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MY HEART MATCHES THE CONCRETE

shivers w/ notahero [prod. artemys]

-DespairInToAshes-

completely non profit

Mastered by ztope


https://on.soundcloud.com/rgfJXSvvKTWbXqou7

the epilogue w/notahero

shoutout my homie for bein on this! @notaheroo

lyrics:

i’ve been drowning my sorrows in the bottom of bottles
she said i should relax and not to go full throttle 
baby just calm down and i’ll be gone by tomorrow
you say your heart has been hollowed

but have you looked at me lately?
i’m the one who needs a saving grace
her eyes they pierce so painfully
i see your face and i’m back in that place

they’ve left me with nowhere to go
i’ve been broken down and on my own
my shoulders are crushed from the weight of it all

and you’ve been laughing at me waiting for me to fall
and i lack the motivation to force myself to crawl
you held back information knowing that it’s your fault
clarification is shown behind the walls
a now known revelation planned to kill my soul

it’s hard not to fold 
underneath the mold
of what i was always told and what i’m feeling
the seasons are changing again

oh, changing again
oh, can you tell me where the times been?

(notahero)

can u hear me coming baby?
open up the front door
i know time is infinite
but i don’t think i got much more
my bones and back grow sore
u tell me i should fight
pain gets defied when i look up in ur eyes
sorrow gets diffused into energy all u gotta do is fight
it’s hard enough waking up
be my saving grace tonight
anxiety riddles me when i feel my lungs fucking up
the pressure belittle me when i don’t think that i’m blowing up
but riddle me this baby
how come i ain’t never show no signs of giving up?

full throttle w/ notahero (R3DQX x Luffy)

fight this feeling. (feat. notahero) (prod. jolst x shxde)

Running Away ft. Soku (Prod. Eskimos x Perish Beats)

(prod. malloy x jkei)
feat @notaheroo

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

staring at my ceiling
6am dawn is coming
i was awake all night
fighting my demons on sight
codeine got me tripping
i remember this feeling
addictive to the sedatives
in pain so i need this 

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

im not used to being sober
was fed my pills
i was drinking till the sun up
i didnt know whats real
but now its over
i didnt know my love
its all my fault coz
its my own grave i dig

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

(notahero)
just warm me up cuz ur my heater
n i don’t got nothing except the music from my speakers
this fireball burning i need something little sweeter
would u keep me alive or will u turn me to a tweaker
diamonds in her eyes just like the ones i put on my belt
i pray that you’ll still love my heart after all the ice melts
i fucked up way to much to put the blame on someone else
but this shit made me tho
she said i’m acting like a child said u crazy hoe
there’s nothing child-like bout me pushing up digits hoe
i swear to God that when i’m dead 
that’s the only time i’ll be able to get fuckin rest
maybe i should go to bed
i think imma work instead
pressure breaking down
feel like needles in my fucking head
i just wanna have a good time n u know this
i feel the energy just disturbing my solace

sedatives (feat. notahero)

prod. KAMO
written by VALERA & LEVI

lyrics:

you could have been
the best part of my day
now i sleep in
the pain gets in my way

they say that time heals all
been months since we had that call
my mind’s not free
‘cause It might’ve been me

the world is breaking apart
i got a feeling that you like me but i‘m lost in the dark
too many days without a light but i can follow the stars
and it will lead me to a place far away from it all
i promise
tell me what you want
i can barely walk
i tried to reach the end
but it brought me to the start
been here for a while
like a shadow in the night
i can‘t see the sun
it gets really cold sometimes

wondering would you still love me
all these demons they still haunt me
in these woods it's dark and lonely
but your spirit‘s here to hold me
tell me what to do
baby tell what to do
taking all these pills
it gets really hard to move
and i really had it all
i don't want to understand
the best part of my day
is seeing you happy again

you could have been
the best part of my day
now i sleep in
the pain gets in my way

they say that time heals all
been months since we had that call
my mind’s not free
‘cause It might’ve been me

i didn’t know that it will hurt that much
the day that you will give me up
i didn’t know that it will hurt this bad
but it seems like you don't give a fuck
too many days
ignoring the signs
pour me a drink
make me feel so alive
i get lost in my thoughts
i get lost in my rage
and my face is turning blue
wipe the tears from your face darling

wondering would you still love me
all these demons they still haunt me
in these woods it's dark and lonely
but your spirit‘s here to hold me
tell me what to do
baby tell what to do
taking all these pills
it gets really hard to move
and i really had it all
i don't want to understand
the part best part of my day
is seeing you happy again

you could have been
the best part of my day
now i sleep in
the pain gets in my way

they say that time heals all
been months since we had that call
my mind’s not free
‘cause It might’ve been me

best part of my day / w kamo & valera

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISMFvsAGj38

its not you its you nd me
hidden in the leaves
look at where we are theres not much that you cant see
tell me where to start i don't mean to intervene
im just what you need and not rhetorically
moving accordingly and stacking this bank roll
oh watch me dangle and walk on this cable
join in the light show its better w eyes closed
roll back in my dome and ask how my night go
say its alright tho i knows its concerning
hope that im learning won't end up deserted
properly furnished end up in a nice home
been through them nights long enough we don't like those

its not you, its you and me (isolated) [video in description]

Lyrics
Tried to fall back in love with her that night
And she told me promises but she lied
And on that day she said she was leaving me
Half my body died
I cannot lie, I cried that night
And I still feel all fucked up inside
I don't care about anything other then
You were wrong and I was RIght
You said you were never leaving 
And you said you were gonna stay right here by my side
But tell me if I were to get a tattoo would you geek over me like you did
that other guy
Your left my feelings for dead 
You're like a ghost inside my head
You're Haunting me and still leaving me with dread
You're making me wanna give up and end it all instead
But I don't know if i should 
Maybe I should ask God for help 
And he would help me like you would
Or was that just another one of your broken ass promises
But hey it is what is is
In the future I know you'll be a great wife and have 2 kids 
and your husband?
I wish that it would be me but it wont so I'ma kill the ghost inside my dreams
[Chorus]
Lately, I've been dreaming
Upon a ghost inside my head
Strange things I've seen(oh ok ok I got this shit ready ready)
Tryna fall in love with her tonight

Lately, I've been dreaming
Upon a ghost inside my head
Strange things I've seen
Tryna fall in love with her tonight

Wait hold up, You got me feeling like I'm not enough
Abandonment betrayal was all it took to get me sobered up
Now I'm seeing clearly what my worth is 
Damn you fucked me up
Saw how many guys you had in line
Left me throwing up
Couple months ago writing your name in the sand
Now you're lying straight to my face again
I wont let you get to my head this time
Letting go of broken promises, don't waste my time.

@Jackpop x @Dxnny - Dont Make Promises You Cant Keep (prod.jang0)

Lyrics

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

Wake up, I'm fucking over it
Need to let it out but I keep fucking holding it
Wanna scream and shout into this mic I'm holding
It'll hear me out better than any other person

Don't know how I got here, I don't think that I deserve it
God ain't really out here tryna show me what's my purpose
Sittin' at this screen, still tryna find out if it's worth it
Know that nobody is but still wish I was perfect

I told the doc that I was depressed, he told me back that I was anxious
He pulled a bottle out his vest and he told me that I should take this
I took 'em for a couple months but I was numbed out
I rather feel everything than feel like that my heart out

You wern't there for me, I would do anything for you
You ain't talk to me, I would never just ignore you
I just needed you, you made me feel like I bore you
They won't find a body when the police looking for you

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

spotify.

shiver. | Produced by septfree

@brecken killed this

**lyrics**
(intro)
i cant even text you
you stay in my mind, like all of the time
but i cant bring myself to text you
you say that you're open to talk, but I'm not that open at all
and i just been stuck in my mind, baby you know that i try

(hook)
why my heart sink like this
why my brain think like this
tell me why i break like this
tell me why i crave your bliss
cause' i can't really take this shit
x2

(Verse)
Am i not enough?
Don't act like you just cant remember
Am i losing touch?
I'm cold like we were in December
Am i still in love?
well why cant i forget her
this is way too much, i said its way too much

call me when you need me and Im sure ill be right here
I still want you by my side, is it okay to be this scared?
what happened to our promises and what i thought we shared?
you dug up these emotions i've been stuffing down for years

tired of falling short
why do i miss the mark?
You keep pulling back & forth
you know it tears me apart

how long can I ignore
all of these scars on my heart?
How long can i ignore..

(brecken)
you put my heart on the floor and then you stomped it out
i hope you know i adore you, and there is no amount
that i wouldn't pay for you
no other mistakes been true
falling apart, finding i wasn't made for you

i dont know how i live sober
so many thoughts always flooding my head
telling me lies and they call me a poser
why dont you think that I heard what they said

luckily its almost over
everyday that i live its getting closer
tear me apart, put me on a poster
life is too hard, i dont wanna go there

(hook)
why my heart sink like this
why my brain think like this
tell me why i break like this
tell me why i crave your bliss
cause' i can't really take this shit
no more

(brecken / outro)
put my heart on the floor and then you stomped it out
i hope you know i adore you, and there is no amount
that i wouldn't pay for you
no other mistakes been true
falling apart, finding i wasn't made for you

break like this w/ brecken (prod. p4ra)

nobody listens to me 
watching as everyone leave
ill be here falling to peices
outside for autumn to see
I cannot see thru the madness
theres too many secrets to keep
ill meet you out by passage
ive hidden a sword in my sheath
see im grittin my teeth
waiting for problems got somewhere to be
But everyone fake
yea i cant beleive
were all struggling underneath 

yea under the surface
youll find a purpose
its not picture perfect but
my lord gimme courage 
so i promise ima stand up

Its like every night every night every night i cant
understand really why
i cannot stick to the full plan


wonder why everyone lookin at me
i might throw up right off the balcony
anxious and idk how i can keep
walkin around when everyone follow me
why am i paranoid
washed like a janitor
never take steroids 
but i got mad at her
Hurt in my chest
whip in a challenger
i can adress 
ive got a lot learn

one minute im gone
next minute im next to you but
after you hear this song
you know that everything i said was true

passage (cxrter x cobalt)

I Turned 24 And Im Scared

I set the stone of the love that I know
and its all coz of you
never let go
coz your all that I know
and I need you

your perfect
your worth it
don't be hurting
u don't deserve it
like I don't deserve u

its the little things that I catch
itching till you rash
and i can help you love
don't you hurt no more

its okay
don't you hurt no more
its okay
don't you hurt no more

I set the stone of the love that I know
and its all coz of you
never let go
coz your all that I know
and I need you

ill be the light in your darkest time
let me be the one to hold you and you'll be just fine
your eyes say it all when you're inlove
the heart says more when you're close

(its okay
don't you hurt no more
its okay)

need u

lyrics⬇️
listeing to everything around me
I don’t eavesdrop i just hear my surroundings 
i wish i had someone to say that they were proud of me
but thats unrealistic i only make enemies
Try my best to find out where i should go
all i have is hope in my head
but im still feeling low

dont make me turn away
sheer luck finna fill my veins
no chance that im gonna change
horrible everytime im in my brain
affordable atleast im making a lane
adorable i used to used to think was ur face
now when i go out i feel like a pain
never thought id be the batman to bane

but truthfully im still on track 
but idk whats going on in my head
i hate when they say they that i slack
but maybe theyre right cuz im in my bed

well i wanna just do my own thing
ill write on the wall in red ink
maybe the words are coding
for all of the ways that i think

and i miss the feeling i felt when i had a drink in my hand and a hand on the wheel
told you you dont gotta fear
i know whats good;know how to steer

he’s probably making a bag
she probably misses him bad
well probably isnt true; its barley even half that

unrealistic (soloft)

prod. heyzbee & neverforever

is it sad i want to know how how bad i hurt you
you’ve dealt with me for so long, your patience of virtue
i want to be someone you cry to
but i’m still unsure what i can do
please do not lie, if you aren’t mine, just say so
our star signs, do align, but im ghost
it’s bout time, i realize, that im froze
so i hide, in your eyes, but im stoned

is it sad that im still unconscious
i’m not sure who i am if i’m honest
i been fighting with myself like it’s a contest
in the end im almost sure that im an object

i try to tell you something but you never get the hint
god i’m scared to say i like you i don’t wanna be dismissed
yeah i’m filled disappointment cuz i think i can predict
everything that you would say if ever did admit
it’s affecting my health
distancing myself
wish i could tell
god, this is hell

is it sad that im still unconscious
i’m not sure who i am if i’m honest
i been fighting with myself like it’s a contest
in the end im almost sure that im an object

object

prod by Liminaldream

blink, im 24
theres still things i cant be rid of
i think i could do more
feeling younger than i am

fell distant from my friends
things felt different on my end 
i feel my stomach sinking when

standing over a hole i cant fill
going nowhere, im at a standstill
this october, it weighs like anvils

and i could last 
this december
find my flame 
in dying embers 
find my passion
and it wont change how fast im aging 
i cant take it 
i cant

blink

lyrics⬇️

you dont mean that 
you dont mean that

if you do then ill be be over in a minute now
you dont mean that
you dont mean that
Guess you left me with no option now i gotta shout
get out i dont wanna see you in my house
youre always under my skin make me go underground 
move south but thats aready where we said our vows

yea and then u broke em
ever since then i have been a grouch
i live in garbage every day so i dont make nobody proud
i promised that id make it but i never got up off the couch
im chillin where i lay because cuz i make the money speakin out my mouth
and u don’t understand how im only here cuz they allow

you dont mean that

i dont mean to make you think im really really bad
i had a couple awful issues but theyre in the past
i only said that part to link but i hope that we last
the last one was a robbery put my heart in a cast

i never ever thought that id get medals or a badge
while she pickin the pedals off the flower ima dash
if you dont wanna go there i wont ever come back
i been feeling like a mower i cant start without the gas

and i dont wanna be the owner of someone who only slacks
i could take you to my home or i could take you to the dance
but i dont wanna give more than that i just cant in advance 
you want my money in ur pockets oh im sorry theres no chance

out in downtown i be walkin i be stuntin wit these vans
u thought no prada on me but look at whats holdin up my pants
i got some bots around me around always steady following programs
if you dont look a lil harder u gon get lost in the sand
parents hate that im always sippin something out of the can
but they dont ever stop to think thats just the way that i am
and i dont go to parties get stressed out i dont know where to stand
and thats a part of me im always gonna need sum to relax

its an act
its an act but i dont wanna lie cant u understand that
Ima disconnect
ima log up off the net
too much problems in my chest
never ever get rest
but I need it so bad
if I wake up then I crash
yea everybody laugh
wait until like 2 or 3pm to get out bed
but I don’t feel no better 
always under weather
I don’t think a single thing will make me feel alright.

grouch (love matt x blocktane)

F*cked Up

6/29/2024 now shh


lyrics 

every night 
swear i die
i cant see shit when i cry
the worst part
is im alive
and i feel it in time

i blast off my face
i just take off my makeup
u see the monster 
i see when i wake up
u love me so much 
and im doing fake drugs
im falling over and my shoes arent laced up 

this pain what im scared of
let her cut my veins up
i cover my face up
im what hate is based off
i can be too careless
im just way too baked up

7 nights all on my own
i feel closing of my throat
every day im in my zone
look at last year bitch ive grown


every night 
swear i die
i cant see shit when i cry
the worst part
is im alive
and i feel it in time

i blast off my face
i just take off my makeup
u see the monster 
i see when i wake up
u love me so much 
and im doing fake drugs
im falling over and my shoes arent laced up

deepest pit of hell (full walkthru)

2024 unreleased.

deepest pit of hell [full walkthru]

hey there you ghost, say whats it like out there in jersey?
are you even still around? i just cant check but i still worry
how you are
these memories now feel so far
its so bizarre

i used to know you, but now i know close to nothing
i just close my eyes, and hope to God you're good
i swear im trusting things are fine
im sure they are, i knew youd shine
i really tried

i hope youre doing well
please god, be doing well

i feel like tom, while i sit down and write this song
about a girl who isnt mine, and even worse she moved along
but it makes sense
this borderline, i feel obsessed
don't take offence

im just like him, but hes a weirdo, cant let go
im just delusional, i love someone that i don't even know
it's so messed up
tried to find a pill, get me unfucked
i had no luck

i feel like im in hell
i feel like im in hell

a thousand miles was just too much
the way it was, we rarely touched
i know it fucking killed you every day

i know we tried to make it work
through flights, but fights just made it worse
i know that you would just hate me if you stayed

but maybe you already do
i wouldnt know, i dont blame you
and now ill never ever be the same
and thats okay

hey there you ghost, i wanted one last goodbye
and im so sorry i didn't say it, when it mattered
i dont know why, im fucking dumb

what can i do, whats done is done
and i hope youre living in the sun
but i wont check, i only run
it weighs a ton

i feel like im in hell
i feel like im in hell

Hey There, You Ghost

Lyrics:

i'm not lost
you can find me in my mind
meet me up inside my noggin
where i am solitary confined
and 
i never wanted you to pry
all the reasons why i'm in the prison that i do reside
and i know that i rely
way too heavily on my intuition
not efficient
makes it easier to lie
self collision
my existence
need a different frame of mind
an artisan a
shit musician
is just how i am defined

i found a egg inside my body colored red covered in guts
she's spouting bout how that's not a fair and giving me a fuss
uh 
i'm sitting here like what the fuck
is that really your reaction to my stomach now expunged

my intestines aren't intact
and my liver's no better
you thought it was a laugh
but i'm dying in my sweater
took a blurry photograph
and i hit the ground forever
tried to put them back in
i was putting all my effort
yea
i was putting all my effort
sorry that i couldn't make it home was busy deader
promise that i'll try to make it home by supper
if they let me out this coffin maybe soon i'll be better

fuck fuck fuck fuck

we're all in this together
like captain could you share the map
we need it for the weather
your greed is immeasurable you fucking human trash
how i'm friends with you no wonder ended up a pile of ash

i'm not lost
you can find me in my mind
meet me up inside my noggin
where i am solitary confined
and 
i never wanted you to pry
all the reasons why i'm in the prison that i do reside
and i know that i rely
way too heavily on my intuition
not efficient
makes it easier to lie
self collision
my existence
need a different frame of mind
an artisan a
shit musician
is just how i am defined

how i am defined (prod. treetime)

lyrics ⬇️


we dont talk abt it enough
lately when i wake up
im tremblin no luck
turn my emotions to dust
it’s sickening down in my gut
life isnt all about love
its about all that you got

right
right to leave me there when i was wrong
nothing you could do to make strong
(cuz i was lost)
i cant be the one to lead you on
see me one more time and next time ill be gone

i dont wanna think like that
i dont wanna breathe like that no more
and i dont mean scream my bad
and i been really feeling real bad
it goes down to my core
maybe ill be better off alone
secluded outside away from my home

(notahero)

lyrics

i don’t really ask for much
and i won’t be here for too long
the only cool thing is the songs
you tell me a hits on the tip of my tongue
but i bite my tongue
i say all the things that i shouldn’t have
i try not to care bout the should’ve had
as long as u still love me in the end
oh but baby i been struggling since last halloween
and youre the only reason im sleeping
got your smell on my sheets
if only i could’ve turned out the way i wanted to be

i know that you hate the way that i feel
i know all that you wanted was just something real
but i don’t even feel real
oh but i don’t want to feel like that
and she wonder why my songs so sad
baby there’s not an emotion that i wish i don’t have
it’s like i try to spark my feelings but it just turn to ash
it just turn to ash

better off alone w/ notahero (under the maple tree)

ft. @devins_world
prod by @prodcxrter x retz
LYRICS
If they aint like my new shit idrc
I dont take the elevator, bitch id rather walk the stairs
to go up is some work and i dont workout near enough
And everytime i swag just know its off the cuff
I be dripped out, beyond belief
If i get rich im finna diamond up my teeth
Im not looking for the drama im not looking for the beef
Still searching for the commas, but passion is enough for me

Working all night, i got class all day
Chose my fights, and i make my way
Dark days, dark nights
I remember smoking underneath them park lights
Never had a bar fight, only been to a bar twice, it was alright
But wouldnt go again, id rather stay at home and discord with my friends
Lifes a precious thing, got me asking where the time went
I dont really care, lay back and close my eyelids
Baby please forgive me, interrupt at awful timings
Steady going up, but not scared of declining
Ima do what ima do, stay grinding

If they aint like my new shit idrc
I dont take the elevator, bitch id rather walk the stairs
to go up is some work and i dont workout near enough
And everytime i swag just know its off the cuff
I be dripped out, beyond belief
If i get rich im finna diamond up my teeth
Im not looking for the drama im not looking for the beef
Still searching for the commas, but passion is enough for me

Devin:
Big chief like im mahomes im steady improvising 
Yeah I’m pushing along but life is terrifying 
I pretended I don’t care but when they’re not there I still dream of montclairs and rolling in diamonds 
Yeah they don’t even know me but got opinions 
Cause societal norms be shaping every vision 
I be living better now, just chillin on my couch but people always wanna get up in my business 
I know it’s true 
Envious people can’t get over you 
I got what they want, lil bitch you can’t have it I don’t give a fuck so you can move on and get past it


IDRC ft. devin's world [prod. cxrter x retz]

3-track EP out now for you. Thank you for the love in Allentown <3

pedal2medal (prod. crrxzy)

DO MY OWN THINKING

@notcursed :D

it’s so cold, gotta grab my winter coat, 
I’m alone, it’s just me and the snow, 
I like it though, there’s trouble up in paradise,
it’s petty right, you live a life that’s full of lies

how hard I try, how hard I try I still gon die, 
it’s my now my time I vanish up into the sky, 
I lie right here, I lie right here waiting for you,
hold me tight, hold me tight before I die, 


you think there’s hope but the walls are just closing, 
don’t hold them open ur too weak it’ll crush u, 
and when it’s over I hope that you’ll know this, 
all that you wanted was a bit of closure 

before I die, I will write,
A letter to you, explaining everything that’s on my mind,
if you won’t read please keep it I know another time, 
all the love just dies, i dont know why i try

notcursed:

i wanted to help but i can’t get through
i’ll keep you warm, though you tell me not to
i like you though, i’ll keep you close, hold me here
hold back my tears, i feel too much and i adore
you
trust when i say i’m not gonna hurt you
turn to ice when you’re not there to turn to

keep the letter i can see the light
you’ll be alright, you’ll be alright, i’ll hold you tight

i know there’s hope
though the walls are still closing
just take me with you
your hand i’m still holding

don’t let go
now is not your time
i’m glued to you
we are intertwined 


winter coat w/ notcursed [irby]

Dancing through pain - Vails

Lyrics below:

I've been down, lost in the shadows, Fighting doubts that feel like gallows.
In the silence, I heard the whispers, But deep inside, my heart still flickers
Every stumble taught me how to stand, With every heartbeat, l'll make my plan
The whispers of fear, I'll cast them aside, Embracing the strength that's deep down inside

I'm taking back my light, it's my time to shine, With every step I take, I'll claim what's mine.
No more hiding, no more hiding 

No more shadows lurking, I'll face the dawn, With courage as my armor, I'll rise and move on.
With every heartbeat echoing, I'll break the chains,
Unraveling the past, l'll dance through the pains.
Dance through the pain
Dance through the pains

I'm taking back my light, it's my time to shine, With every step I take, I'll claim what's mine.
No more hiding, no more hiding 

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Bailando a través del Dolor

lyrics ⬇️

no i cant be here im not attached
and i apologize dear but its too bad
yea i spent a couple crummy years
and now i lack
everything i could of gained while we were sad

you cant keep up w these options
left and right you be tossin these questions to me
dont expect itd be awesome
theres not much to see

like cordoroy im waitin here while feelin like a beast
out of my mind and down on my knees
you can tell me what i needed to be
gettin so cold out that i start to freeze
double the crutches get stompped by the cleats
u dont need nothin u wanted from me
ima be further away from the scene
i dont want nothin to do w the beans
im crossin my arms when you show em to me
turnin up everything before i leave
im makin my mark i want em to see
where i would be 
where i would be if i didnt have grief
ill put down my gaurd and ill make em believe 
yea i been to places that i couldnt reach

send me a shot 
hit witta bat
outta the park
not comin back
no time soon
yea thats a fact
a big monsoon
changing the current track

yea yea i wanna lay there but not on a mat
yea yea i feel the cold air surface into the flat
yea yea maybe its all i got maybe its all i have
racin until im gone baby i feel like a stag

comin up- a dry time
double up my life line
and i dont wanna tell a bad lie
but its hard with your eyes

and you were all i wanted
then you broke a promise
it wouldnt be too classy
if im being honest

a compromise dont seem much if it already seems overwith
put a tripod in the hallway then ill wait to see if the camera glitch
got phasmephobia fearin all the ghost thatll be comin in
walk far til im clearin my system and ill settle in

yea gentlemen
cold hearts spark adrenaline 
had a bold start but you tremblin now
old cards got me holdin my ground

i cant be here im not attached
and i apologize dear but its too bad
i spent a couple crummy years
and now i lack
everything i could of gained while we were sad

monsoon (yunnygoldz)

lyrics:

vails:
i feel stupid baby that i lost you
on my own now, nobody to talk to
but do you care at all? i havent even had a call
its a shame because i think there was something hidden in the walls
a message with you on the other side
but i bury my face against my pillow every night
so was it a dream? or can i intervene? 
cause theres nothing more i need 
than you in front of me

scorpio:
Oh, oh
do you care at all?
dont think anyone does
not a text or a call
my eyes leaking floods
never felt so small (x2)

he4vy:
oh oh, do you care at all?
i dont think you do
i only hope im wrong

get me out i just cant compress all my thoughts
of giving every chance ? recreate what was lost
im cutting all of my friends and family off
the simple structure of a broken man inside of my coffin

scorpio:
Oh, oh
do you care at all?
dont think anyone does
not a text or a call
my eyes leaking floods
never felt so small (x2)

rip. 3.7:
ive been in my head for a minute now
ive been lost i cant find a way out
life aint fair, at all, at all

yeah i wonder if you ever, ever fucking cared
baby ive been in my head, im scared
i was standing here, but im really not there
yeah, i wasnt prepared at all

scorpio:
Oh, oh
do you care at all?
dont think anyone does
not a text or a call
my eyes leaking floods
never felt so small (x2)

do you care at all? (feat. Vails x Rip.3.7 x He4vy)

Latley (Prod.Cross)

Produced by https://soundcloud.com/killedmyself
mixed/mastered by https://soundcloud.com/demxntia
Lyrics:
I feel washed up again on the shore...
Said I wouldn't stray closer to the water
But you keep pushin' me further in
Baby I've never really felt this sure
But it feels I'll wait for you forever
If I hold on it'll hurt even more

I'm standing on my own but is it ok if I hold my chances?
Tell me what's temporary and what stays permanent.
Temporary, permanent we keep on shifting surfaces
So who you tryna fool right now?
If you're not stayin' just leave right now
Can't feel you now, Losing my grip now I'm fading out
Couldn't hear my voice even if I shout
Tell me what's next for us baby
You hear it in my voice, Can you erase me?

I feel washed up again on the shore...
Said I wouldn't stray closer to the water
But you keep pushin' me further in
Baby I've never really felt this sure
But it feels I'll wait for you forever
If I hold on it'll hurt even more

Baby I've been overthinking
See the blood from the thorns on the roses
If I tried could I let you go now
But the memory of you stays permanent...

What Stays Permanent (prod. killedmyself)

inspired by xxxtentacion - Amy Winehouse
produced by @longlostzim @longlostzim @longlostzim
lyrics
all that shit you was talkin
now im yo head
bitch stop suckin my dick
dont think you understand
do not fear ima soldier my soul turned to red
deadworldmoneygang bitch got it right on my chest
hollow tips for a bitch if he wanna eat lead
put that noose round yo neck if you really wanna test me
new fuckin draco came witta red beam
ion even know em but i know they wanna hate me

fuck a fist fight 
when i see you its on site
and its fuck the government they just wanna take my life
all this shit goin round ima fuckin lose my mind 
when the lights go out bitch we all finna die fuck

girl i cant feel no fuckin pain with all this ice up on my chain 
when they put me in my grave bitch they gone bury me with my name
all the shit that u was talkin bitch i cant hear a fuckin thing
and its fuck 12 bitch fuck the opps we gone have to send em straight to  hell bitch fuck em

girl i cant feel no fuckin pain with all this ice up on my chain 
when they put me in my grave bitch they gone bury me with my name
all the shit that u was talkin bitch i cant hear a fuckin thing
and its fuck 12 bitch fuck the opps we gone have to send em straight to  hell bitch fuck em

all that shit you was talkin
now im yo head
bitch stop suckin my dick
dont think you understand
do not fear ima soldier my soul turned to red
deadworldmoneygang bitch got it right on my chest
hollow tips for a bitch if he wanna eat lead
put that noose round yo neck if you really wanna test me
new fuckin draco came witta red beam
ion even know em but i know they wanna hate me

fuck a fist fight 
when i see you its on site
and its fuck the government they just wanna take my life
all this shit goin round ima fuckin lose my mind 
when the lights go out bitch we all finna die fuck

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feel no pain (prod. longlost)

Produced by tundrabeats

Lyrics

I thought I moved on, thought I forgave
But the shit that you done still stuck in my way
Tried to ignore and I tried to escape
But I still think about your touch everyday

Still think about what I could of changed
You were the reason my soul got saved
I try to find love but I retreat to the fact
That I know no one else is the same

Maybe that's good that you're one of kind
But I swear on my life you won't get out my mind
I thought I let you out but when I walked away
You were standing on the other side

And I can't lie, if you came back
With all of the knives in mine
I'd still have yours, because I never lied
That you were the love I was dying to find

Will I ever move on?
I can't get you out my head
I think a screws gone
Luna you're my last light

Look what you've done
I know something's not right
Looking for a new one
Chasing at my last high

Fuck it, I'm stressed again
I don't who you been messing with
I thought that you were my medicine
But it don't seem like you heaven sent

But for your love I'm hellbent
I'm so selfish, I want you all to myself
But it don't seem if that's it
So I think I'ma just take you to my little hell

I think my mind gone bad, I'm so sad
You think you leaving me? Not so fast
"Yo shit man, why so rash?"
I guess we all want the shit we ain't have

This ain't aesthetic, it's fucking pathetic
You think it's a trend, you gone fucking regret it
I can burn all of you down to the filter
I say the words of a mouth with no filter

Will I ever move on?
I can't get you out my head
I think a screws gone
Luna you're my last light

Look what you've done
I know something's not right
Looking for a new one
Chasing at my last high (x2)

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