’t work out but I still try 
And that I do, it’s too often agin 
I think I’m addictive to you till the end 
This might be a problem or so they say 
Is it true what they claim 
You’re really here to erase 

wait!
If you’re hearing this it’s not to late 
How long was I out? Cause when I opened my eyes
Nothing here looked the same 
You know I’m just like you at time, a little scared of a change 
I don’t feel too safe 
So What happened to our home 
Just answer the question then I’m back on the road 
Does the story end with me making it out 
Or i forever haunt the ruins of this house 

should’ve just packed it all up and just ran when I could 
But I stay for the tragic part, it’s always here the books 
Your the queen and I’m the character that’s overlooked
But it’s your realm, don’t worry I’ll be good 
Until it’s so
And I’m the man here in distress 
I thought 
I’d be cool
But I’m not, I’d doesn’t make any sense 
Cause I really tried my best 
I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for you and this mess 

But one wrong step and I’m forever lost 
And I’ll be dammed if I admit you’re the cause 
Well I can’t lie cause the more that I think 
It wouldn’t be so bad,someone blamed that’s not me 
guilty trait in my veins, a Disease 
I’ll watch you hurt and burn and repeat 
Till I’m satisfied and I find my peace  
Then I’ll hitch my ride right back to your feet 

wait!
If you’re hearing this it’s not to late 
How long was I out? Cause when I opened my eyes
Nothing here looked the same 
You know I’m just like you at time, a little scared of a change 
I don’t feel too safe 
So What happened to our home 
Just answer the question then I’m back on the road 
Does the story end with me making it out 
Or i forever haunt the ruins of this house 

For know it’s good bye 
I’d rather watch this all alone 
From the tattered ruins of your thrown 
That we once loved and considered a home

or so they say (prod.drmabeats x mcx)

lights in the dark
feeling sick when you talk
was it easy to know?
is it easy to walk?
i feel weightless
gather dust in the basement

pressed in your clothes
act like nobody knows
that you made it to august to wake up alone
as its breaking
haven't spoke in the days since

i've been cautious and sober
he died in october 
he said that hes fine 
now the lights flicker slowly in bayview
couldn't face that they made you

i could finish early it could get so cold
raining in the summer and it takes me home
felt it more than life and how'd i let you go?
let you go

and the light doesn't know that im still here
but i'd rather take it away
and everythings all so familiar 
and i've not a thing left to say yet
better than watching
better than watching you pretend

Familiar

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you dont mean that 
you dont mean that

if you do then ill be be over in a minute now
you dont mean that
you dont mean that
Guess you left me with no option now i gotta shout
get out i dont wanna see you in my house
youre always under my skin make me go underground 
move south but thats aready where we said our vows

yea and then u broke em
ever since then i have been a grouch
i live in garbage every day so i dont make nobody proud
i promised that id make it but i never got up off the couch
im chillin where i lay because cuz i make the money speakin out my mouth
and u don’t understand how im only here cuz they allow

you dont mean that

i dont mean to make you think im really really bad
i had a couple awful issues but theyre in the past
i only said that part to link but i hope that we last
the last one was a robbery put my heart in a cast

i never ever thought that id get medals or a badge
while she pickin the pedals off the flower ima dash
if you dont wanna go there i wont ever come back
i been feeling like a mower i cant start without the gas

and i dont wanna be the owner of someone who only slacks
i could take you to my home or i could take you to the dance
but i dont wanna give more than that i just cant in advance 
you want my money in ur pockets oh im sorry theres no chance

out in downtown i be walkin i be stuntin wit these vans
u thought no prada on me but look at whats holdin up my pants
i got some bots around me around always steady following programs
if you dont look a lil harder u gon get lost in the sand
parents hate that im always sippin something out of the can
but they dont ever stop to think thats just the way that i am
and i dont go to parties get stressed out i dont know where to stand
and thats a part of me im always gonna need sum to relax

its an act
its an act but i dont wanna lie cant u understand that
Ima disconnect
ima log up off the net
too much problems in my chest
never ever get rest
but I need it so bad
if I wake up then I crash
yea everybody laugh
wait until like 2 or 3pm to get out bed
but I don’t feel no better 
always under weather
I don’t think a single thing will make me feel alright.

grouch (love matt x blocktane)

shake me when im drifting away
and i dont do that much so when i write i aint nothing to say
i go ghost so much wouldnt be surprised if i just fade away
i been on the fence for so long i might just go and jump off the gate
but when youre here in my arms all this other shit goes away
im sitting here tweaking off this hybrid but imma smoke anyway
my hands fucking shaking wondering how imma tell you nothings okay
the man youre dating is right in front of you but hes miles away

but while im here
ill try to enjoy this
ill hold u when we wake in the morning
ill never make a day feel boring
ill sing every song to you while im touring
ill have a drink and see how the night go
cant brighten up cause i feel like im wearing a blindfold
and i stay up recording like its two different time zones
im punching in and i dont really know where my mind go

all i wanna see is some meaning for this
i keep my head down and i work hard and one day ill get paid for it
she said dont drink that cause its too much and its dangerous
baby i know danger when i see it this is childs play
i see safetly everytime im looking at your face
but i only see you on the weekend im in a tough place
i wanna love the part of my self that lets me feel grace
so when you leave i just want you to stay

but baby I just want you to stay
without you the blue skyies turned to grey
my heart has lead me astray
and I can't cope without these compounds
pumping through my veins
sorry that I'm such a let down
i burn in the flames

you can't wait in place
and I don't expect you to
but it hurts me that you'd choose him
cause baby I'd choose you
despite the abuse
our differing views
my drug overuse
your volitile moods
i still don't want to lose you

shake me when im drifting away
i dont really do much so i aint got nothing to say
i swallowed my pride and i looked death in the face
theres a couple nights i know that imma take to the grave
but while im here
ill try to ignore it
just hold me when i wake in the morning
i went to sleep not wanting to see the morning
but ill sing every song to you while im touring
ill have a drink and see how the night go
cant brighten up cause i feel like im wearing a blindfold
and i stay up recording like its two different time zones
im punching in and i dont really know where my mind go

jumping off the gate w/ weepings (under the maple tree)

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we dont talk abt it enough
lately when i wake up
im tremblin no luck
turn my emotions to dust
it’s sickening down in my gut
life isnt all about love
its about all that you got

right
right to leave me there when i was wrong
nothing you could do to make strong
(cuz i was lost)
i cant be the one to lead you on
see me one more time and next time ill be gone

i dont wanna think like that
i dont wanna breathe like that no more
and i dont mean scream my bad
and i been really feeling real bad
it goes down to my core
maybe ill be better off alone
secluded outside away from my home

(notahero)

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i don’t really ask for much
and i won’t be here for too long
the only cool thing is the songs
you tell me a hits on the tip of my tongue
but i bite my tongue
i say all the things that i shouldn’t have
i try not to care bout the should’ve had
as long as u still love me in the end
oh but baby i been struggling since last halloween
and youre the only reason im sleeping
got your smell on my sheets
if only i could’ve turned out the way i wanted to be

i know that you hate the way that i feel
i know all that you wanted was just something real
but i don’t even feel real
oh but i don’t want to feel like that
and she wonder why my songs so sad
baby there’s not an emotion that i wish i don’t have
it’s like i try to spark my feelings but it just turn to ash
it just turn to ash

better off alone w/ notahero (under the maple tree)

if the bass drop in the house yk its a cleanse
ima keep make shiftin these melodies up in my head

dont wait up for me i wont know advance
if im ever gonna wanna leave or im in a transe
i wanna get out my bed but part of me saying i cant
its been cold start but im gettin up off the bench 
feel like they trick shottin my heart off of the ledge
so i try to get up but then they do it again
thought that felt much better
then i felt the cold hard floor on my skin
i always said it dont matter
and now i been takin back all that i said
i went out cruisin after 
just to go clear out the thoughts in my head
but i wont ever get no rest yea i wont ever go to bed fr
i just lay there and i think
april never come soon enough when im 21 im finna drink
thats what THEY think
when i found out thats how i really feel
i sink down and swallow all my fear

yea at the lake side in the village out by the pier
somehow worried still im lookin at my rear view
i thought my intentions were always clear
ill have a fencin match with all my tears
i know theres so much gaps in all my years
but all i ask is that you keep me near
and if you dont think thats just how i really feel
well then im sorry but i tried while i was here

what they think (neverforever)

prod yunnygoldz

lyrics ⬇️ 
lived half my life like this oh man
oh god why cant i forget what im missin most
itchy throat that i cant pass by so im sinkin another boat
just look at my characteristics 
i swear i got nothin to show
a lot less than most
not what you expected not even close
when i look in your eyes mine dont wanna close
if i love you then everyone knows
that i wont make it there without a new dose

yea i swear you look beautiful in every single pose
not an angle to imagine that i think uou could blow
but everything explodes when your over 
and nothing ignites as we planned
i can tell how tonights gonna be in advance 

ive lived half my life like this oh man
oh god why cant i forget what im missin most
itchy throat that i cant pass by so im sinkin another boat

whys it so hard just to look ahead in my life for a minute 
everyones upset i dont know why theyre livid
can you tell me when it’s finished 
oh they think im trippin out on the barstreet
but really im just chillin with grayson
so when you tell me that you love me
it only seems like its partly

hardly ever wanna step foot inside house now days
and i dont wanna look up
yea
cuz i would rather hide my face
and its hard not to tear up
when i think about everything i fail in my life in your eyes
but its okay
and i cant even flinch when they hit me with those words in my face cuz i know that theyre coming
doesnt matter what i think cuz im a still a disgrace according to their wording
but im hurting, tell em everyday and only thing they say is sure thing

tell me when it’s finished

all night long (official audio)

IG - @perishmentt
Lyrics, Mixing, Engineering by Me

lose her again (bonus)

produced by @metlast
featuring at @ihatepromnight

https://soundcloud.com/lottaheart/broken-in-two
https://soundcloud.com/ihatepromnight/restart-prodmetlast


@lottaheart:
broken in two
but i keep falling for you
that's how i know that its true
you say you want me
i want you too

baby come with me
just take my hand
i can tell you really wanna dance
if only you could give me one more chance
cause you're the only one that understands me

as long as i have you i dont need no plan b
tell you i want you and you say that you want me
hold you so close when i'm feeling lonely
you're so sweet baby you remind me of candy

so sweet
you're so sweet whenever you're around
i want you to hold me down



@ihatepromnight:
yeah i'm back where i started
back to being broken hearted
never gave a fuck about myself
you think by now that i would try to find some help

self destructive-
type of person
my demons chase me,
they fucking lurking
i'm sick and tired-
of fucking hurting
will i ever be better than a burden?

yeah i'm back where i started
back to being broken hearted
never gave a fuck about myself
you think by now that i would try to find some help

broken in two + restart (ft. promnight) [metlast]

my therapy
-3 song EP w sad chill out now on all plats 💚

better off alone w/ notahero (under the maple tree)

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